Ning Jiaoyi nodded stiffly, this is for sure.

"So, in the beginning, I could only judge from experience. I was surprised when I learned that he was a sub-personality. Maybe you don't know much about this disease, but in general, we tend to leave the main personality in the treatment, unless the main personality is really flawed, or has antisocial tendencies, no one will easily kill him. Unexpectedly, what his parents left behind turned out to be a sub-personality. ”

"When he found out about it, he was very sad. "Although he didn't show it, I could tell his disappointment." His parents probably didn't keep him out of love, maybe they just wanted an obedient son. ”

What Dr. Eddie said, Ning Jiaoyi also thought about.

Ruan Xiangyu really regarded that person as a tool, and it was a tool that was easy to manipulate.

Thinking of this, Ning Jiaoyi's breathing was a little difficult.

After he knew these things, he should be desperate and uncomfortable, right?

He was really innocent, and he was involved in such a storm for no reason......

When he decided to disappear, he must have completely died, right?

"At the time, I thought he was going to disappear, probably because he was angry with his parents, after all, being used as a tool by his parents is really disappointing...... But then I learned that he didn't want to disappear because of his parents. ”

As soon as Dr. Eddie's words came out, Ning Jiaoyi's breathing became even more difficult.

Her instincts told her that what Dr. Eddie said next, she would be even more unbearable.

"You know, although hypnosis is not a life-threatening operation, it is not a small risk, if it fails, it is very likely to split personality, or cause other mental illnesses, and even a little more exaggerated, it is possible to be completely unconscious. Although I have a lot of experience, I have not encountered this situation with him. He had been hypnotized once before, and forcibly undergoing a second hypnotization was twice as risky. ”

"When he came to me, my idea was to give up hypnosis as much as possible, to help him solve his knots, and to make him accept the reality of the situation. Mr. Fu didn't approve of him taking risks at that time, but it was useless for the two of us to persuade him, his attitude was very resolute, and he must come back with another personality. ”

He said that his wife loved another personality, that he had taken a body that did not belong to him, so he had to disappear. As long as he is gone, you will not divorce him. ”

Dr. Eddie laughed helplessly when he said this, "Mr. Fu said that he was a stupid boy, and I couldn't agree more. ”

“......”

Ning Jiaoyi's nails had already pinched out blood marks on her palms.

Every word of Dr. Eddie's words was stimulating her nerves.

Silly boy......

This is a word used to describe him, and it is indeed very appropriate.

Why is he so stupid......

"One of the important reasons why hypnosis can succeed is because he is determined to disappear enough. Dr. Eddie looked at Ning Jiaoyi and carefully analyzed the situation of the operation for her: "He never hesitated from the beginning, he thought about disappearing every day, and if he didn't have such determination, the main personality would not come back." ”

"I rarely see a person who is so determined to disappear, and under normal circumstances, the sub-personality will be more inclined to replace the main personality, and there are almost no people like him who have occupied his body for a few years and abdicated to make way for Xian. ”

Dr. Eddie looked at the couch across from him and fell into a memory, "I asked him before, is there really no one who is reluctant to do so?" Guess what he answered me?"

“...... What did he say?"

Ning Jiaoyi opened her mouth with difficulty, and when she spoke, her voice was already dumb.

Fragmented, like someone who had just crawled out of the desert.

He said that the people he was reluctant to give up were the ones who wanted him to disappear the most. So, he had to disappear. Only then will that person be happy. ”

Dr. Eddie repeated what Fu Dingsi had said to Ning Jiaoyi as it was.

Although he said it in English, Ning Jiaoyi still burst into tears at that moment.

There is no control at all.

Ning Jiaoyi raised her hand to cover her eyes, sobbing suppressedly, and her shoulders were shaking.

As soon as Doctor Eddie saw Ning Jiaoyi like this, he understood what she was thinking.

He shook his head helplessly. At this point, there is nothing anyone can do.

Dr. Eddie guessed that Ning Jiaoyi should need to vent now, and it was a good thing that she could still cry.

So, Dr. Eddie didn't stop her and just made her cry.

Ning Jiaoyi was still holding back at first, but then she couldn't help it anymore and cried louder and louder.

Dr. Eddie took a pack of tissues and handed it to her, and after Ning Jiaoyi took it, she choked up and said "thank you".

Dr. Eddie was not surprised to see her crying.

Ning Jiaoyi thought, as a psychiatric doctor, he must have seen more exaggerated pictures,

She really couldn't surprise him like this.

Thinking about it like this, Ning Jiao simply didn't pretend in front of him.

.........

After crying for more than ten minutes, Ning Jiaoyi's mood calmed down.

She took a tissue and wiped away her tears, calming herself for a moment, then tentatively asked Dr. Eddie, "He...... Is it possible to come back?"

Dr. Eddie shook his head slightly.

He didn't give a direct answer, but this action had completely vetoed all of Ning Jiaoyi's hopes.

Ning Jiaoyi gritted her teeth and couldn't say a word for a long time.

Dr. Eddie asked, "Do you want him back?"

Ning Jiaoyi: "......"

Dr. Eddie: "I'm sorry, maybe my words may be upsetting you, but you're really acting like you're in love with that vanished personality." Is that so?"

Ning Jiaoyi: "......"

Dr. Eddie: "Of course, you don't have to answer my question, I think you already have the answer in mind." ”

"What else did he say?" Ning Jiaoyi took a long time before finally recovering her voice, "Can you tell me more?"

Dr. Eddie thought for a moment, then reluctantly said, "He doesn't talk much, and I occasionally ask him questions about you, but he seems to be very reluctant to bring them up, and then I don't ask anymore." ”

"He wouldn't talk to me unless I talked to him. This is especially true when it comes to the question of feelings. But I can tell that he does have a deep affection for you - oh, and there is no need to see that he has disappeared for you, which is enough to prove everything. ”

Dr. Eddie's words successfully slashed Ning Jiaoyi's heart.

Sharp and merciless, a fatal knife with blood.

“...... He left nothing. Ning Jiaoyi muttered distractedly, "He walked so simply, didn't he think about what might happen later......

"Because he feels like you don't need him to leave anything, you just need him to leave. Dr. Eddie hit the nail on the head, "Maybe you said something similar during your previous argument, so he wrote it down." ”

Ning Jiaoyi: "......"

That's right, she did.

At that time, she was really completely disappointed.

He left her alone again and again for the sake of Ning Wanwan, she is also a dignified person, shouldn't she be sober?

In that case, people who are a little more sober will want to get a divorce.

She wasn't a person who dragged mud and water, so she did it directly after thinking it through.

Then...... She really didn't say a good thing.

But she didn't expect that Fu Dingsi really remembered it, and even really "fulfilled" him.

Dr. Eddie looked at the silent Ning Jiaoyi and asked her, "Aren't you happy that the person you've been waiting for has returned?" ”

"That's exactly what I thought before. Ning Jiaoyi nodded, she didn't deny this.

She is not someone who will shirk responsibility, she did think that he was a sinner at the beginning, and if it weren't for him, the person she loved would not have disappeared.

"And now?" Doctor Eddie squinted at her, as if to see through her soul.

"Now, I can't tell. Ning Jiaoyi shook her head, and after thinking for a long time, she couldn't find a suitable adjective to describe how she felt now.

She smiled self-deprecatingly, "Maybe I was born to like people I can't get, and I will never learn to cherish those around me." People like me probably don't deserve to be loved. ”

Dr. Eddie: "You're thinking too badly, maybe you just haven't seen each other for years, and if you get acquainted with each other for a while, your old relationship will come back." ”

Ning Jiaoyi looked at Doctor Eddie in surprise, "You mean, I should continue this?"

Dr. Eddie: "I'm not sure, but my advice to you is, listen to your heart. ”

Listen to your heart...... She wanted to do the same.

However, she could not even hear her inner voice now.

She shouldn't have been like this at all.

She has always been resolute and straightforward, but recently she has become so indecisive that she is not used to it.

Dr. Eddie: "But I can tell you one thing, if you decide to separate from him, then his disappearance will be meaningless. This also means that the most important decision he made in his short life was wrong. ”

Ning Jiaoyi: "......"

Dr. Eddie: "You know, he's been living as his parents have been asking him to be since he came along, and no one cares what he's thinking, what he's trying to do, and he's not aware of that himself. When he falls in love with you, his sense of self begins to awaken. ”

"He chose to disappear for you, it was his decision in the name of himself, the first and only time, right? Although he is no longer there, I think he should also hope that his decision will be fruitful and meaningful. ”

Ning Jiaoyi was speechless: "......"

Every word Dr. Eddie said was so sharp that she didn't know how to argue with it.

He didn't persuade her not to break up with Fu Dingsi, but these words carried more weight than persuading her not to break up.

yes -

If she really separated from Fu Dingsi, that person's disappearance would be meaningless.

Pointless. What cruel four words.

Just thinking like this, Ning Jiaoyi felt tightness in her chest and had difficulty breathing.

He really didn't leave anything for her.

She didn't dare to wonder how determined he was to disappear at that time.

The Fu family used him as a tool to manage the company, which should also be a fatal blow to him.

He must have been disappointed by that time,

And it was at that time that she gave him the most fatal blow and knocked him down completely.

When he disappeared, he probably didn't have any attachment to this world.

Dr. Eddie looked at Ning Jiaoyi's reaction before and after, and was convinced that she had fallen in love with the silly boy who had disappeared.

But it was too late.

Dr. Eddie thought for a moment, then said to Ning Jiaoyi, "Cherish the people in front of you, this is the only thing you can do at the moment." ”

Ning Jiaoyi pinched her palm hard, and the skin of her palm was about to be broken.

Although she already had the answer in her heart, Ning Jiaoyi still asked Dr. Eddie without giving up, "Is it really impossible for him to come back......?" A few days is fine. ”

At the very least, let her figure something out,

At the very least, let her say goodbye to him once.

Dr. Eddie laughed helplessly, he looked at Ning Jiaoyi, and asked, "What do you want me to answer you? I told you that he might come back to comfort you, so that you would feel better? In fact, you already have the answer in your heart, and you just want to be comforted by me." ”

People are always like this, some words are obviously false, but people are still willing to use these words to achieve self-comfort. ”

Eddie is worthy of being a psychiatrist, and he hit the nail on the head and said Ning Jiaoyi's inner thoughts.

Ning Jiaoyi was choked by him, and she didn't say a word for a long time.

Yes, how did she become like this herself?

Ning Jiaoyi calmed down, she shook her head at Dr. Eddie, and said, "No need, I understand." ”

Dr. Eddie nodded in relief, "It's great that you've figured it out in such a short amount of time." ”

Ning Jiaoyi: "Thank you for telling me this. ”

Dr. Eddie: "Yes, I'm sorry I didn't know more information to tell you, and I hope you cherish the people in front of you." ”

**

It was an hour before I came out of Dr. Eddie's office.

When Ning Jiaoyi walked back to the ward, her steps were floating.

When she came back, Fu Qizheng and Luo Xiang were still there.

Fu Dingsi fell asleep quietly on the hospital bed, with no signs of waking up at all.

Ning Jiaoyi was in a very bad state, and Fu Qizheng and Luo Xiang could see this.

After Ning Jiaoyi came back, Luo Xiang immediately got up and walked up and grabbed her arm, "Jiaojiao, how are you?

Ning Jiaoyi's face was pale and bloodless, and people were panicked for a while.

"I'm fine, don't worry. ”

Ning Jiaoyi didn't want Luo Xiang and Fu Qizheng to worry about her affairs, so she barely squeezed out a smile, and then shook her head at Luo Xiang.

She smiled so ugly that even Luo Xiang could tell that she was forcing a smile.

"Let's go get something to eat, you're going to be tired from a busy day. Speaking of this, Luo Xiang glanced at Fu Qizheng, "After eating for a while, let Fu Qizheng send you back, have a good night's sleep tonight, and talk about it tomorrow." ”

Ning Jiaoyi lowered her head and didn't speak, didn't agree or refuse.

Luo Xiang exchanged a look with Fu Qizheng, and then pulled Ning Jiaoyi away.

Fu Qizheng explained a few words to the nurse, and then followed the two of them together.

.........

The restaurant for dinner in the evening was found by Luo Xiang, which is near the hospital and is an authentic American restaurant.

Luo Xiang and Ning Jiaoyi have a good relationship, and the two of them often went out to eat together before.

For Ning Jiaoyi's taste, Luo Xiang already knows everything about it.

When ordering, Luo Xiang ordered a lot of Ning Jiaoyi's favorite dishes.

Soon, the dishes came up.

Ning Jiaoyi was really tired and hungry, but she really couldn't raise her appetite.

couldn't bear to live up to Luo Xiang's kindness, and she didn't want to really break her body, so she reluctantly picked up the knife and fork and ate a few bites.

Ning Jiaoyi didn't eat much of this meal, but neither Luo Xiang nor Fu Qizheng urged her to eat, and both of them could see that Ning Jiaoyi was already trying her best to eat.

At least she didn't give up on herself, which was good.

**

After dinner, Fu Qizheng and Luo Xiang sent Ning Jiaoyi back to the apartment where Fu Dingsi lived.

Fu Qizheng parked the car at the door, and had no intention of getting out of the car.

Luo Xiang originally wanted to send Ning Jiaoyi in, but when she was about to get out of the car, she suddenly received a look from Fu Qizheng.

Fu Qizheng was obviously telling her not to follow.

Luo Xiang was stunned for a moment, and when he was thinking about what Fu Qizheng meant, Ning Jiaoyi had already gotten out of the car.

When Luo Xiang wanted to follow again, it was already too late, and Ning Jiaoyi had already entered the password to open the door and enter.

Luo Xiang saw Ning Jiaoyi enter the door, and then he withdrew his gaze.

She asked Fu Qizheng directly: "What do you mean? Why don't you let me go down with her?"

"She needs to be quiet now, don't bother her, you're too noisy. Fu Qizheng said lightly.

"I'm noisy?" Luo Xiang was laughed at when he heard Fu Qizheng say this, "If you want to scold me, just say it, is it a man who is beating the corner." ”

After Fu Qizheng heard her words, he immediately sank his face: "What did you say?"

Luo Xiang: "I said that you are not a man! I scold me every day, I really have no grace!"

Fu Qizheng: "If I don't have the grace, I'll leave you in the car now." ”

Luo Xiang sneered, "You lose it, it's not that I don't have the money to take a taxi, if I can't do it, I'll call Qi Shengguang and ask him to pick me up, I didn't want to take your car, I don't feel good about myself." ”

Fu Qizheng felt that Luo Xiang was really good at making him angry.

Every time he said a casual word, he could easily poke at the point where he was most angry and minded.

Hearing the name of Di Qi Shengguang from her mouth, Fu Qizheng's face was even darker than just now.

He didn't continue to waste words with Luo Xiang this time, and directly started the car while she was not paying attention, increased the speed and left.

Luo Xiang sat in the back seat, not wearing a seat belt, Fu Qizheng suddenly started the car, her body was thrown out by inertia, and she almost hit her head.

was taken aback, and Luo Xiang's tone of voice became even worse: "Neurotic, Fu Qizheng, you are a psychopath, you let me get out of the car! I don't want to stay with a neurotic like you." ”

Fu Qizheng directly ignored Luo Xiang and continued to drive.

**

After Ning Jiaoyi returned to the apartment, she was weak.

She took off her shoes and walked barefoot to the sofa and sat down.

After sitting down, Ning Jiaoyi clasped her hands on her knees and remembered what Dr. Eddie had told her today.

Although it was not a particularly obvious tendentious word, every sentence made her sad.

Thinking about it, my eyes were a little sour again.

She seems to be particularly hypocritical lately, and any word or thing can make her cry.

Ning Jiaoyi didn't like such a fragile self very much, she lowered her head and buried her head in her knees.

Fortunately, this time I controlled it, and I didn't cry too exaggeratedly, but simply shed a few tears to end it.

After stopping, Ning Jiaoyi raised her head and glanced sideways at the laptop next to her.

This should have been used by Fu Qizheng. She didn't seem to have looked at his computer yesterday......

Ning Jiaoyi is a person who pays attention to privacy, she doesn't like others to look at her computer, so she never looks at other people's computers and mobile phones.

Yesterday, she saw Fu Dingsi's used notebook and tablet on the sofa, but she didn't bother to open it to look at it.

But tonight...... She wanted to make an exception.

Ning Jiaoyi stared at the notebook for a few minutes, and after some hesitation, she took a deep breath and stretched out her hand to pick up the notebook.

The laptop was kept plugged in for charging, and Ning Jiaoyi unplugged the power supply and turned on the computer.

A password is required to boot up, Ning Jiaoyi tried it on Fu Dingsi's birthday, and the computer was easily turned on.

Ning Jiaoyi wanted to laugh very much, what is the difference between his way of setting a password and not having it?

Anyone who knows him a little bit will be able to easily guess his password.

After the computer is turned on, the screen is very clean, there is no entertainment software, just those tools that come with the system.

Ning Jiaoyi opened the webpage and looked at the history.

The historical record is basically all news websites, either CNN, or BBC, but also some financial websites......

It's true, boring and boring, which fits his personal style very well.

Ning Jiaoyi flipped through the web page records for a while, and felt that it was too boring, so he directly closed the website and began to study the files on his computer.

Ning Jiaoyi saw a lonely folder in the corner of the bottom right corner of the screen.

The name of the folder is "folder", which looks inconspicuous, and normal people should not have the urge to open it when they see it.

Ning Jiaoyi just clicked in casually to take a look, but unexpectedly, she found piles of documents inside.

Documents are named after dates.

These dates were exactly half a year of hypnosis in New York.

After seeing these documents, Ning Jiaoyi's breathing stopped, and she only felt that her heart was beating faster, and the blood all over her body was rushing to her head.

I don't know how long it took to calm down.

.........

The documents were already in chronological order, and Ning Jiaoyi opened the first one with trembling hands.

[I've seen the doctor, and he told me to be patient.]

I don't know how long I'll have to wait, but I hope it will work sooner.

I didn't think I'd get this disease.

It doesn't seem like that's right, I'm not sick, I'm sick itself. 】

When Ning Jiaoyi saw the sentence "I am the disease itself", her heart felt as if she had been grabbed fiercely, and she was suffocated in pain.

In what mood did he write this sentence at the time?

Behind the seemingly light breeze, how disappointed and struggling should he be in his heart?

Ning Jiaoyi stiffened her fingers and flipped through the page, continuing to look down.

[I never seriously considered the relationship with my parents, they were pretty good to me, and the family atmosphere was barely harmonious.

I didn't know what kind of family relationship was normal, and I thought that their attitude towards me was the attitude of parents towards their children.

It's ridiculous to suddenly know what I mean to them.

A tool, a stand-in, disappearing is the best option.

The position itself should belong to me.

I'm gone, good to everyone.

Eddie better get me out of here, I don't want to stay for a moment. 】