The child is growing up, and our savings are getting less and less, so I can't sit back and eat nothing, I discussed with Xuejiao that I go out to find some work to do, and I can earn less if I don't earn much, and I can always have a source of income in the future. At first, Xuejiao also disagreed, saying that I went out to work without cooking, no one to clean up the housework, and I couldn't take care of the children by myself. But I slowly agreed, what can I do if I don't go out, there are so many fixed expenses for a year, and it is property fees, heating fees, electricity, water, gas bills, living in the city, and I can't walk without money. Maybe the people at the bottom are like this, they are reluctant to take a day off, they are working hard from the beginning to the end of the year, but they can only support their families after working all their lives. It's not rich.

I got a job delivering food so that I could earn money and take care of my family, and my BMW car was also attached to the wedding company, so that I could earn some milk powder money for my children when I got out of the car. Xuejiao doesn't know how to cook, I try to cook as much as possible every time I cook, especially meat, make braised pork, make a big pot, put it in a jar, put it in the refrigerator to keep it fresh, and you can eat it for a few days if you cook it once. I also learned how to pickle pickles, and when winter came, I would buy a lot of white turnips and carrots, cut them into strips and dry them, and pickle them in a jar, and I would spend very little money on a bunch of cucumbers, all of which were bad-looking, with big heads and toes, or the kind of cucumbers that were thin in the middle of the two drums, and used to pickle them. Sometimes I pickle some spicy cabbage, so that we can eat fresh vegetables in the winter.

I get up early in the morning, I cook a pot of porridge, let Xue Jiao drink porridge, sometimes Xue Jiao complains, let me drink porridge every day, I want to eat meat, now the living conditions are better, no matter how poor people want to eat meat, they can afford to buy meat. I'm afraid that if I don't do it myself, or I can't do it, I can't do what I bought, or I can't make it delicious, it's just not blessed. Blessings come from one's own struggle. I told Xue Jiao these words, Xue Jiao couldn't listen to them, her thoughts were deep-rooted, women are here to enjoy happiness, and they have to be kind to themselves, so Xue Jiao didn't eat a mouthful of leftovers. And I was eating some leftovers every day, and I had a stomach ache after eating it. Sometimes I also think about how good it would be if Xue Jiao could also do something, and also clean up the housework, when I was tired after a day, I could comfort me when I got home, cook me a meal, and rely on me. Whenever I express my wish to Xue Jiao, Xue Jiao will say, why should I cook, I have never cooked, I don't like to cook, I don't want to do things I don't like, and I don't like to become a yellow-faced old woman so quickly. Well, I do all this, for the sake of my family, but also for the sake of my children, I work hard and tired. Once I was so tired that I fell asleep on the sofa after cooking at night, Xuejiao called me over and over again to eat, eat, and shouted that I just wanted to get angry. Another time, Xue Jiao and the child finished eating, let me clean up the dishes and chopsticks, I was tired and sat on the sofa and fell asleep, Xue Jiao shouted over and over again, go to brush the dishes, go to brush the dishes, see that I didn't move, just come and pull me, pull me down on the sofa, and pull me to the ground, I can feel that she is very angry, pick up a basin of water and sprinkle it on me, I got up, looked at Xue Jiao, said I may have a cold, and then went to brush the dishes, how I hope Xue Jiao can care about me and buy me some cold medicine.

These are all trivial things, the most terrible thing is that Xue Jiao still hasn't broken the habit of spending money, and it is difficult for this family to maintain without money. Once she spent more than 1,000 to buy a pair of Nike shoes, I was a little upset and told her that we have children now and have no stable income, so we should save some money and not buy such expensive shoes. She didn't understand at all, and asked me, why? I used to wear these kinds of shoes, and I said that I had 1,000 yuan, why didn't I buy 1,000 yuan shoes, and some people didn't have the money to repay the loan for consumption, let alone I had money. I didn't spend any money. I told Xue Jiao that she had to save some flowers to live. Xue Jiao was not convinced, saying that she was already very provincial, where could she save no matter how much she saved, no matter how much she saved, she couldn't save money in food and clothing, and she couldn't save money. You see, a relative of mine in the countryside saved a lifetime, and when her son got married and bought a house, she took out the money, and it was not enough for even a fraction, so the money was spent, and it was money, and if there was money, it had to be spent.

Bad thoughts and concepts, maybe most girls are like this, Xuejiao is not an exception. In their hearts, wives are used for pain, not for housework, and women must be kind to themselves and make themselves happy. A woman's hands cannot be used to wash clothes, and washing clothes can hurt hands.

Sometimes I'm tired, or I'm in a bad mood, and the food I cook is unpalatable, or I don't have the appetite of Xuejiao, and Xuejiao won't eat a bite. I asked her, what do you eat. Sometimes I say that I want to eat Western food, as if I have obsessive-compulsive disorder. I'm most afraid of festivals, especially foreign festivals. I don't know how to spend the foreign festival, but Xuejiao understands it very well. If I don't understand where I am, we'll fight, every time we have a holiday. Xuejiao is a little westernized, celebrating the foreign festival and eating Western food, whenever I cook the soup during the foreign festival, I don't eat the food I cook, I say that it is not right to eat these on the festival, I am very sad in my heart, and I can't be recognized for my hard work. I often say to her, you almost can't do it. Xue Jiao often says to me, if you have something to do, you can fool you, you fool everything, you fool the ghost.

For the sake of the child, but also for the sake of this family, I insisted, everything else is easy to say, due to physical and mental exhaustion, I can't satisfy Xue Jiao in that regard, Xue Jiao said that I am a man. How I hope Xue Jiao can be considerate of me and give me a little care, but don't say that at this point, in other aspects, Xue Jiao is also a person who is almost not good at all, and almost can't get by. The two of us haven't been intimate for a long time, once I made love to Xue Jiao, Xue Jiao didn't react, but it happened that it was this short intimacy, Xue Jiao was pregnant.

After knowing that Xue Jiao was pregnant, I worked harder, but the money I could earn was still not enough to spend. The eldest is three years old, almost in kindergarten, and now Xuejiao is pregnant again, I still want to keep this child, sometimes I want to ask God, why make me so painful, so helpless. I insist on this family, but Xuejiao, you are also the child's mother, even if you sweep the floor and wash the child's clothes after you get up, I will be very pleased. And you say that I am not sunny at all, then you can give me a little sunshine, let me feel the warmth of home, and give me a little sunshine reason. If I come home from work and see that the floor is clean, the child is not crying, and the food is hot, even if it is hot leftovers, I will smile, you know I have a stomach problem. But when did you ever care about my health? You only care about yourself, what kind of woman should be good to herself, do you know how many families have been harmed by those poisonous chicken soups. I really don't know how long I can hold on now, I'm also a young person, a young man your age, why do I have to bear so much. Sometimes I sigh at the unfairness of fate, but who can pity me, I really hope that you, for the sake of your children, will not pay attention to your figure in the future, eat more, let your children have enough milk to eat, don't care about your hands anymore, your hands are also used to make money to support the family's labor hands.

I don't want to see your big watery eyes and puzzled looks, and I'm sure you won't be confused anymore when this family is exhausted. Every time I ask you to save some money, you will cry and say how to save for so little money, and you will know how important money is later. You will learn how to value your life and how fragile life is. The day of exhaustion will soon come, and when the second child is born, the family can no longer afford to be hospitalized, and the eldest is still waiting to be fed. I had no choice but to steal, I learned to steal.

When people are at the end of their rope, they will always lose their minds or come up with more solutions. I came up with all kinds of ways to burglary, and only stole gold, not cash, after entering the room, I didn't mess things up, and I wore shoe covers when I entered the door, and I silently thought in my heart, I just borrowed, and I had to pay back the money when I had it. And I only steal from my peers, let's say a newly married family. The continuous crimes made me rich, and my wife gave birth to a second child smoothly. Now I have two children, the eldest is three years old, the second one has just been born, and the eldest has successfully entered the kindergarten with money.