Dragging my suitcase and walking on the street with few passers-by, my heart was full of melancholy, I didn't expect that in Xuzhou, the city where I was born and raised, I would have nowhere to go this day, I couldn't help but ask myself: Is my choice really worth it?

I don't dare to think too deeply about this issue, whether it is worth it or not, I have already made a choice, and it has become inevitable to go back to Suzhou to help Chu He solve the crisis of the bar.

This night, I found a small hotel near the train station to stay, but I had insomnia all night, I controlled myself not to think cranky in the waking of insomnia, but Chen Sitian's appearance still occupied all my thoughts, although our relationship was only a few months, but I really couldn't bear to give up, in her, I found the sense of security that men also need.

I don't know how long it took, I finally lit a cigarette for myself, and after this cigarette was smoked, the corner of the morning sun was already exposed outside the window, and the dawn came, but the wind was still blowing so cold!

……

The morning came, but I didn't have any appetite and came to the company in a trance with the resignation letter that had been written.

When I was about to enter the elevator, Chen Sitian also came from the other direction, we met like this, but we were each standing in front of an elevator, I looked at her in the crowd, her eyes were still a little red and swollen, probably spent the night crying, compared to me, her pain was not much at all.

I pushed through the crowd and came to the elevator that Chen Sitian was waiting for, stood beside her, and called her, but she ignored me, and the elevator also fell at this time, Chen Sitian walked into the elevator one step ahead of me, and I also walked in.

The crowd in the elevator squeezed Chen Sitian and me tightly together, but in the silence of each other, the hearts of the two people had been separated.

During the elevator assignment, I wanted to talk to Chen Sitian several times, but I never knew how to speak, and it took a long time to ask, "Have you had breakfast?" and Chen Sitian just glanced at me indifferently, but did not respond, and finally maintained this indifference until we walked into the company together.

I finally grabbed Chen Sitian, she looked at me coldly and asked, "What are you doing?"

From what I know about women, this kind of coldness is a sign before the heart dies, so I was silent for a long time before saying, "Let's have a meal together at noon today, I think we should talk." ”

"Well, I think we should talk. After Chen Sitian finished speaking, she broke free of my hand and grabbed her, and then walked to her office.

I looked at her back and stood blankly for a few moments before walking towards the director's office, with the sole purpose of submitting my resignation letter with apologies.

……

Although Director Zhou tried his best to keep me, I was determined to go, and finally approved my resignation application in reluctance, because I still have a few projects in my hands that are being followed, so it will take about a week to complete the handover of work, and this week will be my last days in Xuzhou.

At lunchtime, Chen Sitian and I sat opposite each other in a small box in a restaurant downstairs of the company.

The atmosphere was as dull and depressing as expected, and I didn't speak to Chen Sitian because I was ashamed, and finally Chen Sitian asked, "Have you already handed over your resignation letter to Director Zhou in the morning?"

"Hmm. ”

"How long will it take to complete the handover?" asked Chen Sitian, who seemed to be trying his best to keep his calm.

I replied in a low voice, "About a week." ”

Chen Sitian's expression became painful, and tears finally fell uncontrollably, she cried and said: "Zhang Jiaming, is your heart really made of iron? It's just that from yesterday to today, you have denied everything and pushed me into the abyss?...... They've entrusted you with their daughter's life......!"

I bowed my head and was silent, my heart full of guilt, but at this time, any language was so pale except to change the result.

Chen Sitian looked at me with hatred, so I was even more frightened and sorry, and only whispered after a long time: "If you are willing to wait, I can go back to Xuzhou." ”

"Back to Xuzhou?...... If it's a man, maybe I'm willing to wait, it's nothing for a year and a half, after all, I'm only 25 years old, I can afford to wait, but you're just for a woman, what kind of mentality do you want me to wait?" Chen Sitian asked in tears.

"Me and her are really just friends, it's not as complicated as you think. I pleaded, said.

"Yes, you touch your conscience and say that nothing happened to you and her...... Don't treat others as fools, why doesn't she look for someone else, but for you Zhang Jiaming, and you are willing to abandon your family and abandon your fiancée to help her, can this still be an ordinary relationship between men and women?...... You say!"

In the face of Chen Sitian's questioning, I couldn't argue, although Chu He and I have no relationship between men and women, but I did sleep with her in the most decadent period of my life, can such a relationship be said to be pure?

My silence made Chen Sitian even more angry, and in the anger, I saw her dead expression, and then took out the engagement ring we bought together a few days ago from her handbag, put it in front of me and said, "Zhang Jiaming, let's break up, let's treat it as if we never met." ”

I looked at Chen Sitian, her lips trembled slightly, and so did I, but I couldn't say a word of salvation after all, because it was too futile.

"You can keep this ring......"

Chen Sitian smiled disdainfully: "What, do you feel that you don't want to go?...... Zhang Jiaming, the money to buy the ring belongs to your parents, and now that we have broken up, you have no right to give me the ring. ”

There was a tingling in my heart, I could understand Chen Sitian's words, and I also remembered the embarrassment when I first returned to Xuzhou, it was Chen Sitian who rescued my embarrassment, maybe after leaving Xuzhou, I would return to the days when I was useless.

"I'm sorry. I finally said to Chen Sitian.

Chen Sitian said to me resolutely: "You don't need to tell me I'm sorry, I just regard everything I have experienced in the past few months as a catastrophe in my life, I just hope that you Zhang Jiaming will not give hope to another woman in the future, and then destroy this hope with your own hands......" After speaking, he picked up his handbag and walked outside the private room.

I just sat there, looking at the engagement ring left by Chen Sitian in a daze, and in an instant I felt that my life had been broken down and full of holes...... Maybe there will come a time when I will regret my choice today.

……

In the evenings after work, I was homeless and went back to that humble little hotel alone, I bought some beers and entertained myself in loneliness and depression.

When I was a little dizzy, I received a call from Chu He, and I didn't want to speak at all at the moment, so I hung up immediately, and then sent her a text message back: "Send a text message to say something." ”

Soon Chu He replied with a text message: "I'm still in Xuzhou and want to eat with you...... Please eat!"

I sent another text message back to Chu He in dizziness: "I've eaten, you go back to Suzhou tomorrow, I have to hand over the work, and I'll be over in a week."