When Ling Feng left, Su Mu's tears hadn't ended, but the high-speed train didn't wait for anyone, so he couldn't stay for a few more minutes, at least coax Su Mu a few more words.

And after Ling Feng left, Su Mu hugged himself like this and sat from dawn until dark.

This whole afternoon, Su Mu's mind was blank, she couldn't remember what she had experienced with Ling Feng, and she couldn't even remember Ling Feng at all. Her memory seemed to be stuck before she met Ling Feng, and after meeting him, everything that happened seemed to have become a kind of memory that she didn't want to remember.

She never imagined that the person she wanted to love so hard for the first time would be like this. It is said that she has a scum-sucking physique, and the men she meets are more than a scumbag, but she herself actually doesn't use much care, so that when she breaks up, she is not so sad, and after a few days and months, it's all over. In addition, her memory is not very good, after a long time, in addition to remembering the reason for the breakup, she can't remember much other things, so when she was with Ling Feng, she really didn't have any one in her heart.

Some people say that it doesn't matter who has lived in your heart, but cleaning your heart is the greatest respect for the next person to live in. Su Mu thought that she had done a good job at this point, when she was with Ling Feng, she neither compared him with others, nor did she apply the influence she received when she was with her ex to Ling Feng, although there were other people of the opposite sex who pursued her halfway, but she politely chose to refuse, and some people who behaved too much, she also chose to delete their contact information and never contacted them again.

From beginning to end, she hadn't done anything to be sorry for Ling Feng, if she was sincere, she thought that although she wasn't serious at the beginning, she didn't escape what she should give, and even gave Ling Feng all the tenderness and tolerance she could give after she was emotional. Thinking about it like this, even if she couldn't get Ling Feng's sincerity, she shouldn't have been hurt so much.

At least in her mind, Ling Feng shouldn't be this kind of person, she always thought that Ling Feng was gentle and kind, but the reality told her with practical actions that when he treated her, it was not as she imagined.

When Ling Feng was on the high-speed train, his mind kept recalling the bits and pieces of what he and Su Mu had experienced during this time. He couldn't summarize what kind of feelings he had for Su Mu, but to be honest, when he thought of the look in Su Mu's eyes when he wanted to leave him, he felt very uncomfortable in his heart, and he didn't want her to go.

He admitted that he really didn't fulfill his responsibilities as a boyfriend during this time, didn't treat her well, and let her keep following her to be wronged. When I first met her, she was obviously such an optimistic and laughing girl, and I was with her because I thought she smiled beautifully. But look at it now. She really hadn't smiled at him in a long time. In my memory, she kept crying for the whole time, and as long as she called, she would always end crying.

After a long time, how could he not be annoyed, but he was not only annoyed by her crying, he was even more annoyed that he always failed to meet her requirements and could not give her what she wanted.

It's really a difficult thing to admit that you have failed, and from childhood to adulthood, there is basically nothing he can't do if he wants to do. But in the matter of loving her, he is really a failure, he has never done a good job, and he really doesn't want to deny it.

He also really wanted to take care of her, otherwise, he wouldn't try to change the problems and problems she raised, but unfortunately, maybe it was because he felt that he had to try and change little by little, but Su Mu didn't have that patience.

So this time, is he really going to lose her?

So there really is no way to make up for the mistakes made before?

These two questions kept bothering Ling Feng, making him upset, making him feel uncomfortable during the four-hour drive. But in this way, he still didn't think of any solution, and even he began to worry, worried that the thing he did today would make Su Mu even more disgusted with himself.

It was a long time before Ling Feng understood why he had chosen to treat Su Mu like this. Because in his eyes, Su Mu will always be very strong, he can't prove that he has any ability in front of her, Su Mu can solve all things by himself, including his problems, Su Mu can also solve them together, not only that, in terms of dealing with the world, Su Mu also has her own unique opinions, compared to her, he seems to be nothing. If it weren't for Su Mu's lack of taking care of herself, he really didn't know what the meaning of his existence was by her side. And it is precisely because of this that he will frantically want to suppress Su Mu and frustrate her pride and self-esteem, so that she can stay by his side honestly and listen to him, like a pet that will die if she leaves her master.

So he didn't have kindness and gentleness when he treated Su Mu, so he didn't care about the grievances he made Su Mu suffer, so he didn't listen to every time there was a conflict and Su Mu tried to reason with him, so he would only deliberately suppress Su Mu when he needed comfort, so he would do nothing when Su Mu was insecure, let her think crankily and torture herself.

He thought that if he did this, he would be able to get Su Mu to give in for a long time, that by doing this, Su Mu would be able to become more and more inseparable from him, and that Su Mu would try to please him because he wanted his love. But he didn't expect that Su Mu did not develop into what he imagined, but chose to leave him in the end.

And the reason for leaving was that he never felt that he loved her.

It's a joke, how could he not love her, for so long, he had only spent so much time for her as a woman, and his former girlfriends didn't add up to the time they had been with her for as long, and if he didn't like her, he wouldn't have to try to become what she liked.

But she actually told him that what she asked him to do was what both parties in a relationship should have done, and there was no need to ask for anything at all, if it wasn't for his failure to do it, she wouldn't have asked him at all.

What is this called? Is there such a thing as falling in love? Falling in love is obviously just two people having fun together, how can there be so many things that should have been done? Don't you think it's too ridiculous to use this kind of reason to perfunctory him?

Ling Feng didn't understand how he and Su Mu got to this point, he really felt that he had paid a lot for Su Mu, but he couldn't meet Su Mu's requirements. Su Mu always said that she loved him, so why couldn't she lower her standards for him and make him change?

Is that fair to him?

She likes to talk about those big truths, but those truths are only beneficial to her, has she really considered his feelings, has she ever thought that he also feels difficult in this relationship?

He felt that it was difficult and still persevered, so why did she give up? Obviously she said that she loved more, why did she give up?

By the time Ling Feng arrived at the bedroom, Su Mu didn't know how much sleep he had slept. She was stunned all afternoon, and when it got dark, she began to fall asleep in a daze, although she was not asleep, but she was not so awake, and the family called her several times during dinner, but she did not get up.

Later, Su Mu learned that he was like this because he had a fever that was so severe that he was almost unconscious.

But she hadn't mentioned it to Ling Feng.

When Ling Feng arrived at the bedroom, he called Su Mu as soon as possible, wanting to see Su Mu's condition, but because Su Mu had just fallen asleep after taking medicine, he didn't hear the phone ring. Ling Feng didn't answer a few Su Mu in a row, which made him feel a lot of anger in an instant, and he thought it was because Su Mu was silent again.

Obviously, he has said it many times, don't be silent, you can't let him not find it, but no matter how Su Mu says, he doesn't change it, and he always doesn't answer the phone. That alone already makes people angry, so why ask him if she can't do something she can't do?

After Ling Feng put down the phone, he went to pack his things, and then he lay on the bed, thinking that he would ask Su Mu to explain these things well tomorrow, and he fell asleep.

When he woke up the next morning, Su Mu's fever had not subsided, and his muscles were still burning so much that his muscles were sore and painful, his head hurt as if he was about to crack, and his throat was so hoarse that he could barely speak. When her family saw her like this, they urged her to get an injection as soon as possible, but she was so frightened of the hospital that she didn't say anything.

Of course, Su Mu knows where the hospital saves lives, those doctors and nurses are like little angels, but when she was a child, she lived in the hospital for a long time because of her heart, and she really had a great fear of the hospital, and when she grew up, she was also afraid of going to the hospital, let alone going to the hospital, even when she went to participate in the school physical examination, she was so scared that someone must be around, and now this situation requires her to go to the hospital, she is afraid that she will not wait until she persists, and she will be worried about death on the way. And her family was not able to accompany her to the hospital, and her friends were also at work, and she was embarrassed to ask people to ask for leave because of her, so she simply stayed at home, took some cold medicine casually, and kept sleeping under the covers, basically not moving much.

At this time, Ling Feng also went to class, according to the previous situation, the two of them should not have contact in the morning, Su Mu felt that this was the best for her, she was already very weak, and she really didn't want to waste any more energy arguing with Ling Feng.

Don't even think about it, Ling Feng called, she must have said something good and was about to make trouble in two and a half sentences, she really didn't have the strength to argue with him about these things now, and she didn't bother to listen to the evidence he said that he thought was very reasonable, she might as well sleep a little more if she had this time, maybe she could get better faster.

According to Su Mu's thoughts, Ling Feng did not call her all morning, but it was not because he was in class. In fact, Ling Feng had never told Su Mu about the time of class in the second half of the year, so in fact, he was not in class for a large part of the time, just to prevent Su Mu from disturbing him, so he just talked to her about class. Before this, he never felt that there was anything wrong with him doing this, after all, he couldn't be tired of being by Su Mu's side all the time, he also had his own things to do, but recently he was getting more and more weak, the last time Su Mu asked him for a class schedule, he almost missed his mouth, if Su Mu found out that he was lying to her, the consequences would be really unimaginable.

So Su Mu has a sentence that seems to be really reasonable, this person, you really can't do anything wrong, otherwise in the future, you will live in worry all the time, constantly worrying about the fate of the lie being exposed.

So when she thinks about it, it seems that there are really a lot of things he deceived her, some of which she knows, some of which she doesn't know until now, and she doesn't even seem to have thought about it. In the past, he felt that as long as he was not discovered, there was nothing, and even if he did, after arguing so twice, she would have quarreled enough and it would pass. But lately, he doesn't know what's going on, he always feels as if he owes her something, even if she doesn't ask, he wants to talk to her, for fear that she will find out and cause more trouble later.

He was really scared now, the matter between him and Su Mu was already difficult to solve, in case something happened at this time, he really didn't know what else he could do to keep Su Mu.

So all morning, Ling Feng followed his previous schedule and did not send a message to Su Mu in advance, waiting for him to suddenly feel very tired, and he couldn't understand why he chose to lie at that time.

Su Mu was so understanding before, if he said that he couldn't ignore her for the time being, she would definitely not quarrel with him, then he would feel very comfortable doing anything, where would he be like now, he had to do everything secretly, for fear that Su Mu would find out that he was lying to her, and then quarrel again.

So what did he think at the time, how did he think that he could exchange his lies for freedom?

This is clearly exchanged for greater imprisonment.

And even if he wanted to send a message to Su Mu now, he couldn't do it, because no matter what reason he used, she would feel that he had managed to skip class, not that he really didn't have class.

This is really a suffocating operation, if there is still a chance to be with Su Mu in the future, he swears that he will really never lie again, he has really had enough of this kind of sneaky and dayless days, he doesn't want this kind of freedom to give him for nothing, now as long as he can let Su Mu stay, don't say that he can't lie, then he can really do anything.

As long as Su Mu can stay.