I thought that I would just have to wait by her side, give the only one, and never leave, and I would get what I wanted. But I was wrong, I was wrong to wait for the wrong person, she was not the one who could understand me.

I walked out of the abyss set by myself step by step, until I misidentified Bai Zijia, I thought I had been redeemed, but it turned out to be a poison.

A Bai Zijia is the most common person and has no characteristics, but because she has been waiting for someone for 7,000 years with me, I thought she was the same person as me. If Si Jiya is the one who woke me up, then Bai Zijia is the one who shattered my dreams.

I hate all euphemistic expressions, I hate all afterthoughts, and even more so feelings.

Therefore, I like a person, so I can say it bluntly, even if it is seen as frivolous, frivolous, and undignified. But my true lover must be able to feel the heat and waiting in my heart.

Where is my beloved?

I believe that I say to others, I like you, and I want to live with you for a lifetime. But I don't believe it, people say it to me. Especially the Roselle Emperor.

When I met for the first time, I was an iceberg beauty, with weak eyebrows, but I was murderous in my bones, so unwilling. She is like a thorny rose, and like a poison, I can't resist her charm, but I want to live more, I don't want to fall into her trap.

She was so indulgent to me, and I accepted it as I stepped back, like a thief, stealing her things, and trying to keep her from catching me.

But when she took me home and left me to pick her all over the world, I could no longer refuse. The outside world is too cold, her world is so warm, no one is stealing anything from me, no one will hurt me, and no one will ignore my feelings.

She seems to be a better illusion than my obsession, even if I know all kinds of resentments with her in my previous life, I know that she is unwilling, I know that I don't have enough capital to win her favor alone. But I still chose to try, so that wedding alliance was a proof that she and I were completely impossible.

I know that she has Luo Xue'er by her side, I know that there are many people around her who care about her, and I know that I am just an unwilling person to her, but a fight between her and Gu Moyun.

Roselle, if I ever loved you deeply, it must have been that wedding, I was so afraid of losing and cheating, or I decided to fulfill your unwillingness and struggle without hesitation.

I married you, you won Gu Moyun, you are willing. And you, too, are finally timid, afraid, and uneasy.

You saw my sincerity, but you started to panic, with me, you have to abandon your whole world, Luo Xueer, your friends, and those antagonistic relationships with me.

I have not asked anything from you, not even if I have ever said to you with my own mouth, 'Marry me, and leave it behind.' And I, I want to see your attitude, I want to see how you weigh it.

As a result, you make me desperate too much. How can a disappointment express a breakdown in my heart?

Your perfect image has finally collapsed, and I thought that all your concessions and favors to me had finally been judged to be a conspiracy. I am sincere to others, and there is no deception, and you, from beginning to end, are only trying to lure me into the bait.

Your prey is finally willing to come to your hunting knife, you can't bear to kill me, but your trap makes my life worse than death.

So, I'm glad I escaped, I'm glad I picked up a dog's life. Thankfully, I was able to live without the protector of my heart.

From that day on, I no longer have Roselle, no protector, no more unrealistic illusions in my heart.

And you have taught me a truth, people, rely on themselves.

The world is so big, you won't be the only one, and I'll not be the only one.

I used to think I had to be somebody, but you told me that I didn't have to be somebody, but I had to be in that relationship. I just want to live better, so I need that relationship.

No one knows why you and I are so separated, and why you and I became strangers overnight, but you and I know all too well. You shattered my dreams, so you feel guilty and do everything you can to make up for it.

Later, you paid so much for me, how much guilt and love did you have?

The alliance between you and me failed, and you didn't explain it for a minute and a half, you seemed to have completed your mission, and finally saw your prey fleeing, and you were just a little more emotional and distressed to me. It's because I'm part of your mission. If I only met you in this life, after that time, you would only think that you accidentally hurt a girl again, but it doesn't matter, this girl will always get better.

Yes? Yes.

Whether it is or not, in my heart, it is so.

Is God punishing me, or is my life bad?

I've always been resentful, and I've always thought that I was not good enough, so I lost Si Jiya, lost Bai Zijia, and lost you.

Then, Qianfei is my last chance. I don't believe it, I can't fight the sky! I don't believe it, I can't fight for my life! I don't believe it, I can't control my own life!

Qianfei knew my past, but she was still willing to accept me, and she was really willing to accept me. This is the biggest difference between Emperor Luo and her, a jade that can't accept flaws, and I am afraid of losing her even if I have the slightest flaw. One is a jade that can be rebuilt, we don't have a good-looking, enviable appearance, but our hearts are still shining and beautiful.

Qianfei is like an extreme, calm, and sensible.

And from the moment I met her, I only felt that I knew each other.

Qianfei, in my previous life, have I ever seen you?

Qianfei accepts everything from me, she can worry about my situation after I confess, and return the jade pendant that can command the three armies to me, and she can distinguish between me and her, not to the point where you have to be a king.

Qianfei let me talk about love, let me unbridle my emotions, and let me be obsessed like a child. She quietly watched me make trouble, watched me cry, and watched me stage a love affair as deep as the sea. Occasionally, she would applaud me, cast admiring glances at me, and even accompany me on a performance.

We all feel the helplessness of fate, and we know that prosperity is just right, but it is also fearful. She and I are like people inside and outside the mirror, and I am like the beauty that she carefully hides in her heart, afraid of being discovered. And she is like a child who has been hurt and wronged to hide and cry.

I looked at Qianfei, as if I was looking at myself, I was distressed, distressed to the extreme.

Such a beauty is like jade, why can't I get the best? So, I will devote my life to protect her, and also to protect my own obsession.

I know she's not the best by everyone's radar. Bai Zijia is unrelenting, Emperor Luo is unforgettable, Bai Lan is prohibitive, and Gu Moyun is not daring to look forward to it. In my life, I am deeply trapped in these five people, and I am most willing to choose Qianfei, choose this person who reassures me.

Qianfei, have you ever known my thoughts? What makes me feel most distressed about you is that you know that I am such a scumbag, and you are willing to accept that I have so many bad roots.

It's like, you're willing to run in with me, and you're willing to start over with me. I don't have to worry about not being forgiven for making mistakes with you, you will always give me a chance.

I like to be close to you because you make me feel so reassured.

Qianfei, when did you become attracted to me? When did I talk to me again and again? Or did I cry in front of you about the unfairness, crying to you, like a child who can't eat sugar? Do you feel sorry for me, or do you love me?

I think, at first, you just felt sorry for me. The love between us has nothing to do with Fengyue.

Bai Lan wants to eradicate Qianqiu Valley, and I can't stop it. And if you want to expand the Thousand Autumn Valley, I can't stop it.

We seem to be on opposite sides, and as friends, there is no obligation to give in between you and me, and there is no obligation to surrender. We know that only one battle can be judged by success or failure.

I thought I could really wait until the war was over, I thought about talking to you a thousand times, I thought about making peace with you a thousand times, but none of the scenes made me feel appropriate. You're like a general who would rather die than be defeated, and my so-called rhetoric is nothing more than a pile of pale nonsense.

So, I couldn't sit still, so I went to beg Bai Lan and begged him to let me go to war, at least, I could see your safety.

Bai Lan promised me, but I still had palpitations, and I was afraid that the great responsibility of the world in his heart would wash away his promise to me, and at that time, I had no way to cry.

So I came to you, and on that day, you told me about your father, you told me what you thought of me, and you asked me, "Ah Yan, are you sick and rushing to the doctor?" ”

At that moment, I was seen through by you, all my self-deception was shattered by you, and I was like a joke, embarrassed in front of you.

I thought you would simply laugh at me for not being self-sufficient, laughing at me for being pathetic, laughing at me for being stubborn.

But you didn't, you told me gently, how much you hope that what I want in my heart is everything in the world, you have the heart to enter the world, and the world will not tolerate you.

I have heard the desire of your heart, and I have seen the opportunity to connect you and me, and perhaps God has given me a chance to make a decision again. How can I let it go?

I'm willing to give up everything for you, even the cultivation you live on.

I'm sure you won't dislike me, but I never thought that what I gave up was the capital to maintain our happiness.

Why did Bai Lan bring Emperor Luoshen, I don't know, everything was unexpected by me. On that day, Emperor Luoshen's so-called affection, and Bai Lan's desire to restrain me, became the last straw that crushed me.

I can't stand it, I'm going to collapse, so I choose to self-destruct and cultivate, if I really owe them so much, then I, I'll give everything I have, and give them back!

If this life can still live, then I don't owe it to them, if I can't live, Qianfei, I love you as much as I love my life.

Heaven has had mercy on me, and has kept me alive, and has rewarded you to me. And I finally realized that having nothing, like a waste, will only drag you down.

The Six Demons of Qianqiu have been polite for so many years, and as soon as I came, I put you and Troubled Times in an embarrassing realm.

The reason why reality is called reality is because it can tactfully and ruthlessly shatter those dreams.

When I knew that you were fighting with them just to get a chance to protect me, I could no longer stay with you with peace of mind. Of course I will not choose to leave you, we are not "fulfillment and retreat" people, we prefer to live and die together.

Therefore, Qianfei, this battle is unavoidable. I would like to advance and retreat with you!

I asked Gu Moyun for pills, I fought against the water, hoping to practice the Demon Dao and cross the tribulation for you, this war will be won.

At that time, I was thinking, if we win, can we have a better ending? If Bai Lan loses, what kind of revenge will he take? I am like a knife to him, although I have lost all my mana, I still have secrets, I have brains, I know too much, how can he easily let me go?

Only the dead can keep secrets.

Why did the cold poison attack on that day? I don't know, it was God who teased me again? I don't know......

In my sleep, I have seen you stained white with blood countless times, seen you embarrassed, and seen you seriously injured. But I'm not with you.

You said, "Before your father died, he did not wait for Kira Jade to come and save him." And you, for the time being, did not wait for me to come to your rescue.

This incident became a nightmare for the rest of my life.

I only know that I have failed you, your expectations, and myself.

I desperately tried to redeem myself, I collapsed into a demon, I lost my mind.

I thought that I could still calm down slowly, but when I came back again, I failed to practice the Demon Dao, and my body finally went into decline, like a river going down, irreversible.

At that moment, I regretted it, I regretted self-destruction, I regretted being cocooned, I regretted that I had drawn the ground as a prison and deceived myself.

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