(1) On the eve of trying to break up
When he woke up the next day, Su Mu's phone showed two missed calls and a message. Su Mu cleared them all without looking, but he didn't mention breaking up with Ling Feng.
Thinking about it now, if he firmly wants to break up with Ling Feng at this time, it will definitely cause a lot of problems, with Ling Feng's character, maybe after she finishes speaking, he may not even want to go to school, and he will come back to reason with her. This is not a good phenomenon, if his mother knows that he is like this because of Su Mu, then Su Mu will not have a good life, so the best way is to endure it until Ling Feng comes back, and then talk to him about it after he has time and no longer have to think about the school.
In this way, even if you want to make trouble, it won't be able to make trouble for two or three days, and it won't involve anything else, and parents can't interfere too much, and if you want to break up, it's much simpler.
At this time, Su Mu began to feel a little regretful, regretting that he didn't do things with his brains at all, and brought Ling Feng to his house and let him know that she lived there. Fortunately, now that he has resigned, he has no way to go to the place where he works to make trouble, otherwise, it will be a real shame.
Of course, just because this matter is solved does not mean that everything is solved. Su Mu is not the kind of person who can accept waiting, she is anxious, she wants to solve everything as soon as possible, and some things are easy to affect her mood if they are delayed. So the problem she faced now was how to live in peace with Ling Feng during this time.
This is the most serious issue of the moment.
To be honest, when it came to Ling Feng now, there was more disgust than liking in her heart. She admitted that there were many good memories between them, but these good memories were not enough to offset the harm that Ling Feng had done to her. When she saw Ling Feng now, she couldn't remember what happy past they had, to be more precise, she didn't want to think about what she had experienced before, otherwise, such a comparison would make her feel even more uncomfortable. She really can't accept that a man who keeps saying that he loves her and wants to marry her would do these things behind her back, and this unacceptability will be directly reflected in her attitude towards him.
But she didn't want to express it.
She had really had enough of arguing and making enough of it, and now when she thought of quarrelling, she began to feel disgusted from the bottom of her heart. So the best state now is not to disturb each other with Ling Feng, and then wait for him to come back and directly talk about the breakup. But Ling Feng asked very strangely, he would send messages from time to time to chat a few words, if she didn't reply to the message, he would be very angry, and if she wanted to talk a few more words, he would behave very perfunctory, if she talked about him, he would still feel angry.
This made it difficult for Su Mu to do it, she was worried that she didn't want to contact Ling Feng because of this disgust, and then she showed a very cold forehead, which would make Ling Feng angry and quarrel with her, and she was also worried that if she tried to cater to Ling Feng, she would feel very wronged, and then her attitude would become very bad, and she would still quarrel.
This problem annoyed Su Mu for a whole day, she didn't think of any solution, and what she didn't expect was that at this time, Ling Feng actually brought it back.
When Ling Feng told her that he needed to go back early because of the problems in his previous high school, Su Mu felt that his head exploded with a "bang". This news really caught her off guard, and she didn't know how to face it. Her attention was all on how to maintain her relationship with Ling Feng, and she hadn't thought about Ling Feng's early return at all, so she hadn't thought about how to break up at all. This made her so anxious that she had to ask Weiyang and Le Duo for help.
As soon as these two girls heard that Su Mu was going to break up, they were all so happy that they were about to set off firecrackers to celebrate, so in order to make Su Mu break up, the two of them also put forward various plans. Su Mu looked at the performance of these two people, and suddenly felt that her relationship was like a farce, and couldn't help but fall silent.
How did it come to this?
Obviously, when we first got together, everything was fine. He is so sweet, he surrounds her every day, although sometimes the way to deal with problems is wrong, but he also puts her things in his heart all the time, she can feel his intentions, feel his attitude, feel his dependence, but then I don't know when it started, he seems to be only perfunctory and picky about her, she doesn't do anything right, what she does in exchange for accusations is accusations, she apologizes when she struggles, but after apologizing, it is still the same. It was as if the two of them were caught in some vicious circle, and the more the cycle became, the worse it became. So she found so many girls who were ambiguous with him, which directly made her doubt the authenticity of the relationship between the two of them from beginning to end.
So, what did Ling Feng think of their relationship, and did he really like her?
Thinking of this, Su Mu couldn't help but feel a little ridiculous, after all, she had already thought about breaking up, and now thinking about these things doesn't seem to have any substantive meaning. But Su Mu really wants to know the answer, even if she breaks up, she wants to give an explanation to this relationship.
Whether it's cheating, joking or sincere, she wants to use this answer to draw a happy end to this relationship.
Su Mu spent a whole day preparing, in order to cope with Ling Feng's return, and during this day, she tried her best to completely break off this relationship with Ling Feng and prevent him from making trouble unreasonably.
However, waiting until the evening, Su Mu didn't think of this way to deal with it, and when it came to the next day, she could only pretend that nothing had happened and went to the train station to pick up Ling Feng back.
In fact, Ling Feng still felt a little lucky, because he didn't coax him much about the previous incident, and Su Mu seemed to have skipped it by himself. The last thing he could do was to make Su Mu happy, because he felt that no matter what he did, it seemed that he couldn't meet Su Mu's expectations, and over time, when Su Mu made a fuss, he felt very upset and didn't want to care about her. But he didn't expect Su Mu to mess with him much this time, and even after that, he felt that he was a little too much, and he didn't see Su Mu show much performance, so he thought with peace of mind that maybe Su Mu had finally compromised and knew what kind of person he was, so he decided not to embarrass him anymore.
If that's the case, that's fine, and then life will be much better.
The moment he saw Ling Feng, Su Mu suddenly felt a little pain in his heart, the pain was like the root of his thigh being suddenly pinched hard, twisting his strength, making people gasp, and he couldn't relieve it for a long time. She reluctantly pretended to laugh and explained to Ling Feng the reason why she was late, but Ling Feng didn't listen, got into the car and hugged her directly in her arms, and then said to her:
"Every time you're late, every time you're late, can't you just be a little early?"
"I ......"
"Okay, what are we going to eat, have you eaten?"
"Whatever, go to the one you frequent. ”
Ling Feng looked elated, as if he was still the same as before. Su Mu smiled with him, but he only felt that he was holding him in his arms, and there was an indescribable disgust and disgust.
After saying their destination, the two of them sat quietly in the car, and neither of them said anything. Su Mu seized the opportunity to break free from Ling Feng's arms, and Ling Feng didn't hug her back like before, which made her disappointed and relieved at the same time.
In fact, it is not that no one has said to Su Mu that if she wants to change the relationship between the two people, she can also try to change it and take the initiative with Ling Feng. Of course, Su Mu also had such thoughts, when she felt that Ling Feng liked her and she didn't give so much, she didn't make a change, and when she fell into it, she even seemed to be a different person, doing countless things that she wouldn't do and didn't bother to do.
But what was the result? Was that the result? The result was that he was hurt again and again, and he didn't feel it at all? The result was that he made her worse and worse, not to mention that he didn't like it, even she didn't like herself?
Is this the result of a good relationship?
How else does she have to pay to save such feelings? Moreover, is there really a need to save this kind of feelings?
Not at all, right?
He Ling Feng went to the barbecue restaurant he frequented to eat, and he kept forcing Su Mu to eat as before. Su Muqiang endured the feeling of her stomach tumbling and ate two more bites according to Ling Feng's words, but soon she couldn't hold on. When Ling Feng saw her like this, he didn't continue to insist, and after eating his share, he settled the bill and prepared to go to the hotel with Su Mu.
In fact, this was something that the two of them had already discussed before, and Ling Feng had already booked a hotel. Su Mu always thought that she could accept it, but when she really arrived at the hotel lobby, the feeling of disgust in Su Mu's heart almost skyrocketed, especially when Ling Feng hugged her in the elevator and wanted to kiss her, she didn't control herself at all, and directly avoided his lips.
Ling Feng was very dissatisfied with Su Mu's reaction, and forcibly blocked Su Mu in the corner. There was obvious dodging in Su Mu's eyes, and Ling Feng kissed Su Mu extremely strongly as if he couldn't see it.
When he arrived at the room, Ling Feng didn't care about Su Mu's feelings at all, and it wasn't until the matter was over and when they were all packed up and lying in the quilt that Ling Feng said to Su Mu:
"What's going on with you today, you look absent-minded, aren't you happy when I come back?"
"No, maybe I'm just a little tired, and you know I haven't been sleeping well lately. ”
Su Mu pretended to be sleeping while perfunctory Ling Feng, turned his body to the other side, and turned his back to Ling Feng, as soon as Ling Feng saw Su Mu like this, he immediately "snorted", and then said to Su Mu:
"You see, you just don't love me anymore. ”
"No, I don't love you anymore. ”
When Su Mu heard Ling Feng's words, his heart seemed to miss a beat, and he returned to the way they had been when they first started together.
It had been a long time since she had heard Ling Feng speak to him like this today. Looking back, it seemed that two months ago, Ling Feng would still be coquettish with her like this, saying over and over again that she didn't love him anymore or what. At that time, his tone sounded so cute, so cute that every time Su Mu heard it, he wanted to hold him in his arms and kiss him, but now, even with the same tone and attitude, Su Mu couldn't bring up any emotions. Except for perfunctory, she really couldn't find any way to get along with them.
When Ling Feng said next, Su Mu basically didn't listen to Ling Feng's words when he turned around and snuggled up to Ling Feng's chest, and as he spoke, Su Mu fell into a deep sleep, completely unaware of what happened next.
When he woke up the next day, it was already past eight o'clock, and after Su Mu picked up his mobile phone and determined the time a few times, he still felt a little incredible.
Recently, she has not had a good sleep because of too many things on her mind, although she is very sleepy every day, but when it is time to sleep, she can't sleep at all, sometimes even if she squints in bed and does nothing, she will not be sleepy for an hour, even if she barely sleeps, that is, it is only four or five hours.
She thought that this way of sleeping was already her limit, and she didn't know what could change it, and she even thought about going to the doctor to prescribe a little reassuring prescription to reduce the symptoms first, but even if she tried, it didn't help.
But what no one expected was that in Ling Feng's arms, she actually slept for more than eight hours.
These eight hours were simply too tiring for Su Mu, although she couldn't figure out what the reason was, but she did feel a lot more relaxed after waking up, so this strengthened her idea of going to a doctor for conditioning, and not only that, she also wanted to make herself fatter, fatter, at least to the same extent as before.
Yes, since she resigned, Su Mu's physical fitness has declined sharply, at first Su Mu thought it might be affected by the high fever during the previous Chinese New Year, but then when she began to have anorexia, insomnia, weight loss and irritability, she realized that something seemed wrong. Coupled with her natural sensitivity and experience in learning about it, it was no surprise that she came up with a word that she was very afraid of.
It's not a good thing, but maybe it's not bad because it hasn't developed to that uncontrollable point yet, but if he and Ling Feng continue to develop, then no one can know what it will become.