In the middle of the night, I fell asleep in a panic, just a light sleep. If you move a little, you'll wake up. The lights in the house were irrelevant, and since I came back, I have been afraid of the dark, and when I close my eyes, I seem to be able to hear my own pleas and screams that day.

So I didn't dare to turn off the lights, let alone fall asleep. It has always been the body that is dominated by sleepiness, and it can only fall asleep when it can no longer wake up.

The window moved twice, and I thought it was raining heavily, but after a while I realized that there was no rain outside at all.

My body tensed, like someone was strangling me with a rope, and I didn't dare to breathe, and I trembled with fear.

Then there was a knock on the window, and I caught a glimpse of a figure from the balcony. There is only one person I can think of, and that is the man who has been violent to me, and he seems to have come out again, and he said that he would not let me go, and he said that he would drink my blood and eat my flesh, and that even my bones would be burned to slag...... He's coming for me, what should I do?

My head tingled and stinged, fear forced me not to open my eyes, reason forced me to see clearly whether it was the man or not, and if yes, what should I do?

Then go die. That's my first thought. I find it a bit too tiring to rely on lies like this. I want to take a break, even if it's at the cost of the rest of my life.

The window was still shaking violently, and I walked over and sat down on the floor.

The man outside the window called my name, and I could still hear it through the sound. By that time my nerves were out of order, I was screaming reflexively, and the windows stopped shaking.

"I didn't do anything wrong, please let me go, please!"

Hey...... don't you want to disappear from this world? Why do you still ...... Still saying such things?

But I couldn't control my emotions. I still want to live......

"Su Ke, it's me!"

I slumped up from the ground, my heart still pounding, and I saw my tear-stained face overlapping with Zhao Yilun in the window.

Maybe it was too carried away, so different from what I thought, I actually opened the window and let him in.

"What's the matter, open the door—"

My dad was screaming at the door outside, probably startling him by screaming too loudly.

“...... It's okay, it's really okay. That's it."

"What's wrong?"

"Had a nightmare. ”

A nightmare that I couldn't wake up from for a long time, no matter how much I struggled.

"Hey, blame you kid, I wasn't afraid of watching ghost movies when I was a child, why can I still be scared awake when I have nightmares?"

“...... I don't know. ”

"Go to bed early!"

“...... Good. ”

Outside the door was the sound of footsteps fading away, and it wasn't long before there was no movement. The room was silent, except for the sound of breathing, and the wind outside.

My legs were weak, and what lingered in my mind was the scene I had just imagined. I'm already scared of being like this just thinking about that person, and if I have the opportunity to meet him in the future, will I not even dare to look at him?

In fact, I was nowhere near as brave as I thought I was. I can only let myself be frightened by this fictional scene.

Zhao Yilun asked anxiously: "What's wrong, why are you crying, did I scare you?"

“...... It's not you, it's me who was scared by myself......"

He had the light on his back, and I couldn't see his face, I could only feel his outstretched hand, holding my hand, and soothing, "Put the knife down, it's me." ”

Fruit knife, ah, I just noticed that I was holding a fruit knife in my hand. It seems that not only the mouth, but even the body is unconsciously telling so honestly, I am afraid of death, I don't want to die.

It took a long time, barely calming down, and I began to face up to the 'we' that I and he were referring to.

"I said we don't fit anymore, I don't have feelings for you now. I repeated what I had just said to him without hesitation.

Zhao Yilun chuckled: "Your lying skills are really bad." ”

I don't know if I lied to him myself, or if I didn't want to frame him with lies at all, he always poked me easily.

I'm used to lying, but at the moment I'm most afraid of being exposed by him, so I can only change the subject and ask him why he came in this way.

He scratched his head and replied officially, "Tsk, that's not important. ”

"You came to scare me in the middle of the night and told me it didn't matter, didn't you have a bad brain?"

He replied curtly, "I want to see you, but I don't know what to do, so I ...... Learn online. ”

If it had been before, I would have laughed at him for being stupid. Now too, very stupid, doesn't he know that the wall tiles laid from the first floor to the second floor are slippery, and if he is not careful, he will fall down? Doesn't he know that he has to catch a cold to find a place to shelter from the rain on a rainy day......? Yes, he was a sick man.

So how did he find it here? Did he have an onset of porphyria?

"It's really not pretty, it scares you, sorry. ”

"Online learning...... You've watched too many movies, do you know that if you don't grasp it steadily, you will at least break a bone if you fall from the second floor?"

"Not next time, I promise. ”

“...... There's no next time, so let's talk. ”

He took off his coat and it was wet, and his whole body was wet, and nothing was dry except for the hand that held my arm.

"I want to take a shower first, can you find me some clothes?"

Looking at his really indecent outfit, I relented. While he was taking a shower, he secretly went downstairs and took the pajamas that my brother had worn before, checked them, and fortunately they were still able to wear them.

He crept back into his room, all he could think about was what I was going to tell him in a moment. In front of him, I am not a good actor, and my acting skills are too clumsy. In other words, I am not fit to lie to him. Instead of consuming, it is better to tell the truth.

In fact, the truth seems to pierce people's hearts more than lies. My attitude towards him is not because I don't have feelings for him. To put it bluntly, it's because of distrust.

In the face of such me, he probably won't accept it. If I were him, I wouldn't accept such a Su Ke, after all, she hides even the most basic trust.

I opened the door and carefully closed it, for fear that my dad would hear about it and break in.

"Washed up. His voice was drenched in the water, indistinct, barely audible. A hand reached out from the bathroom, and I handed over the clothes, his hand skimming over my palm. Wet, with a hand of water.

Speaking of which, this isn't the first time we've spent time alone in a room. When we were together before, I would be awkward and embarrassed, but this time, there was really only awkwardness left, and a strange, uneasy emotion. But he seems to be very reassured, is it because he came?

The bathroom door was pushed open and he was wearing my brother's pajamas, which unexpectedly fit well.

There was a bell ringing on the balcony, and I looked up and saw that it was the wind.