She barely suppressed herself, suppressed the tears that burst out of her eyes, and her eyes flashed with cold stars!

"What? Are you scared?"

She asked him, asking him in the face.

"But it's too late! I can't go back!" she said angrily, "When you knew me, you should have thought of today! Because you were the same at that time, that is, not a childish eighteen-year-old, nor an Alzheimer's eighty-year-old! You should have thought that there would be today!"

She couldn't control herself anymore, she didn't want to control herself anymore.

"Perhaps...... You're not afraid that those two women will see us because we didn't do anything, but that they're afraid that they will ask you for an autograph?"

She laughed again.

"Celebrities are very afraid of seeing people, and they wear sunglasses when they go out! But you're probably a little self-inflicted! Seeing that you are wandering around every day, is it true that the era of the distant mountains has passed? Just like a world-class luxury car, no matter how good the car is, it has reached the scrapping period. It's no longer possible to go back to the factory and repair it......! It's okay to go into the museum and be visited. ”

She burst out laughing...... Laughing miserably...... Laughing desolation.

"Big bad!"

She put her hand around her head, and the tears flowed.

"Didn't you agree not to run away...... Didn't you make an appointment to see you tomorrow...... See you the day after tomorrow...... Do you see you the day after tomorrow?" she sobbed, "Didn't you say you had to see you every day...... Do you meet like crazy......"

She buried her head to avoid looking at him, and she whispered in a tearful voice.

"If you have made a covenant to keep it, you should keep it, and you are a man! Are you such an unsuccessful person? Are you a low-priced person?

She wiped away her tears, looked up, and stared at him fixedly.

Yuan Shan looked at Leng Yue, looked at Leng Yue with tears in his eyes and flames, and looked at Leng Yue who was sad and stubborn and out of control of his words, he knew that he had lost her...... Lost forever.

He gritted his teeth, closed his eyes, and looked at her fixedly, hoping that her current image would be fixed in his heart forever.

If 'hate' can make her forget me and bring her happiness, then let her hate me! Despise me! I don't deserve you! I don't deserve it! I don't deserve your innocent love!

Thinking of this, Yuan Shan felt a sharp sting pain suddenly pass through his heart, and Leng Yue's face became blurred in front of his eyes. He felt that the distance between them had suddenly become so far away...... It's like being separated on two planets.

"Why is there no sound? Why-" Leng Yue shouted, "I really saw the wrong person! You-fool, fool, idiot! I misread you......"

Looking at the angry Leng Yue after saying these words, she turned around and ran away, and then watched her figure gradually disappear, and the distant mountain was like a tree that had taken root.

He stood there motionless.

His shadow cast on the ground, thin, long, lonely, lonely.

*

Where I came from, no one knows, where I am going, no one knows. Who said that? Leng Yue doesn't remember anymore. It's like she doesn't know who I was before I was born, and who I am after I go, and she was at a loss in front of her.

Life is a very strange thing, you don't have to ask for it, it comes by itself. But what about the love in life? Is the only love in life broken like this? How can it be so fragile!?

She knew, she hurt him, she did stab him!

Her sharp teeth stabbed him, and she was about to lose him...... Losing someone who had her life's dreams and love.

Or, she never got him, but why was it so heartbroken for someone who never got it?

She walked in a daze, thinking...... Suddenly, she felt her face wet.

Is it raining? or is it snowing?

She looked up at the sky, and it was blue.

Could it be that she is crying again? Isn't she a lovelorn little girl, why do you like to cry so much! She touched her face, and really, she was crying again......

Why weep? For the sake of someone who never got it? For someone who ran away from her? Perhaps, it was not her who ran away, but his own conscience!

"What is the situation in the world? Teach people to live and die!" are two very classic words.

But who said that? I don't know! But how could she not know such a classic, often said?

The whole morning after leaving the distant mountain, the cold moon kept walking like this...... Thinking...... These two words kept coming to her mind, and she was full of tiredness and heartbreak.

*

These days, the home in the distant mountains is a low tide period.

Ever since Yuan Shan stepped down from the mayor's position, since the last time he decided to go to the sanatorium, the Yuan family had been inexplicably shrouded in a dark fog.

The distant mountains are like a shadow of a lost soul, going out early and returning late every day, silent, getting thinner and thinner, and picking up the cigarettes that have been quit for many years.

Mrs. Yuan sighed, complaining about herself, complaining that her illness had dragged everyone down, especially the distant mountains.

Xiaojuan was even more keenly aware of her father's changes, she was confused and uneasy, and she no longer dared to clash with her father head-on.

Even Weiwei and Wenwen sensitively felt that the atmosphere at home was not right, and they didn't dare to laugh loudly anymore.

In this way, the distant mountains have a relatively calm environment.

But the peace of mind began to shatter from that day.

This morning, after he came back from the scenic spot, he kept himself locked in the study, he didn't want to move, he didn't want to talk, he just sat quietly, looking at the sky outside the window in a daze.

In the clear sky, a few sparse white clouds floated slightly, milky white like the first snow of autumn, and fluffy and soft like cotton.

Slowly and dramatically, they change every instant, some clouds are forming, some clouds are melting.

After a while, the clouds suddenly dispersed again, and then floated upwards into the deep, blue sky.

Yuanshan just looked at the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, and it took a long, long time......

Finally, he was tired...... He lay down on his desk and took a nap. But he had a very strange dream.

He dreamed that he was standing under a window in the snow.

He was barefoot, but he didn't feel cold.

Snowflakes fell on his body, and some of the snowflakes on his head were frozen into ice. But he still stood there, like he was waiting for someone.

His sincerity finally touched the people in the room, and someone finally opened the window and threw out a note.

He grabbed the note. Because the note was thrown from the window, he saw only one hand, and the fingers were long.

He also saw the light in the window and even felt its warmth.

By the time he looked down at the note, he realized that he was awake.

When he woke up, he stood up and moved his body, and suddenly he felt the urge to take a puff again.

He rummaged through a few drawers of his desk and finally found a box of Great China and lighters on the ground floor.

He lit his cigarette and took a big puff.

He has not smoked for many years, and he has just picked it up for more than a month, and it still has a bitter taste in his mouth.

He filled his eyes with smoke, but the smoke still couldn't dispel the pain in his heart.

When he was almost done with a cigarette, he whispered to the butt:

"Moon, is that you? Are you the hands in the dream? The note you threw down is the letter you wrote to me, right? I know what you want to say to me...... I know you have a strong personality and a hard temper, but you are very emotional! I won't be angry with you, but I can't hurt you anymore......"

He leaned back in his chair and closed his eyes.

"I've ruined half of you, I must show mercy to the other half of you......"

His eyes were starting to get wet again.

"If the two love for a long time, how can it be in the morning and twilight? But these poems are deceitful! The moon ...... I love you! I want to be with you every day, but I have to run away from you! Otherwise, I'll lose my mind, I'll go crazy, I'll do deviant things. I really have to leave ......."

He stared blankly at the blue smoke on the cigarette butt, and suddenly tears flowed down in strings.

"I've lost my career for that video that was circulated on the Internet! Now even you, I've lost my ......," he choked up: "I'm a failure, I'm not qualified to love you anymore! I'm leaving, there's no time...... I want to watch you forget about me during this time. Otherwise, what can I give you but to say I love you?"

After saying this, he suddenly felt an uncomfortable pressure on his chest, and his heart beat very slowly, sometimes as if it was about to stop.

"I'm probably going to die," he thought...... "and it's not bad to die like this...... It's also a relief...... Who hasn't died since ancient times? But Leng Yue, will you miss me?