Me?"

He Yuan fell silent.

"You don't really feel much about her anymore. Senior sister said.

He Yuan raised his head and looked at his senior sister, and said after a while, "Why do you say that." ”

"If you still have feelings for her, you should be talking about her present, not her past...... When you say that, it means that you only care about the previous experience. Or rather, what you like, just like her at that time, yourself. The one who works hard, has a clear goal, and is full of vitality. Senior sister said.

He Yuan was silent for a moment, and after a long while, he exhaled: "Yes, what I like is just myself at that time." In fact, all I miss is that feeling, the self that was once so innocent and pure. I'm grateful for the person in my life who let me know what I wanted and what I should want, instead of being a mess and getting by. ”

"Then why are you running away from her now?"

"Run, maybe. It may only be when I really know what I want that I know that it is impossible for me to be with her. She was so floating, like a cloud, I couldn't hold it, I couldn't hold it. The other half I want is the other half that belongs to me, eat, drink and have fun with me, and giggle with me, instead of finding a goddess and putting it at home for offerings. Actually, I'm very sad, many times, we don't know what we really want, we always think that we are such a kind of person, but often after going through it, we know that in fact, we are no different from others, the same philistine, the same vulgar. The sense of reality of falling from the clouds is not so pleasant. He Yuan shook his head.

After a while, He Yuan exhaled, and the whole person became relaxed: "Actually, I have always had a knot in my heart, I always want to make myself like the male protagonist in it, become very strong, extremely powerful, and then return to her, I want to see her sad and remorseful." ”

"But you're not that kind of person. Senior sister said suddenly.

"Yes, then I thought, in fact, this kind of self is quite boring. What does she want to be sad about, what to regret, because she is not with me? But, she is my own initiative to give up, I used to have a chance, but I gave up, why should I blame others for my own reasons? What's more, I really can't become so strong, I have no ambition, and there are very few **, it is she who has brought me to this point, in fact, I should be grateful to her. It's just that I really can't do it, I really can't stand in front of her, smile and say, thank you for having a like you in my life, I think this is too hypocritical, not my style. ”

"If you can't do it, don't push yourself. ”

"Well, I understand, it's just that maybe I used to be too perfectionist. I always feel that no matter what happens, there must be a good ending in the end. But now I think that the reason why people grow is not how many good things they have experienced, but how many bad things they have experienced and can still move forward. So, sometimes regret is also an experience, it has taught me a lot of things, especially when I understand that many times, what you like, and what you want, is often not the same thing, as if there was a proposition before, if you were given a choice, do you choose to marry the person who loves you, or choose to marry the person you love. ”

"Children make choices, adults want all. Senior sister spoke.

"If you can choose to marry someone you love, and he loves you, then of course it is best, you marry love. But this world is often not happy, for example, after you got married, have you considered buying a car or a house, have you considered supporting your parents, have you considered having a boy or a girl, have you considered ...... You see, the world is always not so perfect, and it is not possible for everything to be as you wish. He Yuan said slowly.

The senior sister was silent.

"There are always a lot of things in this world that require us to back down, that we need to compromise, and that there are always many regrets. I remember watching a show before, in which the host asked the guest, "Why are you working so hard to make money?" The guest asked a question, saying that I am now giving 5 million to let the audience give me my girlfriend, how many people are willing to exchange. Many people raised their hands for very simple reasons, such as, 'I may not be able to earn 5 million in my life', '5 million is still more difficult to earn than my girlfriend', 'I don't have any money now, I hope to rely on this 5 million to work hard and strive to get my girlfriend back in the future'. ”

"I seem to have watched this show, I remember a few people who didn't raise their hands, the host asked the man, asked why he didn't choose five million, the man meant that five million is a lot, but the power of love is higher, so he chose love, not money. Senior sister added.

"Well, but I remember it very interesting that when the host asked the guy's girlfriend, the girlfriend replied, 'Although I am very touched by your choice, I still prefer the man who paid five million for me'. ”

"That girl is very honest, and many girls don't dare to answer like that. ”

"When I was a child, I didn't quite understand that girl's thoughts, I would think, that girl is too powerful, I especially want that kind of girl, she is the kind of person who can turn to another man for money. But as I grew up, I began to understand her thoughts, even if her boyfriend really loved her, even if he really gave everything for her...... But, as she said on the show, she felt that such a man was naïve. Why can some people start from scratch, earn hundreds of millions of family properties, and then kneel in front of their girlfriends and say they love her, while others can only lie at home and be an old man, saying how they love her and giving everything for her. Everyone is an adult, and sometimes taking action is more convincing than talking. ”

"Maybe he just hasn't shown it yet, maybe he's just missing a chance, maybe ...... Well, I can't convince myself. The senior sister gave some examples, and she smiled self-deprecatingly.

She is the woman who once "listened to love".

So when the host asked the guest if he worked hard to earn money, was he able to do what he wanted because he had money, he replied, he said that he worked hard to earn money, but he didn't want his girlfriend, and one day he would face such a choice. He Yuan said slowly.

"It's not the first time I've heard this story, but every time I hear it, I have new feelings. Senior sister said.

"So, there are always all kinds of regrets in this world, try to be strong, just to reduce this regret, but ...... It is not completely avoidable. Especially, sometimes the reason why you are strong is the same reason why you regret it. He Yuan shook his head.

After saying this, the two fell silent.

After a while, He Yuan stood up: "Thank you, after chatting with you like this, I feel much better." ”

"Figured it out?"

"Nothing figured out, or couldn't figure it out. I've thought about it before, but I'm just thinking about it again. He Yuan took a deep breath and slowly spit it out.

"Well, this is a return gift for your previous enlightenment. Sometimes, if there is something, don't hold it in your heart, find a stranger, when she is like a toilet, talk about it wantonly, and when she finishes talking, don't contact again. It's like more than ten years ago, idol dramas often acted like this, saying that you would write down the things you were worried about on a piece of paper, and then put them in a drifting bottle and throw them into the sea. In this way, your worries and unhappiness will be carried away by the sea. The senior sister also stood up.

The wind in the park was very strong, and from time to time it would blow her hair, and she often had to reach out and pull the bangs in front of her behind her ears.

He Yuan didn't dare to answer this sentence.

I always feel that my sister has something to say.

"Thanks, I'm going back, what about you?" He Yuandao.

After this conversation, He Yuan's mood was already a lot lighter.

In fact, he had long been entangled in this matter, but he suddenly knew her news, and his mood fluctuated a little.

Every time he thinks of her, He Yuan thinks of his past self.

Such a cowardly, incompetent, poor, and humble self.

What He Yuan can't face is never someone else. Just like in the middle two comics, your opponent is never someone else, your opponent is always yourself.

"I'll wait for Yan Yan to play a little longer, and then I'll go back. The senior sister looked at the crazy girl on the turf in the distance and smiled.

"Why do you have time to take her out to play today, your store is not open?" He Yuan asked casually.

"Oh, the shop, it's closed. The senior sister replied.

"It's closed? It's the New Year, are you going to have a holiday, it's too early. He Yuan was a little surprised.

Although I know that some companies will take holidays in advance, a month in advance, in He Yuan's eyes, is also a bit exaggerated.

Besides, this is my hometown, not Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, and even if someone wants to return to their hometown in advance, it will not be a month in advance - most of the people who work in their hometown are locals, and they are very close to home.

"Business was not good, so it was closed early. Senior sister said.

"It's closed in advance, what do you mean......" He Yuan guessed something, but he was still a little unsure.

"I won't do it again. "Senior sister said what He Yuan wanted to say.

He Yuan swore that he really just found a random topic to avoid awkward conversations.

Who knew that a casual topic would be involved in such an embarrassing thing.

In other words, my sister's company is bankrupt.

He Yuan was silent, and only after a while did he squeeze out a sentence: "Then what are you going to do in the future?"

"What to do? In order to open that store all these years, I haven't had time to take care of Yanyan, and I want to take advantage of this Spring Festival to take her out to have fun and accompany her. When you come back, you can dispose of some of the materials in the store and then put the store out. Senior Sister looked relaxed, and she could see that she had already calculated about it.

He Yuan doesn't know what kind of life a woman will live after losing her business, a single mother who has experienced a scumbag, has been scraped off her property, and has a child. Don't say that there is a façade fee, the façade in my hometown is not very much, even if it can be rented out smoothly, a month's income can offset their expenses.

He Yuan has seen a single mother, and he knows that the life of a single mother is not as simple as it seems in the eyes of ordinary people, and Senior Sister He Yuan still has such an ex-husband......

"If there's anything you can do to help, just tell me when the time comes. He Yuan sighed and spoke.

Now the economy is getting worse and worse, although He Yuan has not gone out to work, but he can also clearly feel the economic winter.

Fortunately, the senior sister has her own house and a car, so she will not be upside down. He Yuan had met some single mothers in Beijing before, and to be honest, life was quite unhappy.

"Suddenly so nice to me, what an attempt. Senior sister turned her head and looked at He Yuan, with a clever smile on her face.

That kind of sincere smile was stunned by He Yuan.

"Speaking of attempts...... I really have something I need your help with. He Yuan came back to his senses and suddenly remembered another matter. He wanted to find his senior sister before, but because he didn't reply to WeChat last time, he wasn't too embarrassed, so he held back.

At that moment, he told his senior sister about Tang Duoduo as it was.

After listening to He Yuan's words, Senior Sister thought for a while and said, "I'll go back and ask about this matter, and I'll look for you when there is news." ”

"Good. He Yuan nodded.

This kind of thing is very troublesome, it can't be done well, don't talk about it if it is not done, and it is easy to make a mess.

"By the way, remember to read WeChat this time. Just as He Yuan was about to leave, Senior Sister suddenly floated over.

He Yuan's heart trembled when he heard this, and after saying goodbye to his senior sister, he hurriedly fled.

After leaving the park, He Yuan found his car and drove home.

After returning home, He Yuan became lazy again.

A while ago, the temperature suddenly dropped, and the people who froze couldn't do it, and when he got up several times in the morning, He Yuan lay in the quilt and didn't want to come out, and the frozen people were about to get moldy.

As a result, the sun rises every day in the past few days, especially at noon, the sun is warm and very comfortable. He Yuan would pull a chair, lie down at the door of the house, make a cup of black tea, cover a small blanket, and bask in the sun in the yard.

He Yuan was a little lazy today, so as soon as he went home and saw such a good sun in the sky, without saying a word, he immediately made black tea, moved the small recliner, and sat at the door of the living room...... Well, comfortable.

It's not that He Yuan's heart is big, and it's not that Yuan Jing's matter is over.

It's just that...... Anyway, what can't be solved today can't be solved tomorrow, so just leave it at that, and it won't affect your life.

And to be honest, this city is not big, but it is not small.

The person you want to see, you can't see it, and the person you don't want to see suddenly "boom" appears in front of your eyes.

He Yuan himself didn't know whether he wanted to see her or didn't want to see her. Then forget it, it's not too late to dwell on it when you actually see her.

Maybe it's because I've encountered a lot of things recently, or it's because I got up early today, or maybe it's because I met Yuan Jing...... In short, He Yuan felt dizzy and had a terrible headache today.

He has already taken cold medicine in the past few days, and every time he felt uncomfortable before, most of them were cold, take some cold medicine, and the next day he was almost fine. But this time is different, He Yuan has already taken medicine, but he still feels very uncomfortable.

Is it because the weather is cold and the body automatically goes into hibernation?

He Yuan thought a little lazily.

He lay down on the chair and fell asleep in a daze.

......

He Yuan had a dream.

No, I think I've had several dreams.

There are many images, many people, and many things in the dream.

He Yuan couldn't remember what he dreamed of, but he felt familiar.

The feeling of being separated by a veil tickled He Yuan's heart, but it just didn't completely emerge. The only thing I remember is the picture frozen on his feet.

He Yuan remembered that he saw that he was wearing two shoes in his dream, two different shoes, the left foot was a yellow Martin boot, and the right foot was "Bling Bling" shiny, like a black pointed scalp shoe studded with small diamonds, but shiny.

He Yuan didn't know what this dream meant, he checked it on the Internet, and said on the Internet that he dreamed of wearing two shoes on his feet, indicating that the owner was in the stage of ideological differences, and if he was married, he might be emotionally cheating......

Seeing this, He Yuan turned off his mobile phone and threw it aside.

What kind of, a new good man, has always been clean...... At least in the past two years, he has been diligent, clean, and rarely has contact with the opposite sex. How could such a good big man be emotionally cheating...... Oh, and I'm talking about a married person, and I'm not married yet.

Some messy things flashed through his mind, and He Yuan felt that his head hurt even more. He struggled to get up from his chair and followed suit, returning to his bedroom room, where he lay down on the bed.

As soon as he got into bed, He Yuan felt a wave of dizziness in his head, as if he had been hit by some heavy object on the back of his head, and he almost couldn't lift it in one breath. This feeling is very similar to the feeling he had when he was in the company, He Yuan was suddenly a little worried, he wouldn't be the thing in his head, and something was wrong again, right?

He Yuan was shocked, to be honest, since he went to the hospital for examination several times before, the doctors said that he was in good condition, and at the current pace, it was very likely that he would recover, so He Yuan could rest easy. After that, because of the continuous events, which distracted He Yuan's attention, he almost forgot that there was still such a thing in his head.

If he said that he had been prepared before, even if he really encountered that kind of thing, He Yuan would be able to accept it calmly.

But now, he has stepped out of the shadow of death, and lives so leisurely every day, with cats, flowers, and a girlfriend...... He still has a lot of things to do, a lot of things to do, and he doesn't want to die like this now!

He Yuan struggled to prop himself up from the bed, wanting to change his clothes and go to the hospital for a check-up.

As a result, I just crawled to the side of the bed, and my mind "buzzed", and it was dark. He Yuan didn't hold it at that time, and as soon as he missed, he fell from the bed to the ground with a "bang".

Before falling unconscious, a wave of fear suddenly rose in He Yuan's heart.

I...... No...... That's it...... Dead......

......

Tang Duoduo had a very unsteady life today.

She always habitually looked out, for fear that one would not pay attention, and in a blink of an eye, she found that those disgusted faces appeared outside the classroom window.

Some of the parents of the students chased them to the classroom, beat and scolded the students in front of all the students, and shouted "Why did I give birth to such a bastard as you", and the teacher couldn't stop him, and the scene was very ugly for a while.

Later, there was gossip circulating in the school, saying that the student seemed to be in love, and was caught by the other party's parents, and sent the news to her parents, and then her father didn't care whether she was in class or not, and ran over directly......

Thinking that that group of people might chase after the school and make a lot of noise in front of everyone, Tang Duoduo was in a trance. She was desperately thinking about what she would do if she encountered this kind of thing, whether to fight them directly, or leave the school first......

After thinking about it for a long time, I kept thinking about getting out of school, but Tang Duoduo still didn't come up with it.

It wasn't until the bell rang for school and the big fat them appeared in Tang Duoduo's classroom that she sighed, packed up her things, and left with the big fat and them.

Since the last incident, because he was worried that he would be retaliated against by the other party, Tang Duoduo now goes to and from school every day with Big Fat and is protected by them.

But for some reason, Xiao Xiao hasn't looked for her. When she met her in the classroom, she didn't see Tang Duoduo and did her own thing.

This made Tang Duoduo feel a sigh of relief at the same time, but also a trace of loss.

The things that had always worried her before were suddenly resolved, making her feel very unaccustomed.

She originally thought that with Xiao Xiao's previous posture, the two of them would at least have a fish to die and the net would be broken, and you would die and I would die.

Sure enough, I still watched too much, and my brain was a little funny.

Tang Duoduo hid his thoughts, didn't care about other classmates, and walked out of the classroom directly.

Although Xiao Xiao was solved, her popularity in the class did not improve because of this. On the contrary, because he mixed with a few "bad students" who were fat, he was hostile to many people.

The turf consciousness in the school is also quite serious, Tang Duoduo "hooked up" with students in other classes, in their eyes, it is similar to a rebellion.

But Tang Duoduo didn't care, anyway, her relationship with other classmates was not very good.

Apart from......

Ay.

The more I think about it, the more headaches I get.

Tang Duoduo followed the big fat and them all the way to the school gate.

Along the way, Big Fat and they chatted there, basically all kinds of games, heroes, ah, and so on. Tang Duoduo's left ear goes in and his right ear goes out.

Anyway, she can't understand it, not to mention that she is not interested in these things, and always thinks that boys who talk about games are particularly naïve.

When she arrived at the school gate, Tang Duoduo was suddenly worried that the group of people would block her at the school gate. So she deliberately paid attention to them for a while, feeling that there was no figure around her, so she said goodbye to the big fat and quickly got on the bus across the street.

She felt that there were too many people walking through the front door, and if she didn't pay attention next time, it would be bad if she was caught by them. In this way, next time, just go through the back door, there are few people there, and if there are people, you can find it in time.

Tang Duoduo thought so, took the bus, and swayed all the way home.

Because it was the starting station, Tang Duoduo still got a seat and didn't need to stand on the bus. It doesn't matter if you stand all the way, but having a seat is the best.

After getting out of the car, Tang Duoduo carried his schoolbag and deliberately made a circle, avoiding his grandfather's old mansion and returning to He Yuan's house.

She was really afraid that she would encounter those helplessness like before.

Facing that group of white-eyed wolves, Tang Duoduo had to admit that he really had no choice. Just like He Yuan said, this kind of thing, just leave it to him, don't get involved in it.

When she came back, it was already dark, and Tang Duoduo glanced at the house, which was pitch black and did not turn on the lights.

You haven't come back yet, have you?

I remember that He Yuan said in the morning that he seemed to be going to a wedding, and he didn't know when he would come back. I remember that weddings usually have lunch and dinner, maybe he is having dinner there now.

Tang Duoduo thought to himself, and took off his shoes and entered the house.

I don't know why, as soon as I saw this room, Tang Duoduo felt at ease.

It is as if a wandering man has suddenly returned home, and a ship wandering outside has suddenly found a haven from the wind.

Tang Duoduo has always felt that she is a very strong person, she can rely on herself, unlike other girls, who need to rely on other men.

After experiencing his father's incident, Tang Duoduo felt that there was no man in this world who could be relied on, and the only grandfather who could be relied on had already left.

Thinking of his grandfather, Tang Duoduo suddenly felt a little depressed. Fortunately, it was only a moment, and Tang Duoduo recovered quickly.

To be honest, sometimes Tang Duoduo feels that she is not cold-blooded, obviously her grandfather is gone, but she only cried once, and since then, Tang Duoduo has never cried again.

Sometimes she also feels that she is very sad and panicked, but no matter what, even if the tears have gathered in her eyes, she just can't cry.

She felt sick with her, a disease called cold-blooded.

After putting the schoolbag away, Tang Duoduo didn't go upstairs, and after tying his apron, he was ready to wash vegetables and cook.

Although He Yuan is also good at cooking, and he didn't let Tang Duoduo do these things. But Tang Duoduo always felt that she had to find something to do, otherwise she would feel uncomfortable.

After taking out the frozen meat in the refrigerator, Tang Duoduo put the meat on the cutting board to thaw it.

Then she found some seasonal vegetables from the refrigerator and took out two potatoes and a white radish from the kitchen floor...... He Yuan may not come back today, Tang Duoduo is going to make it simpler, fry shredded potatoes, and then cook bacon with white radish, just eat it simply.

She actually doesn't have much of a ** for things outside her body, when she is alone, she eats very simple - when she used to stay at a relative's house, she often couldn't eat when she went home, Tang Duoduo prepared bread and steamed buns, and gnawed there by herself.

Compared with the previous days, Tang Duoduo is much happier now.

After steaming the rice, washing the bacon, and cooking it with the radish, Tang Duoduo felt that he still had to send a message to He Yuan, asking him if he wanted to come back for dinner, what if he wanted to come back?

However, the mobile phone was placed in the schoolbag, and Tang Duoduo had to go to the living room to pick up the mobile phone.

When he took the mobile phone, Tang Duoduo suddenly found that the door of He Yuan's house was open.

In the past, when He Yuan went out, he would close the door of his room to prevent the little guy from running in and peeing in his quilt.

I don't know why, but today he didn't close.

Maybe I forgot.

Tang Duoduo thought so in his heart, stepped forward, and prepared to close the door.

Standing at the door, Tang Duoduo glanced inside casually, and suddenly found that at the foot of the bed, there was a figure lying down!