"I know, you see you have always known, we all know that it is right, but at that time, I didn't know when you were away, I didn't know that you liked Yu Xiang, I didn't know that Yu Xiang used to like me, and I didn't know that Mu Zhuoyan was all good to us, all because of Yu Xiang, all because of Yu Xiang. ”

Tao Jingjing said these things that she didn't know before, and she accidentally knew all of them, and the sadness in her heart was a thick autumn rain that couldn't be dissolved.

"I'm sorry Ziyu, I don't know all that, everything and about Yu Xiang, I know that I hurt you a lot of the time, but I never really wanted to hurt any of you. Every time I want to tell you something, I keep flashing in my mind the bits and pieces of how the three of us used to get along.

Among them, I think about how you get along with Yu Xiang a lot of times, those feelings are so obvious, I was with you, I didn't even find out, and Yu Xiang, I don't know how to express my feelings, or how to repay Yu Xiang's feelings for me, I have avoided it, and I have tried to ignore all this, so I met Xiao Xiche, met the happiness I once thought, I thought that in this way, we could ignore all the things in the past for each other, but the things that followed made me know that I was wrong, and it was very wrong。 ”

Tao Jingjing has never dared to think about the scene when she ran out that day, and Yu Xiang, who ran out in the rain, caught up, if she could know that it was Yu Xiang who caught up with her, and it was Yu Xiang who pushed her away, Xiao Xiche, who she wanted to see the most at that time, and Xiao Xiche who was most eager to see, at that time, Xiao Xiche was plotting how to hurt her father, Tao Jingjing thought that she must be her father's good daughter.

As Yu Xiang's good friend, even Mu Zhuoyan, he has always regarded her as his best friend, but he didn't rush in like this, he was pushed away like this, and he watched Mu Zhuoyan fall in the rain like this, even if nothing happened later, he still hurt many people, many people.

"In order to marry Xiao Xiche, I secretly ran out of the window, I always remember that rainy night, it was Yu Xiang, silently supporting me, and Yu Xiang protecting me behind my back, you say dog blood is not dog blood, there was a car accident on a rainy day, Yu Xiang pulled me away, Mu Zhuoyan pulled Yu Xiang, I don't know where Mu Zhuoyan ran out of the final victim, although there was nothing but I inadvertently knew all the emotional entanglements, I am the stupidest one, I enjoy everything with peace of mind, everything you give but nothing in return for you。

All the things, it's not that I don't want to say it, but I don't know how to say it, and a lot of these things are self-inflicted, no matter which one of them, I feel like I'm doing it myself, so whether it's sadness, suffering, sadness, all of it's okay, I don't want you to think I'm suffering!"

Tao Jingjing looked at the rain outside, and her tone was sad and complaining, as if all the sorrow had melted into this sudden rain.

There are a lot of bloody things in this world, and some of them are really like what they are playing on TV, and the blood is so bloody that you doubt fate. In the past, Tao Jingjing always thought about the plots of those TV series, which had nothing to do with herself, and she couldn't have encountered any things, but fate is like this, fate just let you encounter such things. Tao Jingjing always remembered that she was standing alone in the corner of the hospital, listening to Mu Zhuoyan's hysterical shouting at Yu Xiang in the ward.

"I love you, I love you very much, and I can do anything for you!"

"Tao Jingjing, what good does she have, except for a little money at home, a nymphomaniac all day long, nothing, let you help her, which point is better than her, which point is not as good as me....."

"You think I don't know, Lin Ziyu likes you so much, it's because Tao Jingjing you got people away......"

"Tao Jingjing is a scourge, in addition to hurting for her, hurting other people around her for her, what can she do, she is a waste ......"

"She has what she wants.....

"Don't you know Xiao Xiche's purpose for approaching her?....

"Just wait, she'll be punished, you'll all be punished....."

.......

At that moment, Tao Jingjing was even a little incredible, for the gentle and gentle Mu Zhuoyan who smiled every day, Tao Jingjing couldn't accept what she said that there was something, and her suddenly changed face, and suddenly became hideous face, Tao Jingjing didn't want to escape, about Yu Xiang, about Mu Zhuoyan and even about Lin Ziyu who had gone abroad, Tao Jingjing wanted to escape, escape from afar, far away from everything, she locked herself in the hotel room, locked up for two whole days, no one saw anyone, no one answered the phone, even if it was Xiao Xiche's calls, one after another, Tao Jingjing didn't seem to hear it.

When one person is locked in the hotel, one stays quietly in the hotel, and when he is alone, suddenly there are many problems that he has ignored before, and many questions that he has never paid attention to before, about himself, about Yu Xiang, about Lin Ziyu, and even about Mu Zhuoyan.

Many things from childhood to adulthood, especially Yu Xiang and Lin Ziyu, I have lived with them the most, how can I not see some feelings, but I just don't see them. I didn't see Lin Ziyu's eyes looking at Yu Xiang, I didn't see Lin Ziyu stop talking when he looked at himself and Yu Xiang, and I didn't see the eyes that sometimes looked at him, in fact, they were not all warm.

And Yu Xiang. Tao Jingjing suddenly remembered a detail, a detail that seemed to have been ignored for a long, long time. It was a very small detail of the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, Lin Ziyu went out to play with his parents, only Yu Xiang and himself, doing nothing all day long, and even sometimes doing all the boring things, and then hiding in the shade, eating watermelon, imagining the future, that afternoon, right that hot afternoon, when the hot wind blew himself to sleep, he suddenly heard Yu Xiang say, "If we can go to a university, can I chase you!"

Maybe the wind was too strong that day, the weather was too hot, and what he said was blown away in the air like this.