(8) Habitual avoidance of problems
By noon, Ling Feng was really a little unbearable, so he sent a message to Su Mu in advance. As a result, he didn't expect that Su Mu didn't reply after a long time after the information passed, which couldn't help but make him even more anxious, he already had countless fantasies in his mind, almost thinking of everything that Su Mu could or couldn't encounter, but he didn't expect that Su Mu was in a fever at this time, and almost fell into a semi-comatose state.
At this time, Ling Feng didn't expect that his mental state was similar to when Su Mu doubted him and his cranky thoughts, if he could care about this matter at this time and try to understand Su Mu, the two of them would not have so many troubles to deal with.
After all, he is really uncomfortable now, and even feels that if Su Mu doesn't reply to the message, he has an urge to go back to her.
Really, why do you always have to do such a thing at such a time, it's obviously a problem that can be solved when you're together, but you always have to separate the two places, and if you can't see each other, even if it's a video, it's almost something, what if you really can't coax Su Mu, what should you do.
He couldn't guarantee that he would really like Su Mu for a long time, but now, he really didn't want to lose him like this. He didn't want to think about whether he was unwilling or what, he only knew that he must leave Su Mu behind, no matter what means he used, he must not let Su Mu go.
Even if Su Mu doesn't love him anymore, he has to find a way to keep her, in this way, maybe there will be some opportunities between them.
In the midst of such anxiety, the lunch break passed like this, and Su Mu still did not reply to the message. Ling Feng was already as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, so in order to be able to get Su Mu's news at any time, he didn't hand over his phone this time.
The last time the two broke up, Su Mu unilaterally refused to contact him, and then happened to meet other boys who liked her chasing her, so she agreed to go climbing with that person. Although he knew that Su Mu was indeed going to give up on him at that time, and he really felt that what he did at that time was wrong, and he was confident that nothing had happened between Su Mu and that man, but he still couldn't accept this happening. If he gave other men a chance again because of this this this time, he would definitely regret it for the rest of his life.
In fact, in the days to come, Su Mu also thought about this problem, she didn't understand Ling Feng's logic very well, so when Ling Feng made that series of reactions, she felt very puzzled. Because she had already told Ling Feng many times that everything she wanted clearly, and even told him countless times openly and secretly, as long as he did this, she would definitely not leave. What's more, in fact, what Su Mu wants are very ordinary things, which are things that other boys will automatically and consciously do in the process of falling in love, and they don't need to be asked by others at all. She felt that she was teaching Ling Feng how to fall in love, not asking him, but Ling Feng wanted to keep her alive and dead, but he never wanted to do one more thing like this.
Ling Feng said that he would not break up, but he would not contact Su Mu, and occasionally made so many phone calls, just like Su Mu signed in intermittently on Weibo. Su Mu really didn't understand what he wanted to do by doing this, and he didn't understand why he had such confidence, feeling that Su Mu was hanging like this, no matter how long Su Mu would wait for him to come back.
On this point, Su Mu really wondered for a long time, there was really no shortage of suitors around her, and her family kept introducing her blind dates during this period, although there were some strange things, but most of them were golden and handsome people, and they were also very worried about Su Mu's feelings. Usually Su Mu gets along with them very happily, so to be honest, if Su Mu wants to choose a marriage partner, he will definitely choose one of these people, and it is impossible to choose Ling Feng.
But Ling Feng didn't know what he was thinking, even in this situation, he still called Su Mu from time to time, and then asked two or three words casually as before. Su Mu was really getting more and more annoyed with his attitude, and in the end, if it wasn't for wanting to leave a good memory for everything she had experienced in the past, she would want to completely block him and never see him again.
However, Ling Feng didn't think so, the more Su Mu resisted, the more he wanted to get her, he didn't even think about what he would do if he reconciled, he just wanted to leave Su Mu behind, which was simply a perfect confirmation of the sentence "The twisted melon is not sweet, but as long as it is twisted, it will be very happy."
But Ling Feng was happy, but Su Mu had a lot of troubles because of it. She really didn't expect Ling Feng to really be naΓ―ve to this extent, if it wasn't for her own experience, it would really be hard for her to imagine that such a boy who seemed to be more mature than his peers turned out to be not what he looked like at all.
But if you want to say that he is very bad, in fact, he can't reach it.
He treats outsiders really well-behaved and considerate, gentle and generous, so in his circle of friends, basically he leaves a good impression on people, of course, there are girls who like him, this kind of clean and cute boy will definitely have girls like him, and he has also had other girlfriends, which makes Su Mu curious, what is he like when he treats other girls.
Some male friends also said to Su Mu that it may be because Su Mu's status in his heart is more inclined to his family, so when he treats her, he is closer to her true character. For the first half of this reason, Su Mu is still acceptable, but in the second half, Su Mu feels that he really accepts incompetence.
Because in Su Mu's cognition, the closer the relatives, the more they should accept the best preferential treatment while accepting the bad temper, but Ling Feng just left the bad temper and all the shortcomings to her, and the good places, she saw very few. When they quarreled, she even asked Ling Feng to give an example of what was the expression of love for herself, but as a result, Ling Feng couldn't say anything, so she would just keep saying that she loved her.
Su Mu is past the age of hearing love, although the love words are good, but for her, love words are just the seasoning in love, and they cannot be eaten as the main meal. If Ling Feng hadn't been good to her at the beginning, she wouldn't have agreed, but he didn't insist on it, even if it was a flash in the pan, after deceiving Su Mu, he would be tired of it, and then he would have to push everything to time and habit.
When Su Mu woke up, it was already past three o'clock in the afternoon, and at this time, Ling Feng had already gone back to the dormitory after class. After she got up from the quilt, she took a long time before taking out her mobile phone, seeing the information in the mobile phone, she really didn't know what to do with Ling Feng.
To blame Ling Feng for his mistakes? At this time, Su Muke didn't want to talk about these things at all, it was a waste of time and energy, and it might not be able to make any difference. But what else can be said about this? Both of them have developed to this extent, and it is useless to say anything, even if they pretend that nothing happens, they also know it, and it will only seem even more embarrassing.
So as I have said a long time ago, you must avoid quarrels and break up, otherwise, if you have something to say, it will not be so simple to take it back.
Su Mu never believed in the idea of a broken mirror reunion, so when they quarreled, she thought that they were solving the problem, not destroying the relationship, but when she was with Ling Feng, the problem was raised, but it was never solved, but it was piled up more and more, which made her want to break up.
Two people are trying to get better together, but now look at the two of them, one is getting more and more hysterical, the other can be said to be broken, what good can be done when they get together? It's going to get worse and worse. She had already told Ling Feng about this, but Ling Feng didn't care, as long as she persisted, she always felt that she could get better.
If she could get better, how could she not want to get better? she also wanted to be with Ling Feng, but she really didn't have the confidence or the energy.
People say that falling in love with your younger brother is a particularly sweet experience, but according to Su Mu's summary, it was indeed sweet at first, but in the later stage, two people with such a big age gap really couldn't be together. It's too tiring to be with Ling Feng, the two of them have different family education, different social experiences, and different views, Su Mu can't adapt to it even if he wants to, and it is impossible to change Ling Feng, and being with him again is simply a kind of torture.
Thinking of this, Su Mu picked up his phone and sent a message to Ling Feng.
"I've thought about it carefully, it's really not suitable between us, it's impossible for me to adapt to your three views, because those don't apply in my social relationships, and you can't change yourself because of me, so we can't continue to interact. β
As soon as Su Mu sent this message, Ling Feng's phone call came directly. She hesitated for a long time to answer it, and it was not until the phone was about to hang up that she reluctantly picked it up herself.
"Why don't you reply to messages for a day, what are you doing?"
Su Mu guessed that Ling Feng would ask like this, at that moment, Su Mu couldn't describe what she felt, she felt very irritable, but in this irritability, there were a lot of feelings, and it was not simple, so that it was obviously a very simple question, and she didn't know how to answer.
Or rather, she didn't want to answer at all.
"Let's break up. β
"No way, what the hell are you doing, don't reply to messages. β
To be honest, what Ling Feng would say, Su Mu guessed it was simply word for word. Because every time there was a problem, Ling Feng would have such a reaction, as long as the problem was not solved that day, and it was delayed until the next day, he would definitely automatically regard it as a solution, and then when Su Mu wanted to solve the problem, he changed the topic stiffly, saying that he didn't want to continue to face it. At first, Su Mu thought, maybe Ling Feng did this because he knew that he was wrong, and he also knew that he had to change it, but he was just embarrassed to say it. But later Su Mu found out that this was not the case, Ling Feng had no intention of changing it at all, he just wanted to avoid the problem and didn't want to face his mistakes anymore. So when Ling Feng did this later, Su Mu never let him again, and still chose to continue to talk about this issue.
At that time, Su Mu had already thought very simply, and she didn't have the idea of keeping Ling Feng anymore, and completely adhered to the idea of "getting along if you can, and breaking up if you can't". However, Ling Feng didn't know why, and began to pestering Su Mu again, even if Su Mu spoke ill of him, he still felt that Su Mu loved him.
However, this time Su Mu was indeed weak, and she couldn't support it for too long, so in order to be able to continue to sleep well, she had to choose a compromise and decided to put this matter aside for the time being.
Of course, breaking up directly is the best, but even if she breaks up, Su Mu must make her words clear, if she doesn't explain it, she will always think about this matter in her heart, which will make her feel uneasy. Therefore, before he made it clear, Su Mu would not easily block all of Ling Feng's contact information.
What's more, with Ling Feng's current situation, if she rashly blocked all his contact information, maybe he would have to run back from school that day. It's hard enough to deal with him, and if his mom knows that he's not coming back because she broke up with him, then his mom might do something.
She didn't mind being said badly, but her face was not important, it didn't mean that her parents' face was not important to her, if her family was involved again because of this matter, then it was possible for her to tear Ling Feng apart.
So after thinking about it, she still answered Ling Feng's question.
"I had a fever and kept sleeping, so I muted my phone for fear of noise. β
"How many degrees, have you measured, have you taken medicine, have you had a fever?"
Ling Feng had thought of so many possibilities, but he didn't expect Su Mu to get sick, which made him nervous immediately.
Su Mu was already very thin, so she couldn't get fat if she ate more, no matter how sick she was, if she wasn't fat, wouldn't her body be even worse.
However, Su Mu didn't particularly care about this matter, for her, this quarter, colds and fevers have been commonplace, and she can still work for eleven and a half hours in a row with a high fever during the Chinese New Year, and now she is lying at home, how serious can it be? So for Ling Feng's attitude, Su Mu couldn't say that she was happy, and even felt a little hypocritical, so she scolded Ling Feng without scruples:
"You don't have to pretend to be kind here, if you really cared about me, you wouldn't have done those things knowing that it would hurt me. You won't go into bed with me against my will, to put it bluntly, you're selfish, don't try to hide it. β