When Su Yu was walking on the street with an empty stomach, Zhu Yuzhe was throwing a paper ball into the fire, and on the paper was written Su Mengxi's last warm words to his son. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info Zhu Yuzhe finally burned the two pages torn off the note, and burned it into nothingness with a little guilt for his cousin.

This is the most tragic moment in Su Yu's life, he is penniless, it can be said that he has no relatives, and he can't even find a decent friend. He really didn't have any friends, maybe Xu Qingluo was one, but the girl was nowhere to be found. So he could only walk around the streets, except to eat overlord meals and beg for help, he couldn't think of any reliable way to fill his stomach.

He didn't want to beg, and once he had such a start, he was afraid that he would really become a beggar. With a bad brain, he can't study or study, so he has almost no future, and without parents and no support, he can almost see himself wearing dirty and torn clothes walking the streets and alleys in the bitter cold of Sanjiu. A burst of sadness made him want to cry.

He also didn't want to eat the overlord meal, it would be too embarrassing, and if he was caught and beaten up, and then broke his arm and leg, it was really a shortcut to being a beggar.

Leaning against the locust tree in front of a noodle shop, he looked around the restaurant for a long time, wondering if they would give him a bowl of noodles to eat if he went in to wash the dishes. There weren't many customers in the noodle shop, and the young proprietress wiped the table and cleaned up the dishes and chopsticks in an orderly manner, thinking that people didn't need a dishwasher at all. He swallowed his saliva and got up to leave, wanting to try another store, but after walking a few steps, he suddenly stopped, and he heard a slight noise behind him, as if something had fallen on the ground. Suddenly, he saw a loaf of bread on the ground, and the plastic packaging was still intact.

Who dropped it?

There was no one around, just by myself all along. There was only one customer in the noodle restaurant who was eating noodles, and no one was in or out. He looked up and saw that the canopy of the locust tree was half-lit by the light, and the branches and leaves swayed gently in the night wind. Subconsciously, he walked back and kicked on the locust tree, while raising his face and watching the violent shaking of branches and leaves on his head, and a few bright yellow leaves falling and whirling in the wind.

Nothing.

This is normal, otherwise you expect something to fall from the tree? But where did this bread come from?

Well, it doesn't matter, the important thing is that it can be eaten. Su Yu touched his flat belly, and finally bent down and stretched out his hand to the bread, at this time, a "pop" sounded in his ears, and a bag of instant noodles fell from the sky and smashed into his hand, making him so frightened that he retracted his hand. He looked up at the tree again, but he still didn't see anything, and there was no one around. He was stunned for a moment, then quickly grabbed the bread with one hand and the instant noodles with the other, turned around and ran away.

There was no one hiding in that tree, maybe someone stole something and hid it in the tree, and when the wind blew and shook it, it fell down. It's a bit of a lame guess, but it doesn't matter if it's right or not, and it doesn't matter if there's anything else in the tree. Now he just wanted to find a place where no one was and fill his stomach with these two bags of things, he was really hungry.

It's just that as soon as Su Yu walked on his front feet, a black cat jumped down from the tree, which cleverly avoided the light of the street lamps and stores, walked in the shadows formed by trees, flowers, and corners, and followed the direction of Su Yu's escape, all the way quietly and silently.

Su Yu ran to the gazebo by the river again. He first devoured the bag of bread, and then rattled and chewed most of the bag of dried instant noodles. The dinner that fell from the sky was satisfying to him, and of course it would have been better if there had been another bottle of water. It's just that after eating, looking at the small half bag of instant noodles left in his hand, he couldn't help but have a sour nose and red circles under his eyes. How could I be like a thief stealing and eating things that fell from a tree? Last night, I was still answering questions for my cousin, but today I am living on the streets, and I have somehow broken my brain, and my life that I can look forward to has become infinitely bleak.

Su Yu couldn't help but review his astrolabe in his mind. He can remember the fortune situation in recent days, he didn't find any sudden bad luck recently, and now he doesn't, such a big life change, there is no trace of signs on the astrolabe. Su Yu didn't understand what the reason was. Of course, his fortune was often inaccurate in the past, and at that time he always thought that it was all a trivial matter, and it was normal for the astrolabe to have no signs, but now it seems that there is obviously something wrong with this.

What went wrong? He couldn't think clearly, and he didn't dare to think deeply. My head started hurting again.

He closed his eyes and calmed down, and when his head didn't hurt so much, he wrapped the instant noodles and stuffed them into his pocket, got up and prepared to leave. Then his gaze was drawn again by the crude notch on the pillar. He couldn't help but start thinking again, why did he carve such a thing, what did he want to tell Xu Qingluo?

Can't remember. He couldn't help but kick his own foot a little bit, and he had to sit down and rub his foot for a while, then he gritted his teeth and decided to go home.

My aunt has already claimed her "reward", and she will still be responsible for her own food, clothing, housing and transportation. The point is that Su Yu really doesn't want to be a homeless child, he is only sixteen years old, his life is still long, and his brain is broken, maybe it is only temporary, and there is still hope for recovery. It doesn't matter if the hospital can't find out, and then slowly think of other ways.

When I entered the door, my aunt was still watching TV in the living room. Su Yu was originally going to endure a violent storm, but when his aunt saw him go home, she just asked lightly: "Are you back?" Su Yu nodded, and she asked about going to the hospital for an examination during the day. Su Yu had a headache and fainted in the hospital and alarmed the head teacher, and the head teacher naturally would not fail to tell the parents, the aunt had already known about the matter, and also knew that there was no problem with the test results. She asked coldly, and Su Yu answered perfunctorily. The hospital couldn't find out the problem, and I was afraid that my aunt would only say that she was hypocritical. He had a stubborn voice in his heart that kept shouting: "Don't spend a penny on her again!"

He went back to his hut, habitually turned around and locked the door, habitually sat down in front of the desk, turned on the lamp, habitually picked up the book "The Grass House", and then he was stunned, glanced at the cover a few times, and reluctantly put it back. A box full of books was still lying quietly in front of the bed as usual, it was all the "healing system" that he hadn't finished reading, but he didn't have a chance to continue healing himself.

Words, books, or something, I'm afraid I'm going to have to insulate myself from myself in the future.

He held back the twitching pain in his heart and lay on his desk like a poor kitten.

He didn't fall asleep and didn't think. For two or three hours, he only repeated a monotonous picture in his heart, that is, the basin of water that was constantly precipitating sediment, and the sediment was constantly precipitating, and his heart was constantly empty. He has always been a preoccupied person, and his mind is always full of all kinds of thoughts and thoughts, like this mud and sand. He imagines himself to turn himself into a basin of water again, and he wants to try to be a pure person, so that there are no more impurities in his brain, only then will he not have a headache, and only then can he sleep peacefully.

Only in this way did he feel that there was a slight possibility of recovering his brain. Because he remembered reading a book in which he had read a statement that meditation without distractions had the effect of repairing and strengthening the brain, which he had not believed and had never tried before, but which had now become a beacon of light for him.

It was the only way he could think of to save himself.

There are no distractions in the mind, and there is nothing to want.

After a day and a night of struggle, after grasping a glimmer of hope, Su Yu's heart regained its calm.

He fell asleep as usual, got up as usual, and picked up his bag to go to school after breakfast as usual. My aunt was also as cold as usual, but she changed from strict discipline to a face of "I don't ask anything". Zhu Yuzhe was suddenly much colder than before, and he turned a blind eye to Su Yu all morning. The atmosphere in the house has undergone subtle changes, in the past, these changes must have caused Su Yu's vigilance and uneasiness, but now he doesn't care.

With no distractions and no desires, he is now a heartless person.

Sitting in class, he looked at the blackboard, but his mind was empty. When the teacher calls for answers, he will simply answer "I don't know". In the class quiz, he would hand in a blank paper after staring at the test paper for a few minutes, and then the result was that he was dragged to the office by the teacher to talk. At first, Su Yu would explain that he would have a headache when he studied and thought, but he found that all the teachers knew about his examination results in the hospital and thought that he was pretending to be sick to avoid schoolwork, so he lowered his head and said nothing and honestly trained.

The disease that gives me a headache as soon as I study is probably the same as the disease of Usopp in "One Piece" who "will die as soon as I go to the island", and is labeled as a liar, right?

In just two days, Su Yu was called by the teacher to talk about his heart six times, and his aunt was inevitably alarmed again, and after Su Yu went home in the evening, his aunt finally couldn't help asking: "Xiaoyu, what are you going to do in the future?"

Su Yu was silent.

"Do you still want to study?"

Su Yu continued to remain silent.

The aunt eventually sulked and went back to her room.

Su Yu began to enjoy unprecedented freedom. He had more time to hang out outside, and if he didn't come home on time for dinner, his aunt didn't just ask. The teachers no longer asked him to answer questions, let alone take him out for a heart-to-heart talk. Soon he was moved from the middle of the classroom to the last row, and sat with a few of the poor students who were playing around and messing around with the diploma, so he simply didn't even look at the blackboard during class, and just lay on the desk and closed his eyes to recuperate.

Su Yu degenerated from a strange student to a poor student at an unprecedented speed, while still retaining the label of a strange student. Originally, his classmates were not very close to him, and now they are even more afraid of him, he can feel those indifference, disdain, ridicule, questioning eyes, they sweep around on him, but he only thinks that nothing exists.

It's a pity that everything is so real, and sometimes it hurts to the heart. Su Yu was far from being as natural as he seemed on the surface, and he was far from being as calm as he expected. This is a drastic process of transformation, and how easy is it to be a heartless person? The first thing he does when he wakes up every morning is to pick up a book and look at it, to feel if his brain has improved, but unfortunately it has not. He will also be unable to stand the teacher's reprimand and the white eyes of his classmates and secretly wipe his tears, but it is still himself who wipes away his tears.

He was still the only one in the class who had studied on his own in the evening. He only did three things in his evening self-study: in a daze, sleeping on his desk, and wandering in the small garden. Because of the patrolling teacher, he did not dare to wander in the corridors, nor did he dare to wander in other places outside the small garden, which was lush with vegetation and had good natural shelter. He shrank behind the flowerbed, and was able to sit unharmed for two hours, watching the sky in silence. This new development of hobbies allowed him to discover some secrets, such as often boys and girls running to the garden to whisper, Qingqing me, once a little couple accidentally broke into his territory, suddenly saw a strange guy lying in the flowers, there was a flower stalk in his mouth, the girl couldn't help but scream loudly, and then threw off the boy and ran away.

For another example, in a room on the opposite floor of the school, the lights are on every night, and there is a girl who will read a book in front of the window, and a beautiful silhouette of the girl will be cast on the window. Then he walked out of the school gate in the crowd of students who had left the school, ran to the pavilion by the river and sat down for a while, listening to the flow of the water, blowing the night breeze, and figuring out the strange word on the pillar of the pavilion, hoping that he would remember something.

However, on this night, the lights on the upper floor opposite the school went out, and the girl's silhouette disappeared. Su Yu sat in the small garden with a feeling of loss, but faintly, there was an ethereal singing voice from a certain direction of the campus. After listening quietly for a while, Su Yu stood up and followed the song all the way. Finally, he walked into the multimedia classroom of the complex building. He had taken classes here, but apparently it wasn't class time, and the whole large classroom looked like a movie theater theater, with only a few students sitting at the front. They took turns on stage or sang or danced, and a young and beautiful female teacher was constantly guiding and correcting them.

Su Yu knew that this was the school's literary and artistic backbone preparing for the National Day and Mid-Autumn Festival celebrations, and the classes were usually tight, so they hurriedly rehearsed during the evening self-study time, and specially invited teachers to do tutoring. Su Yu didn't leave, nor did he speak, he found a place in the corner of the back row and sat down at random, quietly watching them sing or dance.

The female teacher is very busy, very conscientious, and very anxious, probably because she feels that the double festival is getting closer and closer, but one by one she is unsatisfactory, and every time she watches a performance, she has made some pointers, and her brows are locked deeper. After going on stage to correct a classmate's dance moves, she raised her eyes and saw Su Yu sitting in the back through dozens of rows of empty tables and chairs. The lights in the back row were not turned on, and the light line was very dim, so she beckoned and called: "The male classmate in the back, you come to the front for a while." ”