This semester has an early vacation, some students have planned a way out, after the exam, the students fly like birds, I am thinking about where to go, I accidentally heard that Li Qing wants to go to Beijing, is worried about no companion, I remembered the words invited by Wan Jie before, going to Beijing can be regarded as a wish, I immediately reported to Wan Jie the date.

The two of them sat opposite each other by the window on the train, I wanted to hear her talk about He Ziming, but she didn't seem to be interested, I was also ashamed to speak, from her I learned about the girls' extracurricular life, she said a lot, eating snacks, sleeping, shopping or something, I also knew that it was a kind of girl! If she didn't want to talk, then I could only enjoy the scenery outside the window, the mountains were dotted with scattered villages, and the crops on the slopes were neat and orderly,......。 Mountains are coming, the sound in the carriage is getting smaller and smaller, and people seem to be shocked by the mountains, changing the noise when they first get on the train. It wasn't until a train attendant came over to sell a product that it became lively, Li Qing had just eaten a boxed lunch, and now he is half asleep and in a bad state, and when he squinted, his sitting body was also straight, and there was no tendency to fall in either direction. The train drove into the open plain, I observed the passengers around me, listened to their conversations, between doing business, visiting relatives, there were travelers, the few people next to them were talking about the urban style of Shanghai and Chengdu, Chengdu's modernization is also slightly low-key, not as fast as Shanghai, in the place where the basin consciousness is very strong, people like to be content and happy, and there is no quarrel with the world, the contradictions of all modern people seem to be between these two cities, there is a sense of crisis in Shanghai, people must work hard for the future all the time, they are also likely to win a comfortable life, and Chengdu is more realistic, living in the present, ordinary people are not uncommon Shanghai big guy life。 The sky in the north is getting brighter and brighter, and I see the farmers working hard in the fields here in my hometown, and I also think that my home is not far away. Since the train crossed the Yellow River, it seems that the capital is already close at hand.

On the opposite side of Zhang, a young man began to talk eloquently, and there was a soldier next to him who was still expressionless, and sometimes his eyes were still staring at the young man. He said a lot of things, and an old man on the other side also listened with a smile, and interjected a sentence in the middle, and asked the young man where his house was, and he said the name of the county, and he didn't know which city his county was under his jurisdiction, so I knew that people just listened in agreement, but it was better than being dull.

In the evening, the passengers ate one after another, and I just took out a bottle of water from my bag and drank a few sips, I was used to not eating or sleeping on the train. The old man on the other side is also a little special, with a boxed lunch and white wine.

After a while, the shouting began to start again, and Brother Bing asked me to guess the age of the old man.

"I can't guess, I haven't had that kind of vision!" I saw that his thinning hair was combed back shinyly, it must have been dyed, and I thought of a few old men in the village.

"It's okay, guess what. ”

"Less than sixty!" I was on the safe side.

The old man smiled, said in the Sichuan dialect: "It's less than eighty" and used his fingers to draw numbers, very bold.

"I really didn't expect it, I thought it was an uncle, but now it's an uncle. ”

At this time, the train passed through a big city, and there was an advertisement on the radio introducing the local area, where there was a battle during the Liberation War, and this man was so strong that I thought of the word Long March. They continued to talk. By the way, I learned about the situation of this old man, who has three children who are all working in government agencies, all of whom are about to retire, and several grandchildren who have settled in different cities. When the child is older and has his own ideas, that is the most important thing. The old man has traveled almost all over the country, and the last week has been in Zhangjiajie. The old man was very talkative, and we talked from time to time with laughter, which was the most lively part of the carriage. After two more stops, he was about to get off the train, an ancient city that I happened to know a little bit about, so I talked to him about how the city has changed in the past few decades. He also likes to read some books on history and geography, and he also talked about interesting stories from the past few years, and the people around him laughed along, which was very lively. Because he was in high spirits, emotional, and easy to think of many things, this journey was destined to be unforgettable. When a person next to him said that a famous artist died in his hometown the day before yesterday, the old man said calmly, "People always die, and that master died the day after returning to his hometown." It was a little deep, and everyone was silent for a while.

The train started to slow down, I stood up and helped the old man remove his luggage from the height, a big travel bag, the old man jokingly invited me to his house for a while, I said, "Okay, I'll tell the driver to wait a while." "Hahaha".

Thinking of what I said just now, with the child's display culture, or with the old man's nature, I was a little proud, saying that as long as the health is good, it is good to be a long-lived person, and you can run around the world, I asked Li Qing how old she wanted to live, but she said that she didn't want to live that long, and said that she didn't have the desire to live after the age of 60, and said that she wanted to be stable in her hometown, and I suddenly felt very disappointed.

At the entrance of the station, two people waited to see who would come first. A car pulled up next to me, and when the driver rolled down the window and took off his sunglasses, I could see Wan Jie's face clearly. He also misunderstood at first, but I immediately explained to him that Li Qing and I were just classmates. After a few simple greetings, they didn't separate until Li Qing's sister came. Wan Jie said that your relationship is not ordinary, I said that you are a good mix, he said that this car is borrowed from a friend. I was also very excited, I took a shower, I couldn't sleep at all after eating, Wan Jie took me out and went around along a short section of elevated road, which was kind of enjoying the view of the city.

He led him into his quarters, in a house on the side of the road near a village near the Fifth Ring Road, where two people could only squeeze into a bed, with a rope tied parallel to the wall on the bed, and a small plastic fan hung on it, and the man sat up and almost wiped his hair. The ride was really tiring, but the sleepiness was not as exciting as the excitement of our meeting, and in the evening we talked about the interesting stories of our childhood, until we fell asleep in a daze.

The next day, I said I wanted to buy a used bike and run around looking for some work. Wan Jie disagreed, he said that it is difficult to find a job in Beijing, and it is even more difficult to work as a temporary worker, so let me play here for a few days first, and then see if I will go home or go back to school. I was still asking him, saying that I had an idea when I came, to exercise myself here, and when he said that he was afraid that I would not be able to endure hardship, I said that I was not as he imagined, I used to think about social things when I was in school, no matter what, I wanted to experience it, I could do anything, and I didn't want him to destroy my ambition.

"Beijing is not easy to mix, it is all cities, and it is different from our hometown county, and it costs several yuan to go out and take the bus. There are too many outsiders, and there are people to do inconspicuous work, and many industries are divided into low and peak seasons, and temporary workers are justified. When I first arrived, I came across a pyramid scheme and was cheated of money. I now deliver to a furniture factory, have one day off a week, and work part-time, which is to go to school, to be a model, and you can also go and see it. ”

At first, I thought that I was still walking on the stage in bright clothes, the camera on the side clicked, taking pictures, thinking that I was not in good shape, and my face was not good, my cousin gave me an address, and a teacher's name and contact information, and the person said Have you eaten? Let's put it this way, you go with me for a long time, at least you have a meal, I was still a little skeptical, I took the bus to the art school, and a teacher received me.

Went one day and I didn't want to do this job. When he asked me about my goals, I said very little, saying that according to what I learned in school, I would be a skilled worker in society in the future. I insisted on learning some technology, he said that he was actually quite optimistic about this industry, and wanted to accumulate some contacts, and find someone to do this in the future. My cousin said that he knew a fellow who was a car mechanic, and that I could go to the special repair shop to help, but at first I didn't want the manager to know that I was only working for a month. So in this way, I went to the vicinity of the place called Sanyuanqiao in Beijing to do a car washing job, and I also thought about it, it doesn't matter if I am tired and tired, I just hope that my bones will become strong and my face will become mature.

It's not very tiring to work here, in that month, I basically didn't go out of the door of the big yard, as if isolated from the world, I didn't even make a phone call, people ate and lived, the person who cooked was specially invited, and it was very simple to fall asleep on a hot day, just spread a mat on the ground. There is a fan next to it, it has been very close, it is still too hot, the most uncomfortable mosquito bites, the ears are always buzzing, they often come up to set near, my arms, face is the most vulnerable to attack, sometimes I touch the place with my hands, I can touch the mosquito, as soon as the fingers touch, this little thing will die, and then a few of my skin will immediately appear small red bumps. But who is to blame for the dead mosquitoes? Will their companions see and hear me? Will they not dare to offend me, or will they come up in droves to besiege me and avenge their kindred? Perhaps the mosquitoes that have been touched by my hand have only been injured and are now crawling, which can be regarded as their own punishment...... Every night I fell asleep in these thoughts.

I also knew that I had nothing to be proud of, and that the other workers lived the same life as me. Only that fellow knew that I was a recent graduate, and he promised me not to mention that I was only working here for a short time. When I first came, he said to me that it is necessary to realize that reading is only a shortcut, and it is necessary for children who go to school to suffer a little, and a truly talented person can reflect his own value no matter what line of work he is in. His words were correct, and I did my best there, and I was affirmed by everyone, until finally they knew that I didn't want to learn this business, and when the boss refused to let me go that day, it was those good Samaritans who interceded with the boss, and I was paid all the money when I said goodbye.

Wan Jie said that it is not easy to lie down in Beijing, and you can go and play for a few days. The first choice of attractions in Beijing is the Forbidden City, in the hot day or full of tourists, I went in early and left late, spent a day, visited the monuments, still not full of fun, I want to choose an off-season to taste again. The next day I went to the Great Hall of the People to listen to a concert, and the experience was also unforgettable, but then Wan Jie said that I was full.

Everyone who has been to Beijing and Tiananmen Square should remember Chairman Mao's great achievements and the great contributions made by the leader to mankind. In the wee hours of the morning, a crowd gathered in the square, and many people stayed all night to occupy a favorable position.

One night, Wan Jie and I walked around the high walls of the Forbidden City, the mist was gently shrouded, the water of the moat was quiet, we seemed to be traveling through history, and we felt that it was better to wander at night than during the day. Under the most exquisite corner tower, we talked about a little ideal, he said that when he was fine, he also liked to read some books, and said what he said, "Gou Fugui, don't forget each other." "The dynasty is Tian Shelang, and the twilight is in the Tianzi Hall. "I think it's fitting to talk about it at the foot of the Imperial City! There was a lot of talk, and it was all about looking forward to the future. At the same time, I thought to myself, I hope so, the future is unknowable.

"But you were so stupid last time, you went to a concert! Spend money on this, what is so beautiful about those stars, isn't it just a person? What is the difference between it and us ordinary people?"

"You're right, but when I went to see it, I realized that it was more of a spiritual pillar for me, and first of all, that visual feast was one of my life goals. I was also thinking about why she had such a charm that captivated the country and the city, attracting a group of good men and women under the stage to cheer enthusiastically, of course we know that hardship, setbacks, and ups and downs are one thing. ”

I asked about Li Qing's situation and boasted that I had gone to the Great Hall of the People to see a concert. Li Qing said that she originally thought that there were many jobs here, such as working in fast food restaurants or promoting promotions in shopping malls, but there were too many college students in the capital, and short-term jobs had already been booked, and students from other places were not allowed to intervene. I said I made a little money and wanted to ask her out to play, she said it was too hot in the summer and I didn't want to go out, and I felt like my tone was going to change, so I hung up.

I said goodbye to Wan Jie and said that I wanted to go home, but he said that he didn't mix well, he didn't have the face to go back, and he didn't have anything to do, so he let me go alone. I thought to myself that I was still older than him, and I couldn't achieve anything, and going to school was really a fig leaf.

Maybe in the eyes of others, how beautiful I should be, I came back from studying abroad and came back, and I was different from those ordinary migrant workers, but who knows how I felt in my heart? I have been away alone for many years, and my life is not satisfactory, and I have hidden a lot of things from them. My appearance is not so dignified, and I have not created wealth for my family, which is real. I didn't go all the way with my knowledge, I remember the landscape near the school the most, I just don't like to be complacent about my skills, but I didn't think about how long it would take to prepare. I am still unknown, and now I am smiling and grinning when I deal with the villagers, others cannot judge, and life is the same for me, it does not tell me what the rules of this life movement are, but is just waiting for me to experience and ponder when I am immature.

Thinking of the sentence in Russell's "Why I Was Born", it turns out that my life has been related to this all these years. I went through my middle school textbook again, and finally found the article, and I vaguely remembered the first time I read it in the classroom. I don't have a weekly diary in the pile as a text, it can be called my debut novel, the reader of this small book is just myself, some of the sentences are not bad, they are created in a specific environment, I am a little proud, but more ashamed, because there are so many words that are repeated, I am so weak. Those scenes are vivid, there have been many strange thoughts, and even written prayers that everything will not go too smoothly! The teacher has reviewed it, but he must have forgotten it, and his parents will definitely not take it to heart. I read it twice, and after a while, I felt that my purpose had been achieved, so I tore it to shreds.

Due to the low terrain of the wing room at home, the ground is damp all year round, I just put a big wooden board under the bed, and put the books neatly on several floors, and the children and parents in the village often come to borrow books, but in fact they will not return them, which is also a virtue! Now the bottom two floors of these books are almost soaked, because the neighbors have raised the foundation when building the house, and now the ground in my house is often ebbed. Mother said that if you don't go to school, our family can also renovate the house, and the neighbors said that this baby will definitely not stay in our poor place in the future, if they praised me when I was a child, I didn't know what it was like to be young, and now the mystery of my future is being revealed layer by layer, can it really be as I wish? I feel very sad. Now the old room is no longer suitable for books, the humidity is too heavy, when I tidy up the books under the bed, I left a few more important books, and threw the others to the stove.

My mother scolded those who could sell waste paper, but my father said that it couldn't be disposed of as waste paper, which cost a lot of money.

"But we can't put books in our house anymore, these books are useless. I said calmly, but my mother still sighed.

I know what my parents are thinking at the moment, there are few young people in the village now, they all go out to work to earn money, the old parents take care of their grandchildren, and the people in the village also say that I must have a good job when I go to school, and I will definitely talk about my girlfriend, in fact, these are all flattering words, so that my parents are relieved, and the expectations of parents for their children are not easy to express, looking at their anxious eyes, my heart is also being punished. I have decided that in two days, I will go back to school and participate in the unified job fair to plan my future life.

I went to visit my grandmother. This is indispensable, this time my grandmother was chatting with others in the house, and I stood at the door and saw Tingting, who had grown up as a mother.

The sun was shining, and it was Tingting's uncle's house over there, and many people were sitting in front of the courtyard. Tingting was wearing a red coat with long hair draped over it. She bent over at the moment, supported the little girl in her arms to stand, and laughed with the uncles and aunts next to her, the little girl should not be able to speak yet, and the elders were playing. At this time, a young man came slowly on a motorcycle, because there was a corner there, and the horn sounded first, and then slowly stopped. He first stood on the ground with one foot, took off his helmet and put it on the handlebars, and walked over after parking the car. An old man called out the little girl's name and pointed to the other side, "Who do you see that?" The little girl struggled to break free from her mother's embrace and ran towards her father. "Hee-hee-ha-ha, XX, what kind of wine did the elder give to your father-in-law?"

The young man was short-haired, chubby, wearing black leather shoes, yellow leather coat, and he had a smile on his face, which I knew was a good husband in the eyes of the villagers. Looking back, I also looked at myself, gray-black jeans, sneakers, thin body, and those eyes full of envy that no one noticed. Maybe I'm healthier than him, at least not with a fat belly like him, and I think he's a shopkeeper at best. Tingting is very mature, and others praise her for her good looks, because this is in the countryside, and that kind of beauty also has a simple beauty, which can be heard from her speech and laughter, which is different from the girls I saw on campus. She could be more beautiful, and if she was to show some charm, how could a rural person understand that? Of course I don't know what it was like for her to be with her man. I was also thinking that Tingting disappeared from school that year, maybe she transferred to another school or dropped out of school to work, but she definitely got married within a few years, which is the most common thing in her hometown. It's been ten years, ten years, and because I saw her, I once again felt the rush of time. In the best decade of my life, I didn't include the ...... love.

No matter what I think, Tingting is very happy now, but my love is just a fantasy, which is really my sadness alone. Youth without love is boring, but I just don't like to talk, I think that love doesn't need to be spoken, and the love pursued is probably not true love, I never thought that one day my life would be like this, if I didn't go to school at that time, and I got married, what would the world be like now? Maybe I was really not satisfied, God didn't stop me, I was reckless at this point, I didn't pass enough hurdles to make me an adult, time has passed, will my grandmother still see me as a child? She also knows that she probably won't see my life in the future. So should I have hope for the future? I have had a love life before, as long as I can grasp the opportunity to be happy in the future.......

At this time, I heard my grandmother call my name, and I immediately went into the house, afraid that if I shouted again, the group on the other side would notice me. My grandmother's voice was not as high as before, and she pressed her shriveled hands on the bed and asked me what I was looking at outside, and I said nothing and stopped talking. There was also an old man in the house, talking about her grandson, who was shy and obedient, "It's not small, I remember who is the same age." "I heard that their family has opened a hotel. "What kind of hotel? It's a small liquor shop. "To put it bluntly, I thought it was a few stars," I muttered. Grandma was glad to hear this. I did save her a lot of heart when I was a child, she wasn't naughty at all, she wasn't naughty, and now that I'm older, she blames me for not being neat and generous enough, and I think she prefers me when she was a child. The old man has experienced the old and the new, and has his own unique set of fatalism, and the old man earnestly hopes to see me marry a daughter-in-law and see life continue. I knew that this was the only wish, and that I might not see her next year, and that she was going to get close to the gods. And I explained to her that nothing else was useful, saying that I was in school, saying that I didn't have it now, and that it would be good in the future. It was the first time I had seen a person on the verge of life and death, and her words were wordy, but they were serious, because what else could I do to make up for it? I am spending more time with the old man, in fact, even if I accompany her through the last road of life, it will not be difficult.

My grandmother urged me to go back or stay here. In fact, it is not dark yet, so there is no hurry.

"This kid is so tough, he hasn't changed at all. ”

The next day I went to visit a middle school friend, who had just gotten married, and I couldn't attend his wedding, so I asked my mother how much the bride price would be handed out in my village, and I had prepared a little more. He called before and said he wanted to meet, but he couldn't leave the store at home. I had to walk to the town to take the car, I really haven't really experienced walking for a long time, and it takes more than an hour to walk for more than ten miles, which has never been easier and more enjoyable. The snow that had fallen a few days ago had almost melted, and the water was flowing low, leaving only the wet land. And this makes it easier for me to feel the smell of before, the green wheat seedlings on the roadside have been moistened and look stronger, and the wind blows gently and swaying, I look at it with a smile, and they seem to be nodding and smiling. Not far from the road is the alluvial valley of a river. Brave farmers in the vicinity have begun to dig sand and sell it for money, and fish ponds have been built on it, and it seems that people have learned how to develop it. Rural life is getting better and better, building a house requires a lot of raw materials, sand is an important one, and eating fish has become unfresh. Many tall poplar trees stand upright, only black dead branches, the weeds on the side of the road are also dried and just lit by some naughty children, all of them have burned black pieces, I also remember to do these interesting things with my partners before, we call it "pulling wilderness", looking at the flames running up, listening to the sound of sizzling, especially excited, heating is not the purpose, if a person does these things it is really not interesting......

I wanted to go down and sit by the water and listen to the sound of the water, but now this time is very precious, because I don't want to go again, for this nature is as important as my date. But I think of my lovely classmates, his urging, my credibility, hey, let's go and meet my classmates first! So I stopped stopping and took a detour, and his family received me very warmly, including his sister and father.

"I've eaten fat, why are you still the same?"

"I also have meat on my stomach, but I wear less, haha, besides, I don't like to be fat, I'm afraid of heat in summer and cold in winter,"

After a few simple cold words, life is back to reality.

After eating a bowl of rice, my little sister walked in from outside, asked me if I was enough, and said that you are welcome, and she would serve me rice. She was so diligent and I felt pampered. Maybe his sister didn't usually see her brother so happy, so she had a good impression of me.

The four of us went to a nearby amusement park. I didn't expect there to be quite a lot of people. At first, the four of us could still walk together, and of course it was Peng Zukang who took the lead, and it was obvious that he had begun to pay less attention to me and Xiaomei, who was ghostly and quietly pulled me aside. Asked if I had a girlfriend, she said that she went on a blind date by herself, but she didn't like it, and said that she also wanted to find someone as literate as me. I was ashamed to hear it.

Quite a few motorcycles have been parked here. Facing is a large square, which is quite magnificent, and here are all young people, just a few days after they got married, they are all walking hand in hand, in my opinion, they are all full of childish faces, I can see that they are at most as old as the two of us. My little sister wore a purple short-sleeved shirt and white flat shoes, both of which were my favorite colors, but I didn't have a chance to hold her hand, I had no reason, I didn't have the courage, and if I were someone else, I would seize this opportunity very well. She stopped talking, walked with her head down, I also thought a lot, I didn't want to be so silent, just find something to say, when I was with Peng Xiaomei, of course I knew that it was fate, I really wanted to copy a little poem to her, and even that scene allowed me to hug her into my arms, but I didn't do that, don't think about it, it's still gray-haired, and the misunderstanding of the text is not shallow. A sign was erected in the square, "Slide carefully". She read this prompt and told me that there are many occasions with such prompts, but there are still people, especially foreigners, who will not understand it, and once a foreigner was slowly moving in the hall, and someone asked him what he was doing, and he pointed to this sign.

After saying that, she smiled, I don't think I should suppress myself, I don't allow a bad mood, I have to learn to be generous, as long as she likes it. I want to bring the child in my heart to the surface. So I consulted with her to see who would skate, and this time she wouldn't let me go, and pushed me, thinking that I was also lively, and didn't even think of me as an adult, so I had to obey her.

I ran a few steps, stopped suddenly, put my weight on my feet, and tried to use inertia to slide forward for a distance and show her, but the snow and water here were not good, and both feet only moved one foot forward.

"It doesn't work," I said, shaking my head, spreading my hands out and looking helpless, "I've disappointed you." ”

"I didn't expect you to be so slippery. ”

"Hehe! Besides, you also know the breadth and profundity of our Chinese characters, we are a small place, and there are no foreigners, otherwise you would really see that scene. ”

The glass door of that shop still had four words "imported food" pasted on it, which was ridiculous, wasn't that nonsense? I amused her again. She put a bunch of twist flowers on my table: "Give it to you", I was grateful, I didn't know what to say, "Thank you, you're so good", she said, "I'm not bad". Very playful.

This time with Peng Xiaomei, I didn't take risks, she was innocent and lively, as if she was deliberately trying to make me happy, I didn't disappoint her, and laughed many times, of course I heard it, so I also told her about the humor of Chinese characters, she shouldn't have heard it either. "Oh, that's right!" we laughed and walked up the hill, and I was happy to see her, but I kept guessing how deep her joy was, and she said a lot, even chattering, but it didn't matter to me at most.

She is two years younger than my brother, she must have just turned twenty, if that is the case, I can make up for the first few years, does this count as love? is my delusion, she is too naïve, if it were a strange woman, it would be easier for me to capture her, I often fall into such a predicament, I can't meet my peers, they are all big sisters and little sisters, how do they think of my life? Every time I leave a place, I am in a hurry, this time too, where can I meet it? Why can't she be like Tingting, whether her family is in charge, or driven by her own temperament, to experience the life she deserves as early as possible. It took courage to fall in love with her, but it turned into silence, and I immediately apologized that it had happened more than once that I had never said anything, and I guessed and could sense that they were increasing their affection for me, but as soon as I took the risk, the relationship was ruined, and I didn't know what to do next. Who can know my usual thoughts? The four words stick to reality----- "what can be". There was no agreed meeting, so that I suppressed the excitement, pretending to be flat, and she did not see my sincerity as destined at all, so I thought that only do what I should do, so many years of shame at home to spend more time to compensate, for the outstanding girls I just carefully appreciate, meticulously accumulate their own little love life, this is the reason I found for myself. And they naturally have their own sufficient things to do, a normal person is going to get married, in this regard I am always not angry, because the work is not good, when outsiders say that I am a college student, I am ashamed, in vain, I really have no fate? A depressed person like me, a person who longs to call countless times, is full of feelings, only more sentimental, sighing helplessly, but my narcissism is more than inferiority. A person who lives with his heart is the richest person, and in the backward rural areas, there are also men and women who do not want to get married early, and at my age they are considered to be old, is there really a smart woman in the countryside? I don't believe it, at least I haven't met it now, such a person should have a temperament, and you can see from the eyes that are open and the words that come out of it whether they are mediocre or not, and I think that's the case.

Peng Xiaomei is very kind, she originally wanted to play the piano, but her hand was burned since she was a child, and she didn't have time to get medical treatment in the countryside in the early years, leaving a big scar on the back of her hand.

I think Peng Xiaomei is the only girl in the world who has loved me, or she doesn't know what love is, if age is the most important, it is at the age of ignorance, I told a joke, she will laugh, in a few years, there will be a different mood, not so pure. Hey, I've missed it, who can not be mature and not grow up, as if except for me. I'm still the same heart I used to be.

The next day I was about to leave home, and I had another insomnia, and for the first time in my life, a girl had a crush on me. The money I earned in Beijing, in addition to the travel expenses home, I paid a little for my grandmother, and I was going to go to a middle school classmate to hand over a wedding bride price, only I was left with the money to go back to school, the money was really difficult to save, I remembered what Wan Jie said, it is difficult to marry a daughter-in-law without money, and I also remembered how my parents made up the tuition fees for my school over the years, and the road should go by myself in the future. In the same class, I relaxed for a long time, I was shy and couldn't have feelings with Tingting, I wanted to go to school, and I fell in love with Li Qing when I went to school, and I returned to my village all of a sudden, and I didn't have the courage to propose to Peng Xiaomei's family, this is my fate.