Chapter 32: Life and Death
Lu Zheng was a little excited, although he was now detached from the sidelines, he could only retain his sobriety, and he still couldn't change anything, but at least he wouldn't indulge in it, repeating it every day without knowing it. Lu Zheng is an extremely tenacious person, whether it is his life in the Sun Moon Mansion or the subsequent practice, he will not be overwhelmed by depression, and can retain his sobriety in the worst circumstances. Maybe if you change someone, you will only feel that it is better to know nothing and live a happy life with your mother in confusion.
But the admonition given to him by his teacher Li Yi is not to be suspicious. Therefore, Lu Zhenghui would rather struggle in doubt than be able to settle down in his ignorance. Although I don't know why this situation will happen to the Dao, since I already know the Dao, I have to make corresponding efforts according to what I know. The only thing he knows now is that something is wrong with him.
Calming down and thinking carefully about everything that happened to him, he immediately thought of the source of all this, he was sent here by Ziyan, so just ask Ziyan, can't he know everything? So, he immediately decided to call Ziyan. But at this time, he found great trouble, and he can now be said to be divided into two people, one is the self who keeps repeating his life, and the other is the sober self that is independent in the body. Although the former is addicted to this terrible repetition, can speak, can do things, and even hoe and farm, he only does not know what happened to him.
But this independent and sober self, though knows everything. But he can't do anything, it's not so much independent sobriety, but a wisp of thought rejected by the body, which can't control and direct anything at all, since he can't let the mouth of the body say what he wants to say, and he can't let the body do what he wants to do. So he had no way to call Ziyan and ask her for everything. And what's worse is that it is completely impossible for him to get in touch with the master of the man in white, and his mind is completely like a lonely ghost wandering in his body, and he can only watch his body repeat everything he has done over and over again. What has been said.
At this time, Lu Zheng already knew that he had a big problem. But he didn't feel like he was in some kind of illusion, and after watching himself be engulfed by lightning about ten times, he had fully realized that he seemed to be trapped in some kind of loop. He kept thinking about one question after another, including what was the situation he had encountered. For what self will separate out this part of the independent self. And the most important thing for yourself is what you can only go to tomorrow forever. And there is no day after tomorrow. What the hell is the thunder and lightning gushing out of his body?
During these ten repetitions of being engulfed in lightning, he carefully observed each lightning burst out of his body, although he clearly knew that the thunder and lightning appeared out of thin air from his heart. But that's all we know. He couldn't give any answer as to where the thunder and lightning came from, whether it was because of the thunder or something else that sent him back the day before.
Under inquisition, Lu Zheng found that he had not done anything wrong, and everything seemed to be arranged by various uncontrollable forces from the outside. That is to say, there is an external force that constantly pulls him back to this same starting point. There is no way for him to go all the way to the future. But if this is the case, the external force is too strong to resist at all. Since this kind of power can turn his time, how much mana does it have to do it, how can he be able to resist it.
Thinking of this, Lu Zheng couldn't help but be discouraged for a while, but then he remembered the words of the master in white, he remembered that the master in white said that between heaven and earth, there is no mortal situation, and there will always be a glimmer of life left for people, which is why all living beings are still living and reproducing. Since the last time he called Master sincerely, he had truly regarded him as a Master. Thinking of his words at this time, I couldn't help but be shocked, and secretly scolded myself for how could I be so discouraged, there will definitely be a glimmer of life in everything, and it is impossible for heaven and earth to give people a dead end. The Master is smarter than himself, and he should believe what the Master says.
So Lu Zheng cheered up again, and continued to carefully observe the two days and one night that kept repeating, and after experiencing the repetition of the Dao many times, he suddenly found a problem, the self that was experiencing repetition seemed to be a little different from this independent self.
This is also due to a fortuitous discovery, just after Lu Zheng observed himself dozens of repetitions, he almost knew everything about what he had experienced in the past two days and nights, when he was going to say something, what to do, what his tone was, and what his demeanor was, but he still didn't find any problems, but he became more and more clear about his incomparable attachment and admiration to his mother.
Just when he really couldn't figure it out and began to miss his heart, suddenly he had a flash of inspiration, and he found that this self who was experiencing repetition never seemed to think of his heart. Not only Xin'er, but also other people, such as Tang Xiaojiu, Huang Weiyang, the ascetic, and the two gentlemen of Sun Moon Lu, he didn't think of any of them.
This is so unusual! When Lu Zheng realized this, he couldn't help but be taken aback when he looked at himself under Chenghuan's mother's knees. That self seems to have forgotten all about Brother Jiu, Xin'er and others, not only never mentioning them, but also as if he didn't care about them at all, and seemed to have eliminated them all from his heart.
This surprise is not trivial, Lu Zheng suddenly had a terrible guess in his heart, this self that is experiencing repetition is not himself at all, or a strange self, he thought carefully about the problem, and it is best to think of an explanation, that is, this experience of repeating himself is incomplete. At least compared to this independent self, it is very incomplete.
No wonder I always feel that something is wrong, it turns out that the crux of the problem is here. After discovering this, another question also came to mind, why did he become incomplete? Lu Zheng immediately had a faint suspicion that he was not in the real world. It's in a fantasy world.
This should be the most likely situation! After thinking about it, although it was still just his own guess, Lu Zheng felt that this should be the most likely situation, and he was trapped by some kind of illusion. The master of the man in white said before that although he has already achieved a great understanding, as long as the masters between heaven and earth want to trap themselves, it will be easy.
Thinking that this might be an illusion, Lu Zheng first felt a sour heart, because if this is the case, then it is very likely that the mother in front of him is also his hallucination. It's not real. But look at the mother in front of me. At this time, he was laughing with his mother admiring the moon, looking at the extremely satisfied smile in his mother's eyes, the extraordinarily real love, all of which made him not see the slightest falsehood. But that's exactly what it is. but trapped himself. For a moment. Lu Zheng even wanted to give up this sobriety. simply live in this fantasy world, always accompanying his mother.
But in the end, he didn't make such a choice, because although he didn't know what the Tao was for, this illusion was so real. But an illusion is an illusion after all, and he still has a lot to do, and he can't and shouldn't stay in this illusion. But what kind of illusion is this? Only by understanding this illusion can we find a way out.
The only way Lu Zheng can think of at the moment is to enter the truth. At the beginning of his practice, he used the essence of the truth to attain the true contemplation and dispel all the illusions of consciousness. But he immediately discovered that this self is now just a wisp of thought, which exists independently, and it does not seem to be the origin of the original spirit in the body of this experience repeated, so although the mind is stopped, there is no intention to exist, although the thought is taken, there is nowhere to return, there is no original spirit to appear, and there is no illusion to break.
At this time, Lu Zhengke was dumbfounded, could he have to find a way to let himself who had repeated this experience practice the true technique? But now that he has already determined everything he does, he will not deviate a little, and even the two green vegetables are dug back every time, and every word he says is certain, how can it be possible for him to break the illusion with the true method?
So next, Lu Zheng tried all kinds of possibilities to control his physical body, but no matter what efforts he made, he never had any connection with his physical body. To the physical body, this thought of him is equivalent to that of an outsider. In desperation, Lu Zheng had no choice but to try to communicate with his own divine consciousness again, but he still failed, he was just a wisp of thought, if he didn't take the initiative to investigate with his divine sense, it would be impossible to notice his existence.
After exhausting all methods, there was still no progress, and Lu Zheng watched himself go home from the vegetable field again after experiencing a repetitive time. His thoughts shook, and a deep sense of powerlessness almost made them dissipate. Looking at myself immersed in the illusion, I am filled with the joy of being with my mother.
Then the next day, the mother and son continued to set off to worship the two old men, and met those people again, said those words, and saw the terrifying black hole...... Lu Zheng looked at himself and didn't know how many times he had experienced all this, and there was an indescribable sourness in his heart, it seemed that he could only be in this illusion forever. If we are forever immersed in this kind of happiness, is it a kind of luck or a kind of misfortune? Why is it that this self will always indulge in it and not be able to wake up? And never pay attention to this sober self, let yourself be trapped in such endless repetition, and never reach the future?
No, although he has a self that repeats himself, doesn't he still have this wisp of sober thought? After this wisp of thought appeared, although he witnessed countless repetitions, he did not start again and again, and he never repeated? And reflecting on the self that kept repeating, everything he did and said every word, and there was no mistake in what he did, and it all came from his own heart, and if he had changed himself, he would have acted like that.
Lu Zheng suddenly had a kind of realization, he knew what he was trapped for, and at this moment, this wisp of thought already knew how to get out of this illusion. At the same time, the entire mountain over there was turning into a white wolf, howling at the sky that shook the heavens and the earth, and then it was engulfed by the black hole that swept in. And Lu Zheng, who was supposed to be shocked and go to pull his mother, stretched out his hand and stopped in mid-air. He made a move that he hadn't done in countless repetitions, he withdrew his outstretched hand, turned his head to Zi Yan and said, "Mother, wait for me, wait for me to come to you!" When he said this, his eyes showed incomparable tenderness.
As soon as the words fell, thunder and lightning burst out from his body, and Lu Zheng's figure was instantly submerged, and he woke up again on the bed of a grass house, not in the vegetable field where two greens needed to be dug up. (To be continued......)