Therefore, when Shui Duyan went to sue for peace once, Bai Zijia politely refused once. Because, I really can't go back.

Shui Duyan didn't want to erase those resentments, she just thought, can she let go of her past suspicions, can she forget those injuries. It's like making a mistake, and you can make an example.

But probably because some injuries can't heal once, so when I see that person and think of that incident, it's like a heartache.

"I've never wanted to live in the past, just like I finally chose to let go of Sikia. Why was I criticized when I let go of Bai Zijia? It's because when I let go of her, she still had me in her heart, right?"

Shui Duyan only treats Nightmare as a person in the world, and their thoughts are the same.

The cold snort exhaled from the tip of Shui Duyan's nose was full of sarcasm, and she asked Nightmare: "Nightmare, you say, who am I with depends on my own mind or the face of the world?"

Nightmare replied in a dull voice: "Naturally, it depends on your own mind." ”

"Then I want to accompany my Qianfei, and accompany her who doesn't dislike me for having so many old people in my heart. Accompanying me in this world, the only person who understands me. ”

Shui Duyan cried, her heart fluctuated, and it had already caused an uproar.

"But why does the world have to embarrass her! What did Qianfei do wrong? It's all my fault, knowing a group of people I shouldn't know, provoking them who shouldn't be provoked, that's why my Qianfei was hurt like this, right?"

Shui Duyan was already crying, the nightmare was speechless, and she didn't know how to answer.

"Bai Zijia refuses to let go of hatred, I don't want to live in the past, wouldn't it be good to break up in two? Could it be that you will feel more fair when we are entangled all our lives?

Shui Duyan's tone was already full of resentment, and she didn't dare to vent it to Bai Zijia, so she finally shouted out.

"Bai Zijia also knows that she can't afford to give me what I want, she has a teacher, and I have an old friend. She refused to give up her teacher for me, and there was no need to give up her teacher for me. What is the point of me giving up my old friend for her? None of us is anyone's appendage, so why should we delay each other for the rest of our lives because of a promise?"

Shui Duyan had long been aware of Bai Zijia's changes, Bai Zijia's attitude towards her, and that look. is clearly reluctant, with a kind of love and pity, but Bai Zijia is unwilling to start over. She trapped herself in the lonely city, not letting people in, not letting her out.

Perhaps, there are people in the world who will be willing to wait for her all the time. It's like Emperor Luo Shen is willing to wait for me all the time, even if I don't let her get close, she is still unwilling to leave. But I've never been the one who is willing to wait for Bai Zijia all the time. I can let go of anyone who has no results, that's all. What do we have to criticize? It's just that everyone has a different attitude. But the world has to use these two attitudes to talk about things and make topics. ”

Shui Duyan was extremely resentful, just like the world likes a talented woman with a pair, and it is her fault that she suddenly let the door not be together. If you go against the heart of the world, you are all wrong, right?

"Nightmare, you say I'm abusive, then let me ask you, if I asked you to choose, who would you choose from these people?"

Nightmare suddenly speechless, she hadn't thought about it.

After a long time, Nightmare said, "I'm not you, I don't know them, and I can't choose." ”

Shui Duyan smiled again, and then asked, "Nightmare, I'm afraid you're disgusted with my promiscuous nature to the point where you're about to vomit?"

Nightmare listened to Shui Twilight's tone full of coldness and rejection, she had an ominous premonition, as if Shui Twilight was going to explode with some emotion, Nightmare thought, since this is the case, then let her say enough.

So Nightmare turned his head to look at Shui Twilight, and comforted him softly, "Say whatever you want, I'll listen." ”

"Oh, what can I say? The hearts of people in this world have never been satisfied. So I'd rather be willful, I'd rather be myself. No matter how unbearable, how abusive, and scum I am in your eyes! ”

Shui Duyan put her reason for choosing Qianfei, and Nightmare was silent when she heard this.

In this world, perhaps our final choice is not necessarily the best, but it must be the most suitable for ourselves.

"I only hate me, and in my heart I let the deficit prevail after all. I owe Emperor Luo Shen too much, so I easily promised her this love. blame myself for not being willing to be lonely, so I couldn't keep this love for Qianfei. When she returned, she was already a matter of fact, and everything was over. ”

She cried as she held her head and suppressed her voice as much as she could, but the sadness forced its way out between her teeth, stinging Nightmare's ears.

Nightmare stretched out his hand and tried to comfort her, but was pushed away by Shui Twilight at the moment when he was about to get closer, and then Nightmare heard a cold sentence: "Don't sympathize with me, I don't need your pity!"

Like a hedgehog, Twilight raised its thorns all over its body to keep the nightmare out.

"I'm ridiculous, what are you talking to you about. ”

Shui Duyan suddenly stopped her tears, she tried her best to calm her emotions, and let the cold wind dry her tears.

Nightmare sat beside her and was silent for a long time before asking, "Shui Duyan, do you regret what you did?"

Shui Duyan was silent, and then Nightmare concluded, "If you regret it, then you are wrong. ”

"Huh. ”

"Huh. ”

The two of them laughed in unison, but they were both equally sad.

The so-called opposite, the so-called world difference, the so-called stranger, is like this.

This is true of the world, and so are the nightmares.

Shui Duyan suddenly remembered a passage, I don't know who said that if you want to understand a person, even if you spend your whole life, it is not enough, because that person is always changing, so it is changing all your life. And in this world, no one is willing to spend his life to understand another person.

Sometimes, it's the opponent who knows you best, not the people around you.

Shui Duiyan conjured up a red jade Xiaolai, she carefully stroked the delicate words, engraved: Now I come to think, rain and snow.

Shui Duyan pressed her lips against Hongyu Xiao, and a resentful and sad song slowly flowed out along the hole, permeating this lonely mountain wilderness.

Nightmare listened to the sadness in her heart, and didn't make a sound, but in that gaze, there was a little more emotion and sigh for the twilight face.

Nightmares have lived in Shui Twilight's heart for tens of thousands of years, and she has seen all the joys and sorrows of Shui Twilight. But if you ask her why Shui Duyan has been so sad all her life, she can't say it, if she has to say why, there are probably only four words - blame.

One wrong step, one wrong step. Life is like this, if Shui Duyan doesn't learn the art of manipulating people's hearts, if Shui Duyan is not in a hurry to meet a desirable person and then hold out her heart, if Shui Duyan has twists and turns with anyone, she chooses to wait to the end, rather than turn away. Perhaps, this will not be the case.

Shui Duyan's mind is on Qianfei's suffering, she feels sorry for her past, and even more distressed about Qianfei's rabbit-like heart.

Shui Duyan knows too well that Qianfei can't stand a little torture, there is the betrayal of her father and Qiliangyu in the past, and the bad things between Emperor Luo Shen and her, in fact, Qianfei is extremely concerned in her heart, but she doesn't say it.

This point is like a twilight face.

Just like Shui Duyan's resentment towards Bai Zijia, resentment towards Bai Lan, resentment towards Gu Moyun, and resentment towards Emperor Luoshen. Shui Duyan didn't say anything, she sadly thought that when she left in the future, these people would realize.

But now she understands that she has imprisoned herself all her life with this ridiculous thinking, trapping herself in those sorrows.

Qianfei watched her cocoon and draw the ground as a prison, but she couldn't save her.

And she also knows that she can only save herself.

As soon as the song was played, Shui Duyan got up and patted the snow on her body, her clothes already soaked.

Nightmare said coldly, "It's time to go back and change your clothes." ”

Shui Duyan swept over and sneered: "You shouldn't care about someone who doesn't need your attention, what's more, this person is still the one who hurts you." ”

Shui Duyan pushed a person far away again, and never changed his bad temper.

Nightmare glared at her, but was hidden by the night, and then Nightmare left, leaving her alone.

And the water twilight face, went straight to the rain and snow hall.

The candlelight in Qianfei's room was still on, and it was already a child, and Qianfei had not yet fallen asleep.

Thinking of how little she had spoken to Qianfei recently, Shui Duyan couldn't help but blame herself, and it was her own little temper that made Qianfei sad.

So Shui Duyan knocked on the door gently, and there was a gentle voice in the door: "Ah Yan?"

"Hmm. Have you slept?" asked Shui Duyan tentatively, her tone trembling.

Maybe Qianfei also heard her sadness, so she got up and opened the door.

The moment she opened the door, Qianfei bumped into those red eyes, her crying nose, and the appearance of a crybaby who finally returned to the past.

"Why are you crying?" Qianfei reached out and touched her face, her eyes gentle.

"Come in, your body is so cold, where are you crying secretly?" Qianfei welcomed her into the house, carefully taking her hand to the fire.

Shui Duyan was stunned, refusing to move her feet.

Qianfei was stunned, and then asked, "What?"

"Qianfei!"

Shui Duyan's nose was sour, tears fell down, she rushed up and hugged Qianfei in her arms, tears rolled down her cheeks, and the cry floated out of her throat again.

Qianfei stroked her face with her distressed backhand and asked softly, "What's the matter, fool?"

"I'm so scared of ......" Shui Duyan cried more and more sadly, and those hands hugged Qianfei tighter and tighter, and the coldness of her heart passed to Qianfei.

Qianfei hurriedly pulled her hand away, pulled her to sit down, and smiled: "I'm not here? What are you afraid of? With me, don't be afraid." ”

"Woo...... I'm afraid you'll leave me, I'm afraid...... I'm alone again......" Shui Duyan cried like a child, she didn't dare to throw herself into Qianfei's arms, she wanted to see Qianfei's truest attitude, not sympathy.

A smile appeared on the corner of Qianfei's mouth, she looked at the person who was still stupid, and said warmly: "Why should I leave you?

Shui Duyan cried again when she heard this, and the whole person threw herself into Qianfei's arms.

"But I'm so promiscuous, don't you really dislike me? They all dislike me, they all say I'm not good. Shui Duyan cried sadly and was aggrieved.

"So what? You will always be the best in my eyes. Your good, your bad, are what I like, that's enough. Qianfei held her head in her arms and stroked her gently, and patted her back like a child.

Qianfei looked at the blazing fire, listened to Shui Duyan's crying, and said softly: "The moment I fell in love with you, I have accepted all your good and bad, and I will never dislike you in this life." ”

Shui Duyan's heart trembled again, her breathing began to be difficult, and her throat seemed to be on fire.

Qianfei hugged her tightly and coaxed her: "It's been a long time since you came to me to talk to me about this, and you don't even talk about love words less." I thought that you and I would always be like this, lukewarm. ”

"No, no...... I...... I was wrong, I'm sorry Qianfei......" Shui Duyan cried regretfully, she knew that she would not live long in this rotten life.

And in her heart, there is indeed a love.

Shui Duyan still couldn't help but ask Qianfei: "Qianfei, where am I worthy of your love?"

A layer of mist floated in Qianfei's eyes, slightly moist, she looked at the burning fire, and said softly: "You are good to me, always have been." ”