Because he didn't know what time Ling Feng slept yesterday, Su Mu didn't ask Ling Feng to get up, but just lay with his back to Ling Feng and played with his phone, not thinking about him at all. Halfway through, she felt a little hungry, and originally wanted to order some takeout, but when she thought that if she ordered takeout, she would definitely wake up Ling Feng, and the scene would definitely be very embarrassing, so she dispelled this idea, and stubbornly got through the feeling of hunger, and then calculated while boiling back, if she ate less of this meal, how much weight would she have to lose when she went back, and how much she would have to eat to make up for the lack of food.

To be honest, in fact, Su Mu thinks that these things are completely useless, because her weight has been falling down, and there is no sign of recovery at all, it is not easy to maintain the current level and not decline at all, not to mention that she has no appetite at all when she looks at things now, even if she is hungry and eats two bites, she will be full, and the things she eats every day are not enough for others to eat, so she still wants to gain weight, it is like a dream.

Su Mu herself knew about her current situation, in fact, she was well aware of every abnormal situation that happened to her body. In addition, she had been involved in psychology earlier, and she understood better what her current reaction was, so she was worried, worried that her current situation was the external manifestation of depression that was "very popular" in society now.

I don't know if it's because of the gradual development of the Internet, there are a lot of things that are spread on the Internet, and it has become a very casual thing. For example, the word "depression" seems to be everywhere on the Internet, and if you browse some apps, you can always see those who are labeled as depressed. At first, Su Mu was still lamenting why there are more and more depressions now, but later she realized that not all labels are authentic, and it is these false things that have caused a lot of strange and wrong cognitions to the public's cognition.

Su Mu's own research on depression is not so profound, of course, people like her, there is nothing good at it, basically she knows a little about everything, you let her talk about astronomy, she can talk to you about the binary star system, you let her talk about geography, she can tell you about crustal activities, you let her talk about gossip, she can tell the scandals of several stars, you let her talk about the military, she can also introduce you to the Liaoning ship, anyway, she can involve her cognition in all kinds of things, but if you go deeper, then she can't tell why。 But despite this, she can say a little more about depression than others, firstly, because when she was studying educational psychology in college, her advisor once said that she was very suitable for studying psychology and hoped that she could make more efforts in this area, so she had studied psychology on her own for a period of time, and secondly, because she did come into contact with people who were really judged to be mild-to-moderate depression, and through them, she clearly understood what kind of mental state those who lived in pain every day.

It is not the same at all with those people on the Internet under the guise of "depression".

Of course, when it comes to this, some people will definitely say that Su Mu is also partial and generalized. Su Mu didn't want to have any explanation for this, and even when those prejudices were thrown on Su Mu, Su Mu didn't say anything. It's not that she doesn't want to say it, it's not that she can't say it, it's just that in her current state, there are some things that may lead to more controversy, and she doesn't have the energy to care about these things.

She is not a celebrity, there are very few things that can be corrected, and it is not easy to get the people around her to agree with her point of view, and it is simply impossible to get everyone to agree with her point of view. Not to mention that she can't do it, even if it were any other person, it would be impossible.

However, at this time, Su Mu was actually just guessing about his state, after all, this was not an ordinary cold and fever, he could judge it by himself, and he could also treat it by himself, so as early as this time, Su Mu had already moved the idea of going to the hospital for examination, but because Ling Feng was here, she had to temporarily dispel this idea.

She wasn't very sure if Ling Feng could accept such a situation, she would be very worried, if the examination confirmed that she was really depressed, then what Ling Feng would think of her. If she breaks up with him now, it is an ordinary problem that many couples will encounter, but if this is added, things will become complicated.

To put it bluntly, if Ling Feng was prejudiced against her because of depression, then the reason why the two of them broke up was no longer that Ling Feng had other ambiguous objects, and he might blame everything on the fact that Su Mu was depressed.

This was simply a habitual trick for Ling Feng, almost every time something went wrong, he would use Su Mu's actions as an excuse. For example, he is impatient with her because she always cries, for example, he is unwilling to coax her because it is useless to coax, there is no need to waste time, and for example, everything he did to hurt Su Mu was because Su Mu was disobedient and did not give him what he wanted, anyway, it was all Su Mu's fault.

So every time there is a quarrel, no matter what the reason is at the beginning, it will always come back to this in the end, Su Mu will be so angry by Ling Feng's logic that she doesn't know what to say every time, over time, every time she quarrels, Su Mu can know what Ling Feng wants to say next, so halfway through the quarrel, she doesn't want to quarrel anymore.

Because she knew that it was pointless to quarrel for as long as she could, Ling Feng would never feel that she had a problem when she was arguing, and when she calmed down, she would not reflect on or correct his problems, so even if she quarreled countless times, it was just a dead loop.

However, even if Su Mu saw these things very clearly, there was one thing that she never understood, that is, why in the later stage, Ling Feng would say that he would say that he would not break up.

In the days when they were about to break up, the two of them had almost no contact, the only contact was after Ling Feng called her, and she warned Ling Feng not to bother her again. But every time at this time, Ling Feng had to tell her that it was impossible, and the rest of the time, no matter what Su Mu said, he didn't seem to see it, and never responded.

Based on this alone, Su Mu felt that he could lead Ling Feng to the hospital to have a look at his brain. If normal people want to reconcile, they will definitely not just talk about it, but also have a bad attitude. But Ling Feng didn't do anything except say it, he still had a lot of fun with his friends every day, eating and sleeping, nothing had changed, so why didn't he agree to break up with Su Mu?

And what was even more difficult for Su Mu to accept was that Ling Feng actually felt that she would always wait for him, no matter what he did wrong, no matter how long he left, she would wait for him to come back in the same place.

When Su Mu found out about this, she didn't know how to describe her feelings. She felt both funny and hateful, and these two mentalities seemed to be mixed with a lot of unknown emotions, so much so that Su Mu felt that if Ling Feng said this in front of her, she might not be able to control herself and hit him.

Later, Su Mu actually thought about whether Ling Feng had become like this and whether she had any responsibility. In fact, she thought about this problem when they were together, at that time she felt that she would not say anything she wanted, and always wanted to wait for Ling Feng to take the initiative to give it to him, but he would never guess her mind, so she always had a psychological gap, so although Su Mu felt that the things she wanted were very cheap, for a while, she still gave up part of her choice and told Ling Feng what she wanted little by little.

She was naïve at the time that Ling Feng would definitely do it after knowing this, but he could only hold on for two days, and it didn't take long for him to be revealed and change back to his original appearance, all what Su Mu wanted, he never thought of giving it, and even when Su Mu was angry with him, he also said confidently that Su Mu asked too much of him, he was playful, he was still a child, and he couldn't do it at all.

Ling Feng didn't feel that there was anything wrong with him, he felt that he was already within the scope of his responsibility, and took good care of Su Mu, Su Mu felt bad, that is, because she wanted too much, and she was usually used to giving her something wrong, so she could get an inch like this, as long as he basked her for two or three days, let her understand who should be the center, so that she would not do these useless things in the future.

Ling Feng's thoughts were all excavated by Su Mu little by little after the breakup. At that time, Su Mu felt strange why Ling Feng had such thoughts, and when it was time to break up, she didn't understand even more, Ling Feng didn't do anything and wanted to keep her with empty teeth.

She is not a fool, who treats her well and who treats her badly, she really knows in her heart, she doesn't say that first, she can't wipe her face, and second, she still hopes that Ling Feng can take the initiative to correct these mistakes and be better to her, but every time she contacts Ling Feng, she feels that these things she has done are redundant.

Because Ling Feng didn't care about her at all, no matter what Su Mu said or did, he had to fight with her to find out what was right or wrong, at first Su Mu really had the intention to educate him, but then she found out that Ling Feng really couldn't change it, so she gave up completely.

But if Ling Feng hasn't changed it, then it should really be changed, but that's the next story to be told, and it's really inconvenient to reveal it now.

When the front desk called, Ling Feng was still asleep, Su Muke didn't want someone to come and urge her over and over again, let alone stay here with Ling Feng for another day, so in desperation, she still chose to wake up Ling Feng.

When Ling Feng was completely sober, he still got up with anger and accused Su Mu, why didn't he wake him up in advance. Su Mu was speechless about this, so he was used to being silent, and he didn't say a word.

Soon, the two of them left the hotel. Ling Feng was quite happy all the way, only Su Mu looked a little sullen, and there was nothing abnormal about it. And the important thing is that Ling Feng didn't ask Su Mu what was wrong all the way, until Su Mu got out of the car, Ling Feng felt that this was a very normal thing.

When Su Mu went upstairs, he would think that he said that he didn't take the initiative, so he would make things like this, so what if he took the initiative? take the initiative to tell Ling Feng that he was unhappy, and tell him what he had done to make her unhappy, how would he react?

Probably in a tone of reproach and impatience, he asked her what was wrong.

Su Mu didn't have to guess to know the answer to this kind of thing, and he was not only like this now, but also in the future. Su Mu could endure it once or twice, but when it became like this in the end, she couldn't bear it anymore.

After Su Mu returned home, he was still thinking about this problem, so he didn't send messages or call Ling Feng much. Ling Feng also tacitly didn't chat with Su Mu much. So the two of them seemed to have their own lives, and they didn't have much contact all afternoon, and when they arrived at night, because it was inconvenient to call at home, the two didn't even make a phone call. When Su Mu lay down on the bed and remembered these experiences, he suddenly felt a little weird.

Obviously, they have already thought about breaking up, so whether they are connected or not should be a thing for Su Mu, and it doesn't have much impact. But Su Mu didn't know what was going on with her, when she found out that Ling Feng didn't take the initiative to contact her, she suddenly had a big psychological gap, as if she suddenly felt that Ling Feng didn't love her anymore, and she had a very resentful feeling.

This feeling is undoubtedly very scary, because it will definitely turn into a sadomasochistic love to abuse the hero and heroine of the story. Su Mu always thought that she was lucky enough, and this time she would definitely not do it, the girl who was abandoned first.

As early as when she was with Ling Feng, Su Mu had said to Ling Feng that her principle was that she would never be the one who was abandoned, and if the other party had the slightest sign of wanting to leave, then she would definitely be one step ahead of him, and she would go chic and calm. In this situation, she can already implement her plan. It's just that damn it, she still seems to have a little bit of expectations and fantasies about Ling Feng, and even thought that even if Ling Feng does one more thing right, she can give up her current thoughts and be consistent with before.

However, he really thought too much, and Ling Feng didn't do anything that made her feel that she could change her mind. She suddenly felt a little regretful, regretting that at the beginning of this time, she also felt that the two of them had a chance to accomplish an impossible miracle together, so that they could continue to be together.