I didn't make it down the stairs, and I started to feel weak. The lower abdomen twitched, and he couldn't open his legs. Slight pacing is fine, normal walking is completely impossible. I didn't expect the recovery to be so slow. After that day, I didn't dare to look at my body, I hurriedly put on my clothes when I changed, and I never looked in the mirror when I washed. Still, I can imagine the erosion of the wounds, the scars that have not healed, and they remind me of what I am like to remain in this world in between every movement.

Zhao Yilun squatted down, patted his shoulder, and looked back at me: "Come up." ”

I didn't move.

"The hibiscus flowers are blooming, don't you want to go outside and have a look?"

My body instinctively resisted all physical contact, and I didn't have the courage to lean in.

"I heard that the bloom is so beautiful, there are always bear children to fold flowers, if you look at it tomorrow, maybe there will be nothing. ”

I said in a hoarse voice, "I can't walk." ”

"Then I'll go and tell the uncle who looks at the flower pond that if someone comes to fold the flowers, the fine will be doubled. ”

"Why should he listen to you?"

"Because you haven't seen it yet. ”

It seems that he can't find any good words to say either. I promised to go out, because it was raining lightly outside, and he took my coat for me, thinking that if I carried it on my back, it would inevitably hurt the wound, so I carried it out.

At night, the hospital is in the time of rest, and there are fewer people than during the day. But every now and then, there are still people looking over to us. It was dark outside, and as soon as I went out, it was as if I was in the dark world, and it was so laborious to see everything.

I tried not to lean on his shoulder, my body was tense, as uncomfortable as an insect and an ant.

"Zhao Yilun, at night, I can't see anything. ”

"Then we'll come out tomorrow during the day. ”

"Daytime ......"

"Well, during the day. ”

Lying, how can he come out during the day? Zuo is just a set of rhetoric to coax me not to get too excited.

We sat down on the bench, but he wouldn't let go of me, it was damp, he explained.

By the faint light, he looked around, and did not find the park he had been talking about all day, and naturally there were no hibiscus flowers. But the feeling of helplessness in the shackles was much less, and the mind calmed down and didn't think too much.

"In the morning, I called and said that the case had been filed. He suddenly spoke, I was stunned, what I had been waiting for finally had an answer, excitedly grabbed his clothes and asked, "That person is also awake, right?"

"Yes, the case has been filed. ”

The case was filed, and there were only three words, which made me breathe a sigh of relief, and then I was vigilant: "Did he really wake up?"

"Don't worry, I'm here. Zhao Yilun patted me on the back, he knew what I was going to say.

If that person woke up, he would have taken revenge......

"When will you be able to prosecute?"

Soon, he couldn't escape. The police are already watching. ”

"That's good, that's good......" I thought to myself, imagining what kind of clothes I should wear, what kind of demeanor, what kind of words I should say to send that man to hell on the day I can bring him to justice.

Suddenly, a pair of hands held my face, Zhao Yilun's facial features blurred in the dark night, I held my breath and forced myself to calm down.

As it turned out, I had thought about him, but it had become a deterioration for me.

"Stay with me, doesn't it matter if Lin Weisheng stays with me?"

"As I said, you don't have to feel that I am pitiful to stay, it is not my fault to let this happen, and it has nothing to do with you. ”

"No, I'm too stupid to trust him. ”

"If you really feel like you're going straight away, wait until I'm discharged from the hospital, and then you can leave. ”

"Suke, listen to me. I was about to go on, but he interrupted me, and his tone became heavy, "Do you remember, when we first met, I asked you what popular people were, and you said that popular people are beautiful, can speak, and can handle anything. ”

"You said you weren't popular, and I silently responded to you in my heart, and neither was I. But I can see that we're all trying to fit into the world. ”

"I'm not a very expressive person, and sometimes it doesn't seem like that's what I think about someone's feelings, but that's not what I think in my heart. I just want to put everything I think is good for that person in a way that might not be very acceptable to the other person. ”

"I'll admit that I didn't take it very seriously when we started, just to escape the past and let myself find something to do or find someone to do anything...... I feel like I've been stuck in it for too long. Desperate for someone to pull me along. ”

"But now, I stay, definitely not because I am afraid of being condemned for being irresponsible to leave you at this time, but simply because it is you, I want to stay. ”

“…… It's my fault that I failed to empathize with you and protect you for such an experience. It's not my fault, it's my fault, it's my failure to take care of you, it's me who hasn't done my part. ”

"I can't express, and I'm not very good at speaking, you always say I'm straight, I'm afraid that I will make you more uncomfortable if I say the wrong thing, but I'm also afraid that if you don't speak, you will think more, and you will feel as if I was kidnapped by your morality. So I'm going to say everything I can think of today. ”

"Sometimes I can also find that you like to be strong, remember when I said, you can rely on me a little more, this sentence always counts. ”

"I don't know if I'm right or not, but it's all something I keep in my heart, and I want you to hear it. ”

His words were like a slight undercurrent of heat breaking through the shackles and flowing into the realm that no one could set foot in the depths of my heart. There, I spied into the lonely self that I had forgotten deep inside.

I didn't complain about why he didn't say it earlier, and there wouldn't have been so many misunderstandings. I only thought of one question, the Su Ke he could accept, now I can't accept it.

She had been thrown into filth, and after being eroded by nightmares, it was not only her body that was dirty, but also her soul.

“…… Thank you, Yilun Zhao. ”

I don't know what to say to him other than that. But what I know is that if this hadn't happened, we would have been almost separated. Whether he was leaving because he was just going to be with me, or if there were other unspeakable secrets, we were all going to be separated.

He can't stand still because of me. Of course, it sounds like I'm making a perfect excuse for not being able to face myself. He can't stand still because of me.