I know that he didn't go online when I walked over, he was just playing games there, I was actually deeply hurt in the past, I felt that I was deceiving myself with these things, in fact, he should have known one day that it was all I had to do at this time, why should you be finished at this time, if I waited until that day I knew I would have died.

Anyway, I don't think I can live anymore, if Han Liu knew, and I really would rather bury this head in the sand like a camel than see this light for the rest of my life.

He lowered his mouse and asked me.

"How do you feel now? Do you look very hungry, do you have anything you particularly want to eat, now this body should be slowly recovering, you haven't eaten since yesterday, can we cook you something to eat?"

"No, you don't have to cook anything special, I really want to eat a bowl of noodles now, the noodles you cooked for me. ”

"Okay, in that case, I'll cook noodles for you, and you lie down here obediently. ”

I really had a kind of dream, I felt that I felt that this time and space and this space completely overlapped and made me feel a feeling of suffocation, and I even felt the sweet and shy era of high school that I could belong to.

Yes, once we were in this old house, we experienced that kind of turbulent youth, as if we had never happened, we had never left here, and everything here was left for us.

I sat on this couch in a daze, I looked out the window at the scenery, and I even thought that the moon outside the window also shone on the ancients, and I also had the best high school years I ever had.

After thousands of years, you are still the same.

And I have experienced the vicissitudes of a year in this life, but it is just a trace of the years.

The kitchen was very quiet, and I only heard the sound of boiling water in this pot, and when I saw him, he was still so gentle, so considerate, as if he was the young master many years ago.

He carefully cut the joint on the cutting board, then beat two eggs until the night, stirring it well with chopsticks.

"I happened to have some things some time ago, so I also came back here and stayed for a while, the fridge here still has some fresh food here, so you don't have to worry too much, it's no problem for us to stay here for a few days. ”

I looked at his back, and I wanted to tell him that I had come to him the other day, but I didn't have the courage to knock on the door, I just stood here, rubbing the stairs below, and stood for a long, long time before leaving.

The noodles he cooked were still so delicious, and he put a lot of eggs and a tomato flavor, and added some sesame seeds mixed together, I don't know if it was because I was hungry or because I missed the taste too much, so I ate two large bowls.

Han Liu, he didn't let me wash the dishes, he directly turned on the hot water and washed the dishes clean.

He really has a kind of affectionate madness like an ordinary housewife, and the two of us are really equivalent to old husbands and wives, as if this is our ordinary simple life, as if our life can exist forever for a lifetime, regardless of this outside sky.

A man as steady as he is now, really fighting with me back then to make tomato scrambled eggs, or a man like this, is completely different.

The room was quiet, I had never felt so calm in all these years, it was a really nice feeling.

After dinner, we sat on the couch together and watched the 8 o'clock turn, and then we flipped through the sports station and watched the basketball game, and the news was still the same as the one that should be done, and there was nothing particularly new at all.

Fortunately, Han Liu really didn't say any kind of words to me, nor did he ask me any kind of questions, just like ordinary home life, as if those ugly things had never happened to me.

Maybe it was during the day that we slept all night, and at night I really didn't want to sleep, and I had a lot of nightmares, I was very unstable in sleep, and I dreamed that I walked into a very far away and wide place, this place was very big, and there was a light in front of me, and I kept running towards that light.

When I got to that bright place, I found myself in a luxurious villa, which was much more extravagant than the five-star hotel of our school.

I ran over again, and it just so happened that there were some refreshments in it.

I suddenly felt that someone was holding a Tieguanyin drinking tea, and directly trying these Tieguanyin movements were very slow, very elegant, very decisive, but very enjoying the rhythm of life.

I even remember this person holding Tieguanyin making tea, wearing a black shirt, and inside the pants of this shirt, smiling is a golden button.

Finally next to this button, there is a noticeable little intersection that shows a professional customization and a very luxurious identity of this owner.

In this East, I tried my best to see who the person was investigating, but I was sure that he was a man, and this should be a person I was very familiar with, but I really couldn't see the other party's appearance.

Under the flickering of the light, I vaguely saw the other person's soul, but when I really saw his facial expression, it was far and near.

I suddenly felt a cold finger gently brushing my cheek, and such an action made me want to refuse, I instinctively wanted to escape, I instinctively wanted to escape, but I was groggy, I seemed to feel that my whole body strength was gone, and I said that I couldn't resist with this desolate power.

I thought that was good, I wanted to argue loudly, but I didn't have any strength, I didn't even have the slightest chance to catch my breath.

Suddenly it was as if I was being picked up by someone, like a princess, and it was very gentle, putting me in a very soft place.

Suddenly, for some reason, I felt a lot of pain, I screamed in pain, but I felt someone covering my mouth, making me scream, and the other person had a faint smell of tobacco in the car and that smell, which seemed so terrible in this darkness.

Well, this feeling is as familiar as my left hand and right hand, and this one must be someone I am very familiar with, because of the faint smell of tobacco and the smell of men's perfume.

But a brand that a person is familiar with belongs to a person's independent taste, but it makes me feel like vomiting very much.

When I slowly recovered, and I was in the dark, I saw a pair of blue-green eyes, really like a wolf, I was terrified I covered my mouth with both hands, I wanted to run away, I wanted to run away, I wanted to run away, I wanted to never exist here.

Later, I don't know why I was suddenly woken up by someone else, and the light above my head was so orange, with a very gentle look, a light that was perfect for sleeping.

Han Liu really held my shoulder, he was calling my name softly, yes, Han Liu, I came by myself, I will always be like a colorful supreme treasure, saving my soul.

I just hope that he has never left me, and I really hope that the three years that we have left have already passed like a brushstroke, just like a painting, and then I will directly click the delete button and everything will return to its original state.

Then I woke up, and it turned out that I finally realized that I really hadn't been happy in these three years, and that the nightmares I had every day during these three years were nightmares.

He looked at me with a worried look on his face and asked me after a while.

"You were having a nightmare, do you have nightmares often?"

Actually, I went to the place with him, he lived next door to me, and he must have hurried over just now, and his face was still messy, his hair was still unkempt, and he didn't even wear a cotton coat and ran over, and he didn't even have bare feet in slippers.

I suddenly understood that I had dreamed of the unique smell of perfume and tobacco in that dream just now, who the hell would never be Europe, this person was a devil, a devil that I couldn't get rid of in these three people.

It's Luo Jin!

No wonder what happened a dozen hours ago always comes back to my mind, I know that it is really difficult for me to escape his control in my life, even if I am not by my side, but it will still exist in my dreams.

He seemed to hold me gently, and didn't say anything more, but he finally took me away, and I came here, but it was really instructive, and there was a long chasm between the two of us, and we could never touch each other's fingertips.

I've worked hard and hard.

Turn your head and everything is empty.

I don't even know what kind of eyes my brother sees me with now, I don't even dare to guess what kind of thoughts he thinks now, I don't have the courage, I grab him, I grab him like a drowning patient, I think if I catch him, I can find a way to survive.

But I finally realized that even if I caught him, what could I do? Because I couldn't do those bad boy things for the second time, I couldn't face that I couldn't face Ouyang Lili.

If you do something wrong in life, you should take responsibility for it.

I finally let go of his hand, and I gently told him that I heard my own voice.

"Sorry to bother, I have to go, I have to get out of here. ”

He never said any more about the results, and he looked with a deep anxiety, as if he were looking into the depths of my soul.

I was scared of his gaze, and I would feel even more undignified.

I was afraid that I would lose it again, in fact, I had already lost it.

I turned my head and looked out the window.

"Really, I'm leaving. ”