When I saw thousands of troops standing in front of me, and the reluctant old man in my heart finally couldn't protect me anymore, I realized how embarrassed I was.

I looked at Bai Lan right across from me, my eyes full of reluctance, and the courtiers and soldiers beside him were all looking forward to my death, hoping to hear the phrase "no forgiveness for killing" from his mouth.

Bai Lan can't do it?

Oh, Bai Lan, do you feel the same way as I do? If you are single-minded, you should know that after you have gone through so much, you can still stand calmly before me, and at that time, you have become the supreme king in my heart.

I finally see you learn to really stand, and you become a real emperor. You may know that my loyalty to you is locked in my betrayal of you?

Everyone in the world thinks that my sins are unforgivable, and they all hate to cut me with a thousand knives to set an example.

You know, Bai Lan, I want to tell you how much I have fought against you, half because I was afraid that your power would hurt me all over my body, and half because I relied on your reverence and doting on me.

Between us, we have not been lovers for a long time. What has supported us to this point is not the remnants of the love between you and me. Even if we are both at an impasse, we are still willing to think about each other for the sake of each other, what is the monarchy and friendship between us.

We have witnessed each other's growth, both mentally and physically, and you and I have always been very close.

When I see that your eyes are full of reluctance, and that your tightly closed lips refuse to open or give orders, I know enough.

Do you still remember the last time I let Gu Moyun go, your attitude towards me? You wanted to kill me, you said to me personally, "Shui Duyan, I can't wait to cut you with a thousand knives!"

Bai Lan, to this day, I still can't help but think back to that day, your monstrous hatred for Gu Moyun.

At that time, I only cared about hating you for killing Qianfei, hating you for not remembering the feelings of the monarch and ministers, and going back on my word. I hate you for only taking advantage of me, not caring about my feelings at all. I hate you under the guise of relieving the common people, but you are doing things behind your back.

You say, did we all lack trust and communication too much later? So, so many misunderstandings, I never understood what you meant. So, so much resentment, you haven't given me guidance. Therefore, Gu Moyun took advantage of the loophole and used a Qianfei to break us apart.

I thought we didn't owe each other for a long time. At least, from the time you put me in prison and subjected me to seventy-two criminal laws, I already thought that the affection between you and me was severed.

I got out of prison, not to kill you, I just want to escape from you. But Qianfei's bones are gone, and you, you have never thought of finding out the truth for me, or seeking justice for me. You have been saying that Gongye Chengqian does not have the courage, and there must be something strange in this matter.

But Bai Lan, what I want has never been your fair words, I just want him to die, and I want all those who can kill Qianfei to die.

I hate Gongye Chengqian, if it weren't for him, Bai Zijia and I wouldn't have so much resentment. The person who carried all my girlish feelings was suppressed everywhere by Gongye Chengqian. Perhaps, the so-called worldly is a powerful person like Gongye Chengqian, who only cares about their own selfish desires and ideas, and forcibly implements them, regardless of the feelings of others.

When I went to the Windy City to kill, I killed so many people, all of them were Bai Zijia's teachers, or they had offended me. Or, someone who has upset me in the past.

I know that I have killed the red eye, whether it is indiscriminate or indiscriminate, and I can't distinguish between right and wrong, that's why you want to stop me. Bai Lan, let me ask you, at that moment, do you think that you are afraid that the people of the world will crusade against me, or that you are afraid that I will hurt your subjects in the world?

Xiao Tianzuo is dead, I said, that is the evidence of our grace and righteousness. Xiao Tianzuo roared, "Demon Emperor, you must kill her!

What did you think then?

I remember, I looked at you quietly, and for just a few seconds, I felt like it was tens of thousands of years. The hesitation in your eyes is because you are an emperor, the reluctance in your eyes is because I am still useful, or is it because you really don't want me to die?

Oh, Bai Lan, can you understand that my true betrayal of you began at that moment? Am I a knife or a courtier to you? If I am just a knife to you, then you don't have to care about my feelings, even if I lose Qianfei, life is better than death, you can kill me in order to appease the hearts of the world.

If I were your courtier, what would I get from you? For a long time I wondered if I could do so many presumptuous things because you would spoil and defend me in every way, or because I could bear the consequences myself.

You have never told me the answer, and you have never told me half a sentence, Yan'er, I will always protect you.

Sometimes I reflect on how naïve I really am.

If you say that to me, you will always protect me, will I still be so afraid, so indulged in the doting of Emperor Luoshen?

With 50,000 years of dedication, you have taught me how to kill, how to plan, how to survive. But Bailan, you alone didn't teach me what love is. Is it because you don't have any feelings? Or do you know that you can't control me?

50,000 years of companionship is very similar to Ling Chi in my future life. Every day is obsessed with killing, intoxicated with calculations, and obsessed with the peaceful world. How many people have told me that I am too ruthless, too cold, too sad.

If you are an emperor, you are destined to have little emotion, you are destined not to have much joy, you are destined to survive the killing calculation. What about me? In the first half of my life, I was planned by you, and you forcibly joined so many unclear, so-called patriotism, so-called world responsibility, and so-called loyalty.

Bailan, what about the happiness I should have, what about the innocence that I should have, where is the happiness I should have?

Survival skills and high positions have never been what I pursue, and you always think that if you give me these things, it is for my good, and you will definitely be able to trap me. In fact, I ended up betraying you with these, my survival skills helped me win the throne, and my high position became my excuse to take the throne.

Haha, you say, is it twilight when you succeed and twilight when you lose?

Perhaps, I am a variable on your path to the emperor, I am not born to love power, but I need power.

Power, in my heart, is you, your emperor's command. Is it joy or sorrow? Bailan, tell me, is it joy or sorrow?

I used to think that without power, I would not be able to protect the happiness I wanted, and Qianfei is a living example. So, when we come back again, your words of no mercy will become my verdict against you.

I've been thinking for the rest of my life, are you wrong or am I too ruthless?

The birth of the Heavenly Evil Star is the beginning of trouble. Do you really believe it?

If you don't believe, how can you give us an order to kill us without mercy? You see, you have become an emperor, but you still don't love the world, you love your power and your throne.

I saw a man who was no different from an ordinary emperor, so I was not willing to be loyal to such an emperor. You are not my king.

I have always believed that if you win by force, with the assistance of civil servants, you can achieve great things. And the biggest difference between us is that you are born to be an emperor and have a proper name, while I, even if I succeed in seizing the throne, I am just a rebel and thief.

When I sat on the dragon seat and watched the mountains of twists and turns, I really understood your difficulties. How big a world is, so many people's hearts need you to balance, and so many people need you to block.

It's cold in the heights.

So, during this time, I began to plot to eradicate those unsubservient forces by the most violent means. I am a rebel and thief, so it is understandable to win over many real rebels and thieves. When I catch them all, will you understand my confession to you?

Bai Lan, I've always wanted to question you, is it because uprooting a cancer like them will destroy the world's qi, and you won't be able to do it?

Everything is like if you are seriously ill, and if you remove the tumor, your vitality will be greatly damaged, and if you don't remove the tumor, you will suffer a lot.

I can't judge, after all, I'm not an emperor, I don't understand so many ways in it, I just know that the threat that pushed me into a corner is not allowed to continue.

It is better to be broken than to be whole, it has always been my last struggle.

Time is an extremely sharp knife that cuts off the old relationship between you and me, and hurts you and me to the core.

In the long river of time, we confronted each other, hated each other, calculated each other, procrastinated with each other, sympathized with each other, and tolerated each other.

What are we, you say?

Perhaps, it's because you pity me that I can't ask for it all the time, and I'm still injured. Perhaps, it is my pity that you have been struggling, but to no avail.

You and I are like children bullied by fate, we insist on our beliefs, even if we are beaten by reality again and again, crushed again and again, we will, as always, carefully piece together the original dream, piece together so beautiful.

Your nature has always been very forbearing, so when the limit of patience reaches its limit, you choose to remain silent. And I, on the other hand, always choose to break out. You and I are like two extremes, I did what you wanted to do but couldn't, and you did what I wanted to do but couldn't.

Is this a tacit understanding between you and me?

It's really not because I want you to know the pain of having your mana nullified. Living like a wasted person, even breathing is superfluous. But for an emperor who is worthy of a great responsibility, as long as he is still alive, it is the greatest victory. As Gu Moyun said, if you don't go down to the last son, you can't decide the winner.

You won the game with him, right?

He lost, but I think he didn't lose to you, he lost to his past self.

Rigid is easy to fold.

If life comes again, if everything can start all over again, I still want to fight for you for a lifetime, for you to fight the mountains and seas of blood, for the world in your heart to gallop on the battlefield.

People shouldn't be in a safe corner. There is so much tranquility, because there is a peaceful world, so I dare to talk about it. If the world is in turmoil, where is my happiness?

What I admire most about you is that you have never let go of the world, even if you are bruised, desperate, and even on the verge of despair. But you still want to save the common people and restore the demon world.

That's not your responsibility alone, it's the common responsibility of the people of the Demon Realm, and you are our only king.

As long as you don't fall, our faith won't fall.

The person who taught me to grow up and grew up with me was Bai Lan, the most emotional person in my life, and he was also him.

And the person who made me fall into the red dust and did not want to take refuge in Buddhism was the little fox who was more persistent than me.

Many times, I can't help but cry when I look at Emperor Luoshen. Such a person who is so affectionate and sexual, he can't fulfill her wish. On the other hand, I don't lose someone like her, I can't live, I just lose someone who won't live well. This is probably why I want a close friend in my heart, I want an obsession, but I can still flood this emotion that has nowhere to put it to others.

I was thirsting for a little comfort.

Perhaps, my comfort is not given by others, but by me to others. That's why when people feel indebted to me, I always say, don't owe me, you and I don't owe each other.

I just want a little comfort from them, I know that mortals can't understand me, can't give me the emotions I want, so I don't dare to hope for it.

This painful lesson was taught to me by Sijiya. Seven thousand years of waiting, seven thousand years of persistence, seven thousand years of obsession. After suffering a lot, I finally knew how to give up, although I was very unwilling.