Without speaking, he hugged me tightly in his arms.

I understand what he means, I understand, he just said that he would give a few days of vacation, which is completely for the two of us, but it has really always been a state of work with him, although we have loved and hated, I am his agent, and I don't dare to have too much resentment in this process, and I am half a step by Leith.

"I never thought of it like this in my life before, and maybe I may be a lonely person in my future life, and I have such a person in me to accompany me to learn and dance on this rooftop, just like you. ”

He spoke very earnestly, and looked at me with a sense of pity and a taste of pleading.

"So Ou Ruoxi, even if the two of us have broken up, even if we will definitely marry someone else in the future, then leave the next few days to me, I really want these days, when one day you really leave me, maybe I leave you, I will take these days as the best memories of my life." ”

When I heard him say that, I really felt like I couldn't say no to him.

In my previous life, I really never thought of loving a man so much, never loved me so hard, loved me so much, in the future life without him, I feel that my life must be very imperfect, must be flawed, without him, my whole sky will be eclipsed.

You are the brightest star in my sky, and my sky is beautiful because of you.

But he can never belong to me, as long as he stands on the stage, the day he shines, I will never have him.

Every time I think about it, I run away from it next time, and I seem to be telling myself in this way that it's not realistic for you to have it now, and if you have him, then he will lose the whole world, he will lose his favorite stage, he will lose his achievement.

Because I love him, I can't be selfish.

Not facing the parting with him, this parting is not a distance in time and space, this distance is already a distance in our hearts.

The distance between the heart is the farthest distance and the closest distance.

I couldn't refuse him.

Maybe it was Lehi's death that made me extra vulnerable, and made me understand a lot of human things, because I saw the sinister of this world clearly, because I was not as strong as before in this process, as if I was Mulan, I was completely destroyed by this world, my spiritual pillar was actually collapsed, I just didn't let outsiders know my inner world.

So when I face everything in my life, I wonder if it's worth it or not.

I remember turning to a book and there was a sentence that went like this: Love, in fact, should not ask whether it is worth it or not.

Since he has chosen not to have his partner again in this long journey of life, what is the difficulty of having these few days?

Maybe one night in the future, in order to live in a certain year, month, and day, when I think back on these days, I should be so happy, because I once danced on the rooftop with my beloved man, and had a happy life for a few days.

Yes, why should there be too many taboos?

I don't want to kick myself, I don't want to hurt this feeling, so let yourself be indulged once in a while, and squander all your future happiness in these few days!

And then you will go back to that kind of life of the rules, live the standard life that people think of, and then you will follow these streams directly into another step of your life.

Suddenly a meteor crossed the sky, and I looked at it like that, and I took his arm and gently pointed it to him, with a kind of happy attachment.

He hugged me and looked up at the meteor together: "Close your eyes and make a wish." ”

I shook my head slightly: "I don't want to make a wish. ”

What I said is true, this is something that I said to the bottom of my heart, because some wishes cannot be realized, why bother to say it to Meteor, this thing tells you very clearly, you can no longer have this man, this is my wish, but this wish will never come true.

When we came together on the morning of the second day, I noticed that this man was up earlier than me, and I thought he would be able to do it.

He actually went for a walk in the fields with my father, as if it were natural, and he wanted to please my father.

He has always had a professional physical examination teacher and coach, and he usually pays great attention to the training of this body type, so for long-distance running, it is a very easy and simple thing for him, but my father doesn't seem to appreciate him.

My father's attitude is the same as yesterday's, plain, really like a friend coming to our house, nothing particularly special.

Of course, I actually know this kind of thing, because after all, Luo Jin has come to our house, and he has received a great joy and recognition from his father, so now that Fei Yan has come to our house, he may not be able to break his father's prejudice all of a sudden.

I went straight into the kitchen to help my parents make my breakfast, and my mother watched me and pulled me aside, and the whole thing was still worried.

In fact, I can imagine why a strange man, even if it is a colleague, comes to live in our house, and as a matter of course for a few days, it always seems that something is not right, especially in the case of me with a fiancé.

"My baby daughter wants to tell me the truth, what is the matter between you and him? Is there a relationship between you, or is there any special situation? Or how is your relationship with Luo Jin?"

Of course, I didn't want my parents to worry about this, so I could only pretend to be deaf and dumb: "What's going on? He's my colleague, what's wrong?"

My mother took my hand worriedly, with a serious tone.

"Baby daughter, let me tell you, oh, you can't be sorry for Luo Jin when you're there, don't do this kind of thing, maybe Fei Yan is used to it casually in the entertainment industry, maybe he seems to have done such a casual thing in any place, but what, you must grasp the scale in this world, you must know your current identity, you are a person with a fiancé, you are a person who is about to get married, I tell you, you must not be confused in this matter, I know that you and this ox are definitely not ordinary friends, otherwise he will never come to our house。 ”

"Mother, you are really too nagging about this, I told you that it is not like that, you don't think about it so much, you don't care about my business, okay? This is my job and my life. ”

My mother still looked at me with a very serious look, and had no intention of making me compromise in this regard.

"My daughter's mother has never had any objections to you in this profession and wants you to do what you love in the city where you do, as long as you are happy. You said that you like to work in the entertainment industry, and your mother will support you without hesitation, what you do will be right, and your mother will support you, but maybe you must be very cautious in terms of feelings, and you must not do those bad things, those are immoral pedals, you know?"

"Mother, don't talk about it, I've broken up with him. ”

The mother's voice was raised, with a kind of panic in her eyes: "What did you say? Did you break up with Luo Jin? Why don't you tell me well?"

"I'm a mother, and I've actually broken up with Fei Yan. ”

My mother didn't understand this kind of feeling or such a local model at all, and she was even more confused.

"You said that you have broken up, why did you come to our house after the breakup, if it was really a breakup, why did you have to chase it to our house, so that everyone has a room, is he still pursuing you, so you are refusing it?"

I looked at my mother's nervous appearance, I knew that my mother must not be big, if I sent it, I couldn't ask the end, I smiled helplessly at her, and told her very clearly.

"Mother, my work during this period of time did have some problems, and encountered a big crisis, I am very bad now, so he is very worried that my psychology is not very good, so it just so happens that he is also on vacation, naturally come to our house is also to comfort me as simple as that, that's all, we are really a colleague relationship. ”

I had made it clear, and everything I said was true, but my mother still sounded skeptical.

Looking at my mother's appearance, I said again: "Mother, don't worry, I have a scale in my heart, I know what can be done and what cannot be done, he only knows that our family has come to comfort me to come to our depraved home, and when the two of us have finished the holiday, everything is over, I have made it very clear, I hope I will never pester each other again, can I? I hope that our relationship and our way of doing this between colleagues, you don't have to guess. ”

The mother sighed, and seemed to have nothing more to say.

I forgot all about it because I didn't care, I only cared about one of the best memories of one of my lives in the past few days.

I don't bother to care about it, even if tomorrow is the 2020 tsunami storm, I don't care, so why bother?

Maybe no one can say this relationship between me and Fei Yan.

On the second day, I took Fei Yan to see all kinds of scenery in our village.

One scene, although the mountain village here is two different scenery from the city, but the vastness of this place and the broadcast here will make you feel spectacular.

I took him to see the Yellow River where we have it.

"This place is the Yellow River. ”

"It's really spectacular!"

When I was young, because it was easy for us to send water here, and then every household would have a lot of tasks in this regard, so we were on duty, and if we sent water, we would notify the people to leave directly.

"When it was very cold, my mother made an electric heater for my father, and my mother was still working in the factory at that time, which required a lot of time, so I had to send this stove to my father alone, it was too heavy, I really couldn't walk, and finally I took one step at a time, and when I was about to go, the gas in the stove was completely extinguished. ”

"Then did your father blame you for this?"

"No, my father won't blame me, he just picked me up, and said with a very happy remark that I was a little heroine who could break something so heavy, and that he would reward me with an apple. ”

"Then your father really loves you very much, and you are their precious daughter. ”

I turned my face to look at him, and I knew that he was under a lot of pressure in our family, and he was also a very sensitive person, and I could feel my father's flatness or rejection of him.

"My father loves me very much, so they won't be very good to you, because they don't think you're a good person in my life, not a man I can rely on for life. ”

I made it clear to him that my father was not good for him.

Indeed, because there is really no future between me and him, and he understands this very well, I must feel very guilty.

His dazzling starlight only belongs to the stage, he belongs to the public, he even belongs to a better future, and I can only watch him silently from behind.

"Ou Ruoxi, then you tell me, am I too selfish, too willful, I should not come here, right? ”

I took his hand and shook my head at him, and said sincerely.

"No, I saw you come to accompany me, I was really happy, the moment you just got out of the car, I felt very surprised, even if we are friends, we still care about each other, so you will come, if one day you have any kind of unhappiness, I will also accompany you. ”

The two of us have a deep yearning, because many things have long been understood in our silent language, and each other is important, but some things are really involuntary.

He led me and watched the Yellow River all the time, and we waited until dusk to go down before we came back with a slow walk.

When he returned home, he seemed to have a special flattery for his father, and it was only as if he had to make up for it, and perhaps he was touched by what I said today, or that he wanted to fight for it.

But my father was a man of few words, not a man who was good at expressing emotions.

The father's enthusiasm for him was just a courtesy, not a special liking.

Then my father went to the factory to do something, and he also went to help, and when my father went to get this forage to feed the cows, he also went with him when the father wanted to go to the field to plow the fields.

I really think it's funny when I look at the back, it turns out that everything about him is really an instinct, or this very primitive desire to get a kind of liking from his father.

I don't care, anyway, my father is also a kind person, but sometimes he is not good at expressing and emotional, and the two of them become open-minded.

My father had an urgent matter, so he called and left, and hurried to the factory, so I heard the sound of the tractor, and I immediately ran to the field.

This is a field tractor, which means that whenever we plow the land, we have to use a tractor to plow the field and sow seedlings.

Fei Yan had never made such a tractor, he felt very curious, and he had to learn such a posture, and he felt very majestic.

I had to teach him, although he has a driver's license and can drive very well, but the tractor is like a tricycle, only three wheels, so if you want to control this direction in a balanced way, it is actually still difficult.

He didn't believe in the evil and drove the tractor himself, but he actually started to be in a hurry, the tractor didn't control the brakes, and directly stepped on the accelerator and rushed directly into the field, and the cows next to him directly screamed.

Oh hey, I'm laughing miserably next to me, this is mine, this is this frightened, almost fell off this motorcycle, and it seems that I don't know what to do with that scream just now.

He grabbed my clothes right away, as if he was in a bit of a panic.

"What kind of sound did you hear just now, what animal came from?"

"Nonsense, that's the sound of a cow barking, whoa. ”

"Of course I know cows, but how can a cow I don't see make such a sound?"

"Please, my eldest young master, don't tell me that you've never heard of annual leave, aren't you sure you won't tell the truth?"

"Really, I've never heard it real, you call it like this, and you didn't call it that way when you were filming, why did you really seem to scare me when I heard his voice just now, this difference is so big. ”

"Young Master, was the dubbing good at that time when you were filming, and there are many kinds of cows, there are scalpers, buffaloes and iron cows, so their cries are different in any situation, don't you think that when only one voice is as unhappy as a person, its crying and crying are also different?"

I can only explain this to him with tears and laughter, for a man like him, who has no distinction between grains and grains, he is really only suitable to be a star.

I pointed to the field behind me, and made some direct and vicious comments: "Please, if you go to plough the land like this, there is no unity of crookedness, a vertical and horizontal proportion, how can we plant seedlings?"

"Please woman, don't ask for this, is it okay to be so high? It's the first time I've used this way to follow the post, don't worry, I'll be able to do it now, I promise not. ”

Later, he really learned to drive a tractor very seriously, and he took our family's one-third of an acre of land seriously and seriously cleared the wasteland.

At dusk, our field did give him a good look.