When I no longer have any attachment to my children, my life has become much easier, but there is hopelessness in this relaxation, and that feeling can only be experienced by myself when I dream back at midnight.

According to the requirements of the old Chinese medicine doctor, I have developed a strict exercise plan, no longer lying in bed every morning, no longer going out and taking a bouncing (a three-wheeled motorcycle) to the unit. Get up at half past six every morning, drink a glass of warm water at about 40 degrees, dress up and dress up at about 7 o'clock, and then walk slowly to the unit, clapping your hands up and down while walking. It took about 30 minutes to walk to the unit, and I started to eat in the unit cafeteria after about 10 minutes of rest, and I was refreshed all morning. Eat on time at the unit at noon, try to avoid socializing, cancel all entertainment at night, walk home, and go to bed on time at 11 o'clock.

Two months have passed and my spirits are much better. Although life is a lot monotonous, the days are refreshing. Although the Chinese medicine is bitter, I gradually like to drink the Chinese medicine, and every sip is a punishment for not caring for my body in the past, and I am going to see the beautiful old Chinese medicine doctor at the right time, and I am full of joy.

At this stall, the unit organizes a trip to Hainan, and I can bring my family, and I just want to go out for a walk. I put the matter of catching the medicine in the back.

The trip to Hainan was very happy, and we were a group of five families. The fifteenth day of the Lunar New Year was also spent in Hainan.

The beautiful scenery of Sanya made me linger, and in the Nanshan Temple in Sanya, everyone worshiped the Nanhai Guanyin and made a wish. I didn't go in, but I folded my hands and looked reverently at the Nanhai Guanyin standing in the sea, and silently made a wish in my heart. I confessed my past to Nanhai Guanyin, and I prayed to Nanhai Guanyin to give me a chance to repent and give me a child, as long as I am healthy, and nothing else. After meditating in my heart, I let out a long sigh, knowing that I was too extravagant, smiled bitterly, and left with everyone. Happy time is always too short, in a blink of an eye we are going back to Chang'an, farewell to the beautiful phoenix flower, farewell to the ends of the earth, we flew home.

After resting at home for two days, the old Chinese medicine doctor and I went to grab medicine in the afternoon. I deliberately cleaned myself up, combed my short black hair neatly, applied a little powder, put on bright lipstick, put on a smart little suit, put on a woolen coat, stepped on 9-inch high heels, and happily went to the hospital. Seeing the beautiful old Chinese medicine practitioner, I gave a small gift bought from Hainan, she was very happy, praised me for having a heart, and praised me for looking much better, but criticized me for seeing Chinese medicine without makeup. I hurriedly said that I would never dare to stink beauty next time.

I sat opposite Dr. Gong, she gently put her fingers on my wrist, only to see her frown slightly, her fingers were heavier, and then looked at my face, opened a list, and said let's do a urine test. I was a little uneasy to see the change in her expression and asked her what was wrong. She smiled and said, "Let's go for a test first." I staggered to the door, and she laughed behind me: "You don't get tired in such high heels." I looked back and smiled and said, "Tall, pad." She shook her head with a smile and said: I'm afraid I'll have to put it away in the future.

The urine test came out, and I was stunned when I saw it, I was actually pregnant, how could this be?

I hurriedly took the list to Dr. Gong's office, and she sighed softly and said, "It would be nice to postpone it for a few months." I was overwhelmed by the sudden good news. I had my mouth half open, not knowing what to say. Doctor Gong smiled and said, "Since you have it, hurry up and go home and raise it." The high heels were changed immediately when I got home. If there is something to call, she said that she wrote me her phone number, and I quickly said thank you. There was a patient in her office, and I quickly exited.

I sat on a bench outside the clinic, took off my heels, and carried them in my hands. I called my husband and asked him to pick me up quickly. He happened to be busy, far away, and he wouldn't be able to come back for a while. I said okay, you go home early today, I have something important to tell you, and hung up.

I walked through the corridors of the hospital and out of the hospital gates, carrying high heels and barefoot. The people around me looked at me with strange eyes, I didn't care, I lost myself in the irrepressible excitement, as if only the soul was moving forward. I walked cautiously, I felt that I was not myself, and there was another life in my body, and I don't know when it quietly came into my life, which made me feel very surprised.

Walking to the entrance of the hospital, I took a taxi and went straight home.

I didn't come back to my senses when I got home, and sat quietly on the sofa for a long time. The feeling of being in a desperate situation made my whole body feel unreal. I put my hands on my stomach, I wanted to feel the presence of life, my eyes were full of tears, I felt how God favored me, gave me hope, made me repent.

I sat quietly like this, I don't know how long I sat there, and I was awakened by the sound of the door opening, and my husband came back. He anxiously asked me what was going on, I looked at him and said, "I'm pregnant." He looked at me in surprise: his eyes widened, as if he didn't understand what I was saying. I repeated: I'm pregnant. He relented, sat down beside me, looked me in the eye and said, "Really?" I nodded.

My husband is also happy, but he is not half as obsessed as me, and he can't do anything in a daze.

My husband asked me if I was hungry, and I came back to reality like a ghost, I was really hungry.

My husband went out shopping, and I lay in bed, imagining that I would look like a pregnant woman tomorrow, and I must be careful when walking, but also pay attention to nutrition, and I am full of hope for the future.

After drinking the fish soup boiled by my husband, I lay down and fell asleep, and soon fell asleep.

I had a strange dream: I came to a place, that place was full of beautiful flowers, bunches of flowers, purple and red, all colors, I had never seen such a beautiful sea of flowers, suddenly my feet were soft, I looked down, a little silver white snake was at my feet, I screamed, I ran away, but I couldn't run, the little snake chased after me. At this time, my dream suddenly divided into two dreams, one dream was in reality, I ran too fast, it seemed to be bleeding, I was scared into a cold sweat, screamed and fainted. At this moment, my husband shook me and asked me urgently: What's wrong with you, wake up quickly! I sat up suddenly, cried loudly, and shouted at my husband: I am bleeding, the child is gone. Hurriedly check the pajama pants. The pajama pants were clean and there was nothing. I breathed a sigh of relief, and it turned out to be a dream, a strange dream.

I let out a long breath and slowly lay down, closing my eyes, still palpitating.