Chapter 39: Self-doubt

I sat down at the coffee table and reached out to pour myself a cup of tea.

The entrance of the tea is already cold.

This cold tea is just like my mood at the moment, falling to the freezing point.

I clenched my teacup tightly, remembering the look on Iahin's face when he heard my words, and his evasive attitude, I felt more and more that I might have done something bad in the past, which is why everyone around me would go to such great lengths to hide it from me.

What is it that makes them spend so much effort?

I began to doubt my past, could it be that Xia Yan really ......

I didn't dare to think about it any longer, so I drank the tea in the teacup in a few sips, and then called Xiao Jun.

"Where are you?"

"At home. Xiao Jun came from the background sound of the game.

"Go out for a drink with me?"

"Okay...... Old place?" Xiao Jun replied a little slowly, seemingly focusing on the game.

"Yes, then I'll go out. With that, I got up and went out.

"Bang!" The sound of the door closing on my side made Xiao Jun realize that I had gone out, and he was a little anxious, as if he didn't expect me to be so quick this time: "Hey-you're going out now......?" I'll ...... right away."

"DEFEAT!" The sound of the game failure came to my ears, and I shook my head and reached out to hail a taxi, I was going to get drunk tonight, so I didn't plan to drive.

"Hmm...... I'm going to go out too. Xiao Jun's tone became affirmative, and he never mentioned the fact that he had just lost the game.

Xiao Jun has always been a game lover, and he has played all the games on the market, but he just doesn't play well, he always loses, but he still has to play. I remember when we first became brothers, I didn't know that he was a game black hole at first, and I would play a few games with him, but then I learned that it was very rare - I rarely felt the joy of playing games with him.

A lot of previous things are very clear in my mind, such as memories related to Xiao Jun, but I just forgot Xia Yan, I don't understand the reason for this, I have too many doubts about myself and want to talk to someone.

I got into the car, and after reporting the address to the driver, I continued to say to Xiao Jun: "I'm already in the car, it's estimated that I'll be there soon, you kid have to be ready, we won't get drunk tonight." ”

"Okay, okay, I'll come. He answered, and hung up the phone.

When I arrived at the "old place barbecue", Xiao Jun hadn't arrived yet, so I first ordered some barbecue that we both loved and ordered a dozen beers.

"What's the situation with you?" Xiao Jun arrived and saw me drinking alone, frowning at me.

"Come on, come on, don't stand stupidly, sit down and have a few drinks with me. I pulled Xiao Jun to sit down and sighed involuntarily.

The barbecue is not good, and I am really depressed in my heart, so I can only solve it in this way.

I was about to tell Xiao Jun about what happened in the past few days, and when I quarreled with Yi Xin today, my mobile phone rang, at first I thought it was my mother or Yi Xin, but when I saw the caller ID, I realized that it was Brother Huang.

I suddenly remembered that after asking Brother Huang for help that day, he said that he would invite him to have a meal together, and he said that he had a class reunion, and he made an appointment the day after tomorrow, and he should have called today for this matter.

I picked up the phone: "Hey, Brother Huang." ”

"Chen Ye, are you free today? Last time, I said that I was going to have a meal together, but I have been busy for the past two days, and I almost forgot to be busy. ”

"That's right, Brother Huang, I'll have a barbecue with my friends outside, or I'll give you the address, and you can come over directly." I asked Xiao Jun's consent with my eyes, and after he nodded, I invited Brother Huang over on the phone.

"You're out with your friends now, then let's make an appointment another day, your brother Huang and I are old, and I'm not used to eating barbecue, and I know that you young people have a rich nightlife, so I won't go over to make trouble for you, don't let you have a bad time." "Brother Huang heard that my friend and I were already outside, so he politely refused.

"Wherever we go, we just have a bite to eat, there's no nightlife. ”

"Hahaha, let's make an appointment another day, another day. In Brother Huang's hearty laughter, the call ended.

Speaking of which, I'm still a little reluctant to go, Brother Huang helped me a lot in the previous hospital investigation of the file, and I should have remembered to contact Brother Huang for this kind of thing, but today I asked Brother Huang to contact me, but what happened these days really made me have no time to take care of it, and even I urgently needed a drunken getaway, so that my mind was completely blank, and I didn't have to think about anything.

"Not coming?" Xiao Jun took the baking tray from the waiter's hand and put it on the table.

"yes, no. "I put my phone on the table, picked up a skewer of beef and ate it.

"You're not quite right today, can you tell me what's going on?" Xiao Jun looked at me with inquiring eyes, and also picked up a skewer of beef and ate it.

"You know, it's still the same before, you really don't know about the things I had in a car accident ten years ago?" Although I know in my heart that Xiao Jun doesn't know much about the car accident, and he also helped me with the investigation of the file, I still want to ask, probably because I found that there are too many people around me today, so I want to make sure again.

"Brother, I told you everything I know, and how long I've been abroad, I really don't know anything about what happened to you after I went abroad, I don't remember when I was in Miami before, I also said that you have changed too much, just because we haven't seen each other for too long, all I know is some of the things you did in high school, and I don't know much about the rest of the things. Xiao Jun explained to me.

I pondered Xiao Jun's words carefully, and he was indeed right, we have not been in touch for too long since he went abroad, and if he really knew something, he would not say that I have changed a lot, let alone help me investigate the car accident file ten years ago.

"I believe in you. ”

"So what's wrong with you today? I think you're in a much worse state than the previous two days. ”

A bottle of beer was gone, and I filled myself with another bottle: "I had a fight with Ishin today." ”

"Why is it noisy?" asked Xiao Jun.

I started from scratch that I didn't go to the bridal shop on time to try on dresses, and then Yi Xin asked me to give her a guest list, and I told Xiao Jun about my escape.

"That's because of this. Xiao Jun shook his head after hearing this: "I just said that marriage is the grave of love, if you look at me, I don't mean to jump into the grave at all." But brother, it's not me saying you, marriage is a lifelong thing, you are indeed a little careless, no wonder Yixin wants to quarrel with you. Girls, they all care more about the kind of indescribable, unclear details, but the anger generally comes and goes quickly, tomorrow you prepare a bouquet of roses to apologize, it will definitely be good. ”