At the age of three, Jin Zi and her grandparents left the small county town in her hometown and went to a big city near Beijing, where she went to kindergarten, because of the lack of calcium, she had to drink a bottle of yogurt every day, plus a pancake fruit, at the age of five, she would go to buy a pancake fruit by herself every day at noon, and I heard her grandmother say that she always loved to be sick at that time, and she had tuberculosis, and the needle of the infusion was stuck in her foot, but she never cried, just like on the train away from home, she slept when she was sleepy, ate when she was hungry, and did not look for her mother or father. In that big city, Kaneko ate a birthday cake from a kindergarten classmate for the first time in her life, and the taste was really unforgettable, as if the cake she ate in the future didn't taste like that. The days came to the time when Jin Zi was about to go to elementary school, because the hukou was still in her hometown, so she had to go home to prepare for elementary school, Jin Zi only remembered that a strange man came to the house that day, she asked her grandmother who it was, and her grandmother told her that it was her father, so she followed her father home.

Along the way, they took some photos, in front of Beijing Square, in front of the Flood Control Memorial Tower, like an ordinary father and daughter, separated by a few years of youth.

Taking the taxi back to the small mountain village, she returned to the place full of rows of fences from the place where the tall buildings were lined up, just when she was still counting the fences, the car stopped, she looked to the right, there were still many fences, under the guidance of her father, she turned her head to look to the left, only to find that the door and her mother were on the left.

Gold's mother is a relatively strong woman, although she is very thin, she and Golden's father are also working very hard to run their own farm, Gold remembers that they have raised chickens, piglets, rabbits, and dogs and kittens to keep the house, the most raised is chickens, they lay eggs, feed this family of three, their family has three very large chicken houses, thousands of chickens, when he was a child, Jin often carried the egg basket, to touch the eggs under the chicken buttocks, and was unlucky to be pecked by the chickens once or twice, she sometimes thinks, these eggs are also quite pitiful, they really can't see their mothers in their lives, maybe it will become an omelette and boiled eggs will be eaten, and she will be much luckier to live with her mother.

In Kaneko's impression, her mother is a person who is sometimes warm and sometimes cold, she is always the most gentle in the morning when she has not gotten up, and her speech is also gentle, and after she gets up, she will not be gone, there is a bunch of work waiting for her to do. She is a person who is very good at cold violence, and if she gets angry, she can ignore the existence of a person for a long time, which also affects gold.

After staying at home for less than a year, Jin Zi is going to go to elementary school in the county town, which is a place about twenty or thirty kilometers away from home, grandma and grandfather also came back, rented a house in the county town and took Jin Zi to preschool, but there are unforeseen circumstances, Jin Zi's grandfather was diagnosed with stomach cancer in the middle stage soon after he came back, and most of his stomach was cut off by surgery, and the rest of the stomach and esophagus were connected together, and since then Grandma's focus has been on taking care of her grandfather, so when Jin Zi was about to enter the second grade, she was sent to her aunt's house who ran a family dormitory, and her aunt's family has many students, elementary school, junior high school, and high school, and she can be regarded as the youngest childIn those days, there was no QQ, WeChat, and it was good to have a landline phone, but I usually wouldn't contact my family, and the gold would only take the van home on the running line when I had a long vacation, and there were some emergencies. That year, the school volunteered to let the students buy a Siku Quanshu, Jin Zi liked it very much, wanted to buy it, went home and asked her aunt for money, the next day after school, she was still eating her favorite roast chicken rack, snorting and running over a little boy, his name was Xiaobai, about the same size as Jinzi, he gave Jin five yuan, and said, "Your mother told you to hurry home." Jin Zi hurriedly went to the station in a panic, and was educated by her mother when she got home, which probably means that the conditions at home do not allow her to buy such expensive and useless things, but the name has been reported, and her mother gave Jin Zi the money to buy books, and when the book is sent, it is really useless, and Jin Zi has not opened it much later, I don't know if it is because of disgust, or because it is really useless.

Jinzi's biggest fear is that someone else will lose something, because these charges will be charged to her head for no apparent reason. I remember the first time Kaneko understood the word "wronged" was after the junior high school students' bedding in the front room of the dormitory didn't know who collectively cut it, and at that time there was only one sister with a loud voice The bedding was not destroyed, and Kaneko expressed his opinion when chatting with everyone after the meal and said: "It must be this sister who has a loud voice, and the person who cut the quilt is afraid of her, so she didn't cut her quilt." In this way, she became the focus of her aunt's suspicion, because she used to be naughty at her grandmother's house and also cut a sheet, but this time it was really not her who did it, but the aunt was very sure and said to her: "If you don't admit it, I'll tell your mother about it." The gold was so frightened that she reluctantly confessed, and her aunt asked her, "Where did all the shredded strips of cloth go?" and the gold did not know where the strips of cloth would be, and she cried and said, "Throw them away." This ended with the back of the gold, who is now in his twenties, and I don't know who cut the futon at that time.

But if there are more people, it will definitely not be calm, after a while, someone loses money and things, a few dollars, dozens of dollars, all the people in the dormitory will be called to their aunt's room one by one to talk, that feeling is really like the interrogation in the spy war movie now, the air is hot, the breathing is nervous, you haven't done it, and you will be asked: "Then you suspect who did it?" Jin Zi didn't know if it was a small bully or because she was an immediate family member, she became a key suspect again, and there was also a boy who was also listed as a key suspect, he was three or four years older than Jinzi, and one of the sisters Lili who lost money liked Jin very much, she told everyone that this matter would definitely not be done by Jinzi, Jin Zi was very moved, and she felt the feeling of being unconditionally supported by others for the first time. But things went on, and the aunt began to choose one of the two ways to solve the case, and the next morning, after everyone had gone to school, the aunt kept the gold and the other boy, and said to them both, "If any of you can find the lost money, then I will give double the amount to the one who finds it." "Jin Zi slept in the living room, there were four iron frame beds in the living room, the boy walked around, and took out two crumpled coins under the mattress of Jinzi, one for five yuan, one for ten yuan, Jin Zi's mind was instantly blank, and she didn't know how the money appeared in her bed, and the aunt took the money, and then took out thirty yuan and gave it to the boy, and then let the two of them go to school.

When Kaneko ran to the school, the school gates were already closed, and after talking to the security guard for a long time, the security guard opened the small door, and Kaneko returned to her seat to attend class under the gaze of her classmates and teachers. She didn't remember how she spent that day, how she got back to the dormitory after school, but she remembered that when her aunt and uncle interrogated the boy again in the evening, he admitted that he had put the money at the head of the gold bed, in order to make the gold bear his charges, but he didn't expect to confirm his theft, and most of the money he stole was spent by him. Soon after, the boy was sent to another place by his parents because he had another conflict with the dormitory people, and Kaneko happened to see him a few times on the road after entering junior high school, as if he was doing well. There may be some people who will cause harm to your life, without apology and no accountability, this person has nothing to do with you, but often this kind of injury without apology is the most difficult to heal.

Jin Zi also had a habit of stealing after that, but not in the dormitory, she would go to a store that was about to close down with a classmate who had a good time, sometimes stealing two postcards, sometimes some stickers, she also knew who was Miriam Yang and who was Liu Yifei from that time, and a month later, the classmate's mother may have found out, and when Jin Zi went to find her again, the classmate's mother would say to her with a very fierce expression that the classmate was not at home, and Jin Zi also felt that a person seemed to have too big a goal, and slowly never had these behaviors again.

Today's dream: Kaneko dreamed of her elementary school teacher, her elementary school teacher has changed three times, the last one is a male teacher who took over from the fourth grade, he has just graduated from college, has a very novel idea, and is very communicative with her classmates, Kaneko dreams that she is very happy in the teacher's class, and is still eating bread and ham. In reality, Jinzi never raised his hand to speak, the only time he raised his hand was in the class debate, she stood up and said the other party's point of view, it was really embarrassing, almost the whole class was a class cadre when Jinzi was in elementary school, and there were four class leaders alone, the teacher said that it was to make everyone have a greater sense of class responsibility, this trick really worked, because the four classmates who were the class leader were not good students, but people in the class who were not so noticeable, and when they graduated from elementary school, Jin Zi could feel their changes, this teacher really changed the lives of many people, Jin Zi now thinks, if only junior high school and high school could meet such a teacher, the fate will be different。