(10) Prepare to meet
Because of something on his mind, when Su Mu proposed to go to him, Ling Feng's attitude became less positive than before. Su Mu has always been sensitive to such changes, but she is unwilling to verify whether Ling Feng's change is related to what she is most afraid of.
In fact, girls have always been very easy to deceive, as long as she loves this person, then she will be willing to deceive herself. So in fact, there are some things that Su Mu knows, but out of respect for this love and the psychology of wanting to maintain it, she is reluctant to investigate most things. She felt that she had given Ling Feng enough face, he said that he had never gotten along with his girlfriend like this before, there were many things he didn't know how to do, and he didn't even know that the things he did were wrong, so she put aside her expectations and taught him to do it one by one. But now she found that she had done nothing at all, and that he had done the same, doing what he thought, and no matter how many times she had said it, he always had his own reasons to refute her.
Su Mu never understood why, if these were regarded as adolescent rebellion, it would be too serious. And recalling that when she was as old as him, feelings were always put first, how did she come to him and her status became like this? Although the times have changed, but no matter how much it changes, will the attitude towards feelings also change?
To a certain extent, Su Mu was actually quite similar to Ling Feng's temper, for example, when he was drilling the tip of the bull's horns, these two people were very powerful, they didn't listen to anyone's persuasion, and the more they persuaded them, the harder they drilled. So even when everyone around her was telling her that the current relationship was becoming more and more unreliable, Su Mu still firmly believed that there were very firm feelings in this world.
Ling Feng can't give her this kind of firm affection, it doesn't mean that others can't, she didn't meet it, she didn't meet it, and it has nothing to do with existence.
Le Duo and Weiyang, even Nianbei didn't want to fight Su Mu's simple thoughts, now Su Mu's appearance, in the eyes of a few of them, is almost no different from children, and even to put it badly, children now will not think so innocently like Su Mu, so she will be deceived by Ling Feng, it really deserves it.
Moreover, the current Su Mu has completely verified a sentence, a woman who falls in love will basically become a fool.
Su Mu also disagrees with this point of view, she has already said earlier, it is not that girls' IQ has become lower, but that sometimes in order to maintain a relationship, even if they know that it is a lie, they will choose to believe it. They try to tolerate a mistake with their kindness and beauty, and want to exchange it for a good relationship in this way. But the reality is mostly the opposite of what they expected, those men who are forgiven, will only think that girls are easy to deceive, they will automatically ignore all the efforts they have made for the relationship, and because of their kindness and beauty.
She never thought that Ling Feng would become like this, all along, she hoped that Ling Feng could get better and better, so she kept giving Ling Feng a chance and trying to teach him to do something. Sometimes even when things are in front of her, she doesn't want to go into details, even if she has to believe it, she will silently bear all the sadness herself, and use a night of tears to give Ling Feng a chance.
Later, Su Mu thought that in fact, maybe if she didn't choose to take on these problems alone, she might not have harmed herself like this. At the end of the day, a large part of the reason why she will get so bad because of this relationship is also her own reason. If she could be a little sober, calm down, and not take all the problems on herself, then she might not have developed like this. It's a pity that there is no chance in this world to do it again, so even if she finds the wrong place, there is no way to make up for it and change it.
However, although Ling Feng's attitude was not right, Su Mu did not dispel the idea of seeing him, and even at this time, Su Mu felt that as long as she could meet Ling Feng, the relationship between the two would definitely get better, even if it would not become the way he was when he first chased her, it would always be much better than the relationship between the two of them before. She really can't stand this kind of relationship, when she thinks of having to quarrel over all kinds of things every day, Ling Feng will always do the same thing repeatedly, and then always repeat these things, and the content of the quarrel has not changed, in this way, it is really very boring.
Because of this thought, Su Mu began to look forward to the arrival of Friday more and more, and automatically ignored the fact that the two of them quarreled, as if none of these things had happened. But Ling Feng didn't change anything, he still had the same attitude towards Su Mu, I don't know if he didn't want to change, or if he couldn't change it himself.
Su Mu didn't care about such a thing, what she was thinking about was that as long as she appeared in his school, he would definitely change his other views because of seeing her. She didn't know why his attitude was getting worse, but she didn't want to know either. Because for her, whatever it is, he will change one day.
Since it is not pointy to pay too much attention to the process if.
Su Mu would have such thoughts, probably because at this time, the things Ling Feng did not hurt her so deeply, and when someone asked her about this kind of roar in the future, she would definitely put the process first.
The emotion that can make her feel happy the whole time is of course her choice over an emotion that can only bring her hurt. Because the final ending is always the same, in that case, of course, choose the one that can make her happy for longer.
In order to make Su Mu Yishida do this, these girls around her can be regarded as using enough strength. Each of them hoped that Su Mu would be able to get out of the sea of suffering as soon as possible and draw a clear line with Ling Feng as soon as possible, but they still waited for an ending that was not perfect. In the end, Su Mu finally decided to leave Ling Feng, but she also became covered in scars, and for a long time, she might not be able to get out of the damage caused by this relationship.
That's the least worthwhile thing they feel.
If the two of them break up, Ling Feng will not be affected in any way because of this matter, he will have higher and higher requirements for his partner, and on the basis of such high requirements, he will either continue to be single by himself and enjoy the ambiguous process, or find a better girl, which is simply a hundred benefits for Ling Feng. But if things were changed to Su Mu's body, it would become that Su Mu had to use countless loneliness and tears to erase the injuries that Ling Feng had brought her. Then use more time to restate your confidence and courage to yourself, and then let yourself believe in a person and believe in a relationship.
When Su Mu and Ling Feng had a showdown, she mentioned this matter to Ling Feng, and she told Ling Feng very clearly that the harm he brought to her was not just what was in front of her. She not only had to bear the harm that Ling Feng had brought her, but also had to bear a series of consequences caused by the wrong things Ling Feng had done. At that time, Ling Feng was completely unimpressed by what Su Mu said, and even asked Su Mu rhetorically, didn't he receive retribution, Su Mu didn't love him anymore, wasn't this retribution? When Su Mu heard this answer, he laughed until tears couldn't stop falling.
He said it so nicely, he still had to bear the consequences of losing her, but didn't he think about it? He lost Su Mu, in fact, it didn't affect him at all. Because he will meet better people, he will meet more suitable people, he will take more care of them, whether it is in life or in thought, so at this time, is there anything about Su Mu? He uses Su Mu to make himself better and more capable of taking care of other girls, but Su Mu has to bear the consequences of being hurt and abandoned, why is this? Just because he is older, he has to bear more? Just because he cares about this relationship, do you have to accept these injuries calmly?
Then the world is inevitably too unfair.
Soon it was time for the two of them to agree to meet, although Ling Feng still had such a lukewarm attitude and did not change because of the approaching time, but Su Mu became more and more looking forward to it. She specially prepared a lot of things for this meeting, such as new clothes and pants, and even some gadgets to use as gifts, just so that when Ling Feng saw her later, she could give him some small surprises.
However, this journey was not so smooth, at the beginning, Su Mu delayed her train because she forgot to bring her ID card and did not have time to apply for a temporary ID card at the window. In this way, Su Mu wasted nearly 400 yuan in vain, and what is even worse is that the nearest high-speed train has been bought, and she doesn't even have a standing ticket, so she can only take the afternoon trip, which will be nearly 5 hours late to get to Haicheng.
When Su Mu and Ling Feng mentioned this matter, Su Mu had already settled the matter by himself. And Ling Feng was still so angry that he almost scolded her directly on the phone on the spot, after listening to it, he kept directing Su Mu to do things, regardless of whether Su Mu had done this or not, and then kept accusing, why did she remind her so much last night, she still didn't prepare all these things in advance.
Of course, Ling Feng can't be blamed at all, because in order to be able to pick up Su Mu, he deliberately asked the teacher for leave and missed two classes, but when Su Mu came, it was completely after he got out of school, and according to this time, he could catch up with Su Mu without asking for leave, so Su Mu didn't come, which was equivalent to directly wasting his two opportunities to ask for leave. In this case, he will hardly have the opportunity to ask for leave in the future, and if something happens in the future, it may be that he will fail the exam.
If it was because of this kind of thing that he had failed a subject, he would have almost been.
Although Su Mu felt that Ling Feng could lose his temper with her because she had done something wrong, there were some things that no matter how angry he was, he shouldn't say them so casually. So even if Ling Feng apologized to her for this incident later, she still left an indelible mark in her heart.
Although this time it was she who did the wrong thing.
And the most important thing is that because Su Mu will arrive in Haicheng very late, it is a question whether the two of them can have a place to live when they come back. What's more. If you have made a plan before, you need to re-plan it again. This means that they need to spend more time communicating things that have already been communicated.
Ling Feng really hated this.
However, hate to hate, these things still need to be done in the end, so when Ling Feng went to plan these alone during the lunch break at noon, he felt that Su Mu was too unfair to him.
After re-preparing the next things with a blocked breath, Ling Feng didn't have the heart to do anything else. He didn't even play the game, so he just sat and stayed in the dormitory when he was supposed to pick up Su Mu.
And during this period, Su Mu really kept sleeping, and he didn't pay attention to Ling Feng at all. Because she thought about it before she got into the car, and even if she took this opportunity to teach Ling Feng some lessons, I don't know if Ling Feng would understand the reason why she did this.
It's like she would make excuses for Ling Feng every time he had a problem.
On the way of anticipation, even if the time became very slow because of the quarrel, Su Mu slept in the car again and again but never reached the end, which made her more and more anxious later. When there was still half an hour left, she began to look down at her watch constantly, almost every minute, and the uncle sitting next to him couldn't help but ask her, what was so anxious.
Normally, in the face of this situation, Su Mu will choose not to answer, but it may be because it is an elderly person who asked her today, so Su Mu felt that it was polite to answer and tell him that she was going to meet her boyfriend.
When the uncle heard Su Mu's answer, his face became even brighter, and he continued to say to Su Mu:
"It's good that you have such a fast means of transportation as the high-speed rail at this time, and I think that when my wife and I wanted to meet, it was to take that kind of green train, and it would take thirty or forty hours to sit on it. ”
"That's probably because it's more difficult for you to meet, and nothing is as quick and convenient as it is now, so your relationship can be maintained like this, right?"