My parents, my cousin all thought that going to school was a way to get ahead, and I chose to go to western Guizhou, I first thought that it was a mountainous area, as for the experience there, most of it was also my solitude, the knowledge I gained was also not in the classroom, I gained a friendship, although his personality is different from mine, two people can play together, it is also an arrangement of fate, his name is Ziming, the first to come to school, and I am the second. At the same time, I fell in love with a girl in my class, and this relationship was buried in my heart for many years, which was almost all I gained from college, but I didn't feel like I had wasted my studies.

University life is beautiful, but the classroom is boring, here the young teacher guided us to talk a lot about the process flow in the book, just like when I was a child and my friends kneading mud on the cement board, but now the module has become metal, and the books belong to those students who like to study, and I haven't read it too many times. I think there should be old professors in the university, and the old professors I see on TV are all kind, funny and humorous, and have a rich collection of books at home. But I don't dare to compliment the teachers here, in comparison, the mechanical course is more popular. The teachers are almost retirement age, and they are still energetic and quick. In addition to talking about professional knowledge in half a class, he talked about social knowledge to us, and gave some warnings to us young people, believing that these words were instructive. When he told us about the development of China's industry, the world pattern, and the humanity of the Chinese, he was most welcomed by us. He is also a veteran driver, telling us about traffic laws and operating procedures, and telling us about the performance of some brand cars. He wanted us to master more mechanical principles so that we could be handy on the road in the future, and finally he said: "You must also know that knowledge is not technology, and knowledge is not equal to experience, but don't laugh, knowledge has nothing to do with life." ”

I looked around, and few of his last words were listening seriously, and most of the students were talking about the strange things they encountered during the drive, but they didn't know what the problem was. There are a few students in the class who have just obtained their driver's licenses and rented cars to play in the suburbs. The teacher said that he had seen it all, and he would not warn him by name now, and gave several dangerous examples, traffic accidents that he had witnessed, and said that those people had a fluke mentality and played tricks. There are some moves that the students really didn't expect.

"I'm giving these negative examples, and some students don't think about learning another trick today." ”

The classroom was laughing and banging again. Ziming sat next to me, he was very nice, his family was superior, he grew up in the city, his parents were cadres of a large company, and he whispered to me that sometimes when I was driving on the road, I didn't know it and my speed became faster.

This friend of mine knows several crafts, but he is not proficient in all of them. For example, he knows how to get a haircut, and he went out for three months of training in middle school, and he bluntly said that his original intention was because the sound of scissors swishing in his ears was very pleasant. He still has a few scars on his legs, which he showed me, saying that he was a delinquent teenager in middle school, and that fights, drinking and gambling were common, and that his life was richer than the real me. He said that his mind was not all about his major when he was studying, and his family, especially his mother, insisted that he should apply for the civil service examination, and his mother was also a strong woman, and finally he said that he wanted me to participate in the registration together, and use his spare time to get a few more certificates, but I didn't have that idea, some knowledge was very boring, I was already tired of sitting in the examination room, and there was a real situation that I couldn't get the training fee, and if I had money, I also wanted to take the driver's license. Hey, save it for later. I think it's music that brings us closer at this time, he sometimes plays his beloved guitar in the dormitory, and he also teaches me, I used to know a little bit about rhythm and strings, so I have some basics, and I am improving quickly. I was also very happy to see him, and while he was playing, he was humming softly next to him. We all love the classic songs of the last era, some powerful singers, and some talented music producers. Every time I say those words, I feel that I have a new perspective on people and things. Music can soothe my soul, it can freeze a slice of my life, it can really be a permanent memory, and I know that some songs will become more melancholy after listening to them, but I still like that feeling, and even feel that I have become nobler. The music sounded again, and the previous picture was displayed in front of my eyes, flashing in front of me, it was a slowly sensible child, who was once the real me.

There was a girl in the class who caught my attention, her name was Li Qing, one Sunday morning, the sun was out of the sky in Guiyang, I went to the lecture hall to read, found a vacant seat in the back row and sat down, a few minutes later looked forward, a girl walked in from the front door, walked towards the back, and turned to the vacant seat next to me, her face was red and simple, looking left and right to find the position of the expression was written down by me, really beautiful and quiet, wearing a light red coat. It is a place for students to study freely, sometimes for meetings or activities, and students will come to review with their textbooks before exams. In the university exam, students don't care about high scores and rankings, long live passing, which is easy to do in middle school, but in a different environment, only a few students can still maintain that diligent style. I peeked at what she was reading at the time, a magazine about love.

Boyfriends and girlfriends are normal, everyone thinks it's a thing to do in their free time, but I want to find a partner for life. I have pessimism, I always think that happiness will not last long, others are just playing emotional games, if I can't accompany to the end, I think that one party has deceived the other. But I still admire their courage, that kind of love is natural and worth savoring, and I can't deny other people's ups and downs because of Gu Ying's self-pity. Sometimes I think of Li Qing, it's normal to have that kind of impulse, but I just can't help it, I don't think about whether she has a boyfriend or not, for me, it's like a fruit hanging seductively there, bringing me sweet torture.

No one knew that I had a crush on Li Qing. The only thing I could do was to go to the bookstore at the school gate and buy a magazine she had read, and I found that the content in it was very simple! Even like the essays I had written before, but now girls like Li Qing are reading them! I think that although I didn't have the guts to write my first love letter, I can write a love story now, even if the purpose of this incident has nothing to do with Li Qing, but the motive is because of her. I really came to the spirit, some sentences were immediately arranged together, I don't dare to judge more about love, it is the mental journey of a teenager for a period of time. I didn't know at the time that it was just some of my complaints in life, and anyone who took a little time and was willing to think about it for a while could do it. The magazine states that if it is not published within three issues, it means that it has not been selected. It was a weekly issue, so I waited a month and went to the bookstore every Monday morning to flip through the magazine, and it was a failure, but this failure was known only to me. If a classmate had brought me a letter with a smile, then my future outcome might have been different. At first, I was nervous, but in fact, the stone sank into the sea, and there was no wave at all.

I also know that there are many ways to have fun outside of class, such as watching a freshly copied TV series around the computer in the same dormitory, finding someone to play casual chess and cards, and if I actively participate on the court, they will not refuse. In addition, there are many Internet cafes, game halls, and billiard rooms around the school, but I have never had fun with these cost-on entertainments, except when I am not with Ziming, or when my eyes feel a little astringent in the reading room, I often walk alone to the hill near the school.

The second time I came, I had already found a good position, and the lake not far away was like a big mirror, and I stood for several minutes, what a wonderful moment. There was also a moment when I sat on a meadow and let the breeze blow gently, I could close my eyes and think about nothing, or I could think about it, which was a rare moment of relaxation. I felt so cool, and as I breathed my heart's content, I thought that I was in the mountains now, and I shouldn't have to think about those troubles, well, let it be! If I had attended another school, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to participate in this mountaineering activity, and I looked down on the city and somehow the word society came to mind. This is a suburb of a big city, very well developed, surrounded by mountains and rivers, mild climate, suitable for human habitation, has a considerable scale, and now this mountain is really the green lung of the city. In the distance, the "city wall" is faintly visible, which is supposed to be a tourist attraction built by the locals. I thought I would see more clearly as I got closer, so I moved closer to that side, but after a few steps, I found a place with water, which was really different. The grass and trees here are no different from those in my hometown, the frogs jumped to the ground, revealing two bead-like eyes, I vaguely remember that when I was a child, I went down to the ditch with my friends to catch them, and crabs, lobsters, yellow eels and the like, especially the yellow eels are still like water snakes, I remember that we used nets to catch some small fish and shrimp, and I was ashamed to remember Qingxi, yes, there was such a thing, and now that I have grown up, my courage has become smaller. My childhood may not have been very melancholy, it depends on the people I was with, and I always emphasized in my mind that I was a contradiction. On the other side of the lake stood a small elegant pavilion, and I walked towards it, and I was often greedy not to leave that view for later, but in fact, I stopped at every part of the hill many times in the days to come. I quickened my pace, and in a short time I was already sitting on the stone chair of the pavilion, and then I looked at the hall, the ceiling was carved with insect and bird patterns, but the paint of various colors was already dim, and when I looked down to guess its age, I casually saw that the side of the stone steps I had just walked was engraved with the date of construction, more than thirty years had passed, and it had existed in this world a few years before me. There was also a discarded newspaper next to it, dated today, and it seemed that someone had stopped here just now, maybe it was a like-minded classmate with me, but we didn't meet. Sometimes a few people pass me not far by, and they are generally not alone, and I think they would be startled if they saw me inadvertently, and they might comment on me when they walked away, thinking that the stranger was not in his right mind.

There is a local student in the dormitory who already knows everything about the place. Once, when someone asked him what else was more interesting in the neighborhood, he enthusiastically said that there would be a large temple fair nearby in the near future, and we could go and join in the fun.

This is a local traditional festival, plus family music, at this time Citi exhibition, crowded, bustling, some students sit down to drink tea and play cards in the middle of the mountain, Ziming is also inside, I wander around the periphery, in the lively place, all kinds of people will appear. There was a fortune teller who asked me if I wanted to look at the face, and I said no, and the gentleman went on to say that the young man was indecisive and wanted to count some luck. These words are very common, I think what is this, can't he see that I am just a student? Or am I now in a cloud of black smoke and miasma, if I want to calculate, it is better to calculate when I will be able to hand in the peach blossom luck, and I am skeptical about love, let alone fortune telling. If they can really budget for good luck, why should they fall into this situation. If a person can only see that I am single from my face, and say that my feelings are ups and downs, then it is called seeing through, and these people just ask about the birthday, and say a lot of things about the future that cannot be proven. If a person arrives in a strange city, he has to slowly become familiar with the things that already exist, what about life? Will the next step already be there? Einstein's theory of relativity, if there is matter faster than the speed of light, it will go back in time, scientists are discovering a substance, how long does it take for things on the earth to be reflected on another planet, people will see things that are not happening on the earth and will happen, this is to see someone fortune telling, contradicting himself, saying that you have a disaster, what to pay attention to one day, since you have known and avoided paying, then the calculation should be to avoid the past. It's not just the husband who pretends to be able to tell fortunes, but also the aunt, they don't get tired of it, they don't know it, they continue to harass passers-by, I look at the aunts who pick up garbage over there, they are hard-working, much more noble. Not far away, the fortune teller who refused just now chatted with a student couple for a long time, those are easy to deceive, as long as he says more good and obedient words, as long as people don't think it's a disappointment.

After a while, Ziming came out, and I told him the strange thing just now, saying that fortune-telling is really redundant, time will always slip away, and the wonder of life is waiting for us to experience. He said that he lost playing mahjong in it just now, and when he heard that he could calculate a hexagram for only a few dollars, he became interested. It just so happened that when he saw a fortune teller setting up a stall not far away, he pulled me over. He said a lot of things to the gentleman, including some family situations and his recent situation, and what worries he had in life, and I felt that the gentleman was talking nonsense, based on the other party's expression.

The gentleman said to Ziming: "You have a mole on your back, in the middle, you can let your friends see it." So he turned the back of his clothes over for me to see, and sure enough, there was a mole ....... Anyway, my friend was convinced by what the gentleman said, and his face turned a little red as he had always been talkative. Then the fortune teller pulled Ziming aside and whispered for a while. When he came over again, Ziming's face was solemn, as if he had changed people, maybe the fortune teller's words really spoke to his heart.

After leaving, Ziming said that this gentleman really has a set. "He said that our family had just experienced an unfortunate incident, which I thought was quite accurate, and he also said that my marriage should not be close to a place. ”

I said that everyone has some moles on their bodies, he said I don't know, people should have a kind of life, some things are arranged in the dark, such as you and me, who has thought about these words now?"

I didn't want to see him in that unnatural way, and I felt very uncomfortable, and said how can you start thinking about some nonsense like me, let's go that way, and I pointed in the direction with my finger.

"Yes, I don't care, since I want to go far, look at the river, the ups and downs extend to that distance, we will go along the river, and then walk back from the other side. ”

"Yes, I don't believe there won't be a bridge in between. ”

Although the mountain is not high, it is also a continuous layer, and it is the natural dividing line between the two regions, so I smiled and said that I had walked from where I had walked today. On the way, Ziming didn't talk or laugh too much, it seemed that he was still reminiscing about what the fortune teller said to him just now. On the other side of the mountain, in the middle of nowhere, there is a small temple, which looks solemn on the outside, but the people inside are not as deep as I imagined. The temple was almost abandoned, and from the inscriptions, it had been built less than ten years ago, and from the doorway there was a row of old ladies sitting inside, making some simple Buddhist goods by hand, and they also looked at us two young people with curiosity. At this time, I remembered that when I was a child, I went with my mother to worship Buddha and burn incense, but I didn't say it. Ziming didn't say much.

Along the way, I met some people planting seedlings, fishermen, chopping wood, and children carrying school bags home. Ziming said that he really envied the people who lived here, and said that next time he would bring fishing gear to fish, he finally smiled and talked about going to school when he was a child. It wasn't until I came to a suitable slope that I felt tired, so I lay down, and Ziming also pillowed my head with my hands and looked at the blue sky opposite.

"I feel that you are too melancholy, and you often wear blue clothes. ”

"Maybe, you like to wear white sneakers, white is inclusive, white is also a person's life, from birth to death, it is inevitably related to white. ”

"You're just a pessimistic person, don't think about it, get up and go, it's going to get dark later. ”

"Okay, that sentence just now was I remembered that you told your fortune today before I said to you, I saw an article in a magazine the day before yesterday that it was very well written, it has nothing to do with fate, I will push it to you when I go back. ”

He said yes, and casually said that the school has recently recruited a student union, and he likes to host the show, so he has gone to the school radio station to sign up, and said that according to my personality, I should also participate in some student clubs and activities.

We walked all the way to a small town before we finally came across a bridge. On this side is a highway built along the river, and the way home is much closer, but the person is already very tired, and it is far less comfortable than just stepping on the land. When I returned to the city, I was sweating, and on the road, a young foreign man rubbed shoulders, and the smell of perfume wafted by. I felt ashamed, Ziming said to go to the bathroom to wash together, I was a little hesitant or agreed, at the hot tub in the bathroom, I touched the water, it was a little hot, but I thought that my feet were acceptable, so I stepped in, there were two steps below, I didn't dare to go forward, Ziming was already lying in it and soaking comfortably.

"Just walk in, be bold, don't think about how hot it is, you see this steam is hot, don't think it exists. I listened, closed my eyes, walked two steps straight, and suddenly felt the temperature, not like just now, cowering like life, not daring to move forward. After a while he closed his eyes as if he was enjoying it, and I felt that my face was hot and I had some difficulty breathing, so I got out of the pool and began to take a shower, rubbing off a lot of ash, which was really embarrassing, I had not washed so thoroughly before.

We bought a boxed lunch when we left, and I also brought a bottle of wine with me to drink a little less when I went back, which I thought was a way to express our feelings. A few hundred meters away from home, the sky suddenly began to rain showers, but our mood seemed to be very good now, as soon as we looked at each other, we began to run back, in a hurry, I also fell, the rice spilled out of the box and spilled into the bag, fortunately the bottle of wine did not break. When we went upstairs, we were out of breath and had no appetite at all, and we stood side by side on the balcony, still loving the feeling of the wind blowing the rain on us. There were still some people downstairs running and shouting in the rain, very energetic, but how were they feeling? I had sweat, tears, and tears of excitement on my hot face right now.

I didn't join the literary club, but Ziming joined the radio club. In the morning, when it was his turn to be on duty, he would put some rock music or English motivational songs on the radio, and the morning music that belonged to others was light music, he said that many college students nowadays are too lazy to get up early to exercise, at this time I was already running on the playground, one morning I was sitting on a bench by the basketball court listening, after a few songs, he said that the next is to read an essay for everyone. Hey, why is the beginning so familiar? Listen to a few more sentences, it turns out that the article I recommended him a few days ago. Now he has the opportunity to make it public to his classmates.

At lunchtime, we said that he spoke Mandarin well. Ziming said that he didn't know how many people were listening.

He said something inexplicable to me: "It's easy to be with you, you talk very casually, you don't have to ,...... like coaxing girls to say anything"

"What do you mean?"

Seeing that I was a little angry, he stopped talking.

After Ziming hosted a program on the school radio station, he really gained some popularity, made more friends, and there was no shortage of girls in it, and there were several girls who had a good impression of him and wanted to pursue him! I think it's not just that I'm afraid of loneliness, but that other people fall in love because of loneliness. Ziming also understands this truth, one day he said to me, "Actually, I tell you the truth, I have a girlfriend and study in Sichuan, so I just play with these girls, and sometimes it's also very troublesome, I still envy you, you are always a dragon who doesn't see the end of the dragon, and often disappears." "I know that he has many girls around him, including Li Qing, and I don't understand their relationship.

What can I say to him, the long period of repression has made it even more difficult for me to speak. I'm still thinking, fate is really a joke, Li Qing fell in love with my friend, is this the punishment I hesitated to receive? I never dared to pursue love, even if Ziming could help me, make her understand me and accept me, but I decided that it would not succeed, it was better to end up like this.

In a store, he took a fancy to a suit. I had to ask me to buy a set too, saying that when I work or get married in the future, I must wear a more formal one, I picked a cheaper bag to wrap up, he refused to take it off again when he put it on, and after coming out of the mall, he had to take a picture with me on a whim, I was twisting and pinching. When I got back, he showed me some thick photo albums, and the young man used to be very dashing, and I thought to myself, why bother looking at the pictures? He said that the expression on my photos was very unnatural, and I didn't think the photos were worth looking at.

The clothes are a little bigger, I only wore them once, probably at that time I thought that it would shrink after washing it or something, until now, that dress is still quietly hanging in my closet, I have always regretted that it is better to buy shoes and shoes, I should treat my feet if I like to walk, and the day of that photo, it has become an important memory for me.

After spending the money, I was shy in my pocket, and for a while I avoided Ziming and some other students to work and study together, and I was sent to do some housekeeping in a group of two. During this period, I also saw a few noble ladies, cold as ice, who never smiled during the half day I served her family, and I was also shy. The student I was with didn't care, he was very aggressive, but when he came back to school, he told me that he didn't want anyone to know that he had been there. "Do you think I'm the kind of talkative person, and what does it matter if I know?" he really thought it was a shame to let people know about this experience, I didn't think so. The second time I was with another classmate, we were given the task of doing interior decoration in a small shop. The owner is a kind aunt, but I think the more important thing about her is that she is shrewd, and maybe the businessmen do! In the process of work, she quietly found me, stuffed me with a pair of exquisite small bracelets, said that I was practical and diligent, said that she didn't know that we were students at first, and that few students can endure this hardship now, and told me not to let another classmate know. Actually, I know I'm not special, we do the same job, she may have said that to that classmate, and she also gave things. She must have wanted us to work harder and more attentively. Actually, it's just a little bit of effort, I don't feel tired, this experience is still very fresh and unforgettable!

That trinket, which was in my drawer, was also very special as a gift, and it was not very easy to buy. Once Ziming saw it by accident, so he took it in his hand to play, and said a little trickyly: "Give it to me!"

I pretended to be helpless: "If you don't give it to me, what can I do?"

One day I woke up early, when I washed my face, I simply washed my hair with cold water, I simply got up and rinsed it with cold water, and I looked more energetic, and then I quickly ran to the playground to run, and found Zixin on the way, she was not wearing a coat, wearing braids, she was not beautiful, but her personality was lively, at that moment I suddenly felt that she still had a certain temperament, but it had not been noticed by many people. Sports often give people confidence, and this was almost the first time I had met a girl who spoke and called me by name.

Her permed hair, which I thought would be unapproachable in normal times, was now right in front of me, and the attraction of the voice was even more intimate. She's not particularly pretty, so I dare to look at it, and of course she doesn't know what I think.

"How many laps have you run, and you're sweating so much?" she probably saw that my hair was wet. "No, I got up in the morning and washed my hair with water. "With cold water, aren't you cold?" "It's not cold, I feel just right." "That's not good, your head hurts." ”

I admit that I was showing off my good health, she reminded me, cared about me, I felt warm in my heart, and while jogging, I couldn't stop showing off. "Everyone else is still sleeping, I woke up early and washed my clothes. ”

"Yes, you boys do the laundry. I've heard that some boys wash clothes and step on them with their feet, is it true?" "I've heard of it, but I've never seen it, there are a few boys who are patient to wash clothes, and they soak for a long time, and it's good to soak and clear it." The laundry detergent is fully automatic, which should mean it, and so do I, but once unfortunately, the basin cracked a small crack that I couldn't notice, and when I found it the next day, the clothes were dry. Hahaha. ”......。

With a very relaxed conversation, I slowed down to catch up with her. After a lap, another girl in the class called her away, and we said goodbye and said we would come back tomorrow. I took a deep breath and stared at her back, and I sighed what a good girl. This morning, I was more tired than I usually trained. Just now I tried to talk to her as if nothing happened, now I can't be so calm, even if it's my fault that I have a crush on her, but I live a careful life, and I feel a certain fear when she asks me that just now.

Li Qing is wearing a small bell in his hand, why am I not as good as Ziming, I am a poor boy, I feel really uncomfortable.

When Ziming celebrated his birthday, that night, Zixin was busy cooking a lot of delicious dishes, and when I was cutting the cake, I also played crazy with them, and after about half an hour, I stopped, drinking and watching TV, and the two of them were still crazy! I think even if I can't play crazy with them sometimes, I share a lot of happiness, and I am grateful for it. Sometimes I have a strong desire to know if they talk about me when they are together, if they say that I am boring, but I still think about it! The two of them often call me when they go to dinner or shopping, and it seems to me that it would be better without me. Ziming also said: "Two people are boring, three people may be better." "I feel like I can't laugh or cry. One time he said he was bored again and asked me to come up with an idea, so I invited them to play in the mountains.

That time, Zi Xin walked in front, and as she walked, she suddenly screamed, "Snake", and hurriedly hugged Ziming behind. At this time I stepped forward, and sure enough, a two-inch thick snake sat cross-legged in the middle of the man-wide road, and the two of them came up carefully, and the snake's raised head shook at us, and its mouth was open and spit out.

"It seems that this place is quite dangerous, you still have to be careful, you have to look at the road when you walk. I said.

"Yes, if you step on it first and then see it, you will tremble when you feel something soft and slippery under your feet. Ziming's description seemed to be deliberately scaring Zixin.

"Since we came here to play, this thrilling scene is also a harvest, especially Zixin's scream!

", I'll never come to the mountains again. ”

We walked around as we talked, without alarming the snake too much. As I walked, I thought about how many times I encountered snakes when I was a child, and I and other children were not scared to cry, and sometimes I would hit the snake with stones, but now that I have grown up, I am a little scared, and if I am alone, I am also very bold, and I have never thought that I will encounter any dangerous things, if that is the case, it must be safer if there are more people.

I walked over to Ziming and said, let's go down from there, there are still a pile of graves there! I pointed him in the direction, there was a lush greenery. Ziming said, "Okay!" We were deliberately scaring Zixin, and we thought it was fun. Zixin disagreed, she squatted down, reluctant to leave, and when she saw that we were really leaving, she chased after her, "You two are really bad enough." ”

"Who dares to come here alone at night?" Zi Xin asked.

I won't say it, I've been here many times, but if I say it, others will definitely think I'm bragging. There's no need to brag in front of Zixin, I also want to show them where there is a big cypress tree and where there are a few odd-shaped stones! I don't want them to think I'm different, they don't have that interest, they don't understand what I really feel inside. We walked quietly down the mountain, they didn't look at the tombstones erected here, and they didn't even think about the deceased lying here quietly, only the rows of straight street lamps under the mountain in their eyes, thinking that they could finally go back.

I often go up the mountain alone, and only the scenery of the mountain waits for me without hesitation, and it always makes me feel good here. One hot afternoon, I sat in the shadow of a large willow tree and looked at the lake in front of me, with its dry aquatic weeds, small fish swimming underneath, frogs sticking their heads out and retracting from time to time, and cicadas and frogs chirping. A gust of wind blew, and a few willow branches blew on me from the water, and some cool droplets of water were stained on my face and arms. I wrapped the wicker around my head, and it no longer tickled me on my face and neck. There is a large stone exposed from the water at a distance of one meter from the shore, the flat stone on the upper surface should be artificial, there is a circle of duckweed on the surrounding water surface, a gust of wind blows through the ripples, and the microwave bypasses the stone and converges in the back, if you don't look closely, it seems that the stone is shaking with the duckweed. I stood on the stone with one step, I squatted down and gently picked up the duckweed to see my own reflection, I was really sorry, this move inadvertently scared away a group of small fish that were roosting, and along the direction of the small fish's swimming, I saw some plastic garbage floating not far away, but it was really a bad sight, I secretly thought, if I lived around here, I would never do this, I seemed a little angry and went back to the willow tree.

I can talk to myself now, and even fantasize about the people of Iraq next to me, leaning against each other. I also wondered, why can't I meet a few more friends through Ziming, or can I also meet a few friends through Zixin? Ziming said that he used to have a girlfriend, and he was also very miserable after the breakup, was that comforting me? Now he fell in love with Zixin because of loneliness, so doesn't he love her? I even thought that if they really loved each other, Li Qing would be able to live with her every day. In fact, I have long understood that the more I want, the more I can't get it, for example, if a girl is willing to fall in love with me, I can't even think of what I want, but now I don't. The first word that comes to my mind when I think of romance is walking. Did he only let me have a tryst with nature here, and only kept my heart pure in my heart? I longed to speak to God once and for all, and his kind voice came from the wind.

In fact, the relationship between the two of them is not as beautiful as I imagined, some small things are noisy, each has a little temper, and then reconciles for some small things. Zixin sometimes told me about the little things between them, and Ziming sometimes confided in me, saying that there were gains and losses, and his life was not as free as before. I know that the entanglement between them has nothing to do with me, and I think that two people in love probably shouldn't quarrel, and if I had a lover, I would definitely do better than them!

Approaching graduation, Ziming has three places to go, joining the army, taking the civil service exam, and entering a good state-owned enterprise, all of which are my dreams. I just want to see if there is a result between him and Zixin, and he goes on to say that he and Zixin are about to break up, and the two of them seem to be fulfilling a contract that is about to expire. The time in college can't be used to accumulate feelings, maybe from the beginning of falling in love, it's counting down. At school, I often hear about who broke up with whom, and I'm glad I don't have to bear this sentimentality.

I thought he was facing graduation and broke up, hating him, in fact, his family was involved in a lawsuit, he was no longer a rich kid, but Li Qing was still thinking about her, I also sympathized with Li Qing, she said that she also knew that he had a boyfriend. That's what I heard on the train. I never said I loved her.

Every recent graduate is the same, they are all vibrant, radiant, and want to face a challenge on a sunny day. We don't want to study anymore, we want to realize our dreams through our own labor practice, and the society does not recognize the hairy boy who has just come out of school from the beginning. At the beginning, we used hearsay knowledge to face the curious world, and most of the students did not realize the fierce competition in society, and if we talked about ideals, it was definitely not a part-time job, but a great career. I have known for a long time that there are as many worlds as there are people, and this should only make us realize our ignorance, and I also know that because of my weak character, I will have to live a life of emaciation, and I will know better that I will live my life in doubt. Because I have seen some ugly phenomena in society by chance, but I do not deny the beauty of society because of this, so I do not deliberately force myself to be perfect, knowing that it does not affect my cultivation too much. There are also a few students who do not do their jobs properly and go astray, they continue to change their beliefs after being disappointed, and after being hit, they give up on themselves and fall into a slump.