This winter rain has been falling for several days, without the slightest sign of stopping, and under the blowing of the icy cold wind, it is even more deep in people's hearts.

Pushing open the window, the wind and rain rushed in frantically through the small gaps, and the cold air instantly filled the entire room. I don't know if that already cold heart can still tolerate the cold of the ice and rain, and I don't know how much more I can withstand the cold of this deep winter. I just stood motionless in front of the window, letting the cold rain lap on my face, and my eyes became a haze......

However, this rain will eventually stop, just as life still has to go on.

When you miss someone, even if it's uncomfortable, at least there is a concern. But one day, when I stop thinking about anyone, those things, those people, naturally there will be no meaning in the slightest. Without hesitation, I deleted all the photos about Lele in the computer, which has nothing to do with the mood, I just want to forget all the good things that used to be......

Time passed quietly between my fingers, and the days passed in a flash, and I inadvertently came to 2009.

The newborn sun was as red as a ball of blood, which made people feel extremely dazzling. Last night, my friend was in a bad mood, and chatted with her in QQ until more than three o'clock in the morning, and then listened to the song on the computer until dawn, and it was a sleepless night. Lying on my desk tiredly, reading the novel on my phone restlessly, my swollen eyes couldn't help but feel a faint pain.

Chen Yuan and Zhang Qi had already moved back to the dormitory in the first semester of their junior year, and it was too lonely to live outside alone, so when the next semester started, I followed back to the dormitory. After all, living in a dormitory doesn't make you feel as lonely as you do when you're outside.

And in the past six months, a lot has happened. I chose to quit the student council picket department, anyway, there is no ability to exercise in it, most of the time I have nothing to do, and it is not a good thing to quit. In fact, you don't have to join any club to get exercise, there are many other ways.

I don't know when I became obsessed with finding some sense of déjà vu in my life. Although I often remind myself that everything is in the past, more often than not, I still live in the past, in the virtual world of the game......

I'm used to staring at the game interface every day, and I miss the busy but fulfilling years of high school. Suddenly I felt that I was really ridiculous, it seemed that I had never been so decadent since I was a child, and everything that was absent from school and failing school seemed to have become a matter of course. 24 hours a day, at least 80% of the time is spent in the dormitory bed, often even forgetting to eat. Perhaps the meaning of life has completely disappeared since Lele left.

Accustomed to deception, he accepted the lie and never believed in love again. But in the deepest corner of my heart, there is a voice that keeps reminding me that I still love Lele.

Lele, maybe you will never know that when I once thought I loved you the most, I actually didn't love you enough. At that time, I always ignored you in the most corner, forgetting your existence. Probably that's why you got disappointed in me and ended up leaving me behind and following my parents to Spain.

But isn't your choice the result I wanted the most?

Lele, it wasn't until you left that I realized that my love for you had already reached the extreme. But I realized all this too late, and the distance forcibly separated the two hearts of you and me forever in two very different countries. Maybe it's only when my eyes are closed that I feel like you're still with me.

I can keep myself from thinking about you, but I can't stop the tears from falling.

After class, the students packed up their luggage and went to the student street to take the car, tomorrow is May Day, although the country canceled the Golden Week, but almost everyone still habitually chose to go home, except for me.

My mother always complained that I was not a lover child, and I never even took the initiative to call home, but I knew that it was just that I didn't know how to express it.

During the holidays, the dormitory was empty, a little less noisy in the past, but a little more rare quiet, sitting alone in front of the bed, quietly facing the computer.

"I will always wake up my night,

Lift up tomorrow without you.

The wheat fields under the terrace that refuse to go home,

Peek at the happy faces of you and me in the photo.

Who has not broken for love,

Crying red innocent face without the world,

I have long understood, but I am unwilling

I just want to find someone to accompany me,

But it's so hard.

How far is forever?

Will we become immortals?

I'm desperately chasing,

Learn to fly,

And how can they catch up with your lies?

How far is it to tell eternity?

It shouldn't be just a little bit,

You've said it a thousand times to a hundred people,

Don't take any more risks for the sake of eternity.

will always wake up his own night,

Open up tomorrow without you,

The so-called eternity is just a moment......"

QQ Music was playing Chen Feiping's classic old song "How Far Is Forever", and the fresh and bright voice made my heart hurt for no reason.

"Becky, if there is a ...... day"

For a moment, it was as if I had returned to that winter, to that Christmas tree.

"Becky, I'...... I'm just wondering if ...... If there really is a day...... How long can you remember me?"

"It will be forever...... Forever. ”

……

I said to myself, "I don't want to lose you, I never want to lose you......"

Lele, do you know, since the moment I met you, I have known that you are my eternal concern and waiting for you in this life. Throughout history, many people have asked the same question: How far away is eternity?

I've asked myself countless times in my heart.

Maybe it's never too far away, forever until you don't love me anymore, but I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing for me.

If yesterday is forever, then is our promise not a gaffe, and if tomorrow is the end of the world, is our love enough for eternity?

After thinking about it for a while, my brain couldn't help but swell and ache, and I accidentally glanced at the empty water cup next to the computer monitor, and my mouth was dry, so I was ready to get out of bed and pour water. But just before getting out of bed, I unexpectedly clicked on the QQ mailbox that I hadn't touched for half a year.

There was an email from Lele in the mailbox, dated January 6, 2009......

(2010.10.21 This chapter has been revised)