I wanted to say something more, but my mouth seemed to be sealed by something, and I could only give the simplest answer.

Before Yi Xin brought me to Shuofeng County, I was sure that she must know something about Xia Yan, but when she asked me, my previously firm thoughts loosened again, and then I felt even deeper guilt.

Maybe what Ishin said is true?

She didn't have to lie to me.

"Then why are you always obsessed with Xia Yan? Yi Xin looked me in the eye, trying to get an answer from it: "What does she look like, is she better looking than me, or is she gentler than me?"

Yi Xin asked me as if she had never met Xia Yan and had never known her, but had only heard a few words from my mother's mouth.

I subconsciously avoided her eyes: "It's not like this, Xia Yan always appears in my dreams, I always dream of her in the middle of the night, her appearance makes me feel that I am incomplete, I am missing a very important memory, I want to get it back." ”

"Do you want to get Xia Yan back?" Yi Xin raised his tone and looked at me in disbelief: "Then what am I?"

"No, no!" I quickly explained: "I want to get back the memory I lost, I just want to know the truth of the year, the person I love is you." ”

"Chen Ye, have you ever thought that those dreams of yours are just dreams, they may be caused by high work pressure, and they have nothing to do with your life. "Ishin tried to convince me.

"But I know that those are not just dreams, many things in dreams are real, just like Xia Yan is real. ”

"Even if Xia Yan is real, then how can you be sure that the things that happened in your dreams are real? Most of the dreams are absurd, nihilistic, and even confusing many times, I really think those are just dreams, Chen Ye, can you think about it again?" Yi Xin persuaded me again.

Thinking about it this way, it seems that those dreams can also be interpreted as just dreams.

Seeing the wavering in my eyes, Yi Xin struck while the iron was hot: "Chen Ye, is it okay for me to accompany you to the doctor, maybe those dreams won't bother you after seeing the doctor, and I will become better, better than Xia Yan you always dreamed of." ”

Looking at Yi Xin's hopeful eyes, I nodded in a ghostly manner, I have always felt that Qin Huai's psychiatrist is not very reliable, if Yi Xin is willing to accompany me to face such a thing, I am not resistant to seeing other psychiatrists, maybe those dreams will really not bother me anymore at that time.

After learning about Ishin's background, I felt even more guilty about her. If it weren't for the quarrel that day, she wouldn't have had to tell me what had happened to her in the past.

To her, telling me those things was tantamount to tearing open the scar again for me to see her bloody wounds. If it weren't for loving me, she wouldn't have had to do it at all.

Even after telling me about Xia Yan, her first reaction was not to accuse me, but to think that it was because she was not good enough that I would be angry about Xia Yan's affairs.

This makes me think even more that I shouldn't be on the tip of those dreams, and that I should maintain the sincerity that Yixin gave me.

"Chen Ye, did you promise me?" Yi Xin looked at me cautiously, with a slight uncertainty in his tone.

Looking at her appearance, I feel that I am not good enough, I don't give her enough sense of security and trust, the person I love is obviously Yixin, why should I ignore the person around me who should be cared for the most, to pay attention to a person who appears in a dream.

"Well, I promised you, I will go to the psychiatrist whenever you say I will go to the psychiatrist whenever you say. "I agreed, and after knowing Yixin's background, I felt that I had a responsibility on my shoulders, and the girls who suffered along the way should be treated gently.

"Then you ......" Yi Xin looked at me with a little hesitation in his expression, as if he didn't know if what he wanted to say could be said.

"Say, we're lovers, so we don't have to worry about so much. I opened my mouth for Ishin to continue, and now my heart is full of pity for her.

"Then can you forget Xia Yan, can we not have Xia Yan in our lives from now on, can you only have to do with me for the rest of your life. I'm also a girl, and I'm jealous, and I want my other half to be the only one in my heart. Chen Ye ......" Yi Xin looked at me seriously, sighed, and said to me solemnly: "Chen Ye, I really love you so much, I really love you." Shall we be together so well?"

Looking at Ixin's expression and listening to the tone of her voice to me, I could feel her affection for me.

She really loves me.

I love her too.

"Good. A good word came out of my mouth in this atmosphere, Yi Xin has endured too much for me, and it's time for me to make some changes: "When we see a psychiatrist and adjust it, I will definitely make our lives without Xia Yan." I've always had you in my heart. ”

At this time, I seem to suddenly have a clear understanding, the person I love is Yi Xin, and the person I want to spend my life with is also Yi Xin, if Xia Yan is just an inconsequential person in my life, and those dreams are just chaotic dreams, then why should I make the person I love unhappy because of an unimportant person?

After listening to my answer, Yi Xin happily hugged me: "Chen Ye, you are so good!"

I was firmly embraced by her, the corners of my lips were slightly hooked, and my gloomy mood had improved a lot over the past few days, and it was cloudy.

Maybe it's a good idea for the dreams that have been haunting me all this way to end.

We didn't go back to S City that night, but went to the local bonfire, where I saw a more enthusiastic and generous Yixin than before, which deepened my love for her.

After returning from Shuofeng County, I had a much closer relationship with Yixin before, and I was actively involved in the preparation of our wedding, and I barely mentioned Xia Yan, as if I had completely forgotten Xia Yan.

Although I have made a choice, not seeing another psychiatrist still makes the stone in my heart fall to the ground.

Finally, a week after we went to Shuofeng County, Yi Xin said that he had made an appointment with a well-known psychiatrist for me, and it was this Tuesday. I set aside a day for this.