Shi Jing looked at her indifferently, nodded, and said, "You can leave, our cooperation will be terminated." ”

She guessed right.

Si Qi wanted to laugh a little, but before the smile appeared on her face, it was replaced by complicated sadness, and there was a tingling pain in her chest, she found that the eyes of the indifferent and alienated person were full of bloodshots, the eyes twitched slightly, the hands resting on the table had already been clenched into fists, and the green tendons on the back of the thin hands were bursting out, as if she was desperately suppressing the complex fluctuations in her heart, from these few words, she felt the trembling soul under the pretense of calm and indifference, which was probably the last pride and kindness in his soul.

"But I just left the room the day before yesterday. She looked at him calmly, her voice was relaxed and smiling: "You don't want me to take my son to the streets, do you?" Xiaojun treats you as a father, he has never had a father, he has always looked forward to it, and now that he finally has you, you can't let him suddenly lose again, it doesn't seem fair to him. ”

At the critical moment, his son had to take the lead.

Shi Jing's indifferent expression froze instantly, his lips trembled for a long time and he didn't say half a word, he didn't seem to know what to say next.

Si Qi casually stuffed a shrimp into his mouth, swallowed it slowly, and said with a smile: "Since what you said is so miserable, I will also say something tragic to make you happy." ”

Shi Jing was speechless, but the expression on his face was a little weird, like he was expecting something, and it seemed like he was rejecting, in short, it was very complicated.

Si Qi put down the chopsticks, got up and brought two cups of warm water, then took a deep breath, and said: "My mother said that I have been very smart since I was a child, and I can dance to the TV program as soon as I learn to walk, and I dance well, at that time I had a cousin who was a teacher in the county kindergarten, she said that I have a talent for dancing, my parents resolutely took me to the county kindergarten and enrolled me in a dance class, maybe I am indeed quite talented, I have won a lot of awards since I was a child, and I can win several trophies from the county, city and province almost every year." ”

"Our town is relatively remote, it is difficult to find me such a person who can be on TV, it was a sensation in the town back then, my parents have always been proud of me, take good care of me, regard it as a treasure, never let me suffer a little, probably since I was a child, I have not experienced any setbacks, and the success is too smooth, so I have developed a character that I am too self-conscious, I don't know the fireworks in the world, I always feel that difficulties and setbacks are not important, as long as I work hard, the world will be at my feet. ”

"At that time, I was naïve, very brave, and very enthusiastic, like a little sun, everyone liked me, I could get along with everyone, and I was the most noticed wherever I went. ”

Shi Jing listened silently, he sat there, his expression was flat, like an outsider, his whole body was filled with indifference, just like when they met for the first time, but in the depths of his heart that no one could see, he was trembling, his soul trembled, and the darkness was boiling and rolling in his blood, wanting to find an exit, occupy the mountain as the king, and become the master of his life and destiny again.

He probably understood what Si Qi wanted to say, he had wanted to know about her past countless times, but he didn't expect to be said by her at this time, he couldn't help but listen carefully, for fear of missing half a point.

"Later, I was admitted to a very famous dance academy, became the top student in the department, often represented the department, on behalf of the school to participate in competitions, the university years were the peak of my life, it can be said that the sky, the scenery is infinite, the school, teachers respect me, classmates and friends support and worship me, my life seems to have suddenly reached the peak, at that time there was even a director who wanted me to make movies, but I only like to dance, so I refused. Si Qi's pupils contracted slightly, and he looked into the warm water in the cup.

"It was at this time that I met a boy, he was a student at the school next door to us, a very good boy, only a year older than me, he almost fulfilled all my fantasies about men since I was a child, gentle, considerate, handsome, knowledgeable, funny and loving, I only took four months from liking to loving him, and at that time I even had planned where we would travel when we were old. ”

It turns out that her ideal man is like this, and yes, the flowers that have grown in the sun since childhood must be full of anticipation of the light.

If, if he had met her before the age of 17, he might have been able to meet her requirements.

If they had known each other at that time, would they have crossed paths?

Shi Jing thought desperately and regretfully, but it was a pity that they couldn't meet at the right time.

Si Qi glanced at him, and the smile that she barely maintained was finally a little torn, she pinched her eyebrows, and said self-deprecatingly: " Probably too confident and naïve, I firmly believe that I will be the most important person in his life, in this world except me, he will not have a better choice, so I treat him as a person to spend his life with, his mother is often sick, I will take my scholarship and living expenses to him to send home, summer vacation and his mother to the city where we go to school, everywhere to seek medical treatment for his mother, at that time he was also very good to me, will spend half a year embroidering my favorite flowers, in the middle of the night three watch walk 10 kilometers for me to pack my favorite cakes, for a while I fell in love with the wild camping, he did not hesitate to accompany me, but was bitten by a snake, almost died。 ”

"At that time, everyone envied our love, calling us a match made in heaven, the benchmark of love in the world, at that time I felt as if I had the whole world, even the career of the day was placed behind him, when we graduated, his mother was terminally ill, I took the graduation certificate, and went to that far away city with him non-stop, his mother was critically ill and urgently needed a large amount of surgery fees, I gave him all my savings and the money I borrowed from my parents..." Si Qi seemed to be a little speechless, she smiled bitterly, got up and said, "I'm sorry, I'll leave first." ”

She rushed into the kitchen in three or two steps, took a can of beer out, opened it and took a big sip, maybe it was the reopening of the old wound that made her mood swing a little, anyway, after two sips of wine, her face soon began to change color.

Shi Jing's lips moved, as if he wanted to say something, but he finally closed his mouth and continued to be silent nervously and impatiently, he desperately wanted to know what she had loved, the man she had loved, and everything he wanted to know about her past.

"When his mother had surgery, a woman suddenly appeared, holding a seven or eight-month-old child to him, I learned that the gentle, kind, honest and sparse boyfriend actually had a girlfriend who had been engaged since childhood, and the two began to fall in love since junior high school, and the woman even gave birth to a son unmarried. Si Qi twisted the beer bottle and asked with a smile: "Isn't it bloody, ridiculous?"

Shi Jing finally couldn't help but open his mouth: "What happened later?"

"Later?" Si Qi's eyes flashed a dark cloud, but soon dispersed, she shrugged her shoulders and said, "Inexplicably, she was inexplicably killed by the junior, I was deceived by my beloved, he not only cheated on my feelings, but also cheated me out of my money, at that moment I felt that it was dark, my mentality collapsed, and I even thought about jumping from the roof of the hospital, I have never been so painful, I want to die every day, what is even more terrible is that he suddenly ran away with the woman and the child, and sold the family house, even the seriously ill mother ignored it, and let the mother die in the hospital in despair. ”

Shi Jing was a little surprised, he had imagined many reasons why she broke up with Xiaojun's father, but he never thought that it would be like this, is this something that a primate can do?

"I didn't expect that the man I loved for three years turned out to be this kind of person, which hit me harder than being deceived, I even began to doubt myself, the original three views were broken into slag, and then I went back to school, but suddenly someone reported to the school that I was a junior and destroyed other people's families, and even someone distorted these things and posted them on the Internet, and there were tens of thousands of comments in three days, all of which were abusive, ridiculed, scolded me for being shameless, scolded me for being a junior, kept calling my mobile phone day and night, texting, and even called my parents' house, and the school ordered me to drop out of school in order to calm the turmoil, because the impact was too great, and many competitions took back my trophies. Si Qi looked at the beer blankly: "I believe you can understand my feelings at the time, I went back to my hometown after being dropped out of school, but the Internet is developing rapidly, and all kinds of news are being added to the vinegar and spread everywhere, my parents can't stand the blow, so I had to leave and come to Jincheng." ”

Shi Jing looked at her deeply, and he saw Si Qi's red eyes and the tears that kept rolling down, as if they were dripping directly on the rotten wound on his chest, tearing out the pain like burning his bones.

Being deceived by his loved ones, being subjected to online violence, being forced to drop out of school, and his thriving career was suddenly broken, and he was kicked from the peak of reality to the bottomless black hole, and his running life was forced to be broken, he knew this feeling too well, Beijing Dance Academy, which is almost the best dance school in China, has produced countless famous dancers and actors, and he can imagine how good she was at that time.

Who was the person who suddenly reported her? Was it the unfortunate ex-boyfriend, or was it her classmates and friends who got along with her day and night? If she wasn't someone close to her and closest friends, how would she know about these things, and how would she know that she reported and posted to smear her, as for why she did this, it was nothing more than fame and fortune, but she didn't say it, he didn't dare to ask, and he couldn't bear to ask, he was engaged in the Internet industry, and seven years ago, it was no accident that tens of thousands of people commented in three days.

Just betrayed by her lover, she was immediately betrayed by her classmates and friends, this double blow is enough to crush most people, not to mention that she has never encountered a setback at all, she has been protected too well since she was a child, the more so, the easier it is to be hurt.

"I began to sleep day and night, anxious, sensitive, inferior, depressed, slowly developed to the point that I dare not get along with others, even if I answer the phone, I will feel psychologically uncomfortable, cold sweat all over my body, muscle pain makes me want to cut off the flesh with a knife, I went to see a psychiatrist, took a lot of medicine, and even a doctor recommended that I go to the hospital, but I have to take care of Xiaojun, I can't let myself die in the dark. ”

By the way, there is also Xiaojun, Shi Jing looked at her, and for a moment he wanted to ask, where did she give birth to Xiaojun?

Si Qi took another sip of wine, lay on the table, and said with a smile: "I began to force myself to take Xiaojun to sit in a crowded place, and when I couldn't stand it, I pinched myself with my fingernails, I went to learn how to communicate with strangers, how to maintain a long-term relationship with people, I worked hard for a long time, these symptoms were slowly overcome by me, I stopped the medicine, did a check-up, the doctor said that the recovery was very good, and then I went to look for a job, and it was not until I worked in Hongwen Kindergarten for a year that I found out what my problem was." ”