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In fact, Su Mu wanted to say that she would make the plan, but when the words came to her lips, she suddenly changed her mind. It's not that she's afraid of being tired and doesn't want to do these plans, but she doesn't want to do it from the bottom of her heart.
There is no suitable excuse to explain.
When Ling Feng heard Su Mu say this, it took half a minute to react. He was also interested in going to Spring City, but he didn't expect Su Mu to have such an idea, and Liu immediately reunited:
"Okay, then it's decided, will I go to you or you come to me, let's go together, or will the two of us go separately and find a similar time?"
There was a hint of expectation in Ling Feng's voice, and Su Mu couldn't hear it. It's just that now Su Mu is really in no mood to continue chatting with him, let him think about it slowly, and then hang up the phone.
If it had been changed before, Su Mu would definitely not have been like this. Even if she was unhappy or something, when she knew that Ling Feng was in a good mood, she would definitely not show her mood and affect Ling Feng. But this time she didn't know what was going on, she really didn't want to say more than half a word to Ling Feng, and she was even a little tired of contacting him, so she had the above performance.
Su Mu had always been very sensitive to her abnormal behavior, so when she realized this, she immediately became alert.
Su Mu is a person with a strong sense of crisis, perhaps because she has no confidence in herself and is worried that she may be abandoned at any time, so when something is wrong, she has to put away her feelings and continue to wait and see for a long time.
And this time was no exception.
So after hanging up the phone, Su Mu thought about it for a long time in her heart, and went through all these things that happened after they met from beginning to end, trying to find out why she felt the way she did. It's just that she was disappointed that she didn't find any clues from these things.
After thinking about it for a long time and not getting an answer, Su Mu gave up thinking about these things and shifted his attention to the message of the gift.
For Su Mu, writing these things is completely worry-free under normal circumstances. She has practiced her writing skills well in recent years, and many friends have chosen to ask her for help and let her help her write various summaries.
Every time it comes to this time, Su Mu is very busy, and just because he has to write these things, Su Mu feels that he has opened the door to many new worlds. She always felt that she was very good at words, but when it came time to write these things, she felt like she was stupid, her mind was completely blank, and she didn't know what she was going to say.
Love words and the like, it's not that she can't say it, and she can't say it. When she talked to Weiyang about these things, she really came as soon as she opened her mouth, and she could say that it would not be the same for five minutes, but when she came to Ling Feng, she had been thinking about this matter for three days, but she still didn't know what she was going to say. And most importantly, she originally wanted to write more seriously, after all, in her eyes, eighteen years old is a very important watershed. After the age of 18, Ling Feng had to say goodbye to naivety completely and take responsibility for what he had done. More than love words, she hoped that what she said would have an impact on Ling Feng's future life.
So it took her a long time just to write about what she wanted to write, and then when she really couldn't make up her mind, she sent a message to Nianbei, wanting her to help her choose, which one she wanted to choose. However, Nianbei's side may have already fallen asleep, she waited for half an hour and didn't wait for an answer, and after waiting for a long time without waiting for Nianbei's information, Su Mu gradually became sleepy, and said goodnight to Ling Feng and fell asleep directly.
When Nianbei came to work the next day, Su Mu was very anxious and began to chase Nianbei and ask her opinion.
It's really not okay not to be in a hurry, because tomorrow he will be on the train to Spring City. If she couldn't finish it today, she wouldn't have a chance to write it, after all, if she wrote again tomorrow in the car, she wouldn't have as many options as she has now, and she might not be able to finish it before she finished.
Nianbei always insisted on his own ideas, and suggested that Su Mu write some love words and the like, how to reflect his soft and cute side. Because most of the boys like this kind of soft and cute little girl.。 Because such a girl looks soft and weak, it is easier for people to have a desire to protect. However, Su Mu felt that this should not be true, because she thought that Ling Feng should not eat this set, and he should prefer mature women who can take care of themselves and don't have to worry about him.
In fact, Su Mu's idea was not wrong, but she ignored one thing, that is, as early as this time, Ling Feng had actually shown her selfishness, but Su Mu didn't want to believe it, so she never thought about it. If she had thought about it a little more, this series of things would not have happened in the future.
It's just that having said that, for a person of Su Mu's character, she wouldn't want to think badly of people, that is to say, even if Su Mu felt Ling Feng's selfishness at this time, in this case, she would tell herself that she felt wrong.
She was used to making excuses for Ling Feng, whether it was now or in the future, every time Ling Feng hurt her, she would cry while comforting herself not to be angry. But he wouldn't forget, making excuses for Ling Feng to comfort himself, and then trying to blame those mistakes on other people or things.
This was the one that Su Mu regretted the most, because she thought that it was all good for Ling Feng to do this, and she even had a little feeling, feeling that if she satisfied Ling Feng with everything, Ling Feng would not feel that she was too troublesome. But in fact, she didn't realize that what she had done was just giving Ling Feng a reason to be more selfish. Because he knew that no matter what he did, Su Mu would forgive him and help him make excuses, so he naturally didn't have to make efforts to keep Su Mu'er, and even felt that the excuses that Su Mu helped him find were his own.
So, a different choice for each thing will lead to a different outcome. And all the results have a reason for it. No matter how outrageous it is when it happens, when we trace the origin, we will find that it may actually have originated from a very ordinary little thing in family life.
However, when these things happen, no one can imagine what kind of outcome it will lead to. Therefore, there are very few people who can do this kind of word. Hey, this rare person is definitely a person who will succeed.
And private equity is not a successful person.
After discussing with Nianbei for a long time, Su Mu finally decided to stick to her original idea, and Nianbei had nothing to say about it, because in fact, as early as the beginning of the discussion, she knew what Su Mu was going to choose, but she couldn't make up her mind, and she needed someone to help her make up her mind.
And she was the one who helped her make up her mind.
After deciding on the direction, Su Mu spent the whole afternoon thinking about what kind of content she was going to write. Fortunately, it is more beneficial for her now that the gift has been chosen, and she only needs to write according to the characteristics of the gift. So before she got off work, she had a general idea.
In the evening, Ling Feng called her on time, and then began to discuss with her what to do in Spring City. Su Mu was actually a little unhappy, because she felt that she had given him full authority for this matter, so it should be that he could notify her when he made all the plans. She is not one of those girls who provokes trouble, if she wants to participate, she will plan it with the two of them directly and Ling Feng. It was because she didn't want to participate, so she directly told Ling Feng to let him think for himself. But now that Ling Feng still wanted to be with her, she felt a little irritable.
So she said to Ling Feng with a somewhat bad attitude:
"Just rest for a day, she can't go anywhere, and she has seen all the historical and cultural monuments in Spring City, and she has also eaten famous snacks, which means that Spring City has completely lost its attraction to her, plus she has to come to Spring City for a few days almost every year, because her aunt's home is here, and her grandfather often lives with her aunt, and they will only come to her house during the Chinese New Year, so in fact, no matter where Ling Feng is, she can accept it.
But to be honest, Su Mu didn't really want to discuss these things with Ling Feng. In contrast, she prefers to be honest and make travel plans at home by herself. Because there are always times when two people disagree, and if the two of them disagree, there will only be quarrels, and there will be no other result at all.
However, Ling Feng didn't hear the reluctance in Su Mu's tone, so he kept pestering Su Mu to talk about these things.
Fortunately, Ling Feng did not let Su Mu make a decision, but told her about the decision he made.
During the chat, Su Mu didn't show anything abnormal, just responded with a "uh-huh-hmm", and didn't concentrate on listening to what Ling Feng said. Ling Feng was not stupid, he might not have heard that she was coping at the beginning, but later on, he found that Su Mu was really not listening to him carefully, but was perfunctory. So he suddenly felt a wave of anger in his heart and wanted to explode.
But when he thought that Su Mu had been wronged so much because of him, Ling Feng was a little reluctant, and even felt that even if Su Mu didn't want to listen, it would be good for her to talk to him.
In the past two days, he could really feel that Su Mu's attitude towards him had changed, and he had become very cold. This had to make him a little worried, and he was even a little afraid, did Su Mu know what happened before, otherwise why would her attitude suddenly become cold? And probably out of a weak heart, he really wanted to find a chance to talk to Su Mu alone, and take the opportunity to make a test.
At this time, Ling Feng also began to realize that there was a problem between the two of them, but he couldn't say what the specific problem was, he couldn't accept that the relationship between the two people had become like this. So he kept guessing whether Su Mu had discovered something, so he kept talking to Su Mu, and even wanted to eliminate some of the worries and doubts in his heart first.
A conversation ended in such a nervous atmosphere, but because Su Mu really didn't put her mind on this, she didn't feel anything wrong with Ling Feng. After hanging up the phone, she didn't think about it, and began to constantly refresh her logistics information to see where her package had arrived.
Time flies too fast, and Su Mu feels that it hasn't been long since she bought this gift, but she will set off the day after tomorrow. However, it has been several days, and it is clear that it is sent to SF, and it should arrive on the 3rd day, but she is still guarding her mobile phone to read the logistics information, and there is no courier delivered to her at all.
If this gift doesn't come tomorrow, it will be useless, so Su Mu was worried that the courier would not be delivered, and at the same time scolded himself for always putting things off until the end, which caused a lot of trouble for himself.
After refreshing the courier information countless times to make sure that the gift could really arrive tomorrow, Su Mu had already thought about the general content she was going to write, and all that was left was to retouch it a little, and then she began to think about how the gift should be packaged.
He had other packaging materials, but she had never bought paper that could be used for packaging, so she sent a WeChat message and reported to her mother in advance, telling her that she might go to school when she got off work and buy back what she needed.
Sometimes Su Mu felt that the reason why she wanted Ling Feng to report to him was because she needed to report to her mother for all matters and affairs, so that she had developed a habit of feeling that she could only feel safe enough when the other party told him everything he had experienced and what he was going to do next.
As I said before, Su Mu actually has feelings for her own abnormality, so she also knows that she has a little bit of excesses about her sense of security. However, because it did not affect his normal life, most of the time Su Mu would take the initiative to filter out this feeling by himself. After all, if you care too much about something, it will become a burden that you shouldn't become.
After all these things were ready, Su Mu began to take the pen and try to write the things she wanted to write. However, she was not satisfied with the many times she had written, and almost completely failed. In the end, she suddenly felt that she had lost confidence in her and Ling Feng's future.
She didn't know why she had such thoughts, maybe it was a hint from God. Take a hundred plating and read the latest chapter of "My Shengqing Weisheng Claw Book House" for free for the first time.