Later, two days later, Lin Qingwan was still blind, sitting on the edge of the bed and looking at the ground in a daze, even his favorite food on weekdays was only perfunctory to eat two bites, and he never touched it again, the whole person lost weight, not to mention the medicinal soup prepared by the house doctor, he never drank a sip.

The palace doctor and the maidservants were in a hurry, for fear that Lin Qingwan would faint if she was not in good health, and that Chu Fuyan would blame her and not be able to explain anything. tried his best to persuade Lin Qingwan to eat and drink soup, but to no avail after all.

But Lin Qingwan was still in a daze day and night, not knowing what she was thinking, no matter who came, she was like no one coming. When Chu Fuyan came, she also made a perfunctory nasal sound, and nothing else.

From morning to noon to evening, she didn't touch most of the meals, occasionally eating a few bites, but she couldn't eat much. When the maidservants brought a new meal, they brought the cooled food down, and so on and so forth.

Not surprisingly, the maidservant took the meal and medicinal soup that had barely moved, knelt on the ground, and said:

"General, Mrs. didn't move much food today, and she didn't drink any medicinal soup. It's already half cold. ”

He rubbed his temples, waved his hand to the maidservant wearily, stood up, and said:

"The king went to her. ”

The maidservant took a plate in her hand, on which were already cold meals and medicinal soups, and replied with her head bowed:

"Yes, General. ”

Chu Fuyan walked towards Lin Qingwan's house, and as soon as he opened the door, he saw Lin Qingwan's stunned and sad face, although Lin Qingwan did not shed tears or speak, but the sad atmosphere around him was real.

He was distressed in his heart, and he didn't know what reason to find for her not to be sad anymore, so he could only sit beside her and asked, "Qingwan." I'm coming. ”

Lin Qingwan sat on the edge of the bed, lowered his head and didn't look at Chu Fuyan, he could only make a nasal voice in a daze, and replied, "Hmm." ”

She had been sitting on the edge of the bed for hours. Lin Qingwan was thinking about why she didn't keep the child, so she thought about it for several days, but she couldn't figure it out.

Hearing Chu Fuyan's voice, it was just a perfunctory nasal sound, and there was nothing else. Other than that, there was nothing else, after Lin Qingwan finished speaking, the atmosphere fell silent again, and she was still motionless in a daze, like a person who had lost everything.

Chu Fuyan sighed, he had already guessed that this would be the reply. The pain of losing a child, how can Chu Fuyan not be sad?

It's just that he is a father, a husband, and a general, and he can't be as decadent and sad as Lin Qingwan.

In the past two days, Chu Fuyan has been observing Lin Qingwan's condition, not to mention not drinking a sip of medicinal soup, and even eating a few bites of food perfunctorily, he has seen all of this, and he is also very worried in his heart. So he decided to let Lin Qingwan go out for a walk alone, and scattering his mind might have some effect.

Although it may not be of much use, at least give it a try, in case Lin Qingwan suddenly figures it out, everything will be solved.

So Chu Fuyan said what he thought in his heart, only to hear Chu Fuyan say: "Qingxuan, do you want to go out for a walk today? ”

"It's up to you where you want to go, you can go to your favorite teahouse, you can go to your favorite jewelry store, you can go to your favorite snack bar, and you're the only one. Okay?"

Chu Fuyan took Lin Qingwan's cold hand and touched it distressedly. His tone softened again, and his face was soft and unspeakable, and he said softly and comfortingly.

Lin Qingwan lowered her head and didn't answer Chu Fuyan, as if Chu Fuyan didn't come to this room, or Lin Qingwan didn't see Chu Fuyan, she just closed her eyes slightly, I don't know how long it took, Chu Fuyan saw that he couldn't get a reply, sighed, then put down his hand and touched Lin Qingwan's hand, and said with a worried face: "Qingwan, I'll go first, you stay alone, tell me when you figure it out." ”

After Chu Fuyan left, Lin Qingwan looked at the door that had been closed, and smiled meaninglessly: "Huh...... Figured it out?"

How could it be?

She figured it out, but she never wanted to get through. She didn't understand why her child was gone, and the child hadn't opened his eyes to see the world, to look at her, to see all the good things, and to leave the world, to herself.

This child is not wrong with anything, the child does not understand anything, and has not done anything that is ashamed of the world, why not let the child come into this world?

In the previous life she also had a lovely child in her belly. Lin Qingjuan suffered so much when the child was not born, and she also thought about the future of the child, Lin Qinghuan didn't want the child to get ahead, she just hoped that the child would grow up healthy and healthy, and then call her Eniang affectionately, just like that, Lin Qinghuan was satisfied.

But the fact is that the child is gone, and she can feel that the child is in her belly, little by little, and the severe pain in her body is not as good as the pain in her heart.

But she couldn't do anything to save it, so she could only endure the pain and watch the child drain from her belly, and it was gone. No matter what she does, the child can't come back.

After Lin Qingwan was reborn, she thought that she would be able to let her child be born safely in this life, but she was wrong again.

The child is gone again, quietly and silently.

"Heh......" Lin Qingwan thought of this, lowered his head and smiled self-deprecatingly, his eyes were full of bright red bloodshots, shocking. Her heart was throbbing, reminding Lin Qingwan all the time, your child is gone, because the child is in your belly, so it is your responsibility to have no child.

After a long time, she raised her head and touched her stomach uncontrollably, it turned out that there was a lovely child here, it turned out that this child could come into this world, but there was no more, nothing.

When she didn't know when, the unconscious was gone, what was that?

In the previous life, she could clearly feel the child being knocked out of her belly, but in this life, she didn't feel it at all, the child disappeared from her belly, and there was nothing.

When Lin Qingwan just woke up, she could feel that her stomach was empty, as if something had disappeared inside, and she had already guessed that the child might not be there.

But Lin Qingwan didn't believe it, she was still thinking about dying, she wanted to ask Chu Fuyan, hoping to tell her in his mouth, "Our child is okay, you don't have to worry, have a good rest." ”

After speaking, Chu Fuyan gently helped her on the bed, fed her to drink the fetal pill, and then she fell asleep comfortably.

Everything seems to be the same as when she was just pregnant, there is Lin Qingwan, Chu Fuyan, and the unborn child.

But Chu Fuyan didn't, he looked at her hesitantly, and couldn't say anything for a long time, Lin Qingwan was disheartened at that time, child, I'm afraid it's really gone, there is no room for turning back at all, so it's gone.

Of course, Chu Fuyan wouldn't tell her that the child was still there, after all, there was no more, so why deceive herself?

After all, if you hide it for a while, you can't hide it for a lifetime, sooner or later Lin Qingwan will know that the child is gone, and it will be useless to do anything. It's better to let her face the facts directly, otherwise the gap will be even bigger and she will be even more sad at that time.

But Lin Qingjuan, whether in the previous life or in this life, hated Lu Zhao, and that hatred was deep in the bone marrow and could not be withdrawn. It was Lu Zhao who killed his child, Lin Qingwan couldn't forget it, and he was always haunted by it. But no matter what life she is, she can't keep her children.

She thought that the wonderful unspeakable thing of rebirth happened to her, as long as she made some changes, all the lost things could be returned, but Lin Qingwan was too naïve.

Lin Qingwan stretched out her white and slender hand to block the sunlight coming out of the window, although it was warm, it was very dazzling. She squinted in discomfort, frowned at the sun outside, and muttered something in her mouth.

"Kid...... I'm sorry...... If you are not in my belly, but in someone else's belly, maybe you can be born safely, grow up happily, marry a wife and have children, and live the rest of your life again. I hurt you. ”

How could she not understand that the child's departure is inextricably linked to her identity. Lin Qingwan clearly knew that if the child was not in his belly, but in the belly of an ordinary family, maybe the child would be born safe and sound.

Maybe the material conditions are not as good as hers, but at least she can grow up safely and happily. It will not be strangled in the cradle before it is born.

Lin Qingwan put down his hand in amazement, and his eyes looking at the sun no longer narrowed slightly, but looked straight at the sun. After a long time, Lin Qingwan licked her dry lips, simply lay on the bed, touched the soft and white quilt, and her eyes were full of sadness and incomprehension.

The child is obviously innocent, why not let the child be born?

Chu Fuyan, who was outside the door, looked at Lin Qingjuan's series of actions and desperate eyes through the window, and sighed, not knowing how to guide Lin Qinghuan in order to get her back into shape.

"Alas......"

Chu Fuyan turned around, turned his head and said to the guards beside him: "The food ordered every day must not be missing, and all methods must be used to let Madame eat a little." ”

The guards lowered their heads, the lady had not eaten for several days, and she had not drunk the medicinal soup, in case something happened, they who were slaves were also responsible. So the guard replied respectfully, "Yes!"

Chu Fuyan glanced at Lin Qingwan worriedly, and finally decided to let her calm down, flicked his sleeves, and left the place.