For a long time, to be exact, from then until the eve of the breakup, Su Mu had always felt that Ling Feng was such a person. At the time of the mistake, he might feel that he was doing the wrong thing for a while, but once he wanted to solve the matter, he would immediately change his attitude and put all the fault on Su Mu, and the person who made the mistake was like Su Mu. He has never been willing to face his own problems, even if he knows that he is wrong, he will be wrong, and use that kind of logic that is completely inconsistent with normal logic to resist Su Mu's pull, maybe he will find a sense of victory for himself by doing this, seeing that Su Mu is so angry with him that he can't speak, except when he can only cry, he will feel very happy, and maybe there is a kind of achievement blessing, but in fact, in Su Mu's heart, the more he does this, the farther away she will be from him, and he will become more and more hopeless.

Su Mu never understood why Ling Feng had such thoughts and why he wanted to do this. At first, she was still looking for reasons in herself, thinking that it was her connivance that made him become like this, but then she felt that it was not her responsibility to establish the correct three views for Ling Feng, she was looking for a boyfriend, not a son, why couldn't she get love in this relationship, and she had to take care of this kind of child who couldn't control her emotions like a mother?

She's just a girl, isn't she? She needs to take care of the drum too, doesn't she? She takes care of his thoughts, so who will take care of her mood?

Every time like this, a large number of Su Mu's friends would come to remind him that these things were all caused by her, if she could resist the temptation at the beginning and not accept Ling Feng, who was nine years older than her, things would not have developed like this. She knew that he couldn't give anything, and she promised him, isn't this just asking for her own hardship?

Su Mu has never denied that there is her own mistake here. She knew that Ling Feng would be ignorant at his age, and if she still wanted to choose him, she herself would have to take a certain amount of risk. She could take this risk, but she didn't expect that Ling Feng was not only immature and couldn't take care of people, but also had such a bad performance in other aspects.

No matter how ugly it was, Su Mu just thought about it in her heart, and didn't dare to come out, because coming out of this was enough to make her lose face, and if she came out again, even if these were Ling Feng's mistakes, she felt that her face was disgraceful.

Perhaps only in this case can we deeply understand why the ugliness of the film family cannot be publicized". There is no way for Su Mu to expose all the problems so frankly, because these are equivalent to constantly proving that there are problems with her vision, thoughts, choices, and all the decisions she has made are problematic.

This point is still a little different from Ling Feng, Ling Feng does not dare to face his mistakes, he will cover up, he will quibble, and he will want to push all his mistakes out of himself. As for Su Mu, although she also didn't dare to face her mistakes, except for Ling Feng's matter, she had always lived with her heart in mind, trying her best not to let herself make any mistakes, and if she didn't make a mistake, she would also want to make up for it tenfold and hundredfold.

Su Mu didn't know if this was the gap between maturity and naivety, but she knew that the gap between her and Ling Feng, Ling Feng couldn't catch up with her in a lifetime, she would only go farther and farther than him, and Ling Feng might have a few more years, staying where he was, unable to move forward.

If there are regrets, of course, there are too many regrets in this unsatisfactory relationship, for example, this time, the two of them originally thought that they would start a happy life after Su Mu went back, but they didn't expect that when they left, Su Mu would actually step on the train crying, and kept thinking about whether they were going to break up.

The matter of crying home has only happened twice to Su Mu. The first time was when Su Mu participated in an offline comic exhibition as an assistant for the first time. At the end of the event, her tears fell uncontrollably as she watched the singer she liked turn around and leave the station and fade into the crowd. She thought that turning around was proof that she would never see her again, after all, what could make her impulsive might only be this one chance, and whether she could see it next time was completely unknown. And the second time, it was at this time.

Just after Su Mu got on the train, she had already begun to think about how to break up with Ling Feng. She can be generous, tolerant, and forgive Ling Feng for making mistakes once or twice, but in her opinion, once or twice a mistake in principle is already the limit, but Ling Feng has no sense of change at all, and is still constantly challenging her bottom line, and even her attitude is still as bad as this. He hadn't changed in the slightest, and he hadn't felt guilty for the things he had done, and he felt guilty for hurting her. That's his character. It can even be regarded as a conclusive character. Since he can't change it, and he doesn't want to change it for anything, then just break up like this, and it doesn't matter, let alone whether it's worth it or not.

After Su Mu's train departed, Ling Feng acted as if nothing had happened. Su Mu looked at her familiar tone in the message, and felt a pain in her heart. And this pain is real, deeply reflected in her body, even every muscle feels the pain of being cut by a knife, so that her tears keep flowing down, and she can't control it at all. Her mind kept recalling the sweet days when the two of them were together with Ling Feng at the beginning. And thinking about it, she began to feel that all this was an illusion created for her by Ling Feng.

Later, Su Mu once said to Ling Feng, don't leave her alone, because the things Ling Feng had done before were enough to give her room for imagination, she could think about these questions from beginning to end when she was calm, and then put the truths that were covered up in front of her. And as soon as these things are clear, her feelings for him will completely dissipate.

Unfortunately, Ling Feng still chose to be calm.

On the way, Su Mu almost cried all the way, and the man who had been sitting next to him handed her a few tissues out of politeness. However, Su Mudu politely declined him, so just as he was about to get out of the car to chat, the man finally spoke to persuade Su Mudao:

"Girl, I don't know what you've been through, but I guess it's something to do with feelings. I don't have much experience, and you don't want to accept other help, but I still want to tell you that if a boy, if he loves you, he is really reluctant to let you cry like this, and if you can cry like this, most of you don't love you. Really, for whatever reason, if a man makes a woman cry, that's his fault. So I still advise you to think about it, don't take it too seriously. ”

"And what if he, he's tired of me because I'm crying all the time?"

It wasn't once or twice that she was persuaded to break up, but Su Mu didn't pay attention to it, if it weren't for the current environment, she wouldn't want to pay attention to this situation. But she really wanted to know what Ling Feng was thinking, and when she asked, she would only quarrel, so when this man suddenly mentioned this matter, she really couldn't help it, so she asked this question.

As soon as the man heard Su Mu ask such a question, he immediately sneered and said to Su Mu:

"It's such a joke, he thinks you can cry, so why doesn't he want to think about it, why do you cry? You cry for him so many times, not only does he not think he has a problem, but now he thinks it's your problem, it's a little ridiculous!"

"yes, it's ridiculous, the most ridiculous thing is that he really didn't love me......"

After saying this, Su Mu's tears began to fall again, and after the man found that the situation did not seem to be getting better, he immediately answered:

"Love or not love this question, I have no qualifications to answer you, this is your own feelings, but, you are not old, you should know that love is not the only bond between two people, when you feel comfortable with a person, you can live together, if you feel uncomfortable, then there are other people waiting for you. ”

How could Su Mu not understand this truth? From junior high school to now, there are really not a few people who have pursued her, not a hundred, but also seventy or eighty. So how could she not know that someone loved her more? But once something has begun, it is easy to give up, but it is very difficult to end it. Su Mu could give up on Ling Feng and choose not to be with him, but what did she have to do to end her feelings for him?

Su Mu thought about this question for a long time but didn't find an answer, she really wanted to know how she could be ruthless, get rid of Ling Feng, and start a new life. But she couldn't figure out this problem by herself, so she really wanted to find someone to help her analyze and give her some advice, even if it was just to accompany her. But when he saw the contacts in the list, she really didn't know who she could go to.

If it was other problems, Weiyang and Le Duo were of course the best choice, almost everything, Su Mu discussed with the two of them, but as long as Ling Feng was involved, it would be difficult for her to open her mouth and go to these things with the two of them.

It's not that there is any problem with the two of them, but because these two people are too biased towards Su Mu, so no matter what the problem is, the first thing the two of them consider is Su Mu's feelings, so they can't see Su Mu's mistakes, and it is definitely impossible to look at this matter completely correctly.

What Su Mu needs is someone who can calmly analyze mistakes from the perspective of a bystander, so as to ensure that this matter has its fairness in it, rather than completely biasing towards a certain person. Although there is no such thing as fairness or unfairness in feelings, this fairness is especially important when there is a mistake.

And the fact that the two of them were together was a mistake in itself, in that case, Su Mubi needed such a person to remind her that there were some things that she valued too important, and some things that she didn't care about too much.

However, since that quarrel, Ling Feng deleted all the contacts he was not used to, and emptied her friend list, Su Mu could hardly find anyone to talk to her. Of course, the so-called "life coaches" she used to have are still there, but Su Mu also knows these essences very well, and it is impossible to help her analyze these things for no reason. And to be honest, these old people gossip more than their younger ones, except that they gossip about neighborhood matters.

And this kind of thing is often the most terrifying. Because the so-called gossip is caused by these people, word of mouth.

Su Muke didn't want to be a kind of conversation after their dinner, although it might have been considered to some extent now, then she didn't want to add more things to them and let them chew on the root of their tongues. Now that she and Ling Feng are together, they don't know what it will be like, if he finds someone to confide in his recent situation, then it is estimated that they will spread the speed of the story, and soon they will be able to synthesize a storybook.

But what has to be said is that apart from these people, there is no one around Su Mu who can help her analyze these things correctly and calmly. And if they couldn't use it, Su Mu had to give up this idea.

This made her feel in an instant that it was too difficult to get along with Ling Feng. She had to bear a lot of things herself, Ling Feng couldn't help him bear it, she didn't even have someone to talk to, which seemed a little too pitiful. But what can it be? This is her own choice, people always have to pay for their mistakes when they do things wrong, maybe the pain she has suffered during this period of time is the price he paid for this relationship.

What about Ling Feng, what was the pain he got if he made the wrong choice? Was it just the loss of her? And what she wanted to know was that Ling Feng was really sad to lose her? Wasn't it because of the loss of her that Ling Feng could start a new life and then do what he wanted to do? Wasn't this a good thing for him?

So why is this the case? Obviously, both of them made mistakes, and the consequences of the mistakes are only borne by Su Mu alone, is this fair to Su Mulai?

Could it be that it wasn't Ling Feng who first provoked Su Mu? Then why did Su Mu have to bear the consequences?

Just because she's older, should she be more mature?