Sometimes Su Mu is very critical of herself, for example, when it comes to buying clothes or consumables, she can save money, she must buy cheaply, and even sometimes if she can walk, she won't even choose to take the bus, so in this regard, Su Mu really saved a lot of money. But maybe it's because she has no worries, for example, she has no children to raise, her parents' salaries are higher than hers, and she doesn't have to worry about the dowry and house, so in addition to saving part of the money saved, Su Mu used the rest for her usual food and drink and her own preferences.

She always felt that most people should be like her, and they would save money for some kind of preference and a certain purpose, but when it was not a last resort, Su Mu felt that there was no need to embarrass herself in eating and drinking. Although it is possible to spend some unjust money, it is good to eat a trench and grow wise, and change it in the future, there is no need to be so frugal like Ling Feng in this kind of place. And more importantly, when two people go out to eat, they don't stop ordering because of which dish is more expensive than other homes, and they all order according to their own needs, so why can they buy it at this time and can afford it, but they control their needs because it is too expensive?

That's really weird......

Of course, Su Mu was right to think so in her heart, but she didn't tell Ling Feng what she really thought. First, because she didn't want to quarrel with Ling Feng in such a crowd, and second, she didn't want to affect their memories of the Great Wall because of such a trivial matter.

This was not the first time the two of them had gone out together, and the more they went out, the more Su Mu found that Ling Feng had changed. Sometimes Su Mu would try to let go of these discoveries, trying to make herself a little more generous, a little more tolerant, and not to pursue so much, but sometimes the thought of her generosity and tolerance would only make Ling Feng ignore this problem, and then become even worse, she would not be able to control her temper.

At such times, Ling Feng would sometimes choose to listen to her quietly, and then admit his mistakes. But most of the time, he would argue with Su Mu unreasonably, and then try to turn the finger at Su Mu, and in the end, no matter what, he would force Su Mu to give in to him first.

Because he knew that no matter what he did, no matter how excessive he did, Su Mu would give in.

Even if he really hurt Su Mu and made her feel painful, she would still choose to compromise in the end.

This is the experience he has gained from these countless disputes, without exception.

In the past, when faced with this situation, most of Su Mu's attention was on the matter itself, she only wanted to say whether this matter was right or wrong, and she never thought about what the real reason would be for her and Ling Feng to have a disagreement. And later, perhaps because she was really used to it, she felt that there was nothing to hold onto, so she began to shift her attention to Ling Feng. She began to try to find the source of the problem from Ling Feng's body, but it wasn't to change anything, she just wanted a result.

Ling Feng had never noticed his own transformation, but he remembered the changes that had occurred before and after Su Mu clearly. He always felt that it was because Su Mu became more and more greedy in love that the relationship between the two of them became like this. He was tired of Su Mu always saying that he was wrong, and he was tired of Su Mu always appearing in front of him as a victim, crying about the injuries she had suffered. He felt that these things were inevitable in love, and Su Mu couldn't accept it because it was her own problem, and she couldn't bear it because her ability to bear it was too poor, and it had nothing to do with him at all. He just did what other men would do, for example, in this world, he will be ambiguous with other women in the process of falling in love, which is something that many men will do, and men are very careless and will not take care of their girlfriends' feelings, and more importantly, two people will definitely quarrel over some trivial things after being together for a long time, and there will definitely be times when they ignore each other, why is Su Mu so old, he should understand these things very well, but he always asks for this and that, and he can't be more tolerant and considerate of himCompared with before, he is really good to her, why does Su Mu not know how to be satisfied and always force him to do those things?

He didn't ask her anything like she did, he just wanted her to be obedient, is it so difficult to be obedient? Maybe she is obedient and she may become a little more proactive when she fulfills her demands, why does she still want to be unreasonable? Haven't you been saying that you have been very considerate of him, so open one eye and close one eye and tolerate this, both of them will be better, right? He always talks about breaking up at every turn, always using the breakup to threaten him, but sometimes he always compromises himself, and wants to reconcile again and again, which is the same result of reconciliation, arguing about those things, if you have to say that he is wrong, what's the point? What if you are wrong, you have apologized if you are wrong, you have to make such a fuss, crying as if someone is dead in the family, who would want to listen to it. In this case, even if you know that you are wrong and listen to her cry, you don't want to admit your mistake.

No one wants to hear his girlfriend cry every day when she calls her, and he doesn't want to hear her say that he is not good when he answers the phone, even if it is really bad, for the sake of the relationship between two people for so long, can't you bear it? Always point it out to your face, this feels really annoying. Who would be willing to admit their mistakes, besides, maybe it's because she has a special idea, so she thinks it's a mistake for him to do this, why do you have to put the blame on him? Everyone has problems, so why must he apologize first, even if the cause of the matter was him, then didn't he also try to change, it's because she can't turn the page herself, and always uses these questions to embarrass herself, what does it have to do with him? It's not that he hasn't changed, even if he occasionally makes the same mistake so many times after that, and he doesn't make it all the time, wouldn't it be better to apologize and change it? Why be so aggressive?

Obviously treats others very gently, even strangers can give unreservedly, and can forgive their mistakes, so why can't he come here?

Always have to be reasonable, reasonable, reasonable, but he really thinks that her reasoning is wrong. She kept asking him to accept her reasoning, and she was really laughing, but was her reasoning reasonable? She was so old, she had experienced so much, and she hadn't seen her more mature, and she was still so impulsive and willful in handling things, so why couldn't she try to accept his reasoning? Was it so difficult for her to accept his theories? Who said that he was really ignorant when he was young, and other people who knew him thought that he was very gentle, considerate, and very good at taking care of people, so why couldn't she feel it? Even if he doesn't do well, isn't it just bad for her, and she won't think about why she is only bad for her?

If she is really convinced, she will only keep talking about his problems, and she also has problems, okay? If she says that he shirks responsibility, then she does not shirk responsibility?

……

Look, if you want to complain, in fact, Ling Feng also has a lot of complaints, but Ling Feng has never specifically said it to Su Mu, because when he quarrels, he always wants Su Mu to admit his mistakes, and he will directly ignore this matter, and usually he feels that he will definitely quarrel when he says this, what he hates the most is quarreling, and he doesn't like to listen to Su Mu nagging about what mistakes he has made again, so he just buried this matter in his heart.

But Su Mu didn't feel it at all? Of course not, when she lost all hope, she no longer cared about Ling Feng's feelings for her, and all her attention shifted to him as a person, as if she was a guinea pig for experiments, trying to dissect the formation of his character in combination with his growth environment.

For a professional person, Su Mu was too childish to do this, but Su Mu didn't know what was going on, she even thought about studying psychology that she was interested in again, and then trying to figure out what Ling Feng was thinking.

If Su Muken kept her sanity, she would know that even if she was proficient in psychology, she would not be able to know Ling Feng's thoughts, because psychology was not mind reading, it was science, and there were no feelings, and it was a mistake for her to think like this. But for Su Mu, along the way, she has really made too many mistakes, in order to ease the relationship between the two of them, she has told fortunes, crossed the astrolabe, invited all kinds of peach blossom charms, and bought countless gadgets that can increase her love fortune, and after all these have been done, she really doesn't care much about right or wrong now, she just wants to know the answer, wants to find out why Ling Feng became like this, and at the same time, she also wants to know if she still wants to be with Ling Feng.

This is the biggest problem in her heart.

After going through all this, she couldn't tell what she really thought in her heart, she didn't know what she was insisting on, and for what she was compromising over and over again, for a while she even felt that she was sick, obviously she and Ling Feng were working so hard together, obviously everything he did was like holding a knife to cut her heart inch by inch, but he still looked at the pain with confidence, but he didn't want to let go yet, he still had illusions, trying to make him sober up and love her again. This is simply a perfect portrayal of self-inflicted sin, and if she were to be her friend, then she would rather lock up such a self so that she will never see the light of day, and she would not want her to spoil herself like this.

Is it worth it?

It took Su Mu a long time to figure out this matter, but even if she hit a wall every time, and was hurt more deeply each time, she never gave up, she just wanted to find out the cause and effect.

And these things that happened on the Great Wall, Su Mu only found out later, in fact, they had laid the groundwork for everything that would happen later, but her attention had not changed at that time, so she didn't find out.

Although she had the experience of climbing the Great Wall before, because the last time she came was not the peak tourist season, and she came early, and she met a lot of people who came down after morning exercises on the Great Wall Mountain, so there were few people along the way, and there was a chance to take a photo and stand in place to rest for a while and chat for a while. But this time it was just in time for the Qingming Festival holiday, and there were a lot of people who came to play, so that although it did not develop to the point of crowding along the way, it was still a wave of people, and when it was about to climb to the highest point, it could only move with the crowd little by little.

At this time, both of them were hungry, and because of the excessive physical exertion, Ling Feng had the idea of wanting to go back. Su Mu never wanted to give up halfway in doing things, but she didn't want Ling Feng to hold on, plus there was indeed a long way to climb behind, and some places were also very steep, so it would be basically impossible to return the same way at that time, so in order not to let Ling Feng regret it at that time, and complain in her heart about her persistence, Su Mu had to choose to agree with Ling Feng's idea and return the same way.

This back and forth also wasted a lot of time, plus waiting in line for the bus to return to the city, Ling Feng was already so hungry that his stomach began to ache faintly. The two of them found the restaurant they wanted to eat before, and after all the breakfast, lunch and afternoon tea were settled, Ling Feng proposed to go back to the hotel.

Originally, in Su Mu's plan, the two of them should have just come down from the Great Wall at this time, and then find a place to eat, and then go to other shopping malls and the like after eating, but now that it is like this, all the plans have been changed, and Su Mu doesn't know if he should say the idea of shopping. And just when she hesitated, Ling Feng had already taken her to the subway where she could go back, and in desperation, she could only choose to give up her thoughts.

Su Mu also knew that she didn't like to express her true thoughts, and it was completely wrong to always hope that the other party would be able to think of what she wanted first without saying it, because no one was a roundworm in her stomach to really know her so well and want to pay for her. But knowing is knowing, whether you can give up, whether you can change is another word. As for Su Mu, maybe it's always good to dream of not getting in touch with reality.

Because at least everything in the dream is complete, at least there is something to look forward to the future, which is better than compromising the reality of such grievances.