The next week was spent in the hospital, living in a state of confusion, suffering every day, and the only thing I was looking forward to was when the case would be filed, and when the lawsuit would be filed against the beast.

Anything else, something that has nothing to do with it, I don't dare to expect anything anymore. But I seem to have forgotten someone. I didn't expect her to come to me again.

Just because I don't expect anything from others doesn't mean they won't expect from me.

When Zhao Yilun went to pay the fee, the door was gently pushed open, I thought he forgot to take something, didn't ask anything, and waited for him to get it before going out. I haven't said a word to him since that indecent argument that day.

The man who came in stood by the bed, not saying a word, and I sat up vigilantly, relieving myself a little, but my back was still cold.

"What are you doing here?" After asking these five words, I didn't know what to do for a moment.

My mom just stood there with tired eyes, my stomach churning and the acid water pouring up. The fact that it feels ridiculous to say it has come to our heads, she and I have slept with, tortured, and ** by the same man.

When I saw her, I couldn't help but think about it, this thought that made my stomach turn upside down burned my mind, and my tinnitus hit, and I tried my best to distinguish her deep voice, her lifeless face.

“...... Can you reconcile, I know he hurt you, but this family can't live without him, he still has to make money to treat your brother. ”

"Mom has never begged you for anything, just this time, okay?"

"Just this time, you promised, I can do anything......"

Every word she uttered was thrust into all parts of my body with a sharp blade, and I couldn't help but retch, my abdomen twitched, and she came and slapped me on the back, and I grabbed her hand, and when I looked at her, even the last bit of hope for her turned to ashes.

"You know he hurt me, why didn't the first thing you say when you came in asked me if I was okay?"

"Don't get excited, don't tear the wound!"

"Do you know what he did to me?"

"He hit you, I heard"

"What do you mean he hit me, I'd rather he just hit me!"

"Don't get excited, do it first, first-"

I can't imagine that people who have waited for fourteen years ...... What the hell have I been waiting for, didn't I say that everything is the best arrangement, this is what was given to me, the so-called best arrangement......

It's a good thing she doesn't know, what I've been through, and if she knew, she would have collapsed. Who was the first person she thought of? Was she sorry for me, or was she worried about herself?

"Mom, I just want to ask you, why didn't you care about me first? What did I do wrong, why didn't you care about me first?"

"It really hurts, you know? It really hurts, why don't you care about me first?"

"I owe you so much. She burst into tears, but she still didn't see me.

"Xiao Ke, can we forgive him, after all, he is Huihui's father, if you send him in, his previous ugly things will be shaken out. ”

I paused, grievances, nowhere to confide, I could let it out. In the past, when I was wronged and uncomfortable, I would think about her, when she would appear, and think about her...... Just thinking about her makes me feel better.

So, who else can I rely on now?

"Why, didn't you ask first, did I have a problem?" I asked her calmly, word for word.

There was only an insignificant glimmer of darkness in her eyes, and there was a hint of cunning in that light. I followed the light, traced back to the summer of more than ten years ago, and I saw what I thought was the gentle, kindest, and most beautiful woman in the world, standing in the endless sea of flowers and saying to me: "Grandma's peacock grass is the most beautiful, and no one can compare to it." ”

The woman I thought was the gentleest, kindest, and most beautiful woman in the world, in the summer of my twentieth year, was reduced to pieces and scattered among the flowers, and in her place was a man with a filthy face, who said to me over and over again, "You are not at fault." ”

I took a deep breath and said to her, "I've always wanted to see you before, and I'll ...... In the future, I never want to see each other again. ”

"You promised what I just said"

"What did I promise you!"

I yelled at her and pushed her out the door like crazy.

The room was quiet again, and I sat down on the edge of my bed and turned on the TV, where a famous talk show was playing. There was laughter on the TV from time to time, and I tried to get myself into the atmosphere.

I've got to find something to do, I've got to get in the way of something, so that I can slow down a little bit, so that I can connect the only broken string, let me tell myself that I can still live.

I failed to get into the so-called joyful atmosphere that I had created for myself, and was pulled back by the nurse's screams.

"Why, my arm is swollen like this!"

She hurriedly took a new hospital gown, disinfected and pricked the needle again, and instructed: "Remember to wear shoes next time you get out of bed, don't run around, what do you see on your arms?"

Zhao Yilun came in with a pile of slips and complained like the nurse: "Why don't you wear shoes?"

"I don't want to wear it. ”

"That's, that's it. ”

He squatted down, grabbed my ankles with both hands, followed my gaze, stopped on the TV, and said with some joy: "Watching TV, you like to watch comedy so much?"

"It's fine. ”

"It's not easy, finally willing to talk to me?"

"I want to go out and walk around. ”

I also want to be a selfish person who doesn't care about anyone's feelings and thoughts, and just lives casually. More precisely, I don't have the strength to care about anyone else. So, if he's not here, what does it have to do with me......

After the nurse cleaned up, Zhao Yilun clumsily combed my hair, probably because he was afraid of pulling my hair, and the braids were loose and loose, which made people very uncomfortable. He dismantled and recombed again, three or four times, until it was so unpleasant that he had to let his hair fall out.

"It might be a little hot, but at night, it should be better outside. ”

He ruffled my hair from my shoulders, compared it, and said with a smile, "It's much longer than when we first met, and at that time, we just got to the neck." ”

"yes, I don't remember. ”

"I just remember. When I learn how to tie my hair, I can't handle it just now, what kind of hairstyle do you like?"

"I don't know. ”

He sat down, saw me leaning to the side subconsciously, and immediately took the initiative to distance us. We waited quietly for the drip to be done before we went out for a walk.

By then, it would be dark outside.