Packing everything up, I decided to go to Anding Village again.

This time, I saw the scenery along the way, and it was not much different from when I first came to Anding Village.

At that time, my mother brought me here, and at that time my mother and my father quarreled, and she was so angry that she ran away from home, because she couldn't worry about me, and took me away.

My mother brought me to Anding Village, and at that time we lived at Aunt Su Wang's house, and they hadn't come here yet, so it was at that time that I got acquainted with Gardenia, Lin Yushu, and Lin Yuting, two brothers and sisters.

As soon as I arrived in Anding Village, I went to Gardenia's house, it is summer, her yard is full of gardenias, you can smell the fragrance of gardenias everywhere, the flowers in the yard are still very well maintained, it can be seen that there are still people living here.

I walked in and saw my grandmother standing alone in the backyard, looking at the flowers in front of her.

I walked over and called, "Grandma." ”

She glanced back at me and smiled: "Mu Ze, you came here to help me see if these flowers are well cared for, when the gardenia was there before, these flowers were well cared for, I am afraid that she will not be happy if she doesn't take care of them well." ”

I smiled: "No, grandma, Gardenia won't blame you, it's good for you to help her take care of these flowers." ”

"That's good, Gardenia is a good girl, but it's a pity that Lao still took her. ”

I asked, "Grandma, how did Gardenia die?"

Grandma's expression darkened, "A year after the two siblings Yu Shu and Yu Ting left, she fell ill and left. ”

My brow couldn't help frowning, "Grandma, what kind of disease does Gardenia have?"

I always felt that Gardenia's illness was not as simple as she was at the beginning, and I always felt that she was hiding something.

"Her disease is extremely rare, but also congenital, no one knows what her disease is called, and no one can cure her, she can only live on medicine, she did not live to be twenty years old before seeing a doctor, but a year after you left, her illness worsened very severely, even taking medicine did not work, and then her body weakened one by one, and gradually, all organs stopped working. Grandma continued: "When her attack is mild, it is just fever and dizziness, and if it is serious, some organs in the body will stop working, and her attack mainly depends on the frequency of the heartbeat, and her heart must beat normally, so she can't exercise, and she can't get angry, which will affect the beating of her heart." ”

So Gardenia has long known that she won't live long, so this is why she never gets angry and has always lived in this world with a calm heart, even if they brought her great pain, but unconsciously, she learned to hide and cover it perfectly.

Grandma told me that Gardenia only lived to be twenty years old, and only Grandma and Gardenia knew, and she never told anyone.

Grandma also Gardenia before leaving is most concerned about the gardenia tree in the back mountain, as well as all the things in Gardenia's room, she also let Grandma take care of everything, nothing can be lost, because those things are the most important thing for Gardenia.

I went to Gardenia's room with my grandmother's permission, and I wanted to see the most important thing about Gardenia.

As soon as you enter, the first thing that catches your eye is a painting on the wall, which depicts all the stars in the night sky dotting the night sky, and every star is shining.

I remembered the time.

Gardenia asked me, "Brother, why can't Gardenia be born without seeing meteors, but other children can?"

I scratched my head, "I don't know this either...... But if you want to see it that way, why don't you just think of all the stars in the night sky as meteor showers? You see, the stars in the night sky are also beautiful. I pointed to the night sky.

Gardenia looked at the night sky and smiled: "Wow, so beautiful, then I want to make a wish to the stars, I hope they can bless my parents with peace and happiness." "Gardenia really made a wish to the stars in the night sky.

That night we really saw a beautiful night sky, with countless stars dotting the night sky.

It's just that since then Gardenia can't see, can't see anymore, can't see a star, she can only see a bright moon hanging in the night sky, and nothing.

Later, she asked me in frustration: "Brother, why can't you see gardenia meteors and stars, is it really like them, gardenias are bad omens, so you can't see those beautiful things." ”

I told her, "No, the gardenia is not a bad omen, it's not your fault that you can't see it, although the gardenia can't be seen anymore, but the picture of the stars dotting the night sky is in our minds, we can draw it so you can see it forever." ”

Later, I painted this picture with her, and together we recorded the stars in the night sky that we saw together.

I didn't expect that after so many years, the painting is still so well preserved.

And that year, when I came to Anding Village to see Gardenia for the first time, she couldn't see the stars in the night sky, and the stars in her night sky were very beautiful at that time, but what I saw at that time was obviously only the moon, and I didn't even see the shadow of the stars, although then, after seeing Gardenia's smile, I couldn't bear to hurt her, so I didn't tell the truth, but echoed her.

Now that I think about it, the reason why Gardenia is like this in the first place is to test whether I have really forgotten my childhood memories, because only I know that Gardenia can't see the stars.

I saw a thick journal on the table, and I remembered the diary, which Gardenia used to remember things, and she wanted to write everything down.

Now that she thinks about it, she must know that she doesn't have much to live, so she wants to write everything down.

I gently opened the diary and flipped to April 2, 2012, the day I first met her on my second visit to Anding Village.

Tonight, I met Mu Ze unexpectedly, it was a high heart, because he came back, but he forgot everything, he forgot who I was, who gave him the gardenia necklace, and forgot the fact that I couldn't see the stars.

I don't know why he forgets, but a lot of times I want to forget things so that I can feel better.

April 3, 2012

Mu Ze transferred to our class, Yu Shu and Yu Ting also saw it, but they didn't have anything, I know that they haven't forgotten, they haven't forgotten our agreement, but they can't go back to the past, maybe they already knew that Mu Ze had forgotten.

In the years after Mu Ze left, the three of us didn't mention him, because we didn't want to upset anyone, but not mentioning it doesn't mean forgetting.

May 1, 2012

Today I lied to my grandmother, and I told her that I liked it and didn't want to go anywhere.

Yes, I like Anding Village, I like all the people in Anding Village, I like everything in Anding Village, it's just that I don't want to leave, I think, I want to, I want to go to other places, I want to go to my parents, I want to see if they are doing well, I also want to see my former friends, see if they have fulfilled their dreams, see if they are happy......

It's just that I don't have much time left, although I want to do a lot, I can't do anything, I want to take good care of my grandmother while I am still alive, thank everyone in Anding Village, and I want to do something for Anding Village.

June 22, 2012

Today I participated in the event with my classmates, we went hiking together, I know that my health is not good, but I still want to go, I want to go with them, as long as there are many people, as long as I am with the people I like, no matter where it is beautiful, I also want to cherish the time with them.

It's just that in the end I found out that I was still a sinner, I still delayed Yushu and Yuting, I knew that I had always been afraid of separation, I never wanted anyone to leave, but I didn't want anyone to give up their dreams for me, so I felt like a sinner, I hated myself like this.

September 1, 2012

Something happened in Anding Village today, and the village chief sold it out in order to save Qiao Xia who had brain cancer, Qiao Xia is still so, she shouldn't be entangled by the disease, she should also go out to see, to see the world elsewhere, but I don't want Anding Village to be gone because of this, I don't want everyone in Anding Village to leave, I want to keep it the same.

Fortunately, in the end, the village chief promised me and the buyer to return to Anding Village.

When I came to the village chief's house in the evening, the village chief had already seen that my physical illness was getting worse and worse, yes, my medicine was almost ineffective, and I knew that my time was running out, so I had to protect Anding Village and all the people in Anding Village.

Before leaving, I asked the village chief to help me take good care of my grandmother after I left.

November 10, 2012

It's the Lusheng Festival, and I had a lot of fun with everyone.

At night, I waited for the meteor with Kizawa, I knew that I couldn't see the meteor, and I just wanted to make a wish for the meteor, and I always knew the reason why I couldn't see the meteor and the stars, before the meteor referred to happiness, and then I thought of the stars as meteors, so I couldn't see it either, because I was far, far away from happiness, so far away that I could never see it.

At night, Kisawa told me that the meteor had really appeared, and that it was still a meteor shower, and I immediately made a wish.

I hope that my grandmother, Yushu, Yuting, Muze and everyone in Anding Village will be happy, and I also hope that my parents and former friends will always be happy and safe.

April 2, 2013

I told him a lot before leaving, I told him that I gave me the gardenia necklace, and I also told him that he had forgotten anyone and would not forget me.

Originally, I didn't want all this, I didn't want to make Mu Ze sad, but I knew that my body couldn't last long, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to wait for him to come back, I knew that his departure was doomed, and I knew that my departure was also doomed, and everything couldn't be changed.

So I told Kisawa to tell him not to forget me, not to forget me no matter what happens.

July 2, 2013

I sent Yu Shu and Yu Ting away today, originally I didn't want them to leave at all, but my illness is getting worse and worse, and I am worried that I won't be able to hide it from them, and when they know about it, they will only worry about me.

At parting, they told me that they had not forgotten our agreement.

At that time, no matter where we went after we made an appointment, we should not forget that we were good friends, good friends for life, but later after Mu Ze left, we all pretended to forget those memories of the beginning of the curtain, and no one mentioned the past.

I was very happy at that moment, and I am sure that our agreement will be eternal.

June 4, 2014

My health was getting worse and worse, and I couldn't even go to class, and I knew that I was dying, so I decided to go to Kisawa and I wanted to see him one last time.

I took the high-speed train to Yuan'an, but I didn't see Ma Chaolongque, what I saw were rows of buildings, they were very high, covering my vision, I walked on the street and saw all the cars, they were jammed together, the sound of honking all the time around, my breathing became very short, I could hardly adapt to the air around me, I kept coughing, I didn't dare to go any further, if I walked again I thought I might die here.

I don't know why I feel that what I see is not Yuan'an City, everything here makes me unfamiliar, I know that Yuan'an is very prosperous, but what I see here is not prosperity but pollution.

I knew very well that this time I would never see it.

And that's how we missed it.

Gardenia's diary is gone, and on June 4, 2014, I went to find Gardenia, both of us missed it, and we both saw a different world.

I saw a thick journal on the table, and I remembered the diary, which Gardenia used to remember things, and she wanted to write everything down.

Now that she thinks about it, she must know that she doesn't have much to live, so she wants to write everything down.

I gently opened the diary and flipped to April 2, 2012, the day I first met her on my second visit to Anding Village.

Tonight, I met Mu Ze unexpectedly, it was a high heart, because he came back, but he forgot everything, he forgot who I was, who gave him the gardenia necklace, and forgot the fact that I couldn't see the stars.

I don't know why he forgets, but a lot of times I want to forget things so that I can feel better.

April 3, 2012

Mu Ze transferred to our class, Yu Shu and Yu Ting also saw it, but they didn't have anything, I know that they haven't forgotten, they haven't forgotten our agreement, but they can't go back to the past, maybe they already knew that Mu Ze had forgotten.

In the years after Mu Ze left, the three of us didn't mention him, because we didn't want to upset anyone, but not mentioning it doesn't mean forgetting.

May 1, 2012

Today I lied to my grandmother, and I told her that I liked it and didn't want to go anywhere.

Yes, I like Anding Village, I like all the people in Anding Village, I like everything in Anding Village, it's just that I don't want to leave,