Chapter 199: Red Dust Infatuation
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I don't know how long later, suddenly, there was a terrible laugh in the silent courtyard.
After all, Lin Yuhan couldn't bear it anymore, took a step forward, walked in front of Yang Xiaofeng, looked up at him, sighed, and said, "Brother Yang, you said that the reason why you can't forget her is because she has been waiting for you for ten years. So, I ask you, why did she wait for you for this decade"?
Yang Xiaofeng was silent. After a long time, he said lightly: "Actually, I want to know too."
"Isn't it, from the first sight, the first time you and her first met, the two of you have identified each other in your hearts. Therefore, you can give up hatred for her, and she is willing to work hard for you in her most beautiful years......", Lin Yuhan laughed sadly and said: "This is a woman, for the man she loves, no matter how much suffering they have to endure, they are willing."
Yang Xiaofeng said silently: "I'm not a woman, and I don't understand women."
Did he really not understand? Or maybe he was just pretending not to understand.
"You really don't understand", Lin Yuhan looked at Yang Xiaofeng suspiciously.
Yang Xiaofeng smiled bitterly and shook his head.
"Actually, you understand, you understand ...... better than anyone else", Lin Yuhan suddenly raised his voice and said: "You understand her, just like you understand yourself." You and her, you've always understood each other in your hearts."
Not allowing Yang Xiaofeng to refute, Lin Yuhan said loudly again: "Actually, you have always understood, but you don't want to admit it." You understand her heart for you, and you understand how important she is to you, but at this moment, you just want to bear all the pain alone, so you can only choose to leave her temporarily."
"Maybe it's ......", Yang Xiaofeng smiled sadly and said: "Maybe I have always relied on her, maybe my feelings for her have become the driving force for my life, or maybe she has become my only sustenance in this life."
Lin Yuhan's heart seemed to be broken again, and it was completely broken. She looked at Yang Xiaofeng and asked with tears in her eyes: "So, although your people are here with me, your heart has always been on her, right?"
Yang Xiaofeng did not answer.
Why do you need to answer a question that already has an answer?
But for this question, why did Lin Yuhan still ask. Isn't it, she's so stupid?
By no means.
She is neither stupid nor stupid. She's just too naïve, naïve enough to deceive herself.
"I know that what I'm asking is a superfluous question", Lin Yuhan pulled his head deafly, unable to hide his disappointment anymore.
Yang Xiaofeng looked at her silently, and at this time, he could only look at her like this. Is there anything else he can do?
He couldn't even say a word of comfort to her.
Lin Yuhan lowered his head and pinched the corners of his clothes with both hands. After a long time, she finally seemed to have made a lot of determination in her heart. She was going to ask him a question, one that had been in her mind for a long time.
"I know, although you don't say it, you actually know ...... in your heart", she looked up at Yang Xiaofeng, mustered up her courage, and asked, "How did I treat you, I have already told you personally." I want to know now, in your heart, what do you think of me"?
"Hehe......", Yang Xiaofeng turned his head to the side with a wry smile, as if he was a little afraid to face her anymore.
Lin Yuhan didn't give up, and immediately asked again: "Have you ever understood my heart for you?"
Is it, if Yang Xiaofeng doesn't give her a clear answer, she will never give up.
But in the end, a long time has passed, but Yang Xiaofeng didn't give Lin Yuhan any answer after all.
Perhaps, for the rest of his life, he will not give her any answers.
Or maybe that's the answer he gave her.
For her, he seemed to be more than he was left with the relative silence he was now.
He and her, although they were fortunate enough to know each other, were not destined to be people from the same world.
In the cold night breeze, Lin Yuhan suddenly curled up involuntarily.
It turns out that she is not a demon girl, in the end, she is just an ordinary ordinary woman after all.
After all, she is no different from other women in this world. She also longs for protection, longs for love, and longs for the man she loves to stay together.
She also has her own weaknesses.
Looking at Lin Yuhan's weak appearance, Yang Xiaofeng suddenly felt that he had a little bit of affection for her, and he felt a little distressed.
Lin Yuhan is indeed a distressing woman, but it wasn't until this time that Yang Xiaofeng found out. It turned out that what was hidden under her peerless enchanting charm was full of heartbreak.
And for whom is her heart broken?
Isn't he?
But what about himself. Is his heart already broken?
"Actually, having said so much, I just want you to understand one thing......", Lin Yuhan was a little sad, and said: "Maybe you won't understand my heart for you, but there are some things I still have to say."
Yang Xiaofeng faced the boundless night sky and said lightly: "I know."
Under the dark night, a faint smile rippled on Lin Yuhan's face. She looked at Yang Xiaofeng and chuckled silently, "Brother Yang, I just want you to know." It's as if you and her identified each other at the first sight of the first meeting, from the moment you saved me under the Ethereal Peak, in this life, I have already identified you."
"In this life, I have already identified you", what a wonderful oath, but at this time, Yang Xiaofeng's heart seemed to ache for no reason because of this oath.
He seemed speechless about her.
He had to smile bitterly and said, "Why do you have to be so stupid?"
"Silly, yes, I'm stupid. Don't you know that women have always been stupid? But what does it matter, at least I'm stupid because of the man I love."
"You know there will be nothing going to come of it between us."
"Won't there be results......", Lin Yuhan said gloomily: "So what does it matter?"
Does it really matter?
Or maybe she's once again deceiving herself.
"Besides, ......", Lin Yuhan looked at Yang Xiaofeng, and suddenly smiled lightly: "Didn't you say it, at the beginning, the oath was always true, but no one thought that too many accidents would happen later."
"Indeed, there are indeed too many accidents in this life", Yang Xiaofeng seems to know what Lin Yuhan is going to say.
Lin Yuhan smiled sadly and said, "I just want to know if you will still be the same as you are today."
"Maybe, or maybe it's not ......", Yang Xiaofeng smiled and said: "People always live in all kinds of accidents, and I don't even know if there will be tomorrow."
Lin Yuhan asked: "Then how can you be sure now that you won't be moved by me tomorrow?"
Yang Xiaofeng didn't say anything more.
Perhaps, maybe he may indeed be moved by her tomorrow, but he also knows clearly that it is just moving.
Although there are indeed too many accidents in life, although he doesn't know if he will have tomorrow, no matter what will happen tomorrow and what he will experience tomorrow, he will still be the same person at this time tomorrow. This will never change because of anyone or anything.
He and she fell silent again.
The night was getting darker, and the candles in the room behind him seemed to be a little brighter than before.
Yang Xiaofeng and Lin Yuhan were standing in the thick night.
Could it be that the red dust has been isolated from the high courtyard walls?
At this moment, it seemed that there were only two people left in heaven and earth.
His eyes were still looking into the distance, and she was standing beside him.
Although the winter night was bleak, at this time there was a trace of long-lost warmth in his heart.
Isn't it, with her company, he is no longer so lonely after all.
His heart never seemed to be so calm as it was now.
Even when he was with Luo Qingxue before, he had never felt this way.
Perhaps, loving someone is a burden, but also a torture, a torture that is always afraid of losing the other person.
Is it because he doesn't love Lin Yuhan, so he can feel so relaxed in front of her.
The quiet night, the warm lights, a warm courtyard, two ordinary people. Isn't it a home away from home?
Even though it's just an illusion.
Yang Xiaofeng suddenly laughed, but he smiled so sadly and melancholy.
It turned out that he was still lonely after all.
Winter days without snow seem to be lonely even in the season.
I don't know how long it took, Lin Yuhan suddenly smiled faintly and said, "Actually, aren't we very good now, I am already very satisfied to be able to accompany you quietly like this."
Under the cover of the night, the expression on her face could not be seen. I don't think she meant it!
So she laughed and laughed, and she was already laughing and crying.
Again, tears could not help but flow.
This time, Lin Yuhan didn't look at Yang Xiaofeng again, she lowered her head, and said quietly: "To be by your side, what else do I want?"
Yang Xiaofeng was silent.
In the quiet cold night, a cold wind gradually blew.
The cold wind whistled, blowing the corners of Lin Yuhan's skirt, blowing her long hair gently dancing in the wind, and also blowing Yang Xiaofeng's thin clothes began to hunt.
The wind blew from behind him, pouring in through his neckline, and he felt his body cool in an instant.
It turns out that the night wind after the winter rain is so cold, it's just ...... It's just that in the depths of that biting cold, it ...... It seems to be mixed with a little tenderness.
He turned, staring at her.
In the night, in the cold wind, her figure looked so weak, so weak that it was heartbreaking.
Yang Xiaofeng's face suddenly flashed a little bit of tenderness. His heart seemed to soften a lot.
For some reason, he suddenly had a strong urge, an urge to take the woman in front of him into his arms.
As soon as he stepped out, his hand was already stretched out into the air, but at this moment, a frosty face in his heart suddenly appeared in front of him.
The woman who was dressed as white as snow, the woman he had taken care of all his life, seemed to be standing in front of him at this time.
Her ice-cold face, her weak but stubborn figure, suddenly burst into his mind so suddenly.
Everything about her suddenly became so clear.
Yang Xiaofeng stretched out his hand in the air and paused stiffly.
It only felt like a basin of cold water poured down from his head, pouring his whole body completely cold in an instant.
In the blink of an eye, the cold that came out of the deepest part of his heart had frozen him into ice in an instant. The stubborn posture like snow, the cold but gentle smile, the figure who had been waiting for him in the past years, had completely shattered the tenderness in his heart in an instant.
His hand, which had reached into the air, finally hung down weakly. The foot he had just stepped out of was suddenly retracted like an electric shock, and then he retreated even more.
In fact, he only took half a step out of the same place, but he suddenly retreated a long distance.
Lin Yuhan looked at her in a daze, and the tears in the corners of her eyes were like springs.
Perhaps, what she shed was not tears, but the blood in her heart.