Painful choices
Leaving the rice noodle shop, walking alone on the empty street in the middle of the night, I felt irrepressible boredom in my heart for a while, at this moment I had made a choice, but Chen Sitian's reaction was more violent than I imagined, as if my decision touched her reverse scales.
Having said that, what woman can stand her fiancΓ© giving up her job and going to another city for another woman, in fact, Chen Sitian has already shown her cultivation without arguing with me.
I took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, smoking it a little depressedly, and there were bursts of throbbing pain in my heart because of the guilt of Chen Sitian, but I will not change the decision I have made, this time I will help Chu He tide over the difficulties no matter what, for the slap she once suffered for me......
After taking a deep breath, I snuffed out my cigarette butt, took out my mobile phone from my pocket, and immediately sent a message to Chu He: "I will quit my job tomorrow and go to Suzhou after completing the work handover." β
Soon Chu He replied with a message: "Thank you Jiaming, I knew that you would definitely not leave me alone." β
"Hmm...... Can you get a good night's sleep now?"
"I don't want to sleep yet, I want to talk to you on the phone and listen to your voice. β
I looked at Chu He's text message bitterly, I gave her a sense of security at the moment, but what about Chen Sitian? She must have been completely hurt by my decision......
Chu He didn't wait for me to reply to the text message, so he dialed the phone directly, I looked at the mobile phone screen flickering because of the call, and finally didn't answer, hung up the phone, and then replied to Chu He with a message: "I'm a little tired today, I want to rest, let's talk about it tomorrow." β
Without waiting for Chu He to reply to the text message, I turned off my mobile phone, and then dragged my heavy body with my tired soul and continued to walk on the cold street, as if there was no end in sight......
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When I got home, it was late at night, and I thought that my father and mother had already rested, so I gently opened the door, but I didn't want them both to sit in the living room, and both of them didn't look very good.
My heart tightened, did they already know what had just happened between me and Chen Sitian? According to what I knew about Chen Sitian, she would at least not tell her parents about my resignation and going to Suzhou right now.
My mother didn't wait for me to change my shoes and asked in a deep voice, "Jiaming, why did your phone turn off?"
I said perfunctorily, "Maybe it's out of power." β
"Did you quarrel with Tiantian?"
"No, I don't. β
My mother questioned and said, "You tell me the truth, is there any?" Just now Tiantian's mother called and said that Tiantian cried as soon as she came home, locked herself in her room, and didn't open the door no matter how she shouted. β
The sense of apology filled me again, I stood in place for a long time, I didn't know how to respond to my mother's words, if I let her know the truth of the matter, she might be more difficult to accept than Chen Sitian.
But after all, it is impossible for me to leave Xuzhou quietly, and they must know the truth of the matter after all, as for those bad consequences, they simply bear it together today.
I mustered up the courage to finally say to my mother, who was waiting for me to answer: "Mom, I am ready to quit my job in Xuzhou, and I want to go back to Suzhou for a friend's ......."
Before I finished my words, my mother's expression suddenly became extremely ugly, and she scolded angrily: "You bastard, no wonder Tiantian...... No wonder Sweet ...... Tell me, what do you want to do?....... What do you want to do? Are you too much of a good day?"
Looking at my mother's incoherent appearance, I was even more sorry in my heart, I lowered my head and didn't say a word, but I didn't want this kind of silence to stimulate my mother's emotions even more, she said angrily: "Jiaming, let me tell you, no matter what your reason is, you have to stay in Xuzhou for me, and marry Tiantian back to our old Zhang family, otherwise, I will be a bastard son without you." β
I grew up spoiled by my mother, I have never heard her say such heavy words to me, and the overwhelming dull pain can't stop piercing me, and even waver for a moment, I am willing to let Chu He live up to Chu He and stay in Xuzhou, because I dare not disobey my parents like this.
But in the end, I gritted my teeth and said, "Mom, I know that this decision will hurt many people, but I still decided to do it because I have to do it, so I hope you and my dad can understand...... If there was a little choice, I would not leave Xuzhou, I don't have to choose......"
"Jiaming, your wings are hard now, your father and I can't discipline you, and we can't be your master, aren't you leaving, get out of this house now, get out of this house, your father and I should have never given birth to you, a disobedient son. My mother pointed at me with a shudder.
I looked at Daddy helplessly, hoping that he could help me say something, but he was silent, even wooden, I knew that my decision really stung them, otherwise how could my mother, who has always been good-natured, who has always doted on me the most, say such heavy words to me.
I didn't explain anything to myself, because it was stupid and wrong to explain it from my parents' point of view, so I finally walked into the room with my head down and immediately packed my luggage.
......
I just dragged my luggage out of the room and said to my father and mother: "Dad, Mom, I'm leaving, and my son is not doing the right thing, and I don't dare to ask for your forgiveness, I just hope that you will pay attention to your body, and I will come back to see you when I have time." β
"Jiaming, you just left like this, are you worthy of Tiantian, worthy of me and your father?" said to my mother with tears in her eyes.
My heart is like a knife, this kind of choice is even more difficult than the last time I informed Zhang Rixuan of Zhang De's power conspiracy, but it is also more helpless, I don't expect to be forgiven, I just want time to dilute the consequences of this choice, and then free me, as for now, the only thing I can do is to bear the pain of the choice.
I lowered my head and was silent, and made up my mind to leave in silence, and at this time, Ban Da, who had not spoken or expressed his position, finally spoke: "Let him go, his heart is not on Xuzhou, nor on Tiantian, sooner or later he will leave." β
I looked at Ban Dad in surprise, I don't know where the basis for his remarks came from, if it weren't for the huge difficulties Chu He encountered, I really had no plans to go back to Suzhou.
Puzzled, I suddenly remembered a dream I had a long time ago, in which I asked the woman with long hair hanging down her shoulders: why is she the woman in my heart, but I can't get close to her, she said: Because I still don't know what my heart wants.
There is a very strange resemblance between Ban Dad's words and this dream, is my heart really not in Xuzhou, but Suzhou has always had the person or thing I dreamed of?
Daddy lit a cigarette and said to me: "You are my son, I know your temper, we can't persuade you if you make a decision, now that you and Tiantian are not engaged, don't delay Tiantian, a good girl, let's get together and disperse......"
The old mother pulled the board father and said emotionally: "Lao Zhang, why do you say such a thing, you can't rely on his temperament so much, he missed Tiantian, a good girl, he will regret it for the rest of his life." β
Ban Dad shook his head and said: "It's better to break off with Tian Tian now than to break off after getting married in the future, I can't bear to watch him spoil Tian Tian, a good girl, let him go, let him go his own way." β
My mother looked at Daddy in dismay, and Daddy waved at me with a tired and depressed expression, motioning for me to go......
I lowered my head and said "I'm sorry", and finally dragged my suitcase to the outside of the house, and after this night, I have no way of knowing what kind of life I will live, but I know that those stable days with Chen Sitian have come to an end in a trance.
Thinking of Chen Sitian's goodness, my nose was a little sour, if she was willing to wait for me, I could really return to Xuzhou after helping Chu He, and fight for a stable life with her again, but is she willing to wait?