A new week arrived as scheduled, and Monday was another good day.

It's almost April, the sun comes out earlier than before, and the window of Yuanjia's room is facing east, and it is already bright at this time.

At 6:50 a.m., he had already opened his eyes, and the alarm clock was fifteen minutes ahead of him.

When I woke up, I didn't get up immediately, but I lay in bed and waited for something.

One minute, two minutes...... Ten minutes later, seven o'clock sharp.

The ringtone of the mobile phone rings from small to large, not an alarm tone, but a phone sound.

Remarks: Gardenia.

That's right, it's Gardenia's call.

Yuan Jia rolled over and sat up, and three seconds later, the phone was connected.

"Meta... Yuanjia ......"

"Well, good morning, Gardenia. ”

"Early... Morning... Good ......"

Yuan Jia could hear Gardenia's nervousness on the phone, as if she could see her current appearance on the phone.

She must be so anxious that she scratches her ears and cheeks, but if she can make this call, it is a very big improvement!

Yuan Jia had to step by step to get her out of her comfort zone while expanding her safe zone, which was the core of desensitization therapy, otherwise the effort would remain verbal forever.

This is the first time Xu Nanyu has called someone else in so long.

Gardenia had woken up an hour earlier, and had been thinking about what to do with the call.

I was so nervous that I felt like I was going to take the college entrance examination.

Fortunately, Yuan Jia gave her exam answers last night, and even helped her think of the lines, she only needed to say five words in total, 'Good morning Yuan Jia', just like she would say to Yuan Jia in QQ every morning.

Gardenia's energy is manifested in action, her palms are sweating nervously, and she keeps telling herself that this is what she wants to do, she wants to talk to Yuanjia on the phone, to say hello to him in person, just like when she was studying, Yuanjia would say hello to her every day when she came to school.

"Yuanjia...... Good morning......"

Gardenia repeated, this time much more fluent than before.

Yuan Jia also smiled and replied: "Good morning, Gardenia." ”

Listening to Yuanjia's words, Gardenia was in a trance, as if she was in a dream, she really did it!

This kind of real-time telephone communication, as if the distance between the two was shortened in an instant, listening to his voice ringing in his ears, such a close sense of distance, made Gardenia's heart pound.

She hadn't been this close to someone in a long, long time.

And this is the boy she likes, and her challenge has received positive feedback and has tasted super sweetness.

"Yuanjia, good morning......"

She repeated it a third time, feeling dizzy and unreal, and at the same time full of anticipation, the initial nervousness had slowly faded, and only sweet happiness remained.

Yuanjia was not impatient, and also learned from her, and said softly: "Gardenia, good morning~"

Gardenia wanted to say something else to him, but her mind was mushy, and she didn't know what to say, so she clutched her phone tightly and struggled for a long time, and finally repeated: "Yuanjia, good morning." ”

It was as if she could only say these five words, but Yuan Jia had already heard a lot of content from these five words.

"You want to tell me that you're happy and have a lot of emotions that you can't express, right?"

"Well... I... I ......"

"Don't worry, you've already taken the first step! I feel full of energy now, your good morning has given me the energy of the day!"

Gardenia was listening to him, originally she was worried that she would be so clumsy, whether it would make him feel annoying, but listening to him say this, she was naturally relieved and no longer too entangled in her performance.

"Yuanjia ......"

Gardenia whispered his name.

"I'm here. ”

"Yuanjia... Good morning......"

"You too. ”

Yuan Jia could feel that Gardenia had a lot to say to him, just like a girl who couldn't wait to share her feelings, she had a basket of things to say, and she wanted to say things that she had been holding back for ten years, but she was too excited for a while, her mood was too complicated, and her brain couldn't turn a corner.

She hadn't spoken to anyone other than her parents in ten years, and she couldn't get used to the change for a while.

As she wrote in her diary last night, she really wanted to talk to Yuan Jia, she wanted to see him, but if she really stood in front of him suddenly, she would faint with excitement.

Gardenia couldn't say anything else, and she didn't want to hang up the phone, so she held the phone blankly and pressed it tightly to her ear.

Because I tried too hard, my soft pinna turned red.

The red rose from his neck, and his whole face was as red as a ripe tomato, and when the wind blew lightly, it was about to fall from the branches.

Just like the picture of the little raccoon she gave her on Yuan Jia's desktop, the little raccoon hid behind a big tree, it didn't dare to come out, but it carefully stretched out its little paws and touched Yuan Jia's fingertips.

"I'm very happy to receive your call, and now I'm going to pause today's call, let's go to QQ to talk. ”

"En......"

Her voice was very small and small, Yuan Jia didn't hesitate too much, and after counting to three, she hung up the phone, this process was also designed during the chat last night, not only designed Gardenia's lines, but also said who hung up the phone first, and only when the plan was so detailed, she wouldn't have too much pressure when she called.

Yuanjia had very low requirements for Gardenia, originally thinking that she could make this call today, even if it was successful, it didn't matter if he asked or not, so he also woke up early this morning and waited for her call.

But she didn't expect Gardenia's performance to be very good, she was naturally nervous, but she still greeted Yuanjia intermittently, and became more and more fluent.

After ending the call, Xu Nanyi breathed a big sigh of relief, this was the body's reaction, and he was quite reluctant in his consciousness, and even wanted to call Yuan Jia back immediately, like a little ant who had just tasted the sweetness, and couldn't wait to try again.

When I came back to my senses, I found that my palms were sweating a lot.

I got up and washed my hands and my face again, and when my emotions were completely calm, a great feeling of relaxation and success came over me.

It's like holding a banana fan and fanning out a large part of the dense fog around you, and it suddenly opens up.

Like a sprinter practicing with weights, he took off the sandbag on his body and jumped lightly, feeling so light that he was about to fly.

The mobile phone message light was on, and Gardenia hurriedly ran over to click on the message.

Yuanjia: "How do you feel now?"

Gardenia: "I'm so happy!!"

Gardenia had a lot of things to say on the phone just now, but she didn't say anything, so she chattered with Yuanjia at this moment.

She typed quickly, and at once she typed many, many words, all the words she wanted to say, but didn't say.

Gardenia: "Yuanjia, then I can't count this as a success..."

Yuan Jia: "Of course, are you still willing to call me?"

Of course Xu Xigua is willing!

The struggle between the self and the subconscious is a difficult thing to achieve.

For example, your subconscious mind thinks that 'water is poisonous', and your self-consciousness knows very well that water cannot be poisonous, but when you really hold water in your mouth, you can't swallow it, and your body's violent reaction will make you vomit immediately.

Gardenia's social phobia and agora fear both come from the subconscious, and she naturally knows better than anyone that the outside world is safe, but she just can't control her body's violent reactions.

The core of systematic desensitization therapy is to correct Gardenia's subconscious cognition little by little, a process that must be long and painful.

She is like a watermelon seedling growing in the ground, and she digs her roots deep into the soil for safety.

But even if the roots are deep, she is willing to cut off the roots little by little, and then run towards him with the big leaves.

Gardenia: "Yes!"

Gardenia: "Every day!"

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