PS: I wish you all parents good health!

Mommy, I talked to you for half an hour last night, I miss you and Dad, Dad's birthday is coming, and my sister's birthday is coming soon, what birthday gift should I prepare? I've thought about it a lot, but I guess, you guys, all hope that I bring a daughter-in-law, but, this, but, this, this question, it's not that I don't want to, but many years ago, I promised her that I wanted to marry Qian, this secret, I only told my sister many years ago, hehe, it's a pity that I can finally tell you this year, I can't marry Qian. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Because, because, more than ten years, I and her, still have no fate, because, many years ago, your son and I, cut off love, frozen love, so, ruthless and loveless me, after ten years, ten years like a dream, life and death who knows, love is broken, butterfly moon parting, she, the last time we met was on the day I signed up for the first year of high school, we looked at each other, no one called anyone, that look, that look, what I didn't expect, maybe it was our lifetime parting, flowers bloom, foldable, but I didn't fold, am I stupid?

Yes, I'm stupid, because, I don't know if I can take care of her, So, I'm forgetful, drunk, frozen, Ten years have passed, Do you know, why did I do such a stupid thing in high school? Mommy, because I wanted to leave that school, but I couldn't open my mouth, because of this, I'm sorry, my teacher, I'm sorry, I used to be myself, I can't bear my classmates, but I have to leave, so, in the first semester of high school. I didn't rest for a few days, and finally I left pretending to be stupid, school, and from then on, when I was really crazy, you know?

Dragon Boat Festival, when I say goodbye to Mr. Hu, how I want to say, I'm sorry! But I can't open my mouth. Now that I think about it, it's been about eight years. For the past eight years, I've been confused, I'm drunk, what do I live in the world for? Can't be with the person you love, can't be with the person you like, Can't love your own person, What a cruel red dust, I can only place my trust in the sea of books, In the vast essays of the sages. I survived, and I realized that in addition to loving the people I liked, I could also love nature. Love strangers, love heaven and earth, love the universe, all things are one. In Taoism, Buddhism, Confucianism. Hundreds, thousands of schools in the world, I have seen many, many more. There are those who forget their country for love, there are those who give up their kings for love, and there are those who lay down their lives for the sake of power and wealth. Mommy, so many ancestors, so many friends, they have taught me so much.

Marx, Nietzsche, Lao Maozi, Lao Zhou, Confucius, Lao Tzu, Buddha, God, often in my ear, saying that heaven and earth are born, if what, if what, now I think about it, heaven and earth are heaven and earth, and the common people are the common people, Wang Guowei said, the three realms of life, yes, like, yes, no, yes, the years are surging, come to Beijing, a dream for three years, Weiming Lake, has become my favorite lake, where there is the beauty of ice and snow, has pious memory, has the glory of holiness. Mommy, Dad, Sister, On my birthday, I can't bring my daughter-in-law home, because I married myself, married civilization, Civilization is my daughter-in-law, Because only she is the only love in my life, Of course, in the North Underworld, I met the girl I loved, By the way, in Ruxi, I fell in love with Jingjing, The parting with her is a song of hope, Yes, that love, Let me really realize, Now Yi Xi remembers, the painful voice, The broken heart of the orchid, In my life, only Ailan, For girls who like it, I will send a pot of orchids.

Orchid, 12 years, a reincarnation has passed, I love you more, you have accompanied me through junior high school, high school, college, I still remember the first acquaintance, it was in elementary school, after I decided to study hard, I remember, in the fifth grade, the math teacher, rewarded the first reward, a thick notebook, with it, I wrote a lot of things, Chinese and foreign famous songs, learning methods, and the decision that was frozen for ten years, there is the way to chase women, my baby, the first notebook in my life, I love it. By the way, the cover of that notebook is our old Zhang's old mother - Cecilia Cheung. Huh! It's a pity that she and Lao Xie separated, Hey, Love, It's really hard~ It's hard! Remember, Ya's signature is that the sages have been lonely since ancient times, I think, Will I be lonely? I won't, Because I have the sages of the past and the present with me, And the future virtuous man to accompany me,

How can I be lonely, with my Lan'er, accompany me, I want me to take a good stroll in the red dust, [Taste the spring and autumn.] Mommy, I love you, I want to hug you, I want to eat your milk again, I want to be a child again, I miss my great-grandfather, I miss my great-grandfather, I miss it so much, Grandma, Grandma, you know what? The food you made, it was very delicious, and I still remember that summer, you made it with mushrooms. Mushrooms, my favorite, I haven't eaten mushrooms from my hometown for three years, I miss it, I miss it, Mommy, Dad is not in good health, you have to take care of him, your body should also pay attention,

――Unfilial son, weeping pen.

―― Letter to Mom and Dad.

―― "Mommy, Mommy"

November 19, 2014 Beijing Minzu University Dormitory 521 5:23 a.m.

Dad, Mom, Sister, how long has it been, I haven't dreamed of you, This dream, maybe fate inspired me, In fact, last week, Dad, when the belt you bought for me broke, it seemed to indicate today's dream.

Remember this belt, Dad, you have bought me alone for the only time in your life. I remember that day, I had just been discharged from the hospital, and I bought this belt at that little merchant's stall in Meitan, and I wore it for seven years.

Seven years, it's gone in a blink of an eye, it's been long, it's been a long time, the scene of buying a belt that day is vague and vivid, I remember I didn't know anything before I was admitted to the hospital, I was inexplicably admitted to the hospital, I inexplicably went into retreat there for half a year, I inexplicably destroyed all my memories and recovered. Until the belt is broken,

I realized, I realized, I know, fate to gather and disperse, how much kindness to remember, bits and pieces of memory.

Cause and effect, how mysterious.

Father, I haven't prepared a birthday present for you, but this year, when I come home, I have a gift for you, and this gift, which I have been preparing for a year, was originally a pipe, which I bought when I went to the garden fair last year.

It's a pity, it's a pity, it's a pity,

This summer, it was all stolen,

Speaking of which, this summer, I lost my most precious horse Ding Holy Grail,

There are also collectible sterling silver coins, gifts for you, and other collectibles worth thousands,

The priceless Mading Holy Grail was originally intended to be used to honor the sages and birthdays.

But it was lost,

Perhaps, this is the revelation of the sages to me, without a trace, to dust,

Dad, I love you, Mom, I love you, I have never dared to hug you, because you are too great, I dare not hug, maybe I pay too much attention to ancient rites, too shy.

Speaking of which, there are many times when I really look like a girl.

shy, shy, shy, blushing, hehe!

Dad, sister, see you at this year's birthday party.

The snow is fluttering, like a dream of the north, Washed away my troubles in the world,

Love Huaxia, love Beiming, love yourself,

Good Morning, China, Good Morning World, Good Morning Universe!

- Zhang Fengfeng

―― "Father, Father"

――2014。 12。 10

Thank you for reading This is one of the emotional sources in this book, and I wish my dad and mom well! )