I tried desperately to step forward, but I pounced, and the whole person fell straight to the ground.

The concrete floor that had just rained was a little wet, and my arm was rubbed into a large blur of flesh after hitting the ground, and some blood stuck to the wet floor, and I looked at the pale red, first laughed, and then cried.

Yu Minghui rushed over, he leaned down, and tried to help me up, I pushed his hand away, I raised my face, and said: "Yu Minghui, don't touch me, I'll fucking tell you not to touch me, how can you forget! I told you not to fucking touch me again, are you deaf or blind!"

Yu Minghui still wanted to help me, and I yelled louder: "Don't fucking touch me!"

He Siyuan and Cao Jiaying also came over, and they grabbed my arms left and right, lifted me up, and put me in front of the black lacquer box.

I thought I'd see my little Ash, I'm so sensible, so precocious, so considerate, so warm, he is lying in it with a pale face, he is lying in it with his eyes closed, he will lie quietly in it, but no.

There was only a small white jar inside, lonely, with a piece of paper pasted on it, and I leaned over and saw that there were three small words on it, Yu Linen.

I held on to the black lacquer box, one knee was weak, the other knelt, the whole person knelt on the ground, I let go of my hand, crawled away from the black lacquer box, I raised my face and kept looking at the person standing there, I first said to Ding Zhanbo: "Ding Zhanbo, where is the little gray gray? You tell me where the little gray gray is, okay? You are his Ding father, you must know where he is, you take me to find him." I'm going to him, I'm going to him. Ding Zhanbo, you speak, where is the little gray gray?"

Ding Zhanbo was silent for a while, and he finally turned his face away from my gaze.

I turned my gaze to Li Jing again and said, "Li Jing, it must be you who hid the little gray ash, right? In the past, when I took Ash to your house to play, you let Ash hide from me. You said you were all a mother, why are you still so playful. You can't be so playful, you can't hide my little ash, I won't be panicked if I can't see him, he is my life, Li Jing, you release him quickly. ”

Li Jing squatted down, she hugged me, and she said, "Lin Sisi, the little gray is gone." You are still young, you will have your own children in the future, you don't want this, you get up first, your arm is broken, I will go and apply some medicinal wine to you. ”

She must be lying!

It's not just Li Jing who is lying, Ding Zhanbo, He Siyuan, Cao Jiaying, and Xiao Yan, everyone here is lying, they are using their own tears to create an illusion for me, they are all creating an illusion for me that a little gray is gone!

They're all liars, they're all lying to me!

Obviously, last week, little gray was still bouncing in my arms, he combed my hair with his fleshy little hands, he touched my face with his fleshy little hands, how could he leave!

They must all be lying, they are all lying to me!

I didn't even see the little ash lying in the box, they were trying to coax me with a little jar and a name!

Desperately beating Li Jing, I howled like crazy: "You liars, you have hidden my little ashes, you have to let him out, I can't see him, I will panic." Please, please give me back my little ashes, I will kowtow to you, I will kowtow to you. ”

After speaking, I pushed Li Jing away and knelt there, my head was almost falling to the floor, Yu Minghui rushed over to hug me, he desperately held my shoulder, stared at me and said: "Lin Sisi, you calm down, some things are like this, you don't want to accept it, you have to accept it." Don't cry anymore, really don't cry anymore, adjust it. ”

As soon as I reached out, I slapped Yu Minghui hard.

scolded him: "You liar, you obviously promised to cure my little ash, you liar." You obviously promised Little Gray to help him drive away the monster, and he let you upgrade, you liar, you didn't do it at all!"

I started too heavy, so that when I withdrew my hand, an inertia leaned back, unstoppable fell on the cement floor, the back of the head and the floor violently collided, my ears were full of rumbling sounds, through the sunlight dazzling so that I almost couldn't open my eyes, I glimpsed the sky of Zhanjiang, the sky after the rain, the background color is blue, many, many white clouds, I seem to hear the little gray gray shouting to me: "Mom, Mom, don't cry." ”

His voice swirled in my head, and I remembered that when I was dragging Little Gray Gray to fight alone in the floating city of Shenzhen, once I lost a hundred yuan, and I cried in distress, and Little Gray reached out to cover my eyes, and he said that so that the tears would not fall. He was really a magical child, and he just covered my eyes with his little hands, and he really helped me hold back my tears. He is indeed a magical child, he heals the wounds brought to me by the cruel reality, softens my years and brightens my time. He gave me a warm journey that I will never forget.

I just reached out and covered my eyes.

I wanted to see if my hands would be as magical as his little hands, and I wanted to see if he would come back and reappear in front of my eyes again when I covered my eyes for a while before letting go.

But in the end, my tears invaded all my fingers, and my fingers retreated to the point where there was no escape, and I just lay there, crying uncontrollably.

After I cried completely, my eyes were dry like a desert, and I couldn't shed tears anymore, and in the next time, I was held by Li Jing and He Siyuan like a withered tree, looking at my little gray ash with an expressionless face, and was left in Zhanjiang, a city that is indeed his hometown, but makes him feel strange.

The only consolation for me is that he is leaning on the old man, or that he will not be too lonely in the future.

Coming out of the cemetery, my eyes wandered sluggishly, I suddenly saw Zhao Xiaoning, she was a little thinner than before, she was dressed in black, holding a black sun umbrella, she was cold and elegant, she was looking at us from afar, my eyes were swollen from crying, I didn't see her expression.

Like a wooden man, my gaze fell on her for a few seconds, then retracted.

After returning home, I lay on the bed sickly, not eating, drinking, sleeping, staring at the ceiling with dull eyes, Yu Minghui wanted to get close to me, so I turned my back and didn't look at him.

I lay down for three days and three nights, starving and completely lacking strength, Yu Minghui called the doctors, and many of them held me down and forced me to give me glucose.

Li Jing took the soup spoon and opened my mouth and forced me to drink the soup, but I always vomited, what I drank and what I vomited, and the sky was dark.

I finally couldn't hold it anymore and fell asleep in a daze.

But as soon as I fell asleep, I dreamed of little Ash, who sat beside me, smiled brightly, and touched my face with his little hand to tell me not to cry. I was afraid that I would never see him again when I woke up, so I didn't want to wake up.

But Ash slowly stood up, and he disappeared into my dreams.

I didn't dare to cry anymore, I was afraid that if I cried again, he wouldn't want to sleep again.

I don't dare to spoil my body anymore, I'm afraid that if I die, no one will remember my little gray gray for as long as I did, remember his voice and smile, remember his little babbling little person at the beginning, and then become a way to call my mother warmly and comfort me later.

So I tried to open my eyes, but I couldn't even open them, and I had to pull the man sitting on the edge of my bed with the last bit of strength and say, "I'm thirsty." ”

It didn't take long for me to be helped up, and I was lying there limply, and someone handed me a straw to my mouth and gave me some milk.

When I had my fill, the feeling of sleepiness returned, and I fell back to sleep.

I was woken up by the sun, the moment I opened my eyes, Li Jing, He Siyuan, Cao Jiaying, they were next to me, they slept very peacefully, not far away on the sofa, Yu Minghui pointed to his forehead, constantly dozing off.

I sat up slowly, and pulled out the arm that was being held by Li Jing, Li Jing immediately woke up, she bounced up in a daze, moved over hurriedly, and said, "Lin Sisi, are you awake?"

I wanted to nod at Li Jing, but found that my head sank to the point where I couldn't do it.

Li Jing pinched He Siyuan and Cao Jiaying one by one, and said, "Get up, Lin Sisi is awake." ”

He Siyuan and Cao Jiaying jumped up.

The three women, all with big panda eyes, surrounded me and asked me what I wanted to eat.

And Yu Minghui was also woken up by such a noise, he walked over, he looked at me who was surrounded in the middle, his eyes were full of emotions that I couldn't understand, he asked softly: "Lin Sisi, are you dizzy?" I'll go to the doctor and come up to show you?"

My gaze lingered on his face for a few seconds, and then slowly withdrew it, as if I hadn't seen him speak to me, and said weakly to Li Jing and the others, "I want to eat, I'm hungry." ”

He Siyuan bounced up, she jumped out of bed, and said, "Li Jing, I'll go downstairs and ask Ding Zhanbo to get Lin Sisi something to eat, and you can help her down." ”

I was held by Li Jing and Cao Jiaying left and right, and got to the dining room.

The decoration here is really bad, a good dining room, so empty, and so tightly spaced, I can't even see what the kitchen is doing.

I sat on the chair, swaying, Li Jing reached out to help me, I patted the back of her hand, and smiled reluctantly: "I'm fine." It's just that I'm hungry, and it's good to be full. ”

After a pause, I lowered my eyes and said, "I'm worried about you." I'm sorry. ”

Li Jing put her hand on my shoulder and didn't make a sound.

At this moment, Ding Zhanbo brought me a bowl of dried noodles with water.

I looked behind him, and I always felt that I didn't see Uncle Xian, so I asked Cao Jiaying: "Where is Uncle Xian?"

Cao Jiaying's hand kept sliding around the dining table, and she said, "Uncle Xian flew to Canberra, Australia." He had a female classmate from college over there, and the female classmate had been single for a long time, and Uncle Xian had a chance, so he went. He said that he would send you a postcard when he had the opportunity in the future. ”

I should have been surprised by the news, but after seeing through life and seeing the loneliness at the end of the song, I sighed, buried my head, and kept stuffing the noodles into my mouth.

Ding Zhanbo really doesn't know how to cook, he put too much salt and it was very salty, but I still ate this bowl of noodles cleanly and didn't keep a single one.

When I was full, I felt like I had regained some strength, and I felt stuffy, so I got up and went straight outside.

Li Jing quickly followed my footsteps and kept up with me.

I looked back at her: "Li Jing, you have been here for so many days, who will take Xiao Niannian?"

Li Jing followed my footsteps closely and said, "Xiao Niannian has my mother and nanny watching, you don't have to worry." Lin Sisi, are you alright?"

I smiled lightly: "What can happen, you have to live no matter what, right, you can't go to death, right?"

Talking to Li Jing, I stepped out of the hall and walked into the courtyard.

I went straight out of the courtyard again.

I don't know where I want to go, I guess I want to go to the beach. I don't know what I want to do at the beach, I don't think I want to go diving into the sea.

At this moment, Yu Minghui didn't know where to come out, he grabbed me and said, "Lin Sisi, Lin Sisi." ”

I suddenly hated him for calling my name like that.

Because of my little ash, he also likes to fold and call me, "Mommy, Mommy." ”

Throwing off Yu Minghui's hand very rudely, I glared at him coldly, as cold as a crane, and said, "Don't touch me again." Or I'll chop off your hand. ”

After saying that, I raised my face and walked forward again.

At this moment, my eyes caught a glimpse of Zhao Xiaoning standing not far away, holding a small colored umbrella, walking slowly towards us.