(13) Su Mu's concerns
After deciding where to go, after getting off work, the two of them went downstairs to take a taxi as fast as they could, and went straight to the store.
Although that shop would be open until the second half of the night, there were many things that might sell out if they went a little late, and Ling Feng especially loved to eat that wonton, and the wontons were the easiest to sell out, so every time they rushed to that store at night, they would worry about whether the wontons were still there.
When the two of them arrived, it was just in time for the boss to be there. As soon as he saw Ling Feng coming, he immediately greeted him cordially:
"Come here so late, you don't have to go to school tomorrow?"
Ling Feng rarely came to eat here after he moved, so the boss didn't know that Ling Feng had gone to school in other places, thinking that he was still in his original school, so he asked casually, and Ling Feng naturally replied:
"I'm ready to go abroad now, so I'm not at my old school. ”
"Oh yes, you're going abroad, yes, yes, then this is going to take your little girlfriend with you?"
Originally, it was just a very normal and casual conversation, but as soon as he mentioned this, Su Mu's heart suddenly "chuckled", and the whole person began to become nervous.
She had always been afraid that someone would bring it up.
The first person to mention this matter to her was Ling Feng, who kept telling Su Mu that he wanted Su Mu to go to Japan with him. At first, Su Mu felt that he was very serious, but later the two of them became like this, and Su Mu began to doubt the authenticity of this sentence. But no matter what, from beginning to end, Su Mu never thought of going to Japan with Ling Feng.
It's not that Su Mu doesn't have that much determination to be with Ling Feng, but that she has an indescribable sense when facing this matter. And in fact, no matter whether Ling Feng said this sentence sincerely or falsely, she had thought a lot about this matter.
Her family is very ordinary, there is no way to support her expenses abroad, and in the past few years, she has been in a state of timely happiness, although she has been to many places and has a lot of energy, but she also has no savings, so it is very difficult for her to apply for a visa. Moreover, if Ling Feng was older, maybe the family would still have a chance to agree to her and Ling Feng going abroad together, but now Ling Feng is not stable in anything, and there is no way to prove to Su Mu's family that if the two of them go abroad together, the two of them can take care of each other, instead of asking Su Mu to take more care of Ling Feng. In the end, Su Mu does not have the ability to live in Japan now, and there are even big problems in daily communication, if the two of them quarrel or break up, then for Su Mu, the blow must be very big. Because although there will be a job, being with Ling Feng is Su Mu's purpose, but for Ling Feng, it is his purpose to go to Japan and study, so if there is any problem between the two of them that leads to a breakup, then it will be very harmful to Su Mu.
As for the benefits, apart from being able to live with Ling Feng, Su Mu couldn't think of any benefits, and even that, Su Mu couldn't guarantee that he could feel happy every day.
Therefore, Su Mu didn't feel any need for him to go to Japan with Ling Feng at all.
If it were the past, in fact, Su Mu would not think about so many things, after all, she is the girl who can live only by love in everyone's mouth, as long as there is love, she will not consider the reality at all, even if the other party keeps painting cakes for her, she is willing to believe that those are true. But now, Su Mu didn't know if she was really mature, or if she felt that she didn't like Ling Feng so much, anyway, she would think about many things with Ling Feng very seriously, and she wouldn't blindly make a decision like before.
This is actually a very normal thing, at Su Mu's age, it is understandable to consider this, after all, this is related to the happiness of the second half of her life, no one wants to casually send the second half of her life away, and Su Mu is the same. But the strange thing was that although Su Mu also felt that this was normal, when facing Ling Feng, as soon as such a thing was involved, Su Mu felt that he owed something to him. Even if it was like now, she felt that Ling Feng didn't like him anymore, and he didn't deserve her liking anymore, she still felt like this.
Therefore, she was afraid that someone would mention something related to the future, especially Ling Feng took the initiative to mention it. She had no way to face these things calmly, and she didn't want to deceive Ling Feng.
Whether it was Le Duo or Ling Feng, both of them had told Su Mu that white lies had nothing to do with it, after all, they were all for the good of the other party, so they wanted to deceive. Su Mu has always disagreed with this point of view, in her opinion, a lie is a lie, it has no difference between good intentions and bad intentions, so she can't accept any deception from anyone about her, and it is precisely because of this that she will not lie to the people she cares about, even if the truth is cruel and unacceptable.
She just wants to be honest, she has a strong enough heart to accept the truth, but she doesn't have the slightest ability to accept lies, so she has always wanted to use her own efforts in exchange for equal treatment.
It's a pity that she has never been able to exchange something that can be equal to her efforts, so this is the way she treats Ling Feng.
This may be unfair to Ling Feng, but if you think about it carefully, many years later, Ling Feng will also become an empathetic, gentle and considerate man, so it will not be fair to Su Mu.
Therefore, the meeting between the two of them is a mistake, and being together is just a mistake on top of a mistake.
And this kind of mistake was caused by Su Mu's greed for a while, and now if he wants to end it, it seems to have become a big problem.
Just when Su Mu felt worried, he didn't expect Ling Feng to take the initiative to change the topic.
"It's not decided yet, uncle, do you still have ravioli? I'm here for the wontons today. ”
"You're here, even if you don't have it, I'll have to wrap a bowl for you, wait, you order something else first, and I'll serve you the wontons in a while." ”
The boss said that he went to the back kitchen to make wontons, and Ling Feng took the menu and prepared to order as if he hadn't chatted with the boss just now, and by the way, he also took the notepad used by the waiter, and the waiter said that they wrote it themselves, and they would give it to her after they had written.
Because of the relationship between the two of them before, the waiter didn't say much, gave them the things and left. While looking at the menu, Ling Feng ordered all the things Su Mu and his favorite food, and then completely ignored Su Mu's objections, and snatched the notebook, forcibly changing back the quantities that Su Mu had just secretly changed by himself.
"You're too thin, don't you know if you want to eat more?"
"I've been so thin since I was a kid and I can't change it. ”
Su Mu really felt that Ling Feng couldn't eat at all if she ordered so much, it was a waste, and she didn't like anyone to force her to eat things that she couldn't eat at all on the grounds of "avoiding waste". She knew very well how much she had eaten, and how uncomfortable it was to eat more than she ate, and every time she ate, she tried to eat everything she could, and she couldn't help it. She was also anxious to see that food being wasted, and she couldn't explain to everyone that she really could only eat so much, and sometimes there were people who didn't believe it when she told the truth, just like that, over time, Su Mu was used to these words, but became more and more tired of being forced to eat more.
And Ling Feng would do this almost every time he ate.
In fact, if Su Mu still tried to like Ling Feng as before, then she would try to learn to be coquettish, hoping to make herself eat less, but maybe because of the incident just now, Su Mu didn't have any good temper at the moment, which allowed her to talk to Ling Feng softly.
However, Ling Feng didn't seem to care about Su Mu's attitude at all, and after changing it, he directly handed the notebook to the waiter, and then said to Su Mu:
"That's because you didn't meet me, and no one forced you to eat more. Anyway, I don't care, you have to get fat in the future. ”
"Besides, don't you men like to have a good body, and if I get fat, I'm afraid you don't even want to look at me." ”
"Nonsense, you should be fatter, okay, it's a little too thin now. ”
"So you're disgusted with me now?"
"Who said that, I don't dislike it, you don't know, my friends and they all praise you for your good looks. ”
Having said this, Ling Feng immediately hugged Su Mu's waist and took her into his arms. His action almost dragged Su Mu off the stool, if it weren't for his thighs to stop him and him to pull, then Su Mu might have sat directly on the ground. Su Mu began to feel that every time he ate, Ling Feng wanted her to sit next to him, and he was definitely deliberately pulling her off the stool for a valid reason.
So Su Mu sat on the ground as soon as he let go, so she sat on Ling Feng's lap and said to Ling Feng through gritted teeth:
"So you're still with me because they complimented me on my beauty, and you have face on your face?"
"I find that you are becoming more and more presumptuous now, you see how I clean you up after eating. ”
Su Mu felt that putting his weight on Ling Feng's body was a punishment for Ling Feng, but for Ling Feng, Su Mu was obviously throwing himself into his arms, he hugged Su Mu hard, greedily smelling the unique smell of her body, and for a moment he even wanted to crush Su Mu and melt it into his body, so he didn't have to worry about Su Mu leaving.
Maybe it's because he did too many wrong things before, although Su Mu doesn't know it now, but Ling Feng knows it very well in his heart, so Ling Feng is always worried, what if these things are discovered by Su Mu, he has worked very hard to solve these things again, but he hasn't solved them all, if Su Mu knows about it at this time, then all the efforts he made before will be in vain. He didn't want to lose Su Mu, although he didn't know why he had been so bad to Su Mu recently, but he really didn't want Su Mu to leave him because of these things, otherwise, he wouldn't have come back today. However, he himself knew that there were indeed some problems between him and Su Mu, and these problems could not be solved in just one or two days.
He doesn't know why it became like this, obviously the two of them had a good relationship before, and they got along very happily, why did it become like this now?
He couldn't find an answer, and he didn't know how to solve it, he only knew that he didn't want Su Mu to leave him, and when he thought of losing Su Mu, he felt that his whole body was uncomfortable.
And at this moment, Su Mu didn't feel like him, although she felt a little uncomfortable in her heart, but for Ling Feng's words that could cause countless reveries, she still blushed involuntarily, and then she realized that it was really a bit bad for the two of them to sit outside like this, so she struggled to get off Ling Feng's lap.
Ling Feng hadn't hugged enough, so he let Su Mu struggle, and he didn't want to let go at all, until the boss brought the wontons to the table, and he put Su Mu in her own seat.
At this time, the ordered skewers were also served one after another, and the two of them put away their minds and began to eat attentively, striving to finish eating as soon as possible, so that they could go back to the hotel as soon as possible.
Not at all surprisingly, except for the ravioli, none of the things ordered were eaten. Su Mu originally wanted to use this to tell Ling Feng not to order so much in the future, but she felt that Ling Feng definitely didn't want her to accuse him or educate him at this time, so she had to hold back her thoughts, and just called the waiter and asked for two bags for packing.
Ling Feng didn't expect Su Mu to do this at all, he watched Su Mu put the rest of the things into the bag little by little, and asked her very puzzled:
"What are you doing here?"
"Pack, there are so many left, what a pity to throw away. ”
"But this is cold when I go to the hotel, how to eat it. ”
"You don't care how I eat after that, it's a pity to throw away so much left, besides, I've told you everything, I like to eat cold, in case I'm hungry for a while, I don't have to order takeout." ”
"But it's not good for your stomach to always eat cold, your stomach is already bad, can't you pay attention?"
"Diligence and thrift are traditional Chinese virtues, waste is shameful, and ah, it won't be okay to eat this once or twice once in a while, so why do you care, the most important thing is that I am happy to buy a thousand dollars, I just like to eat cold, what's wrong?"
"Why do you always have so many crooked reasoning!"
Although he was complaining about Su Mu's approach, Ling Feng still obediently helped Su Mu pack all the food into the bag. Su Mu saw that Ling Feng had come to help, so she handed over this matter to Ling Feng to do, and she took out her mobile phone and started taking a taxi in advance.