Speaking from the heart, I don't think I'm really happy at all about this thing, I know that I'm not a kind of student in the traditional sense, although I study fairly well, but there is still a distance from that kind of big bull.

And to say it in my heart, I also know very clearly how this exchange student got it, if I guessed correctly, it was Ouyang Feifei who told me that she wanted to give me a big gift?

Of course, my grades are very good in this school, and I can often apply for scholarships, but there are many people who are more powerful than me, and besides, it is really rare for us to get an educational place in such a college through such an exchange student.

The most important thing is that there are so many big bulls in our school, and whenever there is such a place, everyone will show their talents, not only considering a requirement in this academic class, but also considering your social background, which can give you the pressure of wealth.

It is conceivable that if you want to go to such a big school, and if you don't have an expense of 500,000 yuan in tuition every year, you can't even think about it, Cinderella like me, where can I get this 500,000 yuan scholarship? If I used to be with Ye Jingbei, maybe this kind of thing would be a drop in the bucket for me.

But now for this green apple, even if I sell my kidney, I can't sell it.

Of course, I know that I finally gave me the most practical and methodical thing because I obeyed Ouyang Feifei's request to make a splash.

Lisa looked at me: "Hey, Leng Shuiyue, why are you stupid, it's like being beaten by frost eggplant, you don't look happy at all, no, are you really stupid for this thing? Do you think that the big cake that has fallen from the world is not suitable for ordinary human beings like you? I told Stinky Stinky that sometimes opportunities are so balanced, and this is the best gift that our reform has given us." ”

"But I don't really want to study, I really don't think I'm going to be a kind of society. ”

Lisa looked at me for a second, and with a comparatively sympathetic look.

"Well, I know, Leng Shuiyue, you are really scared stupid, such a big good thing falls on your head is a person who will be scared stupid, if it falls on my head, I may always be this is really like Fan Jinzhong, right. ”

"But do you know? This quota was given to me by Ouyang Feifei, and it was something she gave me through some means, so I don't want to accept her gift, I don't want to have any connection with their family, so I don't want to accept this thing, otherwise I will accept me for the rest of my life, and I may really be a man with my tail between my legs. ”

"Ouyang Feifei, well, isn't this person one of Ouyang's sisters? What are you doing? Does this situation have anything to do with this matter? Does it have anything to do with her? Why am I getting more and more confused about this matter?"

I can't say these things anymore, I looked out the window in silence, I wanted to find a topic to put aside, because I had so many things that I really didn't know where to start, and I felt that this kind of content and all of this was just a piece of garbage in my heart, and it would rot forever, and I wouldn't be allowed to say it again.

No, I should think I'm just garbage, I'm rotten, I'm rotten inside and out, I should be in a garbage treatment plant.

"Leng Shuiyue, no matter who gave you such an opportunity, why didn't you go, you didn't steal it, you didn't rob it, you went to get it openly, she wanted you to go, then you just went, maybe she didn't want to see you at all, so I sent you to the other side of the Pacific Ocean, and it happened to be sung a few times and rolled away. ”

Lisa was really anxious, and she dragged one of my heads with her fingers, a little hated that iron was not made of steel.

"I'll tell you, at this time you must have the integrity, but at this time, don't pretend to be deep, don't pretend to be innocent and romantic, and don't pretend to be a kind of white lotus, we want to be a green tea now, we have to ensure that this place is given to you by him, why do you have to entrust it to please it, anyway, I feel that the other party is afraid at all, you exist, so have you read what those romance novels say, saying that those things are the best means, and what kind of thing is it to directly clean up this spaceIsn't that to drive him away? Just throw this vixen to the ends of the earth, when the time comes, out of sight and out of mind, then let this vixen and the actor never be able to see above, and after the restart, it will definitely be impossible to live happily together, who cares if this vixen is free to self-destruct outside, forget it, I'll tell you, Leng Shuiyue, of course, I said this sentence as an analogy, I didn't say you, you mean you're still a good classmate, don't be angry when you see if you're following. ”

I sighed a lot, I didn't know what to say, I really didn't know what language to use to express this kind of thing, I really felt like I was really bad.

waited until it was time to go to bed, and this Lisa was still scolding me, and scolding me that I should give up the White Lotus and be a green tea professionally.

I lie alone on this couch, this is a very narrow single room of a couch, in fact, in my life, I like the way I live in the dormitory very much, and I especially like this small couch that has accompanied me for 4 years, sometimes this couch is very wise, just separated by a thin quilt, but maybe not as comfortable as Ye Jingbei's soft couch when sleeping, but this place really belongs to me.

Yes, there is no one to restrain here, I don't have a big voice in this little kennel, this has always been what I have always thought, this is a real home in my life, and this place will become a place for me to hide from worries, to hide from troubles.

To be honest, when I was in Ye Jingbei's house, I often had insomnia, I would often wake up in the middle of the night, and I would look at the ceiling with my eyes open, but I would lie in this small couch in my dormitory, and sometimes even if my classmates were chatting about ghost stories, and even if they were playing music, I could still fall asleep happily without any scruples.

Today is the first time, I tossed and turned in this dormitory, and I couldn't sleep, in fact, I was very entangled for me, I was very worried, should I accept this gift from Ouyang Feifei?

Because I said those cruel words to Ye Jingbei, I am really uncomfortable now, I really don't want to say those things, but in order to get this quota, I am even more uncomfortable in my heart now, which is completely an obvious irony for me.

Although I really don't want to be shaken in this city, I have too many sad and sad memories of this city, I just want to get out of here, I go to a foreign country where no one knows me, at that time maybe I can get to know a lot of people again, maybe I can do this on my own, I can walk in the sun, I laugh.

Although we students who study this major, of course, the most touching scene is also this major, but I still haven't clearly revealed this matter, and now I am inexplicably what is my betrayal?

So I decided that after I did this, I had to give myself an answer, I didn't want to carry a kind of regret, I didn't want to let these things get too much of a setback.

So after the first class, I decided to go to the city to talk to the teacher about it.

And when he looked at the textbooks on the table I was packing, he eagerly ran down from the top of the road building and chased after me, and with a very happy look, "Leng Shuiyue, no, are you going to eat in the cafeteria so early? ”

"No, I'm not very hungry right now, why don't you go by yourself first? I just have some things to deal with, and I don't need you to accompany me. ”

"No, in addition to learning this, tell me where you are going?"

I didn't have you or her, so I walked straight from my dream to round 1, and then from the corner through a basketball court in this one, ready to walk to the teaching road ahead, but Lisa kept following.

"Leng Shuiyue, why are you going somewhere? Just wait for me, can you tell me what you are going to do?"

I still didn't speak, I walked straight to the place on the shore of Acacia Lake next to this basketball court, there were no classmates, I was standing under a willow tree, I turned to Lisa and said.

"And I'm sorry, actually, I know you will definitely say that I am stupid, you think that I am really not worth doing like this, but I'm sorry, I really can't help but defend, I'd rather give up this opportunity, I'd rather lose a layer of skin to take the test even if I may go to that kind of very bad school, I am also willing, I have to be worthy of my conscience, I really can't accept such a kind of graceful life. ”

Lisa was really angry, she stomped her feet on the ground, and she threw both of my feet straight to the ground, which was probably right at me.

"Leng Shuiyue, I've told you many times, thinking that this is your height, thinking that this thing is your indifferent thing, I tell you, don't worry about this thing anymore, because this place was made by Ouyang Feifei for you, so because of this thing, do you plan to give up the opportunity to study in the UK? Let me tell you that the opportunity you get is really everyone's dream, no matter how many people want to go, they can't go, and you don't want to do this again, White Lotus, I tell you, this quota is actually my rich father got it for me, at that time we donated 100 million to this school, and it was originally a graduation opportunity that my father tried his best to give me, but now you know that there is such a big problem in our family, I definitely can't go, I just gave you this quota in this piece, I am not willing to say these things to you, I am just maintaining this relationship between us, I am sorry for youIf it weren't for the fact that I took this contract from you, I wouldn't have known that this ending would be so cruel!"

"Leng Shuiyue believed me in her heart, really, when I was leaving with this contract, I swore that I and the whole family were safe and assured, I never knew that Ouyang Feifei had gone to my father, and I didn't lie to you to talk about this condition, I really never hurt you, my father really had a heart attack, this is an advanced stage of cancer, and none of them can be treated, because the professors of several authoritative doctors have told me that my father will not survive this winter!"

"I thought that after I knew about this, I thought that my father was cheating on me and wanted me to come back to help him do things, but then I found out that this thing is simply impossible, and there is no way to think about it, I thought this was the most concerned word, I hope he has been cheating on me, because I have become his good girl, but I am really a terminal cancer patient at present!"

"I'm sorry Leng Shuiyue, I know that I shouldn't have said these things at all, but you know that I can't refuse your father, following Ouyang Feifei to be hurt all these years, I can't do your thing, and I have no reason to stop it, because this matter itself has nothing to do with you, you just play a role in it, but isn't all this Ye Jingbei owed you three years ago? I think it's what he owes you, so I'll let them do it, I was turning a blind eye at the time, I don't think God can clean up my aunt, so I want the two of them to clean up Ye Jingbei together!"

"In my heart, I don't know why you have to give up this fate, this opportunity comes from what you are thinking! Do you really not even want to go to this university? Do you really think that Ye Jingbei will fall in love with you? I tell you that it is impossible, you can't fall in love with Ye Jingbei, you love Han Liu!"

"So everyone listen to me, don't you give up this university, okay? You have to insist on studying at this university, this is what you dream of the most in your life, this university has opened the door to you, it has opened to you only once in your life, you must grasp it, after you leave here, you can live the life you want freely, you can start again, isn't it?"

I just looked at Lisa in a daze, really, this is my best friend for life, I feel that every word she says makes me feel that I can't face the world, every word is like a dagger, slashing at my heart.

What the hell is going on, how can this thing be so crazy? Why have I never seen the reality of this world, why is there a scene of buttons one by one.

Oh my God, what else do I have, I have nothing, I have lost it all, I am now left with nothing?

My parents died in a car accident, my most related uncle betrayed me, and I followed Han Liu through a lot of hardships and never came together.

My only best friend, I only have Lisa, she never meant anything, never hurt me once, never did anything to hurt me, and couldn't cheat on me, never, we will always be the best pair of sisters from college to now!

That's right, my good friend gave me the best of everything!

Lisa gave me the best and most sincere friendship, gave me the best college life, the best one without scruples, so that I can speak freely, and they gave me the best opportunity to study abroad, this opportunity is really something that many people dream of for a lifetime, this opportunity is only once, if I can't grasp it, maybe I have to wait for this.

What choice can I make? At least I still have this sincere friendship, I am not a person who has nothing, I am looking for me in this lonely desert, knowing that after all I will be with my friends.

I finally slowly reached out to him, and I hugged Lisa tightly, maybe I didn't think I could express my excitement in any way, but now I can only use it in a way like a novel romance to properly express my speechlessness.

Yes, I'm not a lonely person, I'm not a person who has nothing, I'm not a barren person, because I have a friendship, a real friendship, a friendship that admires and cries.

Lisa slapped me the shoulder, pinched my arm, and whispered.

"Now I ask you to tell the teacher right away, I ask you to say that you have to agree to participate, this time a student is an exchange student for an opportunity, and you say you are willing. ”

The two of us looked at each other shouting, his eyes were full of tears, and my eyes were not teary-eyed.

"Well, Leng Shuiyue, you once said that you feel that your life is not good, you feel that you are an unlucky fate, but you know what? Whenever I hear you say these words, I feel very uncomfortable in my heart, I want to help you, but I don't know how I can help you, I feel that if you are my best friend, I want you to get the best in this world"

"I'm telling you, it's not that your life is bad, this is a wrong answer, it's just that you haven't met me, in fact, you have the most beautiful and kind in the world!"

"Oh, maybe I don't have much fate with these literatures in this life, let's go to the UK slowly when I have the opportunity to study in the future, you go to the UK right now, and when the matter is dealt with on my side, if there is a chance to have fate, I will definitely go to the UK to find you!"

I couldn't control it anymore, I finally crouched on the ground and cried, I followed Lisa and hugged each other tightly, and the two of us cried to our heart's content.