For a long time, Su Mu couldn't figure out the difference between soft-heartedness and love. She couldn't tell whether when she forgave Ling Feng because she still liked him, or because she was just a soft-hearted person who couldn't see others being hurt, even if that person had hurt herself.

She also asks herself this question from time to time, especially after a fight between the two of them. Although it seems that the two of them are reconciled, in the following time, there will be a few days, and she will also feel awkward, and then she will unconsciously think about this problem.

She has always felt that she is very sensitive to the matter of love, and she knows very well what love is, what liking is, or what pity and soft-heartedness are. But in the time she had been with Ling Feng for so long, she found that she seemed to be blurring more and more of this boundary.

Of course, this may be because the two people are too familiar with the relationship. How familiar they are, almost so familiar that every time they quarrel, what the other party is going to say next, the two of them can guess in advance. Under this familiarity, it will become very difficult to find the novelty of love, even if it is to get two people to create a sense of security together, it is a very difficult thing. Su Mu was no longer willing to try, because the constant quarrels were so noisy that she lost interest in anything related to Ling Feng, let alone go with him to find novelty, even if she said a few more words, Su Mu was a little reluctant. Because she didn't know that the words she said would anger Ling Feng, instead of having a big fight, it was better not to contact her at all. So all in all, there was no freshness, and there was a fear of communication, and the later love between the two of them began to make Su Mu suspicious.

This is actually a very painful thing for Su Mu, who always maintains a high level of enthusiasm for new things. Because he has always relied on three minutes of heat to do things, and after surviving these three minutes of heat, she really doesn't know what to rely on to support herself when she encounters such a situation.

To be honest, Su Mu really didn't expect such a situation to happen at the beginning. She never thought that the man who was full of him at the beginning would become what he is now. Later, someone told her that maybe he treated the people closest to him like this, and he treated her like a person who would never leave him, so he treated her like this. Although this statement sounded as if it was elevating Su Mu's status, what Su Mu didn't understand was where Ling Feng got the confidence to think that he was right to do this, and that she would never leave him because he had become like this. There is nothing wrong with her being a close person to him, but there is no blood relationship between them, not even in the legal sense, how could she not leave him even after feeling that she has been wronged?

Su Mu kept thinking about this question repeatedly, thinking about what he had done to make Ling Feng believe in this illusion. Later, it took her a lot of tears to understand that it was she who did not keep her bottom line because of her soft-hearted heart at the beginning, so it led to this series of things later.

It can't be denied that although Su Mu didn't know how Ling Feng felt to her at that time, she took out the last bit of sincerity she had left to treat Ling Feng. Although she always felt that the two of them couldn't go to the end, every day she was with him, she took out all her love to tolerate him and grow up with him. But after that, after those things happened, and after arguing for a long time because of those things, even Su Mu sometimes felt that he had become numb. She even felt that crying and arguing seemed to have become a mechanical process, no matter whether the problem was so important or not, as long as there was a slight disagreement with her wishes, it was like touching the switch of the mechanism, causing the two of them to keep arguing, constantly making awkward fights, and then Su Mu cried endlessly. After going back and forth many times, Su Mu felt that even forgiveness had become a kind of coping.

How did the two of them become like this? This question was not clear to Su Mu, and neither was Ling Feng. However, although both sides feel that the other is at fault, they do not feel that all the problems exist in each other. Sometimes they reflect on their own problems, and sometimes they feel that they have gone too far. But unfortunately, despite their feelings, they have no idea of changing the status quo. At first, Su Mu probably wanted to struggle a little, trying to make Ling Feng understand that all his actions were hurting her. But when she realized that they were actually hurting each other, she gave up on that idea.

Of course, that's all for later.

At the beginning of things, there is love to support them, so no matter how much the two people quarrel, they will eventually return to the person they love. Just like now, when Su Mu heard that Ling Feng's attitude suddenly softened, her original anger and grievances instantly cooled down, and she began to feel guilty and uneasy again, so she tried to explain to Ling Feng again. Therefore, she tried her best to lower her posture a little lower before she opened her mouth and said to Ling Feng:

"It's true that I didn't do it right, and I shouldn't have missed your calls, but I'm really busy, and I didn't deliberately ignore your calls. The environment in which the two of us are in a different environment, there are some things that you may not understand, but if you don't understand it now, it doesn't mean that you won't be able to understand it in the future. Maybe when you reach my age, you'll understand why I made that choice. So under this premise, I hope that you can calm down a little when you encounter these things in the future. ”

"But I think I understand you very well, and besides, I'm not angry because you chose a job and didn't choose me, I know that work is very important to you now, I just want you to care more about me." I don't want to compare myself to your work, it's not comparable, it's not necessary. I just want to compare myself to other people, and I want you to think of me as the most special kind of being, not those "ordinary friends" who can just deal with it and feel indifferent.

Su Mu had always been accustomed to treating Ling Feng as a child, although he had done a few things that surprised him before this, making him look much more mature than his peers, but this did not make Su Mu's opinion of him change anything. But just at that time, Su Mu suddenly discovered that Ling Feng was not as ignorant as she imagined, although he was often willful and rebellious like an adolescent child, and always liked to work against her, but when he was willing to let go of these willfulness, he was actually very mature compared to his peers. So Su Mu felt that she really should change her opinion of him, including her attitude towards him. Maybe in this case, there may be a lot less misunderstanding between the two of them, and then you can avoid such frequent quarrels.

Thinking of this, Su Mu suddenly began to feel a little distressed about Ling Feng. Because he could have found a girl his age who didn't need him to care so much. The two of them may have a very easy time, and she will not set such high standards for him in her heart like her, hoping that he can grow up faster and take care of her like an adult. But he chose to be with her, trying to take care of her, a woman who was so scarred that she didn't even know what she coveted.

This was not fair to Ling Feng.

After his mind was full of such thoughts, Su Mu didn't know how he should respond to Ling Feng's words. Fortunately, at this time, the two of them were already about to walk to Su Mu's shop, so Su Mu decided to put this topic aside first, and wait for her to spend an afternoon thinking about this matter before continuing to talk about it with Ling Feng.

However, she obviously forgot that no matter how mature Ling Feng was, he would always be a child. He has something he wants to be satisfied, and if he doesn't get it, he will do everything he can to get it. So when Su Mu didn't respond to him, the grievances in his heart were suddenly infinitely magnified, magnified to the point that they gradually devoured his sanity that he had finally recovered, and let him pull her back fiercely when Su Mu was about to leave.

"Are you not going to give me a reply and leave, or are you not taking me seriously at all, thinking that I don't mean anything special to you like everyone else, so there is no need to reply to me?"

When he heard this, Su Mu didn't know how to describe his mood at this time. She felt that it was really ridiculous that Ling Feng could say such a thing, and even when she heard this, she almost instantly overturned all the definitions she had given to Ling Feng, including the things she had just discovered.

"If that's what you think, then I don't think I have anything to explain to you anymore. I still have a job, and it's not convenient in the store today, so if you have anything to do, you can wait until the evening to get off work. ”

Ling Feng originally just wanted Su Mu to have an attitude, but he didn't expect that when he finished saying this, it seemed to have a counterproductive effect. He suddenly felt very uncomfortable and aggrieved, if the roles of the two of them were reversed at this time, Ling Feng would probably cry by now.

After Su Mu finished saying this, he turned his head and was about to walk towards the store. And Ling Feng was really stimulated by her words, and he couldn't suppress the anger in his heart at all, so he pulled Su Mu back with a special force.

"If you think I'm important, can't you say it, is it so hard for you to say, 'I'm important to you,' or do you just think that's what you think in your heart, you don't think I'm important at all, and I can be replaced at any time?"

"You talk nonsense, when did I say that?"

Being pulled by Ling Feng like this, the pain in his wrist also made Su Mu gradually lose his mind. She shook off Ling Feng's hand fiercely, yelling at him as she tried to go back to the store.

Ling Feng obviously wouldn't let Su Mu leave like this, on the one hand, because he felt that this matter had not been resolved, his grievances had not been comforted, and he couldn't let Su Mu leave. On the other hand, he was afraid that Su Mu would never come back if he left like this.

So he held Su Mu's wrist fiercely again, even if she was in pain, even if she broke free with all her strength, he didn't let go of his hand.

This time, Su Mu was really a little painful to hold, and when the pain came, somehow, a special feeling of grievance surged in her heart. So when Su Mu grabbed her hard again and wanted to pull her back, she followed Ling Feng's movements and threw herself into Ling Feng's arms. Then, ignoring the strange gazes of the people around him, he bit Ling Feng's shoulder very hard.

Because it was very hot in the mall, the two of them had already taken off their coats when they went upstairs, and the sweatshirt that Ling Feng was wearing was only a thin layer, so Su Mu could be regarded as a solid bite of Ling Feng's flesh. The pain spread throughout Ling Feng's limbs almost instantly, and Ling Feng's sanity gradually cleared up. However, Su Mu seemed to be addicted, when she felt Ling Feng's body become more and more stiff due to the pain, she bit harder, and stayed in the same place motionless, no matter how Ling Feng struggled, she didn't let go.

Seeing that Su Mu was really ruthless, Ling Feng felt that if he didn't get rid of Su Mu again, Su Mu might have to get rid of the piece of meat on his shoulder. So as a last resort, he had to lower his head, hugged Su Mu into his arms, and then used a very soft tone to suppress the grievances and anger in his heart, lowered his posture, and whispered to Su Mu:

"Wife, I was wrong, don't be angry, okay, I shouldn't have said those things to you, I shouldn't doubt your feelings for me, I know it's wrong, don't be angry. ”

The tears that Su Mu had been holding back fell with a clatter after Ling Feng said this. At the beginning, Ling Feng was trying to protect himself, forcing himself to use such a posture to seek harmony with Su Mu. But the moment Su Mu's tears fell, he suddenly realized that at this point, he was not a 100% victim, and there was no mistake at all. If Su Mu really didn't have the slightest grievance, then she would definitely not do these things, so he wasn't as good as he thought, but he didn't know what he was wrong.

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