Gu Lanzhi should have seen that video.

That video that made me feel undignified.

I remembered what I had said goodbye to him two months ago, and I didn't want to bother him anymore, so I didn't dare to reply to his text.

It's not that I don't want to go back, it's that I don't dare to go back

I also have a lot of missed calls on my phone.

Chu Xing, Yu Luoluo, Ji Nuan includes sister-in-law and so on.

I didn't reply to anyone, except to my sister-in-law.

The call was an international call.

This sister-in-law should still be sleeping.

I was about to hang up when my sister-in-law answered my phone, she called out to me, and said, "I heard about you." ”

I was speechless for a while, and just when I thought she was going to comfort me, she suddenly sighed: "Sheng'er, men are like this, they always think that what they are doing is right, but they don't know what we women need! ”

I muttered, "Sister-in-law." ”

"Chu Xing told me about you. ”

The sister-in-law's voice was filled with endless tiredness and said: "Gu Tingchen wants you to live, he would rather you hate him, he wants you to live, he thinks that you can live more than anything else! But I understand you, you would rather die than live like this, men always can't understand a point with women, so there is always a misunderstanding." ”

"Sister-in-law, some things are not something that can be relieved by a simple forgiveness, Gu Tingchen and I have come to an end whether we love it or not, and I can no longer convince myself to forgive him. ”

Gu Tingchen gave me the deepest love.

But at the same time, there is also the heaviest pain.

After all, love did not resist the pain he brought me.

"Sheng'er, I want you to be happy, no matter how you choose, I can understand, I hope you ...... I know that any persuasion I try will seem futile, but I hope that you will dare to love and hate in your future life, and if you can meet the right one again, you will be brave enough to go out!"

I was surprised and asked, "Sister-in-law advised me to love others?"

"I once had a heart for another man, and after your brother hurt me, he took care of me and accompanied me wholeheartedly, but I was useless, and I lost to your brother after all......! He's no longer in this world, and it's hard for me to open the knot with your brother again, and I can't convince myself to forgive him! But now I can't do without him, I'm useless, if I had been brave...... If I could have been braver, I wouldn't be ...... like this."

My sister-in-law's cry came from the phone, and I wanted to ask her what happened to Chu Xing, but I didn't want to uncover her scars again.

I reassured her and said, "Sister-in-law, we don't cry. ”

The sister-in-law was an extremely forgiving person, and she immediately stopped crying and whispered, "I want you to be happy." ”

Now I am cured.

But there is still a lack of love.

But there is no more possibility between me and Gu Tingchen.

And I don't want to love anyone else.

I love Gu Tingchen, that's a fact.

It didn't disappear because he hurt me.

But what do I love about him?

I didn't figure it out for a moment.

I never figured out how the man I followed nine years ago became Gu Tingchen, and then how he became Gu Lanzhi.

I replied, "I will be happy." ”

Even if I can't see the hope of happiness.

I hung up after chatting with my sister-in-law for a while, because I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about something terrible.

After a pause, I got up and grabbed my car keys and went out.

I don't know where to go, I don't have anywhere to go.

I drove the car around Wucheng casually, I don't know why I came to the teaching building back then, and I vaguely seemed to hear the sad piano music.

Gu Lanzhi.

I always wonder if if I hadn't recognized the wrong person back then, would my life have been a different life?

I remembered the song I listened to in the corridor—

Someone as good as me,

should have lived a brilliant life.

......

If it weren't for Gu Tingchen, my life would have been very bright.

Xiao Wu is right, I am the most powerful woman in Wucheng, and my life is brilliant and gorgeous.

It's like this, Ambilight is brilliant and gorgeous.

But how did you meet Gu Tingchen?!

Why do you live so embarrassed?

I couldn't figure it out, and the more I thought about it, the more painful it became.

I sighed and let the tears roll down my cheeks, I wanted to cry again tonight and never be bullied by anyone again!

Never be hurt by love again!

Faintly, the sound of a piano could be heard upstairs.

It's getting clearer and clearer.

It's the song "The Street Where the Wind Lives"

I was stunned, and the piano stopped abruptly.

Not long after, a man came out of the stairs, his arms lazily propped up on the balcony, staring at me with pity.

He was so dazzling under the dark night and starry sky.

I once said that the vast stars in his eyes are the pure land that I can never reach, the distant shore of my life.

I muttered, "Gu Lanzhi." ”

"Little girl, why are you crying?"

This situation is very familiar.

In the same place, in the same position, he looked at me from the top down, and I looked at him from the bottom up.

It was raining heavily that day, but he clearly asked me why I was crying.

He can always see my mind at a glance.

He knew me so well.

He's so much loved by me.

Even I'm willing to spend my whole life......

But how can this be the case now?

I don't understand, and the more I think about it, the more depressed I become.

I denied it and laughed and said, "I didn't cry." ”

Tears poured out, but I said I didn't cry.

I'm such a person who talks nonsense with my eyes open.

He bent slightly over his arms on the balcony, the moonlight poured down on him, and I seemed to hear the street where the wind dwells again, echoing in my heart, in the depths of my distant heart.

He asked me pitifully, "Are you sad?"

I shook my head and denied, "I'm not sad. ”

My heart is like ashes.

Suddenly, he called out my name, "Shi Sheng." ”

I looked at him stubbornly, "Huh?"

The vast stars in his eyes were so bright and brilliant that he stood still like a painting, and I heard his gentle voice suddenly say, "I came here to look for you nine years ago. ”

I know, Yu Luoluo told me.

I was silent, staring at him with tears on my face.

He said in a warm and jade-like voice: "I have looked for you, I have looked for you without hesitation, just like you have followed me for nine years, I have kept you in my heart for nine years, and when I see you again...... You're my brother's ex-wife, and you've mistaken me for Tingchen. ”

I know that it was snowing that night, and he put that apricot-colored scarf around me and sent me home.

That night was the most tender he had ever been to me.

I will never forget it for the rest of my life.

"When I saw you again, I saw you lying quietly on the bed, pale and lifeless, and I am very fortunate that your will, you made it clear to me that your nine years of love were wrong. ”

I was at a loss and said: "Gu Lanzhi's ......"

"Little girl, I've been waiting for you here. ”