(37-2)
By the time there was movement in the room next to Su Mu, it was already past four o'clock the next morning. Su Mu hadn't slept all the time, he had been waiting here, and as soon as he heard movement, Su Mu quickly rushed out of the room and stopped Ling Feng before they could close the door.
Ling Feng originally planned to go back to take a shower first, wash off all the alcohol in his body, and then go back when Su Mu woke up. He really never dreamed that Su Mu hadn't slept at this time, and he was still waiting for him. He almost subconsciously hid back, he really didn't want to meet Su Mu.
But in this case, where can he hide? And there are some things that can't be avoided at all, if he can't hide, the relationship between him and Su Mu will not become what it is now.
He didn't want to be like this with Su Mu, if he could, he also hoped to be like before, like at the beginning. He didn't know who did it wrong, and if he had, he wouldn't have let things go like this.
But now is not the time to think about this, the only thing he can do now is to go back to Su Mu, and then quarrel.
He didn't have to think about it, as long as he went back with Su Mu, the two of them would definitely quarrel. With Su Mu's temper and her current state, it is impossible for her to listen to his explanation, and this matter is indeed something he did wrong, even if he wants to explain, he has no position to explain.
The only reason he could find it was that he thought she was already asleep.
But she would never listen, she would find all kinds of reasons to tell him that he shouldn't think like this, just thinking about such a scene made him feel a headache.
And the truth was really the same as Ling Feng thought, as soon as he entered the door, Su Mu began to accuse him, why did he not come back until now, and obviously promised that she would come back, why was the first to enter not the room of the two of them, but someone else's room.
Ling Feng explained to Su Mu one by one, saying that they had waited for that person for a long time and had not waited for him, and they couldn't get through to him, so they all wanted to go to the Public Security Bureau to report the case. After waiting there for more than an hour, they were a little hungry, and they didn't have much to eat at night, so a few people discussed, and ordered some barbecue at the barbecue stall next to the train station, ready to eat and wait, thinking that he might have taken the next bus over, and it happened that the mobile phone was out of battery, and if they left, they might not be able to contact him. Originally, I thought that when he arrived, they would have finished ordering, and maybe everyone could eat together, but after they finished eating, this person didn't come, and they really felt tired, so they came back together. Originally, I wanted to wash off this wine and come to see her again, but I didn't expect her to wake up early and be discovered by her.
According to Su Mu's previous character, in fact, she would not ask about these things at all, but even Le Duo said that Su Mu had changed a lot since she was with Ling Feng, and she would actually take care of so many things. What's more, sometimes Su Mu herself felt that she was doing this too much, but she just couldn't control herself, for example, now, she felt that Ling Feng's explanations were sufficient, and there was nothing worth arguing about, but she seemed to be holding back a fire in her heart, and she couldn't vent it, so she quarreled with Ling Feng uncontrollably at all.
Ling Feng felt that it was his own problem at first, so he kept coaxing Su Mu, but Su Mu didn't want to let him go at all, which made Ling Feng feel a little uncomfortable in his heart, and most importantly, he had just drunk just now, and his mind was a little unclear, it was difficult for him to control his emotions when he quarreled before, and now it was even more difficult to control it, so when Su Mu was aggressive and didn't leave him a way out at all, for the first time, he had the urge to shut up Su Mu.
There was a fierceness in that impulse, even a kind of disgust and hatred, which could almost tear Su Mu's entire person apart.
This feeling was really terrifying, even if it was only for a moment, it made Ling Feng suddenly sober up, and he also broke out in a cold sweat by the way.
Su Mu didn't know why Ling Feng was arguing and suddenly stopped, and even had a palpitating look on his face. She wanted to continue to say something, and she also wanted to ask him what had happened, but Ling Feng didn't give her a chance to say it.
"I have to go to school in the morning, if you have nothing to do, you can sleep for a while, I don't know how long you have to stay up at night, if it's too late, you will be tired, I'll go next door to take a shower, and I'll sleep with you when I come back." ”
After Ling Feng said this, he didn't give Su Mu time to react at all, so he opened the door directly and went to the next room. Su Mu was stunned in place alone for a long time, and then he put on the quilt and began to cry.
She didn't know what she was crying about, but she knew that a lot of things were starting to go wrong. She couldn't tell what it was, she didn't even know if she was feeling right, she just wanted to cry, she wanted to cry.
But she couldn't.
It seems that I have been accustomed to this model, because I am afraid that my family will be worried, so I dare not cry at home, because I am afraid of the sensible jokes of the unit, so I dare not cry in the unit, because I don't want to be embarrassed, so I can't cry on the road, sometimes I am really sad and want to wind up the circle of friends, and I am afraid that some people will say hypocrisy, and some people will say that they deserve it. Ever since she was with Ling Feng, she seemed to have completely lost the opportunity and ability to vent her emotions at will, and all her careful thoughts had to be secretly hidden by herself, so that no one could find out.
But is this really the case? Shouldn't two people be together to help each other resolve each other's unhappy emotions? Why did she become more crying after being with Ling Feng, and the pressure she had to bear became more and more intense?
Just because Ling Feng is young, all the problems are on her, do you need her to bear them? So what do you want Ling Feng to do? Is it just to block her?
So is it okay to just break up like this? She doesn't want to hold on, she doesn't want to continue, she really doesn't see any hope and doesn't want to have any hope anymore. She was really tired, so tired that she even began to doubt the value of her existence. She knew that the breakup would be sad, and she hadn't experienced it, but because she had experienced it, she knew that one day, all those sorrows would disappear. It would definitely take much less for her to survive until all the pain disappeared than until Ling Feng got better to her again.