Chen Yueru was slapped by me, her cheeks were high and red and swollen, and she stared at me in disbelief.

At this time, everyone's response in the past was concerned and echoed, but now it has all turned into ridicule and ridicule for her.

"Look at Chen Yueru like that!"

"Do you really think there is still the majesty of the past?"

Chen Yueru's face flushed in these voices.

She and I both knew that her momentum was gone.

How she mocked Chen Xi before, now it is double on her.

and thou shalt not live.

A few days before the final exam, Chen Yueru couldn't stand the school violence and dropped out.

This was the ending I liked, but after so many things, my state of mind has already changed.

I didn't have any thoughts about it, I always felt empty.

Chen Xi's jumping off the building has become a wound in my heart that will never heal.

After school that day, Zheng Xinguang accompanied me to relax.

He looked at me sullenly, found a topic and said: "Juanzi, the arts and sciences will be divided into subjects soon, I am preparing to choose science, what are you going to choose? Judging from your grades, you prefer more liberal arts." ”

I listened to him and lost my mind.

In the past, before everything happened, Chen Xi and I had agreed to go to liberal arts together.

At that time, she smiled shyly and said, "I like history, so I want to study liberal arts." ”

The reality is the scene of the beautiful expectations of the past being shattered little by little, and the thought of this makes my heart suddenly suffocated, followed by endless silence.

Zheng Xinguang saw my face that had calmed down for another moment, and knew that I remembered Chen Xi again, so he didn't speak again.

The pent-up emotions in my heart swelled up in an instant, and I desperately wanted to find an outlet.

I suddenly said, "I killed Chen Xi."

"If I hadn't dragged Chen Xi to see Fang Zhiwen that day, nothing would have happened after that. ”

The faster I spoke, the faster I spoke, and when I got to the last sentence, a roar of pain erupted in my throat: "I am the culprit!"

As soon as these words came out, my body trembled, tears flowed from my eyes, and my emotions collapsed again.

Zheng Xinguang had been looking at me worriedly, and when he saw me like this, he immediately hugged me tightly and soothed my broken emotions over and over again.

He whispered, "Juanzi, it's not your fault. If the incident you said hadn't happened, under the circumstances at that time, Chen Xi might still not be able to think about it. We don't expect that to happen......"

“...... It's not your fault. ”

I listened to his reassurance and just kept crying.

Maybe it's true as Zheng Xinguang said, I can comfort myself in my heart that it's not my fault, but my paranoia makes me blame myself for all the faults.

I wiped away my tears, raised my head, and asked Zheng Xinguang, "Am I a terrible person?"

Zheng Xinguang saw through the deep self-blame in my eyes, and his eyes were full of distress for a while.

He shook his head and said, "Chen Xi definitely doesn't want you to be like this. ”

When I heard this, I wiped my tears from my eyes, as if I was laughing rather than laughing, as if crying instead of crying.

Chen Xi, what should I do now? When I really lost you, I realized that it was you who decided my life.

At the end of the semester, my classmates were saying goodbye to separation, and I was the only one silently packing up my things.

Now that Chen Xi is gone, there is no one to talk to me anymore, and I no longer have the heart to deal with people with different minds in the class.

I watched Chen Xi's position for a long time, and the pictures of the two of us getting along in the past flashed in my mind one by one.

"Li Juan, have you had breakfast? If you haven't eaten it, I have buns here, which I bought from a store I like very much, do you want to try them?"

I remember that it was when I was at the same table with Chen Xichu, and I happened to have no breakfast that day, and my stomach was rumbling, which was heard by Chen Xi.

At that time, I was a little embarrassed, but Chen Xi didn't laugh at me at all, but intimately pretended that he wanted to eat steamed buns, took out breakfast from his schoolbag, and divided half of it with me.

I was a little surprised, but looking at Chen Xi's harmless smile, I still took it with a smile.

When I took a bite, I still can't forget the aroma of the meat.

"Chen Xi, why did you do this question wrong? But it just so happens that I will do this question, let me tell you about it. "It was the first time I took the exam, and I had a pretty good relationship with Chen Xi at that time.

When I was looking at the test paper, I glanced at her, and I couldn't help but want to help her.

Chen Xi looked at me, a little embarrassed, but also smiled and nodded vigorously.

"Thank you. ”

When Chen Yueru bullied me with the power of the squad leader, Chen Xi did not dodge, but stood firmly with me and opposed Chen Yueru.

I was a little surprised by her bravery, but Chen Xi said to me quietly but firmly: "Juanzi, it's okay, there are two of us, these things will definitely pass." ”

......

In a trance, I seemed to see Chen Xi smiling at me shyly again.

Her smile, simple and flawless, as always.

I cried and laughed, looking at the empty seats, and was stupid like a madman.

I have never missed Chen Xi so much like this moment, and my heart was filled with sadness and the beauty of memories for a while.

Finally, I whispered into the empty seat, "Goodbye." ”

Then I walked out of the door of Class 3 with my bookcase and stood at the door number for a long time.

In the first (3rd) class of high school, there are not only my happiest times, but also my most painful memories.

I met a girl named Chen Xi here.

She was the one who colored my memories.

In the end, all emotions turned into reluctance.

I will always remember that in this class, I met a girl named Chen Xi.

This winter seems to be exceptionally cold, and the winter holidays are exceptionally long.

Because I lost someone I cherished, I didn't have any intention of having fun for a while, so I simply put my mind on studying.

I read every day and occasionally went out with my mom to buy groceries.

Seeing my increasingly silent appearance, my mother said with some distress: "Juanzi, you haven't changed your clothes for a long time, and it's about to be the Spring Festival, I'll take you to buy new clothes." ”

I looked at my old clothes, I really didn't have the heart to dress up again, shook my head and said, "No need." ”

As I walked back to my room, as the door closed, I heard my mom sigh softly outside.

The Spring Festival is coming soon, and I don't have too many thoughts about this festive festival in my heart.

When the sound of firecrackers rang out outside, I saw Zheng Xinguang on the balcony.

He grinned and said to me, "In the new year, Juanzi should be happy. ”