I never thought I'd end up in this situation.

When I used to watch some medical documentaries, I used to put myself into the role of a patient like many bored viewers, and then easily came to the conclusion that if I really had some incurable disease, it would be better to end myself. In this way, I can suffer less sin physically, and maybe less torture mentally. Watching yourself slide to the brink of death is simply the most terrifying thing that a human being can experience. The desire to survive will continue to torment one's heart, and the individual's powerlessness over life and death will eventually become a weapon to torture oneself.

So, I hope that if one day, I can't decide whether I can continue to live or not, then at least let me take control of my own death.

This is a stupid and extremely superficial idea of mine.

Lying on the ground, I could feel my body twisting, and if nothing else, I probably ...... Broken a leg? What else would be the leg that touched my chest? Judging by the feeling, this should be my left leg, right?

Hurt.

It hurts.

I tried to relieve the pain by gasping for air or something, but to my horror, I couldn't do anything. I can't even move my head, let alone screaming or moving my hands. There are still clear sensations all over the body, but the body can't move.

I'm starting to get scared.

There was a strange blur in front of me, large chunks of gray and white in my eyes, and I didn't feel a pain in my head, but the cold feeling made me feel very uncomfortable.

By the way, I seem to ...... It was hit by a car.

The pain in my legs and the fear of not being able to control my body came over me like a tidal wave, and I began to feel a tightness in my chest and a thumping sound in my ears. Helplessness and panic instantly overwhelmed me, a twenty-five-year-old who claimed to be a straight man. This feeling of pain and helplessness was so strange and so intense that I even wanted to cry, but I couldn't get a single tear out of it when I blinked a few times.

My eyelids seem to be moving.

This kind of thing, which is not usually a discovery at all, even makes me feel a little excited, does this mean that the rest of my body can also move?

Just as I was desperately trying to get myself moving, a shrill siren sounded in my ears. An ambulance came.

Great, I thought to myself, the ambulance is coming, at least I can be saved.

I want to live.

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I was rudely thrown by the two doctors onto a hard stretcher bed, the sides of which were so hard and narrow, and the speed of the ambulance made me even suspect that my back would be stuck and bruised. It hurts and it hurts, but I can barely endure it, after all, it's a fair deal to trade a short period of discomfort for getting treatment as soon as possible.

The atmosphere in the vehicle was tense, and I don't know if they usually work in such a high-intensity environment, or if it was because of my injuries. After getting in the car, I relaxed a lot, and my mind even started to think cranky.

"Traumatic brain injury, unconscious, open fracture of the left leg, they will definitely not accept it if you send it to the second hospital, and report it directly to the fourth hospital!" I could barely see a man in dark blue clothes shouting into the cab, "Drive directly to the fourth hospital!"

Wait, unconscious? I was shocked, no, I'm still awake!

I tried to drive the throat to shout at all, but naturally I couldn't make any sound.

"Patting me on the shoulder and verbal calls didn't respond, and I didn't respond to the pain!" the man in dark blue first patted me on the shoulder, shouted twice, and then pressed twice on my fingernails with what appeared to be a metal-shelled pen. It hurts, but it's not as painful as the pain coming from my legs. To be honest, I don't particularly care about the pain in my leg anymore, and what I'm more afraid of than the feeling in my leg is that the seemingly unreliable ambulance doctor in front of me will turn around and throw me into some morgue when I'm already dead, and then burn me down for a night...... By the way, I can't be dead, right?

"Heart rate 131, blood pressure 95/60, he lost too much blood and should have been in shock. The doctor in dark blue quickly relieved my concerns, at least he wouldn't treat me like a dead man, "Brother Wang, hurry up again!"

"I've already fucking stepped on the gas pedal in the tank!" a roar came from the cab, "Why is Ning Yuan's traffic more fucking congested than the capital in the morning?!"

The car shook violently twice, then there was an even more violent jolt, and I even thought that the ambulance I was in was about to overturn in some serious traffic accident. Seriously, if that's the case, then I should probably die today - in ten minutes, two serious traffic accidents, I don't know what I did to lack morality, God can't stand it.

Fortunately, the car didn't overturn. After a few more bumps, the vehicle braked sharply and stopped. I heard the tailgate of the car next to my feet "click" open from the outside, and then the sound of people suddenly pouring into the car. "You're fucking dead? Straight from the green belt? Is it the one you just predicted to be in shock from the condom and hemorrhagic shock?"

"That's right! Hurry up!" The doctor in dark blue seemed to be accustomed to the abnormal behavior of the driver, Brother Wang. He and a few others pushed me out of the car, and then, I saw the blue sky, the green translucent plastic canopy, a particularly high hall, and the off-white ceiling. After passing through a silver stainless steel door, I was pushed to a bed.

"Come, three, two, one!" the sheets were lifted under me to the shouts of a crowd, and I was placed on a slightly softer bed.

"Establish an intravenous channel, come with a needle to remove the nails, 70,000 units of dextran 500 milliliters of rapid infusion, check the blood type, and stop the bleeding immediately!" A man's voice sounded in the direction of my left foot, "The left leg has an open fracture of the femur, accompanied by a detaching injury, and it is under supervision! ”

This person's voice sounds confident, at least it should be a middle management, right?

"The means of stopping the bleeding are not strong enough, and two more tourniquets ......" His voice suddenly stopped, and another voice lowered his voice and asked, "Won't it be another big guy?"

"Don't say boring things at times like these. The middle management said angrily, "Contact the imaging department and ask them to prepare for the CT ......" He paused and asked, "Is the blood type out?"

"Type A, RH positive. At my right foot, a female voice reported, "800CC has been taken from the blood bank, but it's all frozen, and it's in the warmer......"

The middle management said angrily, "The systolic blood pressure has dropped to 70, so can you wait for the heater to have time?

What is artificial heating? I'm actually curious. But...... I can't even move my eyes.

"Coma rating of 3 points, deep coma. The pupils on both sides are unequal, two millimeters on the left and one and a half millimeters on the right, and respond to light. Another young doctor shook a penlight in front of my eyes and reported a bunch of words in the direction of my left foot that I didn't quite understand.

"Deep coma, possibly brain herniation. The middle management said two sentences, "What about the family?"

That's right, I ...... My parents, my wife, they, they're coming?

"The police have been contacted, but they haven't been found yet. Another male voice replied, "I'll run with the authorization of the hospital office." ”

"There is a head injury, Dr. Xu, you will take care of this case. The middle management suddenly said at my feet, "Sun Lien is still in the consultation room?"

"I'm going to call him. The female voice before said, "Let's send people to the CT room first, and I'll go over as soon as I call Sun Lien." ”

I lay in bed, a little confused. Are the people in this hospital so reckless? Ask the leader to come to see the doctor, and they don't have an honorific title?

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As it turned out, I was probably not saved. The person who was specially invited by the doctors to see me was a young doctor who seemed very unreliable.

Are you planning to blame this poor young man for my death and then take the opportunity to ruin his career?!

I seem to have come to terms with my inevitable death. You can even calmly take the opportunity to make a joke. It's a pity that these doctors didn't have the opportunity to be shocked or even applaud for my open-mindedness and cheerfulness.

Even if I want to die, at least I have to wait until my children and grandchildren are full, and I am seventy or eighty years old, lying in bed, basking in the sun and slowly closing my eyes, right? It is too cruel to have a broken leg and blood on my head, and I can't even say anything to die.

I don't want to die.

The young doctor who was called was standing next to me, right next to the CT machine next to me. I could see his face out of the corner of my eye.

I guess the check is over.

The young doctor was staring at my ...... Head, or maybe a few centimeters of air above my head? His eyes didn't look like he was looking at me anyway. The poor guy had a puzzled look on his face, and to be honest, if I had been called by another colleague to carry this kind of pot, my expression would have been worse than his.

"What do you think, Lien?" the voice of the middle management rang through the examination room, and he seemed to be using a microphone to speak into the room through the room.

I saw a miraculous scene, the confusion and incomprehension on the young doctor's face suddenly disappeared, and was replaced by a calm face, "The problem in the leg is not the most important, the first thing is to clarify the extent and scope of the brain injury." The hemostasis in his leg was sufficient, and the range of the dismount injury was relatively small - I was more concerned about why he passed out than the obvious trauma. ”

I almost screamed, Doctor Sun, can you be a little more honest? You were in a daze with a serious and confused face just now!

"This patient's situation is somewhat similar to Lin Lan before. The middle-level management said in a deep voice, "You have handled Lin Lan's situation quite well, and this patient will be handed over to your treatment team to deal with." ”

"No problem. Dr. Xiao Sun slapped his swollen face and became fat, and caught the pot thrown by others. I can't help but lament in my heart that the current doctors are too bad for the old and too bad for the young. If you don't have the ability, don't be hard, is it difficult for you to ask an expert to see what is going on with me?

I pleaded and roared inwardly, trying to express my displeasure and fear to these doctors. But I found that I couldn't even roll my eyes.