I don't know why, every time I fall out of love, the first person I think of is always Haozi. Lying on the bed, I involuntarily dialed Haozi's phone, and before I could speak, Haozi had already guessed my thoughts: "Dead Bei, lost love again?"

I was slightly stunned, Haozi has become a roundworm in my stomach, and it is not good to go on like this: "How do you know?" I asked subconsciously.

"I've seen your space. Haozi said unhurriedly on the other end of the phone.

After making trouble for a long time, it turned out that QQ Space betrayed me, and I couldn't help but breathe a long sigh of relief. This damn Haozi, I almost thought he was Zhuge Kongming who was like a god.

"Well, you're alright. Seeing that I didn't squeak for a long time, Haozi couldn't help but ask, and I could hear that Haozi's tone was worried.

"Hehe, it's okay! It's just a scene, and I have no feelings for her, so I'm sorry!" I pretended to hide it easily.

I don't know when I learned to be hypocritical. In fact, in my heart, I can't deny the relationship between myself and Huang Xin at all, otherwise I wouldn't have tried to keep it again and again. After all, it is human nature for two people to be together for so long.

"It's okay!" Haozi's voice paused, as if hesitating, "You...... Do you want to know about Lele?"

"Lele?" Haozi's words touched a sensitive nerve in my heart, and I couldn't help but repeat the familiar and unfamiliar name, and then sat up from the bed.

"En......" Haozi wanted to speak and stopped.

"She's going to be doing well...... "I can imagine how popular a girl like Lele is in college, and no matter what, she's definitely doing better than me."

"No!" Hiroko interrupted me from talking to myself, and although his voice was soft, I could hear it clearly, "I'm in the same school as Lele, and she's not been doing well lately. ”

"What's wrong?" I was surprised.

"You have broken up for more than half a year, Lele has always been single, and there are ......" Halfway through the words, Haozi's voice suddenly disappeared on the other end of the phone.

Lele didn't find another boyfriend, and the news shocked me, or I couldn't believe it. And Haozi's words made me feel a little nervous inexplicably, and I couldn't help but raise my voice: "What else?"

"Hey, Xiaobei, it's late! Can you make a quiet call!" Zhang Tao from the lower bunk kicked my bed board vigorously, probably woken up by my shouting.

In order not to disturb my roommate's sleep, I got out of bed and walked out of the dormitory, to the end of the hallway.

After waiting in the corridor for almost 1 minute, Haozi's voice finally sounded: "Dead Bei, I'm sorry, the counselor came to check the ward just now." ”

"What else did you just say?" I asked anxiously.

"Well, there's ...... And Lele has recently ...... Seems to be in poor health lately, forehead...... It doesn't seem to be said to be sick, anyway, it's common for her to take sick leave. On the phone, Haozi didn't know how to describe Lele's current situation to me.

"That'...... Then it doesn't matter if she wants to be fine, will she be fine?" I suddenly became a little overwhelmed.

"She didn't change her number, if you want to know, just ask her yourself!By the way, and! I don't know why you broke up in the first place, but I can see that she still cares about you......" Haozi lowered her voice and continued.

Hiroko's words made my already chaotic heart even more confused.

There was a light rain outside, lying on the guardrail at the end of the corridor, I looked down at the call history of my phone, and it seemed that there had been no Lele's name in it for a long time. My fingers wandered aimlessly over the keyboard of my phone, but even with all my strength, I still couldn't press the small call button.

"You're a man of no courage!" I told myself,

Although more than half a year has passed, the past is as clear and vague as yesterday, and Lele's resolute voice involuntarily echoed in my ears:

"Xiaobei, I think we should break up. ”

"Points...... Break up?Lele, you're not kidding, are you?"

"I'm serious, Li Xiaobei, let's break up. ”

"Why?"

"How can there be so many whys...... If you don't like it, you won't be together!"

"You have to give me a reason!"

"I ...... I don't love you anymore!

"It's not enough! You were the one who said you loved me! Now it's you who says you don't love me! You look me in the eye!"

"Don't be like this! At the beginning, it was the beginning! Now is now! Li Xiaobei, you are not self-motivated, you only know how to play games all day long! I ...... I don't love you anymore!"

......

That day, it seemed to be raining like this, Lele, do you remember?

Finally, I still dialed Lele's phone: "Hey, Lele is me." There was a long silence on the other end of the phone, maybe Lele was still thinking about how to refuse me, after all, the call was really abrupt.

"Lele, I'm Xiaobei!" Lele's silence made me feel very uncomfortable, I would rather hear her categorical refusal at this moment than wait like this.

"Xiaobei, I'm still a hot girl!" I didn't think about it, but just when I was about to give up, Lele suddenly made a joke.

For a moment, I didn't know how to continue.

Fortunately, Lele took over the conversation: "Li Xiaobei, how can you have time to call me today? I thought you had a new love, and you ......forgot about me a long time ago" After laughing, Lele changed back to a low mood.

"Lele, I'...... I miss you. I rubbed my slightly sour nose.

"Oh, what, I broke up with my girlfriend, and I was empty, so you remembered me again?" Lele's tone was unusually cold, as if it was a piece of ice that would not melt for a thousand years.

Lele, you left me speechless.

"It's all right, it's okay, then I'll hang up......" After waiting for a while, seeing that I didn't mean to continue talking, Lele was ready to hang up.

"Wait a minute!" ......I almost yelled.

Lele took a deep breath and said, "Eh, then you say, I'll listen." ”

In an instant, tears came out of my eyes, and my efforts failed to control the tears after all, I tried not to make a choked sound, bit my lip, and said with difficulty: "Tomorrow...... I'll come back to you tomorrow. ”

"No need, we've already broken up......" Lele's words were a little weak.

"No, I'll come to your school tomorrow to find you!" I was afraid that Lele would refuse, so I couldn't wait for her to reply, so I couldn't wait to hang up the phone. It wasn't until I hung up the phone that I suddenly remembered that the most important thing was that I hadn't had time to ask Lele just now, and it seemed that I could only wait until we met tomorrow.

People have two faces, one to face others and the other to face themselves. Usually in front of others, no one can see my vulnerability and sadness. But even if you can deceive others, you still can't deceive yourself.

The night was very late.

(2010.9.7 This chapter has been revised)