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It happened so suddenly, Ling Feng couldn't believe that what he heard was true for a while, and even felt that it was an auditory hallucination that he was too angry about. He knew that he should immediately go and find out what she meant with Su Mu right now, but he couldn't do anything but be stunned.
He didn't dare ask.
What if this was a temporary decision made by Su Mu, and he regretted it as soon as he asked her? Although he was ready to pursue her all the time and never give up no matter how long he was, if he missed an opportunity because of this, wouldn't he regret it.
But if he didn't ask, what if it was really his auditory hallucination?
In this dilemma, Ling Feng was so anxious, but he was embarrassed to ask for help from his roommate in front of Su Mu. And just when he was at a loss, Su Mu saw that he had not reacted for a long time, and took the lead in opening his mouth:
"Why, I said it too quickly, don't you understand what I mean?
There was a very light smile in Su Mu's tone, but no one knew how much determination was hidden behind her smile.
Because once she decides to start, it means that she has to bear the pressure brought to her by her parents on both sides, as well as the strange eyes of the world that look at her. At the same time, she has to be ready to grow up with a boy.
This is tantamount to a gamble, and too many people have lost their youth here. She had already failed once, and there was not much time left to squander, and there was nothing left to sacrifice again, but he still had too much to go, and he would go through many things and meet many people. She wasn't sure she would win, but she wanted to give it a try.
Even if there is no result, even if it will repeat the mistakes of the past, she wants to experience the feeling of being pampered in the palm of someone's hand once. It had always been something she couldn't hope for, and she had given too much and waited long enough to get it, and she really didn't want to give up if she really had the chance.
What's more, she finally met a person with eyes full of her, and she should believe in that simple heart.
After all, at this age, she also tried hard to love someone, even if they got along for a short time, but when she was with him, she also thought about finishing her life.
Perhaps, she now has the ability to take on the promise of a lifetime.
After a long time, Su Mu's girlfriends all said that she had been treated badly for too long, so as soon as someone treated her well, she couldn't wait to give away everything she could give, making herself humble and cheap, completely ignoring reality. If she can be treated well all the time, then she will definitely have enough confidence to let herself play the role of being flattered from beginning to end in this love, and she will definitely not be like now, on top of an old wound, and a dense layer of new wounds.
Of course, Su Mu knew that they were right, and if she could start over, she would not be blinded by appearances like a dying person chasing a mirage in the desert. But fortunately, she was luckier than those people, and despite all the hardships, she finally enjoyed a good time.
This can be regarded as a response to her original intention, so it seems that she has not lost too badly.
After hearing Su Mu's explanation, Ling Feng dared to be sure that he had not heard it wrong. He almost jumped out of bed clutching his phone, and couldn't help but want to cheer, if it wasn't for the victory of sanity in the end, he would probably be bombarded tonight by disturbing the cheerful atmosphere of his roommates.
But he was so excited, he really wanted to tell everyone that he had succeeded, but he was afraid that his performance was too obvious and would make Su Mu think he was naïve, so he had to grit his teeth and force himself to suppress this excitement, and then immediately explained to Su Mu:
"There's no misunderstanding, there's no misunderstanding, as long as I don't misunderstand. So...... I'm not mistaken, ......am you?
In the second half of the sentence, Ling Feng said cautiously, with a tentative tone, as if Su Mu was teasing him. Su Mu was originally a little nervous, afraid that Ling Feng was joking with her, but she didn't expect Ling Feng to react like this, which made her laugh unconsciously, and couldn't help but tease him:
"Why, haven't you been trying to chase me? I promise you now, why don't you seem to be very happy. ”
"No, how could I be unhappy! I just ...... I just didn't expect you to say yes so quickly. I originally thought I was going to chase you for a year and a half, but I didn't expect you to agree so quickly, I can't believe it. ”
Ling Feng hurriedly explained to Su Mu, and at the end, he laughed a little shyly. The laughter was mixed with happiness and anticipation, Su Mu listened to it, and only felt that his heart was soft, as if he had eaten a soft and delicate strawberry mousse cake, and even the air was filled with sweet taste.
"Didn't I see that you were very tired, and I wanted to lighten your burden a little, and then focus more on studying. ”
"Then are you also tired, haven't you eaten all day today?"
"Well, I've been really busy lately, and I'm feeling a little tired and out of breath. Alas...... I hope that the winter vacation will end soon, and I will be able to catch my breath, otherwise, it would be nice to have someone to help me, at least let me have a good meal, which I am very satisfied. ”
Although they were really tired, that night, the two of them chatted happily for a long time around what was happening around them like ordinary couples. At the end of the conversation, Su Mu didn't know how she fell asleep, and by the time she woke up, it was already the next morning. She hurriedly took her phone over to see if she had overslept, but not only did she find that the alarm clock had not been thought about, but she also found that the voice call between the two people had not hung up.
Because Ling Feng had already sent her the class schedule, she knew that Ling Feng should be in class at this time. Normally, Ling Feng has to hand in his mobile phone when he is in class, and he can't get it back until he gets out of class. Now that I found that the call did not hang up, then a large part of the reason should be that Ling Feng did not go to class.
Could it be that he didn't get up because he didn't get up because he talked too late yesterday and delayed his class, right? Thinking of this, Su Mu immediately blamed himself a little. And it was probably because she got up too loudly for Ling Feng to hear, so just as she was blaming herself like this, Ling Feng's voice suddenly came from the phone.
"Are you awake? We're in class, I'm wearing headphones, you go to breakfast, go to work after breakfast, and I'll talk to you when I get out of class." Don't hang up, wait for me. ”