(3) The beginning of crushing
Ling Feng came back early because he had to take a graduation photo at his original school and go through some other formalities for going abroad, so in the next two days, Su Mu and he basically didn't see each other, and Ling Feng didn't tell Su Mu his specific itinerary, so Su Mu naturally didn't know who Ling Feng was with, at what time, and what he did. So when Ling Feng called Su Mu, and there were many girls' voices on the other side of the phone, and some of them were talking to Ling Feng, Su Mu felt very disgusted for no reason.
She didn't know what Ling Feng's state was during his school days, and she didn't know what his relationship was with those girls. But what she knew was that she had found out that there were many girls who had maintained an ambiguous relationship with Ling Feng, although she couldn't be sure if they had met, but those contents alone were enough for Su Mu to be uncomfortable, and more importantly, every time Ling Feng apologized and made promises, but next time Su Mu would still find out. So in this case, if Su Mu had to trust Ling Feng completely, saying that he had nothing to do with one of these girls, then she really couldn't do it.
But what can you do if you can't do it?
Except for thinking about and planning to break up, you can't actually do anything.
It was impossible for Ling Feng to give her any sense of security, not to mention that he couldn't prove to her that he didn't have any relationship with these girls, he wouldn't even think to tell her about it, let alone comfort him. If Su Mu couldn't help but mention these things to him and ask them one by one, Ling Feng wouldn't want to explain to her, he would just quarrel with her, saying that she was too sensitive, that she thought too much, that she didn't trust him, and that she always thought about what she didn't have.
Anyway, Ling Feng felt that it was all Su Mu's fault. But Su Mu really wanted to ask him, since it was all her fault, what did he do when she trusted him unconditionally? Isn't the things he did wrong? If he hadn't done those things that had lost all her trust, would she have become as sensitive as she is now? Wouldn't she want to be a little lighter, not thinking about anything, and living in the feeling of being loved all the time?
But does she dare?
Every time he talked about these things, Ling Feng always had a lot of excuses, and when he couldn't say it, he would pull out the matter of Su Muye chatting with other boys and climbing the mountain with other boys. Every time Su Mu heard him say this, he would be so angry that he wanted to laugh, because when she was chatting with the boy, he could see it all, and she never chatted about anything, she just talked about the problem when she had a problem, and never spoke again after solving it, and even when she agreed to go climbing the mountain with the boy, it was also when she made up her mind to break up with Ling Feng. If she hadn't relented that time, then she and Ling Feng would have broken up a long time ago, and it would be impossible for those things to happen again.
Su Mu has always been very sensitive to these things, so she is very strict with herself in this regard, that is, she hopes to lead by example and also influence Ling Feng, but she didn't expect that what she did was useless, and she would be compared by Ling Feng and herself.
However, Su Mu was just angry for a while, as long as she thought that she would always break up in the future, even if it was useless to dwell on these things now, she would soon calm down. What's more, these questions have been asked and answered, so what can we do after that? Do you speed up the breakup? But even if you accelerate the breakup, with these episodes, you will have to have a big fight when you break up. Su Mu really didn't want to quarrel anymore, sometimes when she saw Ling Feng arguing, with that face of shirking responsibility with a straight face, she would regret why she agreed to this person in the first place. Therefore, it is still rare to see each other, if you meet less, you can avoid a lot of trouble, and it is also good for her.
It is said that out of sight is pure, at least if she can't see him, her heart will not be so blocked, and her situation will not get worse.
However, what made Su Mu feel a little helpless was that Ling Feng's performance in the past two days seemed to have suddenly improved a lot, although a girl's voice came from the phone, but he didn't go out for a long time every time, it seemed that after solving the matter, he immediately rushed to Su Mu's house, and sometimes he didn't even change his school uniform. And he acted as if he didn't know anything, he still maintained the same state, and still liked to hug Su Mu when he had nothing to do, even if he didn't speak, he had to hold her in his arms. It seems that as long as she sticks to her, everything doesn't matter.
Su Mu felt that Ling Feng was really strange like this, and sometimes she could even feel a trace of illusion in Ling Feng's gentleness, that is, as if he still liked her. But if you want to say that you like it, the things that Ling Feng does really don't seem to be like what a person can do, and whoever it is will make me feel like this, which makes Su Mu feel very contradictory.
It is said that Su Mu is a soft-hearted person, this sentence is not wrong at all, she can make a firm decision in an instant every time, but this kind of decision must not be interfered with by anyone. So sometimes she really likes to make quick decisions, because once things drag on, it will be difficult for her to imagine the future development, and then she will be very scared, if Ling Feng shows a little bit of love for her, she may repeat the mistakes of the past.
It wasn't because she was worried, but because the same situation had happened many times, and every time she forgave Ling Feng, she would feel that Ling Feng would definitely get better. However, it turned out that Ling Feng did not get better at all, but got worse and worse. So this forced Su Mu to feel that he had really forgiven Ling Feng's mistakes too many times, so he created a false impression for him, thinking that she had no bottom line, that she had no standards, and that no matter what he did, she could forgive him unconditionally.
Perhaps it was precisely because of this kind of thinking that Ling Feng would do these things unscrupulously. Because he felt that no matter what he did, Su Mu would forgive him, so he didn't have to please anything, so he didn't have to maintain the relationship between the two people, so he didn't have to do anything.
Just because Su Mu likes him.
Regarding this point, Ling Feng was not entirely wrong, at least one thing was correct, that is, Su Mu really liked him, after all, a person with a character like Su Mu, if he didn't like it, it was impossible to stay with him for so long. So because she liked it, she could ignore her feelings and find Ling Feng under the stairs, wanting to try to ease the relationship between the two people. But even if a person is cheap, he must have a degree, and some things can never be touched. Ling Feng kept challenging her bottom line, and in the end, it could only be the result of a shot and two scattering, after all, she had already told Ling Feng that there were some things he couldn't touch, so since he wanted to touch them, he could only bear the consequences.
And in fact, the breakup, to put it bluntly, does not have much impact on both of them. Ling Feng's life is still very long, and the emotional matter has just begun, he will meet all kinds of people in the future, he doesn't have to care about losing such a passerby as Su Mu. As for Su Mu, what she pursued was originally different, after leaving Ling Feng, maybe she could find a better life and find herself.
Love or something was not what Su Mu expected, for Su Mu, these are just the spices of life, not necessary. Ling Feng loved her and took care of her, if not, then it would be good to break up with him directly.
However, sometimes, thinking is always easier than doing, don't look at Su Mu thinking about the Tao now, it seems that there is a little truth, and when it comes to practice, he has never seen it. Su Mu felt that her mother should have been deceived by her father in this way, but the gap between the two generations was too big, even if Su Mu wanted to be the same as the older generation, in the current society, it would be impossible to meet Su Mu's wish.
Therefore, between Su Mu and Ling Feng, there was no peaceful life in the end, and the cause of all this was other girls.
Yes, that's right, just the day before Ling Feng was about to leave, when the two of them were about to spend the night outside, Su Mu once again discovered that Ling Feng was still in an ambiguous relationship with other girls.
This time it was not only this newly discovered girl, Su Mu followed Ling Feng's mobile phone to check, and also found a person who had been deleted by Su Mu, and appeared in Ling Feng's mobile phone again.
When Su Mu saw that message, she was holding Ling Feng's mobile phone, she was unconscious for about half a minute, and after this time passed, she began to feel that her hands and feet were numb, her heart was beating faster, and every time her heart beats, it would bring a huge sense of pain, invading her limbs. Not only that, but she also felt that her stomach was tumbling over the river, as if she could vomit it if she said one more word.
She didn't have time to care about Ling Feng's reaction at all, and when this disgusting feeling became more and more serious, she lifted the quilt and began to look for clothes.
At that moment, she felt that the most embarrassing thing was not Ling Feng's disloyalty, but her naked body. She almost packed herself up as fast as she could, before Ling Feng could react, and then she picked up her bag and prepared to leave the room directly.
From now on, he never wanted to see Ling Feng again.
She really didn't expect that the person who had promised her countless times, the person who kept saying that he loved her and said that he had worked hard to change for her, would do such a thing. She not only felt hopeless, but also doubled her anger, and she even felt that if she didn't go faster, she would want to strangle the man who had just gone to Yunyu with her.
It all happened so suddenly, and in the midst of this suddenness, there was a hint of inevitability and ridiculousness. Su Mu's brain only began to work again when she put on her shoes, and after that, she didn't even want to ask why, she turned around and wanted to open the door and go out.
But her speed was one step slower than Ling Feng, and before she could touch the doorknob, Ling Feng directly carried her back to the bed.
At this time, Su Mu had no ability to react, and she didn't think of anything to struggle until she was thrown on the bed. Her mind was full of calculations, and this was the first time she had noticed anything like this.
If there is no problem with her memory, then the appearance of this girl should be the sixth. Because this seventh one had appeared before, she would not be allowed to play two roles by herself, otherwise, Ling Feng was afraid that he would soon be able to gather nine of them and summon the Divine Dragon.
This is a joke is good, but jokes are jokes, reality is reality, things have developed to this point, if Ling Feng said one more word of love for her, Su Mu would feel that he was insulting her, not to mention the situation that he was now pressed under him. Therefore, Su Mu struggled like crazy, used all the strength of his body, and broke free from Ling Feng's confinement for the first time.
Ling Feng didn't expect Su Mu to have so much strength, seeing someone fleeing from under him, he felt panicked and scared for the first time, he got up as fast as he could to stop Su Mu, but he didn't expect it, in exchange for a crisp and loud slap.
"Are you worthy of me?"
It was a weak question, but it seemed to have an irresistible magic power, and it was instantly attached to Ling Feng's heart, directly draining all his strength and all his self-confidence. For the first time, he felt as if he had lost Su Mu, and the first time he found out that Su Mu would also give up on him, it was also the first time he was afraid, Su Mu would never appear in his future life again.
He looked like he was going to lose her completely.
"Wife, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I'll delete her now, you see that I have that woman in WeChat, you don't like it, I'll delete it all. Don't be angry, okay? Don't go, okay?"
At this time, Ling Feng couldn't care about the hot feeling brought by the palm marks on his face, he knew that if he didn't do something, Su Mu would really have to leave, but the matter had come to this, he really didn't know what else he could do to save Su Mu. For a moment, he even felt that Su Mu should leave him, if Su Mu chose to stay again, then she would be too stupid.
But he still hoped that she would be stupid again, and if she would forgive him again, he would definitely not think the same again.
So what was he doing before, why couldn't he be with Su Mu well?
How could he hurt a girl with such peace of mind and pinned her forgiveness and hope on him?
But he really wanted to love her so much!