But at this time, it was impossible to talk to Ling Feng about this, so Su Mu just suppressed all kinds of emotions in his heart and simply told Ling Feng about his family's plans.

"It won't be long, maybe two or three months, if the injection has an effect, my grandmother will have no problem living on her own, and I can go and look for a job again at that time." I still have some savings recently, and if I live for two or three months, it shouldn't be a problem, just get a job before I do, and my mother can give me subsidies from time to time, so I don't have to worry about money. As for the rest, I don't just stay at home and play, I can learn something else, or do some part-time work, so that I can still earn some money. ”

Su Mu had already discussed this with her family, and she just said it truthfully. But after Ling Feng listened, he thought for a moment before he said to Su Mu:

"In two or three months, I can probably go back, and then maybe a month or two off, and then I'm going to Japan......"

When Ling Feng said this, there was a hint of loss or sadness in his tone, or some other emotion. It's just that Su Mu never thought about the content of his words, so all of Su Mu's attention stopped at the literal meaning, and he didn't spare a little energy to consider his attitude.

"yes, you're going to Japan......"

Su Mu knew that he was going to Japan when he first met Ling Feng, but since the two families met, they never mentioned it again, so that Su Mu completely left this matter behind him, and never considered the fact that Ling Feng was going to Japan to go to school. When Ling Feng mentioned it again, she realized that when she was thinking about things, she had never arranged Ling Feng's affairs in her own plan, which couldn't help but make her feel a little empty-hearted.

She occasionally felt that Ling Feng was selfish, so isn't her current approach also a kind of selfishness? Ling Feng would often tell her about his plans for the future, although Su Mu felt that what Ling Feng said was not realistic at all, and it was impossible to accomplish at all, but she had to admit that Ling Feng took her with him when he made every plan. But when she was thinking about things, she never thought about Ling Feng.

Maybe it was because she was used to living alone, or maybe it was because she knew that Ling Feng's appearance would not affect her future, so she would do it. It's just fair to say that no matter what the reason is, in this regard, she is indeed inferior to Ling Feng. At the beginning, before Su Mu was sincere, she only felt that she owed something, so she always tried her best to make up for it in other aspects, so that she would feel very fair, even if she didn't give her feelings, she was at ease. But now that she is emotional, even if she owes a little emotionally, she will feel that it is difficult to sleep and eat, and she will be able to drill the horns of the bull hard, and no one can pull it out.

So when she realized this, she felt very uncomfortable in her heart, and began to blame herself silently, why didn't she consider Ling Feng's situation.

But if you want to take these factors into account, it's really hard to choose.

Don't talk about the future, let's talk about the current first. If Grandma's eyes didn't get better after two or three months, and she still needed to get injections or something, then it would definitely be impossible for her to go out and find a job, so she would be able to spend more time with Ling Feng. But if it gets better, then she will definitely have to find a job, after all, she is now going to support herself, unlike Ling Feng, who can be supported by her parents with peace of mind, but if she looks for a job, she can't be with him from time to time after Ling Feng comes back. Counting the time that the two of them can be together, that is, about these two months during the winter vacation, if Ling Feng goes to Japan after that, then the chance of them being able to meet will probably become zero. And if nothing else, once Ling Feng goes to Japan, then the two of them will face a breakup, so that the time that the two of them can be together is only half a year.

So did she choose to be with Ling Feng, or did she choose to go to work?

It's a conundrum.

When Su Mu was thinking about this matter, Ling Feng didn't speak, as if he was also thinking about something, and then he spoke first and asked Su Mu a question that was more serious than the current one.

"Wife, I want to ask you a question......"

"Huh? ”

"Have you considered coming to Japan with me?"

Su Mu didn't think about going abroad, on the contrary, when she was in college, when other classmates were preparing for the graduate school entrance examination, she wanted to be re-admitted to a foreign school to study psychology. Her parents also supported her, and her family in Canada, Singapore, and the United States also considered it, but then the plan was shelved for various reasons. In the past, Su Muzi had always thought in her heart that if she had the opportunity, she would definitely go abroad to study psychology, but later her life began to stabilize and she made other plans, even if she didn't have those problems, her heart to go abroad was not so firm.

In the past few years, her psychology has changed a lot, she used to want to take psychology as a hobby, but also want to take it as a job, but after working for two years, she found that using the hobby as a tool to make money will gradually reduce her liking for this hobby, she doesn't want to spoil these things like this, so she gradually settled down and made a good plan for the future.

Although these plans are not so detailed, such as buying a car and buying a house before how old they are, getting married and having children before how old they are, they can be regarded as having a prototype, and in her current situation, this kind of plan is very suitable for her, although it will not make her get ahead and become a blockbuster, but it will make her live a carefree life. Coupled with the care of her parents, she can almost be regarded as worry-free.

Before meeting Ling Feng, this plan had already taken shape. But now that there is Ling Feng, and they are almost still talking about a countdown relationship, does she need or can change her life plan for him?

Thinking of this, Su Mu suddenly felt very confused in his heart and wanted to calm himself down. But she didn't intend to hide her true thoughts from Ling Feng now, so she said directly to Ling Feng:

"I didn't think about it, but it's not because I don't want to go to Japan with you, but because I haven't thought about it that long-term. I think I might need some time to think about it. ”

When Ling Feng asked this, he could be regarded as gambling.

Although he is not a person who likes to plan for the long term, he is afraid of loneliness. He is not like Su Mu, he can do everything by himself, even if there is no one to accompany her, she can live a relaxed life, sometimes for him, he hopes to have someone to accompany him in everything, and after having Su Mu, he often thinks that it would be great if Su Mu could go to Japan with him.

At first, he wanted to study in Japan, and this idea was very firm, but after getting to know Su Mu, he kept thinking about whether he should repeat his studies, stay in China, and get into a good university, so that he could be closer to Su Mu. And if he could, Su Mu might be able to go to another city with him, so that they wouldn't have to be separated.

It wasn't that he hadn't told Su Mu about it before, and when the two families met, he told Su Mu that he wanted to stay and didn't want to go abroad. But Su Mu has always insisted on letting him go out, not only saying that he can't delay his future because of her, but also saying that if he doesn't go because of her, his mother will definitely dislike Su Mu even more, and he can only choose to listen to her when he is forced to helplessly, so he has been thinking since then that it would be good if Su Mu could go abroad with him.

Of course, he didn't know that the probability of Su Mu going abroad with him was extremely low. Let's not talk about how Su Mu wants to live, just going abroad is already a little difficult for Su Mu's family. The two families have a quarrel like this, if Su Mu's parents knew that Su Mu wanted to go abroad and still follow him, the two parents would definitely not agree, and maybe there would be an awkward quarrel for a long time. If it gets big and you have to force two people to break up, it will simply outweigh the losses.

So this idea Ling Feng is just daydreaming when he has nothing to do, as for why he asked today, to put it bluntly, he actually just wanted to test Su Mu's attitude.

He wanted to know if Su Mu had such thoughts, and he also wanted to know if Su Mu had taken him to heart.

There have been so many things that have happened recently, and many things have been out of his control, and some things have happened that caught him off guard. Facing these already made him at a loss, and he didn't know how to face any more problems. He now very much needs Su Mu to give him some confidence, so that he can at least have some courage to face these things.

But Su Mu's answer didn't give him the peace of mind and motivation he wanted at all.

He was a little sad.

But he couldn't blame Su Mu for anything.

Maybe as they said, there were too many variables in him, and Su Mu felt that he had no way to rely on, so he didn't think about it, right? But did Su Mu really never think about the future of the two of them?

Su Mu also knew that if she said these words, she was very likely to hurt Ling Feng, but she always felt that it was better to confess now than to make up a lie to give Ling Feng hope and then disappoint him. Therefore, she had always hoped that Ling Feng could confess to her about anything, and not always think about using some white lies to deceive her or hide something.

However, it turned out that Ling Feng didn't do what she thought, even if she emphasized it countless times, she didn't.

The conversation between the two men reached an impasse, and for the first time both wanted to talk to each other on the phone, but there was nothing to say at all. Su Mu couldn't stand this situation the most, so she thought about hanging up the phone first. But Ling Feng always had a hunch that if he hung up the phone today, then he might lose Su Mu forever, so he insisted on not hanging up the phone, and said that he would hang up the phone as before, and the two of them could do whatever they wanted.

This was the norm after the two of them first got together, at that time, in order to talk to Su Mu on the phone, Ling Feng even secretly wore Bluetooth headsets during class, even if he didn't speak, he wanted to listen to Su Mu's voice. But recently, the two of them have not called like this for a long time, and they both thought that the birthday meeting would change the status of the two people, but in fact, their relationship has not changed in any way, and there are even signs of getting worse and worse.

Ling Feng understood that the problem was with himself.

But he didn't know what was going on with him.

Su Mu had no choice but to obey Ling Feng's arrangement, otherwise, he might have to quarrel again because of this kind of thing. She has been arguing a little enough in the past two days, and she finally doesn't have to quarrel, she also wants to be quiet for a while.

However, she still felt a little awkward, so after reading the book for a while, she couldn't help but ask Ling Feng:

"Don't you want to play games?"

"Don't play. ”

"Oh. ”

Ling Feng's first reaction was to say that he couldn't suffocate if he didn't play for a day, but when the words came to his lips, he suddenly felt that if he said this, then Su Mu would definitely be angry, so he swallowed hard. And for his answer, Su Mu felt a little strange, and wanted to ask him why he didn't play, but she felt that it was strange to ask like this, after all, she had been quarreling with him because of the game before, and always said that he played games and ignored her, and now that people don't play games, and asked such words in turn, it was really suspected of stirring up trouble, so she simply reflected, and then continued to read.

This kind of calm is simply too rare for the two people recently, and in this calm environment, Su Mu gradually considered Ling Feng's question.

According to the environment she is in now, there is nothing to go abroad, but she just needs to wait for a while to get her visa and other things done, and then learn more Japanese, so that she can get in touch with the locals. She doesn't have to work to go out, so it's a good choice to go to Japan to study sociology. So to sum up, the only thing that can hinder Su Mu from going abroad is the reason to go out.

If Su Mu's parents knew that Su Mu was going to Japan to avoid being different from Ling Feng, then the two of them would definitely not agree, even if Su Mu wanted to go to school, they would try their best to let her go to another country. In their eyes, the current Ling Feng is like a time bomb for Su Mu, the two of them don't know when they might break up, if Su Mu and him go to Japan, she won't even have a person to rely on, what if she is bullied?

Su Mu knew that these worries of her parents were normal, but to be honest, she was more inclined to go to Japan with Ling Feng in her heart.